AN: Hola sweeties, welcome back! Sorry for the little delay with updating. Things have been a bit busy with life. Also, I admit, I was slightly discouraged after reading some of the reviews I received from the last chapter. Wow, many of you don't like this Bella, lol. I can understand why though, but please try to keep an open mind for me, okay? Anyway, this chapter is sort of a filler one. But, it does contain some yummy sexy times! Hope you like, I'm afraid I'm rusty with my lemons. Alright, before you start reading, I want to thank you all for reading, following this story, and adding it to your favs. It means so much! Talk with you more at the end :)
***Disclaimer: All things Twilight are Stephenie Meyer's! However, this stories plot and characterizations are mine! L.K. 2013
***My beta is Serenshadow. All of my thanks for your awesome edits and for always supporting me!
***Please READ this warning before you continue on! This story contains the subject of infidelity. If you are NOT comfortable reading about it, then I am kindly suggesting you exit now! I am NOT forcing you to read this. For those of you are willing to give this a shot, thank you!***
If Only
Chapter 4: Reuniting
*"We lose ourselves in the things we love. We find ourselves there, too." –Kristin Martz*
**EPOV**
7:05 p.m.
I cut off the Volvo's engine and take a deep breath.
What am I doing here?
Gazing at her house timidly, I run my fingers through my hair.
I shouldn't do this… I shouldn't do this.
Irina is waiting for me. How can I do this to her?
Well, it's not like this is the first time you've done this to her.
Unfortunately, that is true. Bella and I have been having an affair for nearly over a year now. But what Bella and I have runs deep.
We have a lengthy, complicated, and passionate history together.
I exhale sharply and try to placate my racing heart, but to no avail. It would be a bold-faced lie if I said I didn't want the beautiful woman behind that door.
I missed her so damn much and I need her desperately.
I take another moment to pull myself together and then get out of the car. My heart pounds frantically against my ribs and my stomach twists in knots with every step I take.
She flings the door open the second I knock. She probably heard me drive up.
"Hi," I say, flashing my crooked smile she adores.
Oh Christ, she is wearing that blue satin bathrobe I love! I'm dying to remove it from her luscious body already.
Bella slams the door closed behind me, locks it, and slips my jacket off. Well, someone is eager to get this show on the road!
"About time." She mutters, expertly removing my tie, tossing it on the floor right next to my coat.
"Sorry beautiful, there was a shit load of traffic and-"
"Shh, stop talking. You're going to kill the mood." She grumbles and starts unbuckling my belt.
I don't really mind her taking the lead, but something about her behavior is clearly off. Normally, she greets me with an embrace and then kisses me as if she hasn't seen me in practically a decade. Normally, she gazes lovingly in my eyes and tells me how much she missed me.
Taking my hand in hers, Bella leads the way to the living room. I avoid looking at her wall of various photographs and keep my eyes on her. Soon, I'm sitting on the sofa with my pants tangled around my ankles and she's on her knees as she reaches for my hard length. Bella strokes it slowly with her soft hand and I hiss between clenched teeth.
"Bella, baby…hold on."
Dismissing me, she leans forward and gently licks around the head. Fuck! What was I going to say? I can't focus when she is…
Her mouth slides over my dick, taking in every inch possible and slowly pulls back out.
"Mmm, you always taste so fucking good, Cullen. Every time." She smiles in satisfaction with a look of lust in her browns. God, her eyes are beautiful.
I didn't realize how much I missed her, until now. Even though the last time we saw each other was about two months ago, it felt more like a century. Being away from her is torture of the worst kind. However, the separation almost seems worth it because each reunion we have is better than the last one.
"Bella," I sigh as her mouth devours my now very solid, throbbing cock. "What's going on?"
Bella groans exasperatedly and releases my dick with a noisy plop. "What does it look like, Edward? I'm blowing you."
I roll my eyes and breathe out in pleasure as her tongue glides up and down my shaft. "I'm well aware you are. What I meant was…I was asking about you. What's up with you? You seem-"
"I'm fine, Eddie. What's with all the questions? You're being a real mood killer. Didn't you miss me?"
She settles herself on my lap and I groan as her covered pussy rubs against my length just right.
Oh, I'm in heaven!
"Of course, I did. I'm just concerned, are you sure you're alright?" I give her a concerned gaze, but she's too occupied kissing my neck to notice.
Bella then swings her hips back and forth; creating such mind-blowing friction, my dick swells. Goddamn, I need to be buried deep inside her, now!
She nods her head and places frantic kisses down my throat. "I'm better now that you're here. Now shut up and take me."
I couldn't agree with her more. Things are better now that we're finally reunited.
