Cracks in the concrete are just reminders,

That no matter how strong you are,

You still fall apart...

Chapter 6:

Izzy

I couldn't believe it he was talking to the giant wolf! Why would he put us in danger like that? It was going to eat us, I knew it. He turned to me smiling and started walking forwards with that thing following him. I walked backwards wanting to keep as much distance between me and that thing as possible.

"stay there Izzy, he wont hurt you, he's my friend." My mouth fell open in horror how could he be friends with a monster. As I was staring at the wolf I hadn't notice Embry walking forwards so that he was standing in front of me. He took my hand and gently pulled my hand forward.

"se-it. Good boy." He leaned over and ruffled the wolf fur when it sat down.

"its okay, you can touch his head." I leaned forward and put my hand on its head. It was so HOT.

"oh my god, is it sick?"

"no why do you ask?"

"its so hot! I mean it's the same temperature as… as you? Why is that?"

"um… no reason, I guess i'm just hot." He started wiggling his eyebrows at me and the wolf head butted him.

"ow, sorry man." Why was he talking to it like that, I mean its not like it was a human.

"he's kind of cute." The wolf pulled back its lips so that all its teeth were showing. I screamed and jumped back.

"its okay, he's just smiling." Embry said as he put his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I patted the wolf again. he reminded me of someone I know but I couldn't think who. It was annoying me it was on the tip of my tongue but I just couldn't think of it. The wolf turned its big head so that he was looking at me with his big dark brown eyes.

"his eyes… they sort of look like… never mind, you'll just think i'm crazy." Embry just laughed.

"I think its time for Mr. wolfy to go home." He nudged the wolf with his elbow, and it got up and ran away.

"where's it going?"

"home, I didn't want to share you with him for ever." He pulled me closer to him and kissed me with so much passion I didn't think it was possible. I gave in to him, I mean how could I deny him what he really wanted. We stayed there for a few more hours, not really talking that much. He drove me home on his bike and promised to come and see me tomorrow. I walked inside thinking about my day, and how much I loved it.

"Isabelle, get in here now. We need to talk." Oh shit! I forgot about my mom, it had been such a long day. I hadn't even remembered that I was in trouble.

I walked into the kitchen and sat down.

"Isabelle, what is happening to you these days?"

"what do you mean?"

"I mean the acting out."

"acting out?"

"yes the drinking, the smoking, the fighting, the boys?"

"what do you mean the boys?"
"well the two big Indian guys, that are way to old for you."

"you mean Seth and Embry?"

"yes those two." I couldn't help but laugh.

"mom, Seth is my age and he's just my friend, Embry is only two years older than me as well."

"really?"

"yes really."

"oh that's all right I suppose, but still the drinking and the smoking?"

"well you let me drink, and you can blame Mark for my smoking he's the one that brought them for me all the time."

"i'm going to kill him."

"okay, well can I go to my room now? I'm kind of tired."

"sure."

"does that mean were all good now mom?"

"of course honey, just don't do drugs or anything, and I would like you to quit smoking as well."

"wasn't planning to do drugs, and wanted to quit smoking anyway, so done and done."

"good, I will hold you to it." I went upstairs to my room and put some music on. I was glad that my mom and me were all good now. She just needed some time to cool down.

I fell asleep listening to a Paramore song.

I woke up and my clock said it was 4:23am, great. I got up and showered hoping it would kill some time. It didn't I got out and it was ten to five. I got something to eat and decided that I wanted to go for a walk. I left a note for my mother and started walking down the road. I didn't know where I was going but before I knew it, it was 8:00 and I was in La Push on the beach. I got a text from Sara saying that everyone was going to be meeting at the shop at 9:00, then we were all going to go to first beach and go swimming. I texted her and told her that I was keen and if I could borrow a bathing suit of hers as I couldn't find mine. I decided to stick around for a while, knowing that I wouldn't make it home in time anyway. I was wandering along the beach when I saw a couple that looked like they were going at it. I was shocked; it was early morning and anyone could be walking along here. The chick looked vaguely familiar though.

"Kiara, oh yeah baby that's good." oh my god it was my cousin! I didn't know she had a boyfriend.

"Kiara! What the fuck are you doing?" she sat up suddenly and spun around. She looked embarrassed and glowed bright red.

"Izzy, wh-what are you doing here?"

"I went for a walk this morning. You would be surprised at what I found."

"Izzy, please don't tell anyone about this, i'm begging you, well you can tell them about Collin but not about… what I was doing when you found us."

"ok I wont."

"oh thank god."

"hi collin, i'm Kiara's cousin Izzy."

