No one knows what it's like To be the bad man
To be the sad man Behind blue eyes
And no one knows what it's like
To be hated To be fated
To telling only lies
But my dreams they aren't as empty As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely My love is vengeance
That's never free
No one knows what it's like To feel these feelings
Like I do And I blame you
No one bites back as hard On their anger
None of my pain woe Can show through
But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance that's never free
~Behind Blue Eyes limp bizkit
Falling Into the Darkness
Chapter 10!
Jaspers' Pov
After I couldn't hear the Cullens' cars any more I turned to Peter and snarled.
"What the fuck? Where is she Peter?" I grabbed Peters' shirt and jerked him forward so his face was just inches from my own.
"I told you not screw it up. It's your own fault she's gone!" He growled back. "She could have been happy with us but she's happier where she is now than she was here." He growled and ripped my hands off his shirt. He grabbed Chars' hand and they walked out the door muttering something about hunting.
I growled and threw a side table that was next to me into the wall. After a few minutes of throwing shit around the place, I hissed throwing my hands in my hair sinking to the ground.
The monster was rocking the cage; trying to get lose. I just didn't have the will to hold it in any longer. I had lost what family I had left. I took a deep breath; I could feel myself slipping into the dark place I was in with Maria. I was now the Major.
Slowly I got off the ground and ran up to my room. I could smell her scent in the hallway, it made me growl but I kept moving. I grabbed my cell phone and dialed Emmetts' number and waited for him to pick up.
"Hello?" He asked unsure.
"I'm going to Forks. I'll be leaving in an hour, not I second later" I said and hung up on him.
Any normal person would want nothing to do with these people but I am not normal. I will be just using them for what I want. I will go to Forks and figure out what the hell had happened to Bella. All the things she didn't tell me. I don't know why but I just had to know and now there was no chance of asking her myself.
I could do it on my own but the more people there meant it would go faster, I would get my information sooner than I would working alone and I would do anything for that, even if that meant I had to work with the people I hated most in the world.
I went to the closet to put on a fresh pair of jeans and a t-shirt and my boots since I wouldn't be changing in a while. I headed to my dresser that held the stacks of bills and stuffed them into my back pocket.
I walked back into the hall way and saw that Bellas' door was slightly open. I walked over to it and pushed it open the rest of the way, as I did her scent hit me full force. I took it all in, inhaling deep. I would miss her smell. I would miss her wavy brown hair. I would miss the taste of her lips. I would miss her.
I growled, when did I get so fucking sappy? I growled again and raced out of the room and into the drive way to wait and see it the Cullens were going to show up.
I looked at the clock on my phone; it was 7:58 pm they have two minutes to get here. Not a minute later I could hear a car pull into the driveway. I smirked. I knew I had them where I wanted them. They all got out and stood in front of me; it reminded me so much of when I would train newborns. They were all standing in a line watching me, waiting for my orders; my smirk grew much bigger.
"I'm running." I said and took off. They were smart, they knew that my statement that `I'm running' I meant `we're all running' and followed me trying to keep up. The only one who was the close to keeping up with me was Edward but he was still about two yards behind me and struggling.
It would take us a little over two days to get there and it was going to be a very long two days having to put up with them. I could hear Esme talking to Carlisle about how I wasn't my usual self. Please, I had never been this way around the family. I had only told them bits and pieces of how I could really be but that was it, so they had no idea what was going on with me.
It has been almost a day since we started running and the Cullens where even further behind me now; they were really fucking annoying me, talking about random shit and where the precious Bella had gone, what could have happened to her.
"Jasper we have to hunt soon." Carlisle called out to me.
I just ignored him and kept running. They could stop if they wanted to, when they wanted to. I am a big boy and I can handle myself.
"We should just stop he's not Jasper right now, he's not even listening." Rose said. She was smart. I could hear them slowing down and finally coming to a stop.
I pushed myself faster and kept moving without them, they knew where we were heading. It was about ten miles later that I heard a heartbeat and the sound of wet blood pumping through it, with every thump my throat burst into flames and my muscles tensed slightly.
The blood smelt like roses and chocolate a perfect combination. I followed the scent until I reached a house set back in the woods. Outback was a young woman with long wavy hair and cream skin. If it weren't for her scent I would have thought it was Bella. Something tore inside me when I told myself she wasn't here, that she was gone.
I shook it off and focused on the girl in front of me. She was hanging clothes on a line, she was in a white summer dress and she was beautiful. I didn't even have time to think before I launched myself at her, snapped her neck and sank my teeth into the pulse pumping vein on her neck.
The taste of her blood was even more tantalizing than it smelt as it flooded into my mouth, extinguishing the flames as it coated my throat. I sucked it greedily and fast. It was all gone before I knew it and I let the body fall to the floor with a thump. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath to calm myself and rein in the monster.
I slowly open my eyes to look at the girl. Some of her hair was fanned over her face, her eyes where closed. It was almost like she was sleeping. I was hit with an image of Bella sleeping that night I snuck into her room and ended up kissing her. My lips tingled at the thought of her warm lips on mine, remembering the sounds she made as I kissed her.
