Secrets...

There's always one you'll never share,

Not to a stranger or those who care.

It eats you up but you keep to yourself,

Then you notice the empty bottles sitting on the shelf...

Embry

She walked away, she didn't even look at me. It felt like my heart was breaking. She didn't love me, the imprint was faulty. I collapsed onto the floor and let the pain overtake me. My heart was being cut- no ripped out of my chest. I cried. I cried for so long before I decided that I had to go find her. I went to Kiara's."

"Kiara, is Izzy there? I need to speak to her." I looked past her to see if I could see my angel. She didn't say anything. "Kiara?"

"i'm sorry Embry. She's not here. She's gone."

"gone?"

"she went to the airport with Anna."

"airport." My eyes welled up again and I stormed into the house calling for her. she had to be here. She had to… I pushed into the room she had used as hers and found it empty. All her stuff gone, clean sheets. The only thing to indicate that she had ever been there was her very faint scent. Almost non existent. I sat down on the end of the bed and put my head in my hands.

"i'm sorry." Kiara whispered to me and rubbed my back with her small hand. She pulled me into her arms and cradled my head like a child. She rocked back and forth gently while I cried.

"what's going on?" Collin appeared in the doorway.

"Izzy's gone." Kiara told him quietly. Those two words were enough to send me into another fit of hysteria.

"Aww, shit. i'm so sorry man. I'll be back in a minute ki, I'll call Quil and Seth, he needs his best friends at the moment." When Jake left Seth stepped up and now its like he was always one of our best buds.

"take your time."

I had cried all I could by the time Quil and Seth got there. when they walked in I was sitting in the same spot, staring at the floor. I couldn't make my eyes focus everything was blurry. Quil sat down next to me. "i'm so sorry dude," He said.

"its not your fault. Its nobody's fault but mine."

"c'mon, lets get you home." Seth pulled me to my feet and put my arm around his shoulders. Quil did the same on the other side and they supported my weight as they carried me out of the house. They left me in my room. I curled up into a ball and fell asleep after shedding a few more tears. I stayed there for two days.

"knock, knock." Kim came in with a tray of food, "how are you feeling? I brought you some food. Don't want big wolf man going hungry now do we?"

"i'm not hungry." I mumbled.

"c'mon Embry, please just eat." She pushed the tray towards me and I gave up and started eating. "that's better."

"thanks Kim." I said through a mouth full of food.

"its no problem honey. If you ever need anything let me know okay? I'll always be here."

"i'm so lucky that Jared imp- has you." I couldn't say it, it hurt too much. She patted me on the back and left.

The curtains were pulled open.

"Fuck off." I mumbled into my pillow.

"nope, up you get. Today is a new day and we are going to make the most of it."

"leave me alone Kim."

"no, out you get." She sighed when I didn't move. "c'mon Embry. Its been two weeks." She pulled the sheets off me and pulled the pillow out from under my head.

"fine, fine i'm up." I yawned.

"good, no get your ass out of bed and go have a shower. There is a lunch thing at Sam and Emily's today and you are coming."

"I'll have a shower but I'm not going to the stupid lunch." I closed the bathroom door behind me and started getting undressed.

"your coming whether you like it or not. Don't make me have to come in there and drag you out." she shouted through the door.

"fine, I'll go. Can you leave me alone for two seconds!"

Kim dragged me forwards. "don't be a party pooper Em, look every ones here. It'll be fun." Everyone greeted me cheerfully and the guys gave me a smack on the back and all told me how great it was that I was here. I sat down in one of the chairs and didn't move for a few hours. A plate of food was held out for me.

"thanks." I told Emily, as she went to go eat her own. When all the girls had finished eating, Sam stood up and cleared his throat. "guys listen up for a minute okay." Everyone grew silent and turned to him. Emily stood next to him and grabbed his hand.

"we have a… little announcement to make."

"i'm pregnant again!" Emily squealed. I got up and gave her a hug.

"congratulations." I whispered in her ear.

"i'm so glad you came Embry. Thankyou."

"thank Kim. She's the one that pulled me out of bed. She actually threatened to come in and drag me here. Yeah, I was in the shower at the time." Emily laughed and Sam patted me on the back. The doorbell went off.

"I'll get it." Sam said and disappeared.

"let me in Sam." The new arrival said sounding a hell of a lot like Izzy.

"i'm sorry I cant," Sam replied to whoever it was, "Embry can you come here a minute please." I got up and went to go see what they wanted. I walked up to Sam and he moved to the side and gestured to the person in the doorway.

"i'm sorry. I had to see you again."

"Izzy." I whispered and she looked down. I pulled her gently into my arms and hugged her.

"i'm so sorry. I didn't want to come and hurt you more, but I couldn't stay away."

