A/n. I am so so so so sorry that I haven't updated in ages. I've just had a lot going on. also I apologize for this chapter being a little short. Please don't get angry! Anyway as always let me know what you think… I may give you a cookie if you leave a review…. They are very yummy… (:
Jess xO
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Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone.
I looked over and saw Stephanie.
"hey cuz." she said winking at me.
"hey, how are you?" I said back pushing Kiara out of the way so I could get my big belly through the door.
"whoa! Your pregnant…" Steph took a step back.
"no i'm just really fat. Do you like the new look?" I joked striking a pose.
"yeah suits you, now you actually have some meat on your skinny ass." She gave me hug and pulled me further into the house.
"like you can talk you anorexic."
"i'm not anorexic! Its not my fault I'm naturally slim." she pulled me into a hug.
"so what's been happening other than ….this?" she gestured to the bump. I laughed.
"not too much ae, have you met my boyfriend Embry?" I looked over to see him standing awkwardly in the doorway.
"no I don't believe I have." She stood up to her full height. While he still towered over her 5"5 with his 6"8.
"hey i'm Stephanie, Izzy's second cousin." She stuck her hand out for him to shake while glaring at him. despite Steph being around 5"5 and Embry being almost 6"8 he looked terrified. She smiled sweetly and he gulped. Steph plopped down next to me and grabbed my hand, "seriously Izzy I don't want to have to murder him, plus it wouldn't look so good on my criminal record. He is treating you right yeah?"
"of course Steph. He's amazing, but enough about us. What did you do to your hair? I thought you liked it long?" I grabbed a lock of her short curly hair and pulled.
"ow, you bitch!" she exclaimed.
"sorry."
"I felt like a change you know. So I chopped it."
"you make it sound like you cut your hair in the bathroom with the rusty kitchen scissors." I laughed and gave her a shove.
"they weren't rusty." Kiara walked into the room dragging a very bored looking Collin with her.
"isn't it great that Steph's here Iz!" she said pushing Collin down on the end of the couch so she could climb onto his lap.
"hmmm, I don't know…" I started but stopped when she hit me on the arm lightly.
"thanks cuz, means a lot."
"Aww you know I love ya."
Dinner was quiet, mainly because Collin took Kiara to the beach for a walk. It was good to reminisce on all the fun times from when we were younger.
"you know how you are cool… and you want to come shopping with me? I ned more 'maternity clothes'" I spat the last part.
"absolutely. You okay?"
"yeah i'm fine, but seriously have you seen the size of those clothes? You would get lost in them. they're the size of a tent." She laughed and started clearing the table. But not before washing her hands… again.
"yeah I'll come. Plus I want to get your baby a present. When would you like to go?"
"is tomorrow too soon?"
"nah, that's all good." she said snatching the plates out of my hands. She pointed at the seat and raised her eyebrows.
"I'm not cripple you know." I pointed out.
"I know, but still, pregnant people should not be on their feet all the time."
"god, you're almost as bad as Em."
"…. Embry hasn't told you to sit down or anything. He has looked like he wanted to a few times though."
"no, Em-ily. One of my other friends. She has two kids and knows what its like to be babied. You would think that she would stop, but she doesn't. as for Embry… I told him I would never have sex with him again if he didn't leave me to do my own thing. I reckon that if he had it his way then my feet wouldn't be able to touch the ground. He would carry me around all day wouldn't you?" he nodded glumly and put his head on the table.
"I want a guy like that…. Especially a hot one." She muttered.
"well you never know…." I said quietly.
"what?"
"doesn't matter. Oh would you look at the time I have to go find out the sex of my baby now. Bye." I grabbed Embry's hand and dragged him out of the house. We made it to the doctors just in time. Thanks to Steph inviting us for dinner we had to change our appointment to the 6.30 one, just before they close.
"right lets have a wee look-see, shall we?" the doctor asked. I reckon the jobs getting to her….
"alright, you know the drill. Lift the top up and on with the gel!" she said happily
The ultrasound machine whirred into life.
"okay everything looks good. no problems. Did you still wan to know the sex?" she asked.…. So maybe she's just got multiple personalities disorder…
"yes please." Embry and I said at the same time.
"okay. Just a second... well it looks as if you are having… a boy. Congratulations."
"YEAH! Two to one! We outnumber you!" Embry shouted while doing a little dance.
"oh great. Now I have two babies." I rolled my eyes at him.
"sorry babe." Embry hung his head and gave me a kiss on the cheek before sitting down again.
"if you come back tomorrow I can give you a video of your baby?" Dr. Frederick's said as she shut the machine off.