"er… hi, um ki's I might go now, have fun." She kissed him goodbye and walked over to me with her head down. I forced her to tell me everything. It was all very interesting until she said something that didn't make sense.

"well he imprinted on me, so I knew I would like him."

"um imprinted… what's that?"

"you've never heard of imprinting?"

"no, can you explain please."

"its how a wol-person finds his soul mate."

"um ok then."

"you still don't get it do you?"

"no."

"ask Embry to explain it sometime, i'm sure hell tell you all about it, I mean it is a big part of their legends."

I was still thinking about that conversation when I got home that night, but forgot it completely when I saw who was sitting on my bed.

"Embry?" I whispered just to make sure my parents wouldn't hear me.

"your parents were going to seattle for a few days remember?"

"no, oh well I guess I know now. Uh… what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to see you. I missed you."

"Aww, I missed you too." I walked over to where he was sitting and kissed him. He put his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him. I groaned when he broke the kiss but was happy when he started kissing all down my neck and over my collarbone. I didn't like the height difference so I sat down on his lap so that I was straddling him, I pulled his lips back to mine and moaned quietly when I felt his tongue in my mouth. I dug my fingers into his scalp and deepened the kiss. I could fell him getting … excited. I was happy that I had that effect on him. Next thing I knew we were lying down, me still on top of him. I managed to get his shirt off him. As we were laying there I was rubbing my hands all over his glorious chest and stomach. He flipped swiftly, then leaned most of his weight over me, being careful not to crush me. His hand was making its way up my thigh, past my hip, over my stomach and it paused just before my breast. I knew he was hesitating because he didn't know how I would react. I grabbed his hand and moved up slightly, so it was resting on my breast. He started squeezing it gently and rubbing my nipple through my top. I moaned again, it felt so good. sure I had been with guys before but never like this. Never with so much love.

I brought his lips back to my mine, desperate to kiss him. His hands slid away from my breasts and down my sides. He hooked the edge of my top under his thumbs and started pulling it up slowly. I hooked my arms around his neck and pulled him as close as possible. He responded by crushing his lips to mine, his hands still making their way up my sides, my top coming with them. I shivered slightly with the feeling of his hot hands running over my bare skin.

"are you cold?" he murmured into my mouth

"of course not." I got tired of waiting for him to do it so I took my top off myself he sat there surprised for a second before realizing that I wanted him, and boy did I want him bad. I let my hands glide down his chest and over the edge of his jeans, so that I could feel his hard on. He moaned but grabbed my hand in his and pulled away.

"are you sure? I mean don't you want to take it slowly?"

"god no, I want you and I want you now."

"are you 100% sure?" he raised his eyebrows at me.

"oh honey, do you think this is my first time?" I asked with a smirk, I would have thought that he would know I had already had sex. I mean he had heard about most of my acting out, had he really not put two and two together?

"its not?" guess he hadn't.

"of course not, i've done this a hundred times."

"a hu-hundred?"

"figure of speech love."

"oh right. When? Who?"

"is this really the time?" I was starting to get annoyed now.

"I want to know."

I groaned and rolled out from under him. I picked my shirt up off the ground and put it on. Next thing he was behind me and grabbing my hand.

"tell me baby, I want to know."

"I don't want to talk about it."

"why not? You can share your feelings with me."

"ugh do you even have a dick?"

"wh-what do you mean?"

"well you're a nineteen year old guy who's girlfriend had just tried to have sex with him, and you stop her to talk about feelings? What the fuck?" I had no idea why I was so angry. I knew I had hurt him, it was obvious as his face hardened and he stepped backwards and sat on the bed. I felt a little guilty but not completely. I hadn't had sex in just over a month, and he was here teasing me all the time. I needed it, and I needed it fucking bad. I went downstairs to get a drink. I couldn't look at him sitting there like that, it was too painful, I thought he knew me well enough to know that I didn't like to talk about my feelings. I had been down there for five minutes when I heard someone step into the room. I turned around hoping to see Embry standing there, but it was just my stupid sister.

"what's wrong?" she asked in a concerned tone. She was never concerned about me, what happened?

"its… its Embry." I started sobbing and sunk to the ground. She came over and sat next to me putting her arms around me as she did so.

"what happened? I thought you guys were like crazy in love or whatever?"

"I thought so too but, we had a big fight and I think he hates me now."

"I do NOT hate you." I looked up to see him standing there looking angry with his shirt in his hand.

"I think you better leave now." Ellie stood up and ushered him out of the house, she came back and sat down next to me.

"what happened?" for once in my life I felt like I could trust her.

