Its only when he's gone,

You realize how much you needed him...

Izzy

12 hours. That's all I had left with him before he went back to La Push. We were lying in bed and ignoring all his protests, watching the titanic.

"I hate this movie." He whined.

"no you don't. you've been mouthing the lines to it from the beginning."

"so… just because I know all the lines doesn't mean that I don't hate it."

"how many times have you seen it?"

"about… twenty."

"… and how many times have you watched it alone?"

"… about fifteen."

"so you love it. but you cant say that because it's not a 'manly' movie. Am I right?"

"little bit." I laughed and he squeezed my side's gently.

"well I think its sexy."

"the movie?"

"no… the fact that you love it but are too ashamed to admit it."

"well do you know what I think is sexy?"

"hmm… Kate Winslet?"

"nope… guess again." I moved so I was straddling him. I leaned forward to whisper in his ear. "Leonardo DiCaprio?"

"O-M-G how did you know?" I snapped back so I could see his face.

"well that makes two of us."

"that's not good enough."

"oh really?"

"yes really." He pulled me forwards to kiss me ever so slightly.

"down boy!" he pulled away and looked at me with raised eyebrows. "your getting excited against my thigh."

"oh sorry." He blushed and looked away.

"Embry Call, are you blushing?"

"no." he answered a little too quickly.

"don't lie to me wolfy."

"wolfy?"

"what? I think its cute."

"no… defiantly not cute. And if you ever say that in front of the guys i'm going to have to-"

"what? Your going to… kill me? Hmm… eat me? I know… you're going to jump me?"

"definitely the last one."

"I like the sound of that. Don't you wolfy?" he flipped us over so fast I didn't know it had happened.

"don't call me that." He said menacingly.

"wolfy, wolfy, wolfy, wolfy. Oh did I say wolfy?" he growled and started laying hungry kisses all down my neck, collarbone and back up again.

"you were saying…"

"i'm sorry mister all mighty wolf, please don't kiss me again, I don't know if I would survive." I said putting on a really bad southern accent.

"that's better." He kissed me on the lips and I slipped my tongue out to meet his. He had a very bad case of wandering hands. He slid them down my sides and back up with his fingers hooked under the edge, pulling my top up. He ducked down and started kissing all over my flat (for once) stomach. I giggled when he kissed the skin at the top of my shorts.

"like that do you?"

"just a little." He pulled my top off me and started kissing all over my breasts before pulling one of my nipples into his mouth and biting It gently. I moaned very loudly and arched my back into him. He did the same on the other side, with very much the same reaction. He ran his hand up the inside of my leg and brushed his fingers lightly over my panties, I bucked again and I felt him smile against my skin.

"I like that. Very much." The door opened and someone threw a small box in that hit Embry in the head. I picked it up and laughed. Someone had thrown in a box of condoms.

I showed Embry and he laughed too before saying that he already had some. He came up and kissed me again. he had removed my shorts (Somehow I didn't notice). And was back to playing around with my breasts.

"Embry," I breathed "don't tease." He slid down removing my last layer as he went. He pulled my panties off my feet and used his hands to spread my legs. He leaned down and kissed my clit softly. I writhed and he held my hips still as he started to flick his tongue.

"oh god!" I pulled the sheets so tight I ripped them. He chuckled and entered me with his tongue. I used my feet to pull his boxers off, he slid off me and slipped on protection and was back in two seconds. He kissed me again and slowly pushed his hard length into me. We both groaned as he set a slow pace. I pushed back urging him to go faster. He complied and we both started sweating. I put my hands on either side of his face and brushed his hair out of his eyes. He looked into my eyes and started going even faster. I felt my self climbing and he knew it. I was screaming his name as we both came and he collapsed on top of me. He rolled over and I rolled with him. I lay on top of him looking at his gorgeous features. He opened his eyes and looked at me.

"what are you doing?"

"just looking."

"take a picture it'll last longer." He said sarcastically. I got my camera and snapped a picture before he could protest.

"got cha."

"I was joking."

"I know, but I wanted another picture of you, and you just gave me the perfect excuse to get one."

He rolled his eyes and pulled me against his chest.

"before I forget, I have a present for you."

"really?"

"yupp, do you want to pass me my wallet and ill give it to you." I slapped him. "oww, what was that for?"

"oh, I know that didn't hurt you. You're going to fucking pay me? Oh well, you're not the first person to call me a slapper." I jumped out of bed and pulled some clothes on.

"babe, wait. That's not what I meant. I'm not going to give you money. I put it in my wallet so I wouldn't loose it."

"what is it?" I asked trying to pretend I didn't care.

"come back to bed and you will find out." I climbed back in the bed and crossed my arms and legs. He chuckled and pulled something small and silver out of the wallet he had just gotten from his jeans. It was a ring. Shit! he was going to propose. I was so not ready for this. He must have read my expression, because he added, "i'm not proposing… yet. It's a promise ring."

"a promise ring?"

"yeah… you know, I promise I'll always be there for you. I wont go out and jump into bed with anyone else. I'll always be waiting, you just have to come get me." He smiled and put in my hand. It was small and silver with a blue oval stone in the middle and tiny silver swirls on each side.

"its beautiful. I love it Thankyou."

"its nothing really."

"how can it be nothing? I bet it cost a fortune."

"not a cent."

"did you steal it?"

