Trying to forget someone you loved,

Is like trying to forget someone you never knew...

Izzy

I woke up shivering. It was so cold. I tried to sit up but couldn't move because I was wrapped in a thick blanket.

"Isabelle, don't move too much okay, i'm just going to check you over." Dr Cullen was holding me down and causing me to shudder with the cold coming from him. "well your fine, but I suggest not doing any strenuous exercise for a while."

"she wont be moving too much doc." Embry said walking into the room. I smiled when I saw him standing there with no shirt. He came to sit next to me and put his arm around my waist. I snuggled into his chest and relaxed.

"dr Cullen?"

"yes Isabelle?"

"Izzy. How's my sister?"

"she's doing well. Her injuries are healing quickly."

"is she…"

"hopefully she will come out of her coma within the next few days." I felt relieved.

"so what happened to me last night?"

"you had a panic attack."

"a panic. Attack."

"yes."

"I had a panic attack? I'm such a fucking wuss." I hid my head under the blanket and I could hear Embry and the doc laughing at me. "shut up."

"babe, your not a wuss."

"am too! I passed out because I was having a panic attack!"

"Isabelle, it was a very natural reaction. It was your body telling you to calm down."

"so … i'm a wuss."

"babe your not a wuss, you just freaked out. I mean you have a lot on your plate at the moment." I glared at him. "what." I continued glaring and he looked away. "what's wrong?"

"nothing."

"Izzy, what's wrong?" he raised his eyebrows at me.

"nothing. I just feel like i'm forgetting something."

"well when you remember, let me know." I thought about it for two days straight and I got nothing.

What the fuck was it?

"you thinking again?"

"yeah, how did you know?"

"you look pained." I threw the remote at him, which he caught easily. "Aww i'm just kidding."

"nope."

"nope what? C'mon Iz talk to me."

"that's it!" I jumped up excitedly.

"uh… what's it?"

"you were supposed to talk to me about what was going on that day."

"um… what day?" he looked confused. I don't blame him, I hardly ever make sense when I talk.

"the day you made me go to Emily's. you know… the day of my sisters accident."

"oh … shit."

"so you going to tell me?"

"you know how you're my imprint?" he asked nervously, looking down at the ground.

"… yeah …"

"well imprinting doesn't happen to everyone, just a small group of us."

"what, like just the Quileute's or whatever?"

"no. smaller. More like just my extended family."

"but why just your family? I mean, no offense or anything but why are you guys so special?"

"its part of our… condition."

"condition? You have a condition? Oh my god are you going to die on me?"

"no! of course not. the imprinting, the heat, the body, my brothers their all apart of it." I waited but he didn't say anything else. I cleared my throat.

"I know you will think i'm crazy, but just hear me out okay?"

"okay."

"well you know the day you went into the woods and Alice and blondie found you?"

"Rosalie, yeah. What about it?"

"I was there."

"no you weren't. I would know if you were there, I would have seen you."

"do you remember the wolves?" I don't think I had told him about the wolves. I nodded slowly.

"do you remember the grey one with the back specks?"

"yeah, he was my favorite. I didn't fell as threatened with him as I did with the other ones."

"well … your looking at him."

What! He looked at me weird; as if he as analyzing my emotions.

"scuse me?"

"Im the grey wolf."

"but your human."

"not really."

"so … you're a … werewolf?"

"yeah."

"holy shit!" my boyfriend was a gigantic wolf! He took a step towards me with one of his hands stretched out. I stepped backwards as well and smacked into the wall. He put his hands on my shoulders, I flinched and ran. I needed room to think.. I could hear him calling after me, but I didn't stop till I got home. I ran to my room locking the door behind me and rushed over to the windows to make sure they were shut tight and nobody could get through.

A werewolf?

This had to be a joke. Next thing he will be telling me Harry Potter is real. I must admit, it did kind of make sense; in a slightly demented way. It would have been why I wasn't as scared of the grey wolf. Why he was so huge, well him and all his brothers… shit! they were all wolves too. No! there's no such thing as werewolves. He was lying to me. I didn't like liars. I thought he loved me, why was he lying to me?

Maybe he wasn't lying?

He has to be! It cant be true, can it?

"Izzy, let me in we need to talk." Embry was knocking quietly on my door.

"Embry, I need to think. Could you leave me alone for a while. I'll call you later okay."

