Our beautiful insanity

by PandaCubWub

*WARNING; EXTREME OOC STORY CANON X OC* Violet catches Clyde going the unthinkable and has to end things on a sad note, but she can't live without him. Thankfully she doesn't have to, as her world comes crashing down and twisting in ways she can't even remember anymore.

4. Let it all crash down, and never end

Clyde's POV

Why. Why. Why. Why. I lie on my bed, eyes on the ceiling. Why.

The amount of darkness in my head was tearing me apart, I couldn't take this.

I couldn't do it, it hurt too much, and I didn't want it to go away. I just wanted Violet back, please god bring her back.

Please god let the pain go away, Please..

My tears start up again as i realized that i never got to say goodbye, and that the word repeating in my mind was the last thing I ever said to Violet.

Please

I sob. I sob and sob, and I scream and cry and at one point, I feel Bebe's arms around me, pulling me back from what she couldn't see,

saving me from myself.

I just wanted to be with Violet, God please let me be with her. Her lips, her laugh, her touch..

Nothing could save me now. If i couldn't be saved before, I couldn't now. Bebe was whispering in my ear now.

I don't hear her. She was mumbling loudly now. I don't hear anything. She was yelling at me, pulling me away from the bathroom.

I hear nothing, I feel nothing. I can't see the blood running down my wrists, I don't feel myself swallowing down the pills.

The only pain is in my chest, not my arm. Bebe isn't screaming at me, crying, or calling for help. Violet is with me now.

I see her face looking down upon me. Clyde. Don't. I slice my arm again, and again, and again until the pain stops. The pain doesn't stop.

Why can't it end. I fall down, my breathing shallow. Good. I feel it now. I'm not drifting away from this world, I'm being pulled.

By her arm, by her voice, by her taste. I see Bebe now. I hear her now. She's carrying me. She's whispering in my ear now.

Please don't go away Clyde, Stay with me.

I'm sorry, Bebe, but I need to go, I need to leave now.

She's picking me up, carrying me. I feel plastic sheeting under me, something tight on my arm, and a mask on my face.

No, Don't save me. Please don't save me, I need her, and only her.

That's my last thought before i fade into sweet dreams, the color of lavender and the feeling of warmth.

Violet, Why did you go so soon, why didn't you take me with you?