Hinata Hyuuga's Private Diary

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June 3rd, 1932

I can't believe we're already entering the Chuunin Exams! We've only been Genin for a few months and already we're going to be competing for not only promotion but to show off for our villages and countries! I'm so excited. Frightened, but excited.

We have met the basic requirements, completing several C-Rank missions and even one B-Rank (providing additional protection for Hanabi while she was doing a tour of Fire Country), and even Kurenai-sensei says that a Chuunin is just a Genin with common sense and a few decent jutsu, but even so, I am worried. Everyone will be watching us, and competing with us! I will be fighting and competing alongside, and potentially against Naruto Uzumaki.

Oh Naruto... Diary, I know I have written to you many times about my feelings regarding him, but I cannot help it. His strength and determination is so inspiring. His willingness to help me and believe I could succeed, even excel as a ninja, his beautiful shining hair and easy confidence... All draw me like a moth to a flame, Diary. I would confess my feelings, ask him to court me if I could, but alas Diary, I am... I am so very weak against him. Were I Queen of the World and in command of the mightiest armies and greatest wealth I would give it all up for him at a word.

It is really quite hopeless of me, Diary. I am only a woman, and he is a paragon of virtue, a shining beacon of hope and joy in my life. Unfortunately, he is also a cause of great sadness, embarassment, and... Well, frustration, Diary, of the sort I am not supposed to relate or explain in polite company.

Note to self: See if diaries count as polite company

No! No, I cannot blame him. It is not his fault he is everything a woman might wish for in a man, and that I cannot help but feel faint around him. It is entirely my own.

I was so embarassed when he greeted me, fresh from his mission and I... I fainted. It was horrible, though I suppose Naruto carrying me to the hospital to get a check up was rather nice... But that's not the point! I just fainted when I saw him! Usually it takes him brushing his hand against mine! He even suggested I wear a lighter jacket, thinking I had gotten heat stroke.

Note to self-Find thinner top

I had to reassure him several times that I was fine... I'm happy he was concerned for me but I don't want to be a damsel in distress. I do not wish to be dead weight. I want to be a ninja, a strong ninja, just like him. I do not want to be seen as weak or childish. Fainting merely at the sight of him will simply not do!

Neither will my stutter. No matter what I try, I cannot rid myself of it! I'm so much more articulate when I'm writing, Diary. If only I could create subtitles.

Note to self-Find subtitle jutsu if it exists

Shino says I am overreacting with worry again. He didn't seem to think that when I nearly cried after accidentally crushing a butterfly, but then Shino is very close to insects. He's also very... Well, I do not like to speak unkindly of him. He is one of my dearest friends, but he is very... Odd. His hobby of running about in that costume, stopping crime at night is very unusual. When I asked him about it he pretended he knew nothing about it, even when I told him (with a slightly raised voice) that I could see through his costume.

I gave up later and decided to let him to keep his secrets-As far as hobbies go, it is unusual but not harmful. We all have our eccentricities, I suppose.

Kiba was not as helpful as I had hoped. I had assumed that since he is more knowledgable about the relations between men and women than I am, he would provide a welcome insight into my relationship with Naruto. Kiba suggested that I, what was it he said? "Shake my booty?" What does that even mean? Does he refer to shaking my family's wealth? What good would that do? Naruto has no interest in wealth alone.

Kiba's sister suggested I use my fainting as an excuse to press my bosom into Naruto's face. Or to touch him... The mere thought makes my cheeks turn bright red. She is so wonderfully shameless, Hana-Running around in a catsuit to tease Shino when he is in costume. Their dance and flirting would be quite the scandal if revealed publically, but I doubt either would care. I envy that confidence, that ability to disregard the opinions of others so easily.

I also admire it greatly-Especially in Naruto.

Kurenai suggested that instead of worrying about what Naruto would think, I should only worry about doing my best. Showing confidence, or at least the appearance of confidence, would attract his attention. That, and I could not let down my team-What would Naruto think of me if I did?

Therefore, I resolve to try my absolute best, and not let anyone down during the exams. Not my family, not my team... And especially not Naruto.

Written by me.