"don't worry about it. i'm glad you're here." I put my hand on her cheek and wiped away a tear with my thumb. I leaned down and kissed her softly on the lips. I pulled back and smiled at her. she smiled and reached up to kiss me again.

"Aww!" everyone had come to watch… well everyone except Kim. I started laughing and everyone moved forward to give Izzy a hug and welcome her back.

"how long are you here for?" I asked her when everything had settled down. She was sitting in my lap on the floor. I had my arms around her.

"forever. I'm not going home. my parents are sending all my stuff back over. I'm going to be living in Kiara's sleep out till I can find my on place."

"move in with me."

"I'd love to but, I don't want to rush things. Plus I still need to sort out my life, and it might be easier if I have my own space. I'm sorry."

"no, no, its all good. I understand. Just don't leave me again okay?" she smiled and kissed just behind my ear.

"i'm not going anywhere." She whispered and bit my earlobe gently. I held her tighter.

"good. what's up with you and Kim? Did you have a fight while you were gone or something?"

"no. I was wondering what was up with her. she hasn't said anything to me all night. She just keeps glaring."

"oh well. Wanna get out of here?"
"sure. Come back to Kiara's place?"

"um… I was thinking somewhere we could be alone."

"yeah. I have the sleep out remember."

"… oh right. Lets go." She got up pulling and ran out the door. I said goodbye to everyone and ran after her.

Izzy.

I woke up cold and alone… I thought Embry was here last might? Great… a fuck and run. Just what I needed. I thought sarcastically then I heard the toilet flush. Embry walked in wearing a pair of boxers and nothing else.

"oh morning babe." He came and sat next to me.

"well I was way off then." I muttered, more to myself than to him.

"what were you way off about?" he asked and cocked an eyebrow.

"nothing really… I just thought you had left but you haven't so it doesn't matter."

"oh… I wouldn't leave. I'm not like that… well not anymore."

"Embry… did you have one night stands before me?"

"yeah… just a few." I laughed.

"well that makes two of us." He half smiled and looked me up and down. I realized I was naked and pulled the sheet up. He grabbed my hand to stop me.

"don't baby, I missed you."

"I missed you too, but I feel uncomfortable with you eye raping me."

"sorry." He leaned over and kissed me.

"I have to go have a shower Em."

"go after i'm done with you." I got to the shower two hours later.

I knocked on the front door and looked at the ground. I counted to twenty. The door opened and I looked up. Sara was standing there staring at me with wide eyes. She squealed loudly and jumped on me nearly suffocating me with her hug.

"oh my god! You're back. When did this happen? How long are you here for?"

"for good. i'm not leaving again."

"this is great. I'm so happy. There's a party tonight at Baillie's do you want to come?"

"only if I can bring Embry."

"of course. Everyone is going to be so excited. We've all missed you so much." Sara and I hung out for most of the day as Embry was away dealing with pack stuff. I told Embry I would meet him there. I got all done up and drove Sara's car there. everyone there was happy to see me… well with the exception of Krystina, but I don't really class her as a person. I was well and truly drunk by the time Embry showed his face.

"hey baby." He said and gave me a kiss.

"hey honey bunch." I slurred as I kissed him back.

"had a bit to drink I see." He chuckled.

"maybe just a little." I answered lazily. I walked back to Steph with whom I was previously booty dancing with. I wasn't very good but I liked to pretend. I glanced over at Embry to see Krystina trying to chat him up. She was flicking her hair everywhere and twirling it between her fingers. She leaned toward him and said something quietly.

"oh no she fucking doesn't." I growled and walked over to where they were, Steph tried to stop me but failed miserably, but that was probably because she face planted.

"hey Krystina long time no see. Ouch, what happened to your nose? I bet your not happy with that." I said to her as I put my arm around Embry's waist.

"you broke it remember? And I had to get a nose job but they screwed it up. By the way, I still owe you for that." She punched me in the arm and Embry growled.

"ooh, ouch that was like totally the hardest someone has ever punched me in my life. I think I might die from the pain." I said mocking her, Embry started laughing and had to leave as he couldn't stop.

"ha-ha you freak. You are going to get what's coming to you."

"well… i'm waiting, but nothing appears to be happening." She smiled and pulled a baseball bat out from god only knows where.

"oh, so you've finally removed the stick that was up your ass. That's good, maybe now you wont be such a bitch." She took a swing but I caught the bat and pulled it out of her arms. She reached for my left arm but I caught it with my right forearm spun it round gripped her shoulder and pushed her onto the ground. She screamed as she went down. She grabbed my ankles and yanked. I came tumbling down on top of her. I bottled her and while she was dazed I grabbed a knife and straddled her.

"how do you like me know, you whore." I spat in her face and someone lifted me off her. they carried me outside and into the woods, they kept going and we ended up at Embry's house. He put me down on his bed and carefully took the knife from my clenched hand.

"Izzy, what the fuck was that? You tried to kill her. why would you do that?"

