I AM SO SORRY. I WAS MEANT TO UPDATE AGES AGO! I've been totally stressed out about school starting up again in like 2 days and I've been reading a lot of books lately and have started to do drawing because I found out Im actually good at it and it helps me in a way I can't really discribe.. not great excuses and I beg your forgiveness but I've been having family problems and honestly because I have to move inbetween houses so often I easily forget about my other priorities. So forgive me.

Anyway, for this chapter you guys decided on who Tris is with and I basically added up your reviews into points and yeah you'll see who won.

ALSO I AM SO SORRY. I should be updating on my other story, 'Sick of This' and I'm probably going to delete my third story, 'Different and Defeated' because no one seemms to like it... READ IT PLEASE.

Chapter 20
Tris' POV

My mind swirls as I thank Uriah and lead him out. I remember what he said clearly, and I know who I love.

I close the door behind Uriah and fish out my phone, texting Ryan a quick. 'Come over'. 30 minutes later Ryan is at my door and I'm inviting him in. My mood changing between dread and anticipation.

"Hey" he says after throwing himself down on the couch.

"Hello, er, we need to talk" I say glancing at him quickly then looking at the floor.

"About?" he asks, searching my face for an answer.

I brace myself for his reaction and speak, "Ryan I can't, I mean, we can't be together. You're my best friend and I'm sorry for leading you on its just, I love Tobias and I always have, and I need him and he needs me" I cast my eyes towards Ryan and see his expression. It's mixed with hurt and love, and something like he knew this would happen.

When he opens his mouth to speak I expect an argument, although it never comes, "Tris, I am just happy I know you, and if this is what you want then I respect that, you're my best friend" he smiles at me and I smile back. Even though I know his smile was full of hurt we laugh and talk about random things for the next hour, and I know everything is okay.

"Goodbye Tris, I have to leave for home tonight so, I'll see you soon" he gives me a quick hug then leaves.

Just then I get a text,

Tobias knows. Zeke loves Shauna, Tobias is coming to yours -Uriah

My mind starts to swirl again as I pace the front entrance. I wonder what he will say, what he will think. Uriah told him about Ryan and Zeke and Us and I just hope he still loves me, because it will break my heart if he doesn't.

Suddenly aware my throat is parched I walk to the kitchen and throw down three glasses of water. The doorbell rings as I refill the glass once more. Silently I place the glass on the counter and head over to the door. I pull it open and come face to fist. It doesn't hit me and holds the position as if it were going to knock on the door.

Hesitantly the fist is pulled back and I come face to face with an angry sad Tobias. He stands outside the door and makes no move to come in.

"I can't believe you would do this to me Tris" he says, his voice raw with emotion. I swallow and regret drinking the water now that tears threaten to spill over.

"I'm sorry Tobias, I realised I love you and I regret doing those things and I'm sorry" I whisper, hurt lacing my voice although I'm not the one who was hurt.

"Don't call me that, Tobias I mean. It's the name I let people call me when I truly trust them, and I don't trust you any more" he says slicing my heart in two. "I shouldn't love you any more, I won't love you any more" he watches me as I feel myself fall apart into nothingness. Tears spill over my cheeks and travel down my face as I now I have nothing any more. My family is gone, my friends are there but its hard to face them. His eyes are filled with hurt and anger, regret and betrayal. He is gone. He turns to walk away but I grab his wrist, letting my heart take over.

"Can I kiss you? Just one more time?" I whisper, my eyes lingering on his lips.

In answer he pulls me closer and cups my cheek with one of his hands while the other holds the small of my back. Then he bends down and joins his lips to mine. The kiss is a goodbye kiss, filled with hurt. Hurt, everything hurts lately. Then he pulls away from me, whispers goodbye and walks away. He doesn't look back, he just keeps walking, now three metres away from me. Four, five, six. I still feel a burning touch on my cheek where he cupped it. I don't want this to end, he's everything I've ever wanted and more and this can't end.

"Four! Wait!" I shout out to his retreating figure. I pray he will turn around, that his eyes will burn with passion and he will run to me and kiss me forcefully.

"Please!" I shout. He stops but he doesn't turn, doesn't let me see his face. I take a step towards him and as I do he turns, but his eyes are filled with hate.

HHAHAHAHA. Bad chapter wow I know, But I promise it will be better next time, also I won't post so much later nexxt time that was really bad of me. I'm going to come up with set days that I can post unless I don't have time or something, but I will need to see my school timetable first. Sugesstions? I promise this story will get interesting again soon.