I snarled and took off, I just ran but I couldn't get away from her. She was in thoughts and constantly on my mind; I couldn't get rid of her.
I could see the pain in her eyes as she screamed at me about her past. About how she was raped every night; about how they beat her and bit her. I could hear her cry out as Damon slapped and threatened her.
I could hear the emotion in her voice as she talked about Victoria and what she did to her. I could only imagine what happened to her, what they did from detail to detail. I knew what I did in Marias' army; I knew that life.
I knew what Damon could do; I saw it first hand for almost fifty years. It made me sick just thinking about what he alone could do; there could be have been others before him, she could have been traded from one to the next. I didn't know what else she had suffered and that was what scared me the most.
The scenery changed and I knew I was getting closer to Forks. Everything was getting greener. I figured I was somewhere in north Idaho. Within the next few hours I would be in Forks.
The images of her wouldn't stop and I could see her lying on the ground bloody and beaten; I could see her back, blood seeping out of her skin where Victoria had just carved her design.
They just wouldn't stop as hard as I tried; I pushed myself faster, maybe the faster I got my answers, the faster these images will go away.
The scenery changed slightly again and I was in the one place I thought I would never see again. I started to down slow my pace. I didn't know how far behind me the Cullens where now and as much as I really didn't care, I still needed there help.
The forest was now getting familiar to me, I knew I was getting to their place where I would stop to wait for the Cullens and go from there. A few miles later the white house came into view, a house I used to call home but not anymore; It will never be my home again and that `Jasper' was gone, I wasn't ever going to be him again.
I slowed down into a human walking pace when I got to the edge of the property I could see it was just as the same as it was a few years ago. The weeds were overgrown but other than that it was fine.
I got to the front door which was slightly open. The only scent was very faint, the only reason I could recognize the smell was because I had become accustomed to it; it was Bellas' scent.
I pushed the door open. The afternoon sun was shining through the windows. The room was destroyed; I looked around the lower level some more the whole downstairs was trashed. The couches where ripped up, the coffee table was smashed and broken and the walls had numerous holes in them.
What the fuck happened here? I thought to myself. I walked around and every surface was messed up in some way. But the only thing I smelt was Bella and she wouldn't do that, would she? Well, the old Bella wouldn't do this.
I fallowed her scent upstairs into mine and Alices' old room, the door was already open. All of the clothes Alice had left here were torn apart and thrown all over the room. The desk was broken and on its side, the mattress was torn off the bed too.
I smirked at this; if this was Bella, I would have to thank her if I ever saw her again. This was something I've always wanted to do since my departure from Alice and the Cullens. I walked out of the room and into the others rooms to investigate the damage Carlisle and Esmes' room wasn't too bad, only because there wasn't much in there. Rose and Ems' was just like Alices' and finally Edwards, where Bellas' scent was the strongest.
Again the door was open so I just walked in. Every one of his CDs where on the floor lay cracked and broken. You could tell which ones cut her because there was blood on them.
His glass window wall was completely shattered and his bed was gone. I made my way to where the glass used to be and there it was, along with some other things of his. I looked to my left where some of the glass remained attached to the frame, blood was smeared across it and there was something taped to it.
I peeled it off. It was a picture of Bella and Edward. They looked happy but the edges of the photo were burnt. I flipped it over and there was writing on the back in Bellas' script written was `I will come for you' that was all it said. I heard the Cullen's walk into the house.
"What the…" I heard Emmett say but Esme scolded him for his language. I ran down stairs with picture in hand.
They were all standing in the door way looking around the room, than all of their eyes landed on me.
"It was her" I said and walled over to Edward handing him the picture, I then walked away heading to the music room. I felt Edwards' pain shoot through the roof and I knew he had seen and read what was written on the picture.
The music room next to Bellas' scent was stronger. Nothing in this room was damaged; everything was just as they left it. I walked over to the piano, there was blood smeared across the keys and there was a piece of paper that was folded.
I reached out and picked it up and unfolded it. Inside that paper was another
Smaller piece of paper and once again I found Bells' script all she had written
Was `Hope you're happy'. It had me confused so I looked at the other bit of paper
To find that it was a newspaper clipping with the headline stating
Forks Police Chief Charlie Swan found murdered in his home this weekend.
No suspects found.
Victoria had murdered Charlie. I searched my mind replaying the night with Bella, trying to remember if she had said anything about this.
"You weren't the one who had to watch as every single person in your family killed right in front of you. But not before they begged for you to help them" she said.
Victoria killed Charlie but who else did she kill? And right in front of her? I was just starting to realize what Bella had really been through. Before, I was just too blinded with my own revenge. I didn't stop to listen; I didn't stop to process all that she had screamed at me. And now, she's gone.
Hey! Was gonna wait till wensdat to post this but havin a REALLY bad day so i thought some awesome reviews would make it all better! iv been having trouble with jaspers povs and its fustrating the hell out of me! so tell me if i did a good job or not!
A HUGE thanks to lauren1379 for editing!