"because she's a bitch and I hate her."

"you have to tell me what she did, you have to let me in… look I know you don't like to talk about you're feelings and shit like that but, you need to tell me what happened so that we can sort it out."

"i…i…cant. If I do it means she wins."

"what do you mean 'she wins'"

"I don't know okay!" I shouted at him.

"Izzy, please tell me."

"fine, but you cant be an ass if I start crying, which I most likely will."

"never, I will be here for you no matter what." He took one of my hands in both of his and gave it a squeeze.

"okay, but you will probably think i'm being pathetic, but no one actually knows how much it hurt me."

"I promise I wont think your pathetic." He whispered to me.

"okay, it all started when I first moved here. I kept to myself only talking to Kiara, Sara and Steph, those two were the ones I became really good friends with in a short amount of time. And Kiara's my cousin of course so I already knew her." I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. "I got a text from some random one day, and me being curious I texted them back and asked them who they were. At first it was all joking and stuff. They told me their name was Jesus." I laughed quietly remembering how I felt that day. "this was on my third day here. I eventually found out that his name was Matt. Matt Williams. He was so nice, for some reason I trusted him. I told him stuff about me that only Anna knew. He told me a few things about him and he told me he went to a school in Port Angeles. We chatted some more and he asked me out. I of course told him no. he asked why and I told him it was because I didn't know him and that we had only been texting for a few days. I also told that maybe if we hung out, and got to know each other for real maybe. He was so sweet about it, even though I felt guilty he just kept on being sweet and chatting with me." Embry was silent the whole time, he didn't say a word. He actually looked confused. I knew he was trying to figure out what happened and how it came back to Krystina.

"after a few more days of texting he started calling me 'babe' and 'hun' I liked it because nobody had called me that in a long time. Not even my boyfriends from past cities. He made me feel special, made me feel like there was some one out there who cared for me. At the time I was on anti depressants and I was going trough a lot of shit, so it felt good. I was even happy enough that I was able to stop taking them for a while. I found out that he knew Krystina and Samantha from school. I knew them and I told him so. That was how everyone found out about him. A few of my friends were concerned that I was talking to a guy I had never met. But they shut up when they realized that talking to him made me happy. They never said anything more on the matter." I felt like I was going to throw up.

"about three weeks after he first texted me, he stopped. I never heard from him again. I texted him once or twice but never got any reply. I even talked to Krystina about him afraid that something bad had happened but she told me not to worry about and that he lost his phone. I gave up. Everyone could see that I was not happy, and I was back on the medication." I wiped the tears away from my eyes as they spilled over. I took a few deep breaths to steady myself.

"about two days before you met me, I was talking to Nicole about it and she said something that didn't make sense. It was along the lines of 'i can see that your not fine i'm going to kill Krystina, she's so immature, I can understand why you are upset.' i asked her what's she was talking about and she said, 'Krystina, its so silly, the fact that she had to pretend to be someone she's not jut to talk shit about someone behind their back to make herself feel better.' All I could say was, 'it was Krystina? The whole fucking time?' she told me it was and I lost it." I broke down in front of him and started to cry. He rubbed his hand over my back. He doesn't get it. I had fallen in love with this guy. I had thought that for once somebody had actually loved me back. He was everything I wanted in a guy, he was sweet, kind and funny. This was one of my only 'kind of' relationship that I had had with a guy that wasn't based on looks… until Embry that is.

"I didn't go to school the next day and word got around that I knew. It hurt more to find out that absolutely, every single person I knew, friends included, knew from the very beginning that it was her, but they never did anything to stop it. I was taking extra meds but they weren't working, so I decided to do something to take my mind off of it. I tried to kill myself but it didn't work." I showed him the faint scars on my wrists that were from where I cut them. "I went to a party and got absolutely trashed. I don't know what happened after that but it succeeded in taking my mind off it. next thing I knew I was waking up in the most amazing guy's house. He is absolutely the most wonderful person I have ever met, and will ever meet, I love him so much… I love you so much Embry." I finished with a whisper. He looked up at me and smiled with tears in his eyes. I continued crying and he held me to his broad chest.

"she is so lucky that I am so committed to conserving human life, otherwise she would be dead for hurting my angel." He said quietly and I laughed. He rubbed patterns on my back with his fingers while I cried my self out. when I was done he gave me a soft kiss and pulled some blankets over me before I fell asleep snuggled into his warm side with his arms wrapped round me.

A/n: I love the drama of this chapter, and the little fight scene is actually a dream I had a while back. Yes… I have recently come to the conclusion that I am a very violent person. Don't worry, I wont hurt you… if you review (: just kidding!

Managed to eat a whole king size block of chocolate while writing this (:

I would love to know what you think of Krystina's character, what she did, and how she treated Izzy. Let me know.

Jess xO