"yes please. That would be wonderful." I wiped the gel off my stomach and sat up.
"were having a boy!" Embry said as he pulled me out of the car.
"Embry, please. I heard you the first fifty times you said it."
"I know… mind if I phase and let all the guys know?" he said pouting.
"go for you're life." I muttered. He didn't come back for a few hours, I tried to stay up and wait for him but I was apparently too tired to do that. I fell asleep around two am, he still wasn't back.
I woke to find myself being carried in a pair of strong warm arms.
"what are you doing?" Embry looked down at me and smiled gently.
"i'm taking you up to bed. You fell asleep on the couch. Don't worry, I got you." he whispered. He lay me down under the covers and crawled in next to me.
"hmm, I love you Em." I said thick with sleep.
"I love you too. Now rest." He kissed my forehead and wrapped his arms around me tight.
"hun, you got to get up now. You're going shopping with Steph today. Remember?"
"five more minutes…" I groaned.
"sorry babe, no can do. Now. Up."
"fine, fine, i'm up." I sat up slowly trying not to let all the blood rush to my head.
The door swung open before I could knock.
"ready to go?" Steph asked locking the door behind her.
"I am if you are." I said and climbing slowly back into the drivers side of my car.
"seriously? This is your car?" Steph asked.
"yeah. What wrong with it?"
"isn't it a little… nana-ish?"
"leave my poor baby alone!"
"i'm sorry, but it's a Nissan… what pulsar?"
"sunny! 94 Nissan sunny! And don't diss my car. I bet its better than what you have at the moment."
"I don't have a car here yet."
"exactly. Now shut up and let me drive."
"but-"
"shut up!"
"shutting…"
"Aww this is so cute!" said yelled out… yet again. I swear this is the hundredth time I have heard it in the last two hours. I rolled my eyes and waddled over to where she was standing looking at a bassinette.
"oh my god, its gorgeous!" I breathed.
"I know!" I heard her talking to someone else but I didn't listen I was too busy imagining a baby boy with Embry's kin tone, hair colour, but my eyes. even though I think its highly unlikely that a Quileute Indian baby would have bright blue eyes. Aww well.
"- and this is my present to you. Izzy?" Steph tugged my arm. "Izzy?"
"sorry what?" I jerked round.
"this is what i brought you. I hope Embry likes it too. Well I think you like it. from the amount of drool hanging from your mouth I think you like it." I hugged her tight.
"its too much Steph. Way too much."
"too late. I ordered t while you were staring. Its getting delivered o your house in three days." I gave her another big hug and suggested lunch. We ended up buying a whole bunch of clothes and a few toys for my little boy.
I was quite tired by the time we were heading back to the reservation… well that was until one of my favorite songs came on.
"oh my god! Seriously! Io love this song its amazing!" I shouted to Steph while cranking up the music.
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit?
Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming
This is the new shit
Stand up and admit it
Do we need it? NO!
Do we want it? YEAH!
This is the new shit
Stand up and admit it
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
Everything's been said before
There's nothing left to say anymore
When it's all the same
You can ask for it by name
Are you motherfuckers ready for the new shit?
Stand up and admit it, tomorrow's never coming
This is the new shit
Stand up and admit it
Do we need it? NO!
Do we want it? YEAH!
This is the new shit
Stand up and admit it
Now it's you-know-who
I've got the you-know-what
I stick it in the you-know-where
You know why, you don't care
Now it's you-know-who
I've got the you-know-what
I stick it in the you-know-where
You know why, you don't care
Now it's you-know-who
I've got the you-know-what
I stick it in the you-know-where
You know why, you don't care
Now it's you-know-who
I've got the you-know-what
I stick it in the you-know-where
You know why, you don't care
Babble, Babble, Bitch, Bitch
Rebel, Rebel, Party, Party
Sex, sex, sex, don't forget the violence
Blah, blah, blah
Got your lovey-dovey sad and lonely
Stick your stupid slogan in
Everybody sing along
I san along as Steph laughed at me.
"what?" I asked her turning the music down again."
"nothing just never took you as a Marilyn Manson fan."
"you better believe it baby. He is the shit." I joked.
"deer!" she shouted pointing out the window.
"fuck!" I yelled swerving just in time to miss it. everything seemed to go in slow motion after that. I heard the tires squealing across the tarmac. My eyes widened as I felt the crunch of the car against a tree. I heard an ear splitting scream, only to realize it came from me. I went flying side ways into the windscreen and heard the crack of the glass. Something warm and sticky was trickling down the side of my face and matting my hair together. I hope my baby was going to be okay. That's the last thought I had before the darkness swallowed me whole…