Falling Into The Darkness
Chapter 7: Alone I Break
Previously~
Bellas' pov
"Bella, Bella?" I heard Char call from the door. I opened my eyes and it was light out. What the hell just happened? Was it all just a dream or was it real? Did I really kiss Jasper? My head started to hurt just trying to figure it out. It seemed so real, it had to be. I looked at my side table and didn't see my knife there so I looked to where I thought Jasper had pinned me to the wall. There was my knife, lying on the floor where I had dropped it last night. I touched my lips and they were swollen, I had the taste of honey on my tongue. I put my head in my hands trying to figure out what the fuck happened last night.
"Bella wake up now. I made you lunch since you slept through and missed breakfast" Char yelled through the door making me I groan at having to get up.
Jaspers' POV
I was sitting on a rock next to a steam a few miles away from the house, thinking about what I did last night.
*Flash to last night*
I had been ignoring Bella. I know it's not the most fucking mature thing to do but it would be better for everyone if I pretended she wasn't even there. But last night she pissed me off by saying I had a mental problem and it wouldn't have been so bad but the rage she was putting of seconds before she said it wasn't helping. I couldn't help the growl that came out, the smugness the came after it pissed me off even more. When she was off to bed and I was still worked up. I hated how she was making me hide in my own home, how she's taking the only family that's always been there for me. She took away my wife, now she was taking all I had left. The more I thought about it, the more Major fucking Whitlock, the 'God of War', wanted to come out to play. I finally broke and walked out of my room, passing Peter and Char curled up on the couch. As I passed, they turned to look at me.
"Be careful," He winked and smirked at me. Fucking smirked! I just turned my head and kept walking to her room.
I slipped though the door soundlessly and hid in a shadowed corner of her room, not really sure what I was gonna do. Somehow she knew I was there...She jumped off the bed, grabbed something off of her night stand and faced me. I knew she couldn't see me, and that probably freaked her out more than anything, but I wouldn't know since I still couldn't feel her. That only added to my emotion cocktail. A dark short chuckle escapes my lips.
"That was pretty quick for a human but you won't be needing that," I said in my dazzling voice. I didn't know what she had in her hand but I was sure she was going to use it to defend herself.
"What the fuck are you doing here? You can't just go barging into anyone's room whenever you want!" She hissed at me. There she goes again, thinking she owns the damn world. Well, that was about the change. I chuckled again.
"I can do anything I wish. It is my house," I said in the same tone I used with the newborns.
"What do you want?" She had dropped her voice so that it matched my tone. That really set me off. If she wasn't afraid of me now, she was about to be. I stalked toward her at vampire speed, than stopped when we were only inches apart. I felt something cold, sharp and cool on my neck and looked down; the bitch had put a fucking knife to my neck! How she knew how and where to put it beats me but it was fucking funny to think this human was trying to kill with a knife. I had to laugh at that and when I did she looked up at me.
"Nice move kitty but I don't think you can kill me with that tiny thing," I smirked while whispering in her ear.
"Why don't we find out?" she whispered and smirked back. Something else broke in me but I didn't know what it was.
"No thanks, I think I'll pass," I said and the next thing I knew, I had her pinned up against the wall. Her breathing was coming out in gasps as she looked at me with fire in her eyes. I knew she was going to say something, then somehow my lips where pressed to hers. What the fuck am I doing? Was she right? Do I have a mental problem? I came in here with the intention to scare the living shit out of her but instead I'm kissing her. I couldn't pull away. Her warmth was seeping into me and god was it addictive.
As I ran my tongue across her bottom lip, she opened her mouth to let me in. I slipped my tongue in. She tasted amazing like strawberries and cinnamon. I groaned into her mouth when I heard her moan. I don't think I've ever heard anything as good as that. I let go of her arms and they wound around my neck, her legs hooked around my waist and I settled my hands on her ass. I gave it a quick squeeze making her moan again and I mentally smirked.
I started moving, carrying her to the bed and set her down so I was hovering over her without breaking the kiss. I knew she would need to breathe, so I broke the kiss trailing wet kisses down her neck. I could feel the roughness of the bite mark that was there. She gasped when I slipped my hand under her shirt and drew soft patterns with my fingertips. I could feel some scars that I knew were bites and I wondered where else they covered her body. As she put her hands on either side of my head and tried to pull me back up, something clicked. I panicked and sent her a shit load of lethargy to make her pass out.
I threw myself off of the bed and closed my eyes. What the hell just happened? Why did I just kiss her? Why did I almost screw the person I hated most in this world? The person I so badly wanted to kill. I slowly opened my eyes and looked at her. She was sprawled out over the bed, her hair messy and her breathing slow and deep. I could still taste her on my tongue. I don't know how long I stood there watching her, but the sun started to rise and I knew I had to go.
*END FLASH*
And now, here I am cowering like some pansy ass. The thing I hate most in the world is feeling weak... I've only felt it a handful of times. That's what Bella did to me, she made me fell weak. I hated her for it, now more than ever because of what recently transpired between us.