"okay." He sounded sad. I fought the urge to run out and comfort him. I loved him, but I don't know if I could believe him.

It had been four days since Embry had told me he was a wolf. He called three times a day, but I never answered. He text bombed me, but I never replied.

"Izzy, were going to the hospital, do you want to come?" mom stuck her head in my door.

"yeah, I'll just get my shoes on, I'll be down in a second." Ellie had woken up two days ago, but the doctors wanted to keep her in for another week or two. When we got there I went to find dr Cullen. He was handling my sisters case, so he would have all the information.

"excuse me, do you know where I could find doctor Cullen?"

"of course love, he'll be in his office on the second floor. Did you want a map?"

"yes please that would be wonderful. Thankyou." The receptionist handed over a map with a highlighted route to his office. I knocked gently hoping that I wasn't disturbing him while he was trying to work. The door opened and a kind looking lady smiled up at me. She had slightly curly light brown hair, golden eyes and a heart shaped face.

"uh… sorry, I must be in the wrong place. I was looking for dr Cullen."

"oh, no love your in the right place. i'm Esme, Carlisle's wife." She shook my hand and I noticed how cold it was.

"what can I do for you Izzy?" dr Cullen appeared out of nowhere.

"I was jut wondering if you knew anything more about my sister?"

"well she's doing well at the moment. Hopefully we should be able to let her out within the next few days."

"really? I thought you had to keep her in a lot longer?"

"well she's recovering rapidly. There will be no need to keep her much longer. She will need lots of rest though."

"yeah, I thought as much."

"are you okay Izzy?"

"yeah i'm fine why?"

"well Jacob said that you know about the wolves. He also said that you aren't talking to Embry."

"you … know?"

"yes. Did he tell you about us?"

"um … what about you?"

"it seems not. Well we'll leave that for Embry. I don't want to scare you."

"next time I see him I'll ask. But I don't think that will be for a while."

"Izzy, you need to talk to him, and soon. He would be going crazy missing you."

"no he wouldn't. and anyway, what's it to you?"

"I know what the imprint is like."

"well thanks anyway, i'm going to go now."

"Izzy, talk to him please."

"whatever." I went back to my sisters room. I didn't want to talk to Embry yet, and I didn't appreciate dr Cullen trying to tell me what to do. I spent some time with my sister who was all hyped up on pain medication. When mum left I stayed to have a quality girl bitch session.

"so what have you been up to lately?" she asked as soon as mum had closed the door.

"not much ae."

"oh really? No late nights out with Embry?"

"no. I'm not really with him anymore."

"oh my god! What happened?"

"he told me some stuff, and it freaked me out a little."

"what do you mean freaked you out?"

"well … i'm kinda scared of him." I whispered it hoping like hell she wouldn't hear me.

"your afraid of him? How the fuck did that happen? I mean he absolutely dotes on you."

"I know but I cant just ignore what he told me. I mean it's a part of who he is, and he cant change it."

"what did he do?"

"i… cant tell you. i'm sorry."

"go talk to him."

"no I don't want to talk to him."

"why not?"

"because I don't okay!"

"Izzy, don't shout at me or I will get up and smack you! go talk to him now!"

"i'm leaving, and i'm not going to talk to him." I stood up, grabbed my stuff and stormed out.

Knock knock

"come in!" I yelled at the door as I was making my bed.

"Izzy." I hadn't heard Embry walk up so he was standing right behind me. I jumped violently and fell over.

"shit, don't do that."

"sorry."

"what're you doing here?"

"I missed you, I needed to see you."

"um… sure." I went back to cleaning my room.

"Izzy, please talk to me. I cant take the silence. I'm going insane over here."

"what do you want to talk about?"

"you. I need to know how you feel about the… the thing."

"well… i'm confused. And scared."

"your scared? Of what?"

"you." I mumbled with my head down.

"Aww babe, don't be scared of me. I wont ever hurt you. I swear." He rushed over to me and pulled me into a tight hug. He was so warm. I missed his big muscled arms around me. I stayed there for a minute before gently pushing him away.

"Embry, I cant, i'm sorry."

"what will it take for you to trust me again?"