"well we were in my room, and I wanted to go all the way, but he stopped me to ask how many guys I had slept with. Then he asked about my feelings. I felt so rejected so I did what comes naturally to me."

"uh oh, you opened your mouth didn't you?"

"yeah, I was angry! Id just been rejected so in short I basically told him that he was a chick and that he didn't have a dick." I broke down crying again. she laughed and rubbed my shoulders with her hands.

"well I have to admit, it was a good one, but there's no doubt about it you hurt his man hood." I glared at her, for need of something to do. "well at least now it gives him an excuse to come crawling back trying to prove how much he loves you."

"you think? You think he really loves me?"

"of course he does, no matter how much Krystina wishes it weren't true. He loves you, its obvious." I cried for a while longer being thankful for once that I had my sister here.

I hadn't seen or heard from Embry for a few days. I was starting to get really nervous.

"hey Izzy, I heard you broke up with Embry. Too bad oh well guess he now knows that your just a whore ." I turned around to see Krystina smiling at me. I pulled the finger and went back to getting my things out of my locker.

"I have a song that best fits you, its called Newport living by cute is what we aim for." I just ignored her hoping that she would go away.

"You wana hear how it goes?"

In every circle of friends there's a whore,

The one who flirts and does a little more,

But who's to sa-ay, this is the social scene anyway,

And everybody wants to explore the new girl,

caught up in her own hard liquored world,

but liquor doesn't exist in my world…

"but the chorus is my favorite." She sneered.

…If you lie,

You are a sell ou,t but you couldn't do that right,

So the price that you've been slashed,

And now you're chilling on a half price clearance rack.

That's when I lost it, I launched my self at her, pinned her to the ground and started punching her in the face with all my strength. I noticed about three pairs of hands trying to get me off her. I clung on and kept punching, I heard a crunch, then a big pair of strong warm hands picked me up.

"my nose! You broke my nose you bitch! I'm going to kill you!!" Krystina was crying and blood was pouring from her nose. I couldn't help but feel satisfied with myself. Who ever it was that had picked me up was carrying me away, I didn't want to fight anymore so I just let myself fall limp.

"are you okay?" it was Seth. He put me down next to the wall. I hadn't realized that I couldn't feel my legs, so I dropped to the floor as soon as he had set me down. He sat down quietly next to me and put his arm around me.

"i… i… I don't know what came over me!" I cried and leaned into his shoulder.

"shh, its okay, you don't need to explain to me what happened. I heard her."

"you… you did?"

"yeah and it was nasty. I cant blame you for wanting to hit her. oh and just so you know Embry doesn't think you are a whore, he loves you." This caused me to go into hysterics.

"what did I say?"

"no-nothing, i-I just treated hi-him so badly, and he still tells you he lo-loves m-me."

"he does, it would have to be pretty major to have him stop loving you."

"really?"

"of course, now come on. I think we better get you home. You have some of Krystina's blood on you."

"oh great."

"by the way, who taught you to hit like that? It was awesome." I chuckled slightly remembering Mark teaching me how to defend my self against rapists and stuff. I was doing so well so he suggested I practice on someone. He hadn't thought that someone would be him. I ended up kneeing and kicking him in the crotch. He was down for about ten minutes before he could get up. It was the first and only time I had ever seen him cry. We laughed about it now, but back then he didn't find it amusing.

Next thing I knew I was at home and my mother was greeting me. I would have thought that she would tell me off, but she just said, "I heard you threw some pretty good punches, well done." Seth and I laughed.

I thanked him and he went off home.

I had six texts waiting for me when I checked my phone.

Izzy, oh my god you were amazing, she deserved it. I'm here if you need a tag team partner for next time. Steph

Izzy! I just heard you fought Krystina! Did you really break her nose? Sara

I'm going to kill you bitch! You broke my nose. It looks fucked now. Trust me you will get what you deserve! I will get you back! Krystina

Hey why was your mom congratulating you for starting a fight? I'm confused. Seth

Oh my god you broke Krystina's nose! Good on ya sis, don't tell anyone I said that though. I have a reputation to hold. Love ya! Ellie

Izzy, oh my god, are you alright? Did she hurt you? Why did you fight her? I'm so worried about you, can I come see you? Seth says hi btw. Embry.

I laughed at my texts, well all but the last. I wasn't worried about Krystina, I knew what ever she could deal I could take and beat the shit out of her in the process. I was confused about Embry's text though. I thought he was ignoring me? Why was he suddenly bombarding me with questions? I sent him a quick reply saying that I would be at the beach in an hour as I had plans to meet Sara and a few of the girls there.

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