I take a good, long look at her and my heart pounds excitedly against my chest. Licking my lips, I swiftly untie her robe and slip it off her. Jesus, she's unbelievably sexy! The matching bra and panties set she is wearing really accentuates her gorgeous curves.
I moan quietly as Bella's silky tongue licks around the shell of my ear. "Baby, this looks extremely sexy on you."
Gently, I tug on her hard nipples that are poking against the fabric of her bra with my fingers. "But, I'm afraid it has to come off now."
Bella chuckles in my ear, pulls away, and locks her eyes with mine. "Fine with me, Cullen. And while you're at it, feel free to remove this too." She glances down at her blue lacy panties and smirks mischievously.
"It would be my pleasure," I mutter and with the flick of my wrist, I unhook her bra.
My eyes darken in lust as Bella slowly removes the fabric with a seductive look on her face. Grabbing a fistful of her hair, I pull her face close to mine and attack her soft, full lips. She whines heavily in my mouth and it urges me to kiss her deeper and rougher.
Fuck, I can't enough of her!
Her tongue begs for entrance and I part my lips more, tangling my tongue with hers frantically.
Moments later, our clothes are scattered on the floor and our skin is lightly covered in sweat as Bella rocks her hips back and forth, fucking me hard and swift.
God, she is breathtaking in her state of arousal. The way her lips part as she whimpers and the look of ecstasy on her face is magnificent.
"You're so beautiful baby." I whisper, placing open-mouthed kisses across her collarbone.
"I feel beautiful when I'm with you, and loved, so loved." She gasps and sways her hips rougher.
"Good, my love. Because you are, you mean everything to me."
Shit, if she doesn't slow things down I'll release much sooner than I want to.
My eyes lock on hers as I wrap my lips over her pink nipple and suck it hungrily. "I love your tits, baby. There's so perfect, beautiful…"
I flick out my tongue and gently taste her left nipple. "Mmm, you taste so fucking good, beautiful."
Bella slaps her body against mine faster, her hot pussy wonderfully covering my dick repeatedly. Damn, she's so fucking tight!
Matching her rhythm, I motion my hips quickly and push inside her as deep as I can.
"Oh, oh…oh, god! Yes, Edward! Fuck, oh fuck!" she cries out and begins slowing her pace.
Soon, I feel the familiar pull in my lower abdomen, my release fast approaching. No, not yet, I need to be inside her for just a little longer.
"Bella, look at me." I command in a soft, aroused tone. "I want to see those pretty eyes."
Her eyelids open and I stare intently into those lovely pools of brown. "You are so damn sexy, my Isabella."
A light blush spreads over her cheeks as she circles her arms around my neck and kisses my lips fervidly. I stroke her walls steady and smoothly and then Bella's entrance clamps hard around my cock. She shudders uncontrollably as a powerful climax washes over her.
"Oh god, yes! Oh, Eddie! So good, feels so damn good." Bella groans and releases a second time as I pump in and out of her savagely.
"That's it beautiful… God, I love you so much."
"Me too, more than anyone else ever will." She mutters, easing her rocking and then collapses on top of me.
My mouth curves into a playful smirk as I throw her a ravenous gaze. "Oh, we're not finished yet, sweetheart. Climb off me and bend over on that side of the couch."
Bella's eyes cloud with desire as she nods her head and carefully stands up.
"Good girl," I praise, watching her with burning need as she bends over the couch and sticks out her backside just right.
Christ, she has such a sexy, perfect ass!
Bella turns her head around and looks at me pleadingly. "Please Edward, please."
"Please, what? What do you want, baby?" I admire her nice round ass a little longer, then stand up and position right in front of her.
Teasingly slow, I caress her rear with my hands and inch my way down to her drenched opening.
"I love your pretty pussy, my love." I whisper, taking my index finger and gliding it over her folds. Bella moans deeply and parts her thighs wider.
"Mmm, that's perfect. You are simply exquisite, my beautiful." I get down on my knees and stare at her glistening center before stroking her walls with two fingers.
Bella quivers wildly and buries her face against the sofa cushion. "Oh, Eddie, yes! Keep touching me…I'm so wet for you."
I rub her clit harder and grunt as my dick twitches painfully. I have to be back inside her very soon, before I explode!
Slowly, I insert my fingers knuckle deep inside her. "Touch you? I want to do more than that, Bella. I want to taste you."
Eagerly, I bury my face right between her parted legs and gently swipe her folds with my tongue. Bella's whimpering pushes me to fuck her pussy rougher with my fingers as I consume her wetness. Jesus, she tastes so sweet! Simultaneously, I lick, suck, and stroke her, relishing the way she's responding to me.
"Only I can make you feel this good, baby."
"Yes, only you, Eddie. Fuck, yes!" she bellows, her voice breathless and etched with desire.