I growled, hit the tree that was closest to me and ran my fingers trough my hair. Breathing deeply, trying to calm myself down. I figured that it was time to go home and clean up. I had hunted a few hours ago and when I'm in a bad mood I'm not the cleanest eater. I took running at full speed. When I got to the house I ran straight for my room, tore off my bloody cloths and jumped in the shower. I tried to clear my mind and relax but I could hear Char banging on Bella's door trying to wake her up to get her to eat something. I let out a frustrated hiss and then I was hit with a huge wave of confusion. It was coming from Bella. It changed into frustration then a hint of lust. She was probably trying to figure out what happened last night. I smirked at the thought of causing her the same emotions she was making me feel. I heard Bella as she slipped out of her room and headed to the kitchen. A few minutes later I heard her say she was going to get cleaned up. I figured I had been in the shower long enough so I turned if off hopped out and wrapped a towel around my waist. I threw on some jeans and lay down on my bed, closing my eyes and wishing I could sleep. I tried to think of anything but her but she just kept popping in and it was starting to piss me off. I tried to read a book but that didn't either; Bella was everywhere.
Someone knocked on my door, breaking me from my unwanted thoughts. As soon as I concentrated, I realized it was Peter. I slid off of my bed and opened the door. Peter was standing there, his head down and I felt his dread and anger seep into me.
"What's wrong Peter?" I almost growled.
"You…someone is at the door for you...well more like someone's plural," He said in a defeated tone.
I was confused, who the hell? I pushed passed him and ran to the door. I swung it open and let out a snarl.
"Hello Jasper."
Bellas' pov - picks up where her pov left off~
"Bella, get your ass out here now!" Char yelled again
"Fine! God I'm coming!" I yelled back.
I slid off the bed and walked to the kitchen. Char had made me some mac-n-cheese and hot dogs, my favorite. I ate it all up and told them I was going to get cleaned up. I slowly made my way upstairs to shower. It was quick since I didn't have the patience for much of anything right now. I threw on some jeans and t-shirt that Char gave me and started to walk down downstairs. I was not even a quarter of the way down when I heard the front door open, and then I heard a wild snarl. I didn't know who it came from but a second later there was a voice I hoped I would never hear again.
"Hello Jasper..." He said in the calm voice he always had.
I didn't stay to hear anything else. I ran back up the stairs and into my room. Slamming the door shut, I fell against it and slid down. I clamped my hands over my mouth and sobbed as quietly as 'humanly' possible. I needed to get out of here. He did this to me! He let me get settled and feel loved again, just to tear me apart all over again. He invited them here to torment me. But I wouldn't let him win; I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing me break.
There was a soft knock at my door. "Izzy? It's Peter; you need to let me in." He said softly. But I knew he was distressed. I got up and wiped away my tears, squared my shoulder and opened the door.
"Yes?" I asked in an emotionless voice.
"I'm sorry my sister, I tried to change it but I couldn't." He whispered softly. I was only a little confused. I knew of Peter's gift. He knew shit, so you just go with the flow.
"Everything you need is in here." He said while lifting up a duffel bag. "There is a garage right outside. There is an Audi in there for you; the keys are in the bag. Char is going to take you out that window, then you have to run to the rest of the way to the car. We will make a diversion so you can drive away." He said in a rush. It was a lot to take in but I knew what they were doing for me. They were helping me get away. I stretched up on my toes and kissed him on the cheek.
"Thank you Peter, my brother." I whispered. I started to walk toward Char who was down the hall, then I remembered something. I walked back inside my room and grabbed the knife I stole from the kitchen and tried to kill jasper with. It was still sitting where I dropped it last night. I pushed those memories back; it would hurt too much to think about that now.
I walked back in front of Peter and held it out.
"Give this to him, tell I won't need it next time and tell him to practice. I don't want it to be too easy." I said in a cold tone. Peter knew what I meant. Next time I came around I wouldn't be human, next time I'm coming for blood and I wasn't just coming for him. I was coming for every person that has ever hurt me.
"Get going we're running out of time." He said as he kissed my head. I walked to Char, who scooped me up and jumped out of the window. We landed and she put me down.
"Thank you for everything Char. I'm gonna miss you." I almost lost it as I kissed her cheek and walked away to the car.
"Be safe. I love you my sister." I heard her whisper. I was on my own yet again.
I ran the rest of the way to the garage and walked in the door that was open. Inside was beautiful silver Audi R8. I smiled. One of the perks of having rich vampires as friends, they have bad ass cars. I found the keys in a pocket of the duffel bag and unlocked it, slid in and threw the duffel bag in the passenger seat.
I turned the car on and peeled out. I was out of the driveway and headed to the highway. I knew I was about to break. I turned on the radio full blast, attempting to drown out all of my emotions.
Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I'm ready, heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be my own
I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone
Tears were streaming down my face. Oh, how true that song was. To get my mind somewhere else, I reached over to my duffel bag and opened it. There was a white folder on top with my name. Slowly, I opened it.
Departure out of: San Antonio TX
Time of departure: 4:06pm
I looked down at the clock, it was two o'clock. I had two hours to make the flight. It was about an hour and a half to the airport. Curiously, I looked at the destination.
Arrival Time: 3:00pm, next day
Location: Florence Italy
Song to the lyrics is: Alone I Break by Korn
Ok, ok. I'm sorry I know y'all probably hate me but you'll get over it, I mean what kind of story would it be if they just lived happily ever after? You will love me again that much I can promise!
Oh, and I have a beta! her name is tori722! She's amazing that's why this chapter sounded so good, so a huge thanks to her!
OMG 2,885 words not including this A/N! I told y'all they'd get longer!
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