I tried to enjoy my time out with my friends, but all I could do was worry about JJ. I wanted to believe that everything was going to go smoothly, but there were so many things that could go wrong. What if Will freaked out and wouldn't let her leave? What if he tried to hurt her? What if he tried to hurt both of us? What if...I didn't even want to think my last what if was possible.

What if JJ didn't really leave him?

JJ had promised me in the past that she would leave him. The first time had been right after our first time together. She'd told me she loved me...told me that she couldn't stay with Will. I'd believed her. The next day, she'd told me that she wasn't gay, and that the night before was a mistake. I had never felt so heartbroken...so betrayed by anyone in my life. Since then, she'd promised to leave Will so many times I'd lost count. I learned to just ignore her.. I knew it wasn't true, no matter how much we both wanted it to be.

The way she'd said it in the elevator, though, was different than all of the times before...at least, I was desperately hoping it was. JJ leaving me was more painful than either of us had anticipated, and I was sure JJ was sick of living a double life. I know I was. We still couldn't be open with everyone, but we could at least be together without feeling dirty.

I left the bar after a few hours of trying to pay attention. Morgan and Garcia understood, and just wished me luck and told me not to do anything stupid. I got in my car, and started driving towards JJ's house, not really sure what I was going to do when I got there. I just needed to know that she was alright and she'd be with me when the night was over.

I got to the house that she shared with Will, and I parked on the street. After a few minutes, I felt a little bit like an unsub waiting for a victim, so I drove away. I just drove, hoping that JJ would call me soon. I felt like I was going crazy. I was never the type to stalk outside of someone's house, and I was never the type to be the other woman, but JJ seemed to bring out the best and worst qualities in me.

My phone rang, and I snatched it off of my dash board and flipped it open. I didn't have to look at the caller ID. I knew it was her.

"Hey. You okay?" I asked.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just pick me up at my house, okay?" I could tell she'd been crying, and I could hear Will going on in the background. I couldn't tell what he was saying, but I'm sure it wasn't anything good.

"He didn't do anything to you, did he?" I needed to know if I was going to have to kill him when I got to the house.

"No, I just...I want this to be done."

"Who are you talking to?" I heard Will yell. "Is that the other man? Let me talk to him!"

"It's just Emily!" I heard her yell back at him. "Look, I'm gonna hang up. Just hurry, okay?" With that, she was gone. I couldn't help being extremely confused. What exactly had she told him if he still thought there was another man?

It didn't take me long to get to the house. When I got there, JJ walked out of the house, and Will wasn't far behind. I got out of the car, ready for a fight.

"JJ, don't you dare walk away from me!" Will yelled, trailing behind JJ. JJ ignored him and started loading her things into my car. Will kept walking toward her, so I stepped in between. "Move. This has nothing to do with you."

He really had no idea.

"Just back off, okay? She's leaving you. Get over it."

Will stepped closer to me. "I suppose she told you who she's running off to."

Right before I put him in his place, JJ grabbed my arm and got my attention. I looked her in the eyes, and my heart broke. This was clearly taking its tole on her, and the last thing she needed was for Will and I to cause a scene. I turned back to Will.

"I don't know what's going on. I'm just here to pick her up."

When he knew that he wasn't going to get anything out of me, he looked past me to JJ.

"You know, you're being so selfish right now! I moved my entire life out here to be with you! I lost my job to be here with you! I'm everything you said you wanted in a man and you're throwing it all away!" he yelled at her.

"I know," she said very simply.

"And your parents aren't gonna be happy about this, either! This is going to kill them! They still think that the next time they see you you'll have a ring on your finger! Now they won't have anything!" At the mention of her parents, I saw another tear escape JJ's eye.

"I know," she repeated. "I've thought about all that, Will. I just can't pretend anymore."

"Oh, don't give me that speech again, JJ. You don't know what you want. You're just running away from me because you're scared."

"No, Will. I ran to you because I was scared. There's nothing scary about being with you besides living without the person I care about the most."

"What, this other guy?" Will asked incredulously.

"Yes," JJ looked at me and smiled. "This is the only time I've felt like I was going after something that I wanted." JJ walked around to the passenger's side of my car. Before she got in, she looked over at Will and said barely loud enough to hear, "Besides, every once and a while, I have to stop thinking about every other person in the world and start thinking about myself." I couldn't have been more proud of her if I had tried.

Will looked furious. "You don't even know what you're talking about! Whatever your boy toy told you isn't true! This isn't what's best for you!"

"Back away from the car, LaMontagne," I yelled out the window. He took a step back, and I sped out of the driveway.

"Did you get all of your stuff?" I asked. JJ just shook her head. "Do you want me to get Morgan to pick it up for you?" JJ shook her head again. I wanted to push and ask her what had happened with Will, but I could still see the tear tracks down her face, and the tears still waiting to spill out of her eyes, so I stayed quiet for the rest of the car ride home. When we got to my apartment, JJ spoke up.

"I didn't tell Will about us...exactly," she said.

"I figured that much out," I replied.

"I just..." I saw another tear run down her cheek. "I don't want you to think I'm ashamed of you. I didn't know how to tell him. I mean, I was already breaking up with him for someone else...how could I tell him it was for a woman? How could I tell him the other person was you. He hates you."

I couldn't keep the smile off of my face. "I know he does."

She shook her head and went on. "I didn't want him to hurt you." Before I had a chance to interrupt her, she held her hand up to silence me. "I know you can take care of yourself, but I didn't even want him to try, okay?" She looked at her hands sitting in her lap. "Are you mad at me?"

I shook my head and hugged her. "I'm not mad. I get it. I mean, he'll find out eventually, and at least you left him. I'm just glad this is over."

JJ pulled away from me and we walked into my house. She'd insisted on sleeping in my bed with me that night. Not that I cared. I held her all night and felt more content than I had in a long time, but I couldn't stop a nagging thought that kept going through my mind.

This is far from over.

A/N: I thought about making this the end of the story, but I figured that would be cruel and unusual to leave it on a cliffie like that without resolving everything. I figure I've got more in me...if you guys want it.