Just as Bella's body convulsed, I quickly stand and position myself in front of her entrance. Then, without warning, I slam my cock all the way inside her. Bella screams in pleasure and I groan, aroused by her slick heat.
This time won't be gentle and sweet like how we usually make love. I just want to fuck her good and hard. I have a feeling that is what my beautiful woman desires as well.
"Oh Edward, fuck me! Fuck me, hard!" Bella chants as I firmly clutch onto her hips and thrust in and out of her fast.
As our bodies are uniting ardently, I lean over, inch my face closer to Bella's and tangle my lips with hers. We kiss until we're out of breath and then Bella climaxes again, her pussy juices coating over my dick.
"Fuck, oh Bella!" I moan and finally, I come. My entire body trembles in head-spinning rapture as I spill my seed deep within her walls.
After we calm down from our gratifying high, I delicately kiss Bella's lower back and she sighs in contentment.
"I love you." She gasps tenderly.
"I love you too my beautiful, forever. You will always have my heart."
Gingerly, I pull out of her and help Bella onto her feet. I wrap my biceps around her and gaze deeply at her face. She's positively glowing, her expression filled with love as her browns glisten in happiness.
Clearing her throat, Bella shakes her head and sighs. "Wow, that was, um…"
I laugh, nodding in agreement and pull her tighter to my chest. "Incredible, as always."
If only we could truly be together all the time, without having to hide. My heart clenches over the sad thought.
"Yea, incredible." Bella concurs and cups my face with her soft hands. "You are everything to me, Edward Anthony Cullen. You know that, don't you?"
I nod my head slowly as my throat tightens. "You're the reason my life is worth living."
Bella rises up on her tiptoes and brushes her lips warmly over mine. "Same here, Eddie."
***IO***
I love this part just as much as the lovemaking itself, holding Bella in my arms with her head resting on my chest. I wish this tender, blissful moment would last. Unfortunately, it won't. It can't.
Shortly, we will have to say our good-byes. Our time together is always too brief. A hard lump wedges in the middle of my throat and I swallow hard, fighting back tears. Exhaling slowly, I caress her smooth back with my fingertips. I commit the way she feels to my memory; it will be a while before we reunite again.
That's the way it has to be.
Carefully, Bella pulls away from my chest, gazing into my eyes. "I'm sorry about the way I acted before."
My brows furrow in concern as I study her face. "It's alright, baby. I was worried though. What was wrong?"
Bella shakes her head and sighs, "I just…had a stressful day. It doesn't matter now. I'm glad you came by, even though you have plans with Irina. Eddie, I'm sor-"
I place my finger against her lips, giving her a reassuring look. "Shh, it's alright. I wanted to be here, I missed you."
"I missed you too,"
Her lips meet mine for a gentle, tender kiss.
"I wish you could stay the night." Bella murmurs as she draws invisible circles across my chest.
I sigh somberly and place a light kiss on the top of her head. "So do I, but you know that's not possible. So, when are you expecting him to return home from work?"
Her fingers continue stroking my skin and a pleasant shiver glides down my spine. "He is out of town, actually. His plane lands in a couple of hours."
I roll my eyes and shake my head lividly. Of course, he's away on a business trip. Surprise, surprise.
As I'm about to make a snide comment, she firmly says, "I know what you're thinking, what you're about to say. Don't. Don't ruin the rest of our time together, please."
Me, ruin it? She's right though, I shouldn't have brought him up.
Frankly, I don't care to discuss him any further. This is our time, about us, only us.
Only us.
This moment might be a good time as any to…
Suddenly and without thinking twice, two words slip out of my lips.
"Marry me, Bella."
***IO***
AN: * Uses a pillow as a shield* Yes, another cliffy! Aren't I evil? Forgive me? So, um... yeah I am very sure most of you are thinking: Why Edward? How dumb is he to ask Bella to marry him when she is already married? Well, obviously, Edward wasn't thinking clearly, lol. Anyhow, you guys will find out more in the next chapter! I am sure, too, that most of you caught on that Edward didn't use a condom. In my mind and the way I planned this story out, Bella is on the pill. I didn't want Edward wearing one, that's it. Finally, I am sure all of you are itching to find out more about Edward and Bella's past. Given I left the flashback at a cliffy. The rest will be revealed in a couple of chapters from now, promise! Before I quit yacking, I wanted to share some good news! My story Turning Page is nominated in the Energize WIP Awards for Most Promising Twilight FF story! My beta Serenshadow is nominated too for Most Motivational Beta! Voting begins tomorrow and ends on Nov. 20th. Here's the site address: www dot energizewipawards dot blogspot dot com. I would appreciate your votes very much! Also be sure to vote for all of the other talented authors, betas, and reviewers who are nominated as well!
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