"I don't know if I can." He looked so hurt. He sat down on the end of my bed and put his head in his hands. He started sobbing. "Embry, don't cry. I'm sorry." He continued crying. I sat down next to him. "Embry, please don't cry okay. Stop… for me?" he wiped his eyes and looked at the floor. We sat like that for a few minutes saying nothing. He stood up, grabbed my hand and started pulling me outside.

"Embry, where are you taking me?"

"i'm going to prove to you that there is no reason to be afraid." I just went along with it. I was kind of curious to see how this turned out.

"i'm taking you to Kiara's I think it would be good to have her there with you, for moral support." I knew Collin had imprinted on her, but I didn't know that she knew they were all big wolves. When we got there her door opened and Kiara ran at me.

"oh my god Izzy! You forgave him this is great!"

"Kiara, slow down."

"yeah Kiara, she hasn't forgiven me... yet. She thinks I will hurt her."

"what he couldn't hurt you, he loves you!"

"so i'm just expected to take his word for it. i'm sorry, I wont listen to shit that could hurt me. Kiara you know very well that I don't trust what people say to me unless I have proof. Not again, I wont let myself get hurt like last time."

"Aww, i'm sorry Izzy. I forgot about that. I understand."

"um… I don't."

"never mind Embry. You had something to show me?"

"oh right. Kiara can you stay with Izzy while I phase? I want to prove to her that there is nothing to be scared of."

"sure come out when your ready."

"why does he have to leave to phase?" I asked Kiara as Embry was walking away towards the woods.

"oh… um… if they want to keep their… clothes they have to take them off before they phase."

"oh." I blushed as did Kiara, I looked at the ground trying to hide it.

I felt a tug on my arm, I looked at Kiara. She pointed to the edge of the woods. I took a deep breath looked up and saw a giant grey wolf that had black specks. It was looking at me intensely, slowly walking forward and staying low to the ground.

"Embry?" I breathed and the wolf nodded. I took a step further with my hand stretched out. I edged closer as it looked at me with its big chocolate brown eyes … Embry's eyes. I touched the fur behind his ear. He was hot. I ran my fingers through the wolf's thick fur. It leaned its head into my hand and I let out a breathy chuckle. The wolf stared into my eyes.

"can you go change… back to human?" the wolf nodded slightly then got up and started running. A few seconds later Embry was coming out of the woods doing his fly up and a shirt in his hand. I ran at him. I didn't want to be angry. I jumped and he caught me. I crushed my lips to his. He was surprised at first but responded well.

"Embry, i'm so sorry, I don't want to fight anymore. I love you, i'm sorry I never believed you."

"its okay baby, i'm sure you had your reason's. all that matters is that we can be together again." he carried me back over to where Kiara was standing rather awkwardly.

"I'll leave you two alone." She hurried back into her house as Embry kissed me again. he put me on the ground by his car and pushed my hair behind my ear. I smiled up at him.

"Embry, i'm so-" I was silenced by his lips against mine, he pushed himself against me so I was between him and the car. He tangled his hands in my hair and deepened the kiss. I shivered when I felt his tongue run across my bottom lip. I parted my lips allowing him entrance. As he was flicking his tongue against mine, I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself up so I was almost the same height as him and I was about a foot off the ground. His gorgeous body holding me up.

"what do you want to do tonight?" he asked against my lips.

"I don't care. As long as i'm with you."

"my place?"

"sure." He gave me one last kiss and pulled away. I dropped to the ground and climbed in the passenger seat. He pulled out his phone and started dialing.

"who are you calling?"

"Seth. Oh hey man, i've got situation three. Yupp." I held out my hand for the phone. "hold on a second Izzy wants to talk to you."

"hello?"

"hey Seth, its Izzy. Just wanted to let you know, you and Quil are going to have to get lost for the night. I dont want to scar you for life while me and Embry are having… fun."

"got it."

"were about five minutes away. i'm hoping for your sake that you are gone by then." I hung up and Embry was laughing.

"what?" he put one of his hands on my thigh. "I was just being honest."

"I know love, you didn't need to be though, he was already leaving. That's what situation three is. It means 'get the fuck out or I will kill you'"

"oh. Never mind then." He laughed again as we pulled up to his house. Seth came out the front door, saw us then took off running. We both laughed hysterically as he led me inside.

"do you want some dinner or anything?"

"no, I want you." his eyes widened and he joined me on the couch. I pulled him on top of me.