"of course not! It was my great grandmothers."

"Aww, you didn't have to do that! It's a family air loom."

"you will be my family… one day. It suits you perfectly."

"what do you mean?"

"well its tiny and one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen." I smiled and hugged him again. Anna came in with her hand over her eyes.

"um… guys. Mrs. Daniels' wants to talk to you both."

"okay, just give us a chance to get our clothes on."

"ugh… shut up Izzy!"

"hehe, that was fun." I got up and pulled Anna's hands from her face.

"I don't want to- oh, never mind. Wow, you have really hot abs!"

"I know right." I said, he really did have the hottest abs I've ever seen.

Embry pulled a shirt on and we went out to the living room to talk to my mother.

"kids, sit down a minute please." Uh-oh, she was going to say something completely embarrassing.

"spit it out mom."

"okay, okay. Well I just wanted to… to make sure you were… were…"

"we are mom." I knew what she was going to ask. We had had this conversation with all of my boyfriends since I was fourteen.

"oh thank god. I know you would Izzy. But I had to check. Don't want any little additions here yet." Embry made a small sound, which I took as he finally figured out what we were talking about.

"don't worry mom, we have about another seven months."

"what!" mom, Stephan, Ellie, Anna and Embry all yelled at the same time.

"kidding! Kidding! … I was just kidding."

"oh thank god." Mom sat back down clutching at her heart. Embry stayed standing; he looked a little… upset. Whoops guess I scared him off. Anna cracked up laughing and punched me in the arm, it wasn't light either.

"right so we are staying at Mike's tonight so you two can have the house to yourself. We'll be back at 3:30 he needs to be at the airport at 4, I suggest you be ready."

"mom, that only gives us eight hours."

"that's not my problem. Have a few quickies."

"MOM!!!!!"

"sorry, i'm leaving now." I pushed her out the door and went to sit by a very embarrassed looking Embry.

"sorry my mom's such a freak."

"no worries. If she wasn't a freak, then you wouldn't be either."

"Thanks…" I glared at him before putting some music on.

"fuck off!" I threw my arm up and hit someone.

"oww, get up Izzy." Anna.

"Fuck off!"

"babe, if you don't get up Embry will leave without saying goodbye."

"i'm up. What's the time?"

"its quarter to 3." I climbed out of bed and threw on some sweats and one of Embry's hoodie's, I mean it's not like he was going to need it. he came into the room dripping wearing just a towel. Damn it was hot. I can't believe I had to say goodbye to him. He held on to me as Anna drove us to the airport. When we got there and he was about to get on his plane I started crying. of course him being the good boyfriend came back to comfort me and he nearly missed his flight.

"there's a party on the beach tonight. Everyone's going, you in?" Anna asked me as she was driving home. she had offered to take us, and everyone was aware that she knows me better than my own family so they went along with it.

"yeah, sure, sure." I missed him already and it had been… 15 minutes. I so was not going to last until Kim's wedding to see him again.

"sweet, its going to be so awesome! Matt and Ben are both 18 now so they are buying all the booze. Josh is going to be there with the good stuff, and all our old friends from school are coming to see you. So in a way… it's a welcome back party! Yay, we going to get so trashed."

"is that all you think of?" I asked laughing.

"hell yeah!" I fell asleep in her car and I guess she didn't want to wake me because I woke up there at 11:30am. I rolled on out of the car (literally rolled!) and went to go get some food, to find Anna and Matt half naked on my couch. Lovely. I decided to go with a bagel so I drove down to coffee culture for a smoked chicken, cranberry and cream cheese bagel and a hot chocolate. When I got back Anna (now fully clothed and boyfriend long gone) insisted on giving me a makeover.

When we got to the party most of the people I knew before I left were already there and they attacked me with hugs. Some I had seen when I brought Embry to the beach, but there were a few new faces in there. Dylan had a huge radio plugged into his spare car battery so there was some very loud music playing. Before I knew it, I was drunk just as Anna had promised. I forgot all about missing Embry and concentrated on having a good time.

"someone turn the fucking phone off!" some random chick yelled.

"i'm getting there, hold on!" I picked up my phone and the caller id said that it was Sam and Emily's home number.

"hello."

"Izzy, its Embry."

"oh hey babe. How was your flight?"

"it was good until I got home and checked my emails." Uh-oh, Ben had his laptop here last night and had it hooked into some randoms wireless

"why's that?"

"you sent me an email, last night. It had a video attached."

"oh shit… what did it say?"

"i'm not too sure, it was just a whole bunch of letters."

"damn, sorry about that. It must suck to have that be the first email from your girlfriend that you get."

"yeah, but the video's worse."

"what happened in it?"

"you drunk half a bottle of vodka in one go, threw up, passed out, made out with a chick and smoked four cigarettes at once. Oh and did I mention you were sharing a joint with three other people too."

"Crap! I'm so sorry you had to see all that shit. its not fair on you. please don't be mad."

"i'm not mad. I'm concerned. I'm away from you for 24 hours and you slip back into your old habits."

"no! not all my old habits. Yes that was mentioned in the video too. Your habit to jump into bed with the first guy you see when your pissed."

"that's how I met Eric and Nath- never mind…"

"yes, well I better let you go I have patrol. I love you. please, please don't do anything stupid."

"I love you too. Bye." He hung up, I felt so bad. I couldn't remember a thing from last night.