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I obviously don't own skins because if I did, Naomi would be alive and on holiday with Emily in Goa.
Naomi
4 months later.
Things were so great for me at the moment, I literally feel like everything good is coming to me lately. I got a bonus at work because the company got bigged up in some big magazine company so my boss is high off his ass with happiness. Effy is insanely in love with Cook so she's always got a huge smile on her face and is mostly always staying at Cooks so I get more time to have the place on my own to roam about naked and hang out with Emily. Wait... no! Not together! Obviously I'm fully clothed when she's around!
Emily and I have gotten so close as friends, it's so nice. We've literally been together everyday, I'm surprised she isn't sick of me yet. Although she's not been herself lately, she's been so quiet with me. She doesn't text me as much as she usually does, she's not talkative on the phone and whenever we are together she's always on her phone. A couple of weeks ago I tried to get her to talk to me at my flat but she just completely cut me off.
"Em, what do you feel like? Chinese, Indian, Pizza, Kebab or... Thai" I said while scattering the takeaway menu's I had collected over time.
"Whatever, I'm not really bothered, Naoms. You choose" She replied not looking away from her phone
"Well I'm not just going to choose something on my own, what if you don't like it. Come on, help me choose" I playfully nudged her
She huffed and finally looked at me with something in my eye that I didn't particularly like the look of. She scanned the menu's for a few seconds "Chinese" She quickly said and sat back and resumed texting on her phone.
"Emily?" She ignored me
"Ems?" She ignored me again
"Ems?" I asked her again with more volume in my voice which finally alerted her
"Arghhh! What, for fucks sake Naomi!" She shouted
"Who are you texting?" I asked quietly, feeling a little scared by her tone
"It's none of your fucking business, Naomi" She snapped
"Okay, sorry. Why are you so angry?"
She sighed and rubbed her head.
"Just leave it Naoms, yeah?" She said finally putting her phone in her pocket, standing up and grabbing her bag
"I'm just gonna go, I just need to be on my own at the moment" She said looking at me with sadness in her eyes
"Ems, don't just leave. You can talk to me" I grabbed her hand but she pulled away. "Have I done something?" I asked
"No... It's not you. Look, just leave me alone ok?" She said bowing her head. "See you" and that was it, she was out the door.
We've spoken briefly since but not as much as before and she seems more happy than she obviously was. She still wont tell me what happened that day but to be honest, I didn't like how cold she was towards me and I don't really want to see that side of Emily again so for now I'm just going to leave it.
She text me earlier and told her she had a surprise for me and she would be over this afternoon so I'm guessing I'm definitely forgiven for whatever I've done. To be honest, nothing could kill my mood right now. I am happy, I am 23 in a weeks time and I am on good terms with my best friend once again! Fuck it, I'm gonna open up my bottle of white as a treat!
I turned up my iPod doc full blast singing along to all the classic Oasis tracks my mum had bought me up with and started dancing around the lounge like a nutter. I was in the middle of dusting so I was basically making up my own little cleaning/dancing moves. God if my mum were to see me right now, she'd wet herself.
A few pumping tunes later, my doorbell rang and I skipped over to answer the door, not bothering to turn down the music so Emily would just join in the happiness and a glass of wine. I steadied myself and gave my best welcoming grin as I opened the door to Emily and... Who the fuck is this? I thought as my face dropped. I couldn't help but just stare at this girl. Not in a nice way, not in a pervy way but more in a... jealous way. She was stunning. She was just about the same height as Emily, Green eyes with luscious long eyelashes, she has mousy brown hair and a perfect set of purley whites. She even had good dress sense. Emily who the fuck is this and why is she standing on my doorstep?
"Naoms, this is Amy." She answered my mentally asked question
I just stood there with a puzzled look on my face until I noticed Emily hold hands with Amy with their hands entwined. I couldn't help but feel like someone was punching my stomach with full force. Why did I feel jealous? Emily's just a friend. Obviously I'm attracted to Emily but everyone is attracted to their friends right? And has nightly dreams about them... What? I'm still straight.
I quickly snapped out of my thoughts realising that I haven't actually said anything but just stand there.
"Pleasure" I smiled and held out my hand for what's her face to shake it.
I glanced at Emily and she was just staring at me with those big beautiful brown eyes of hers.
"My... girlfriend" she finally said with what I was convinced was guilt in her eyes
"C.. come in" I stuttered
And with that, the girl holding Emily's hand breezed past me into my home, dragging Emily with her. I followed them in and I noticed the girl walking over to my dock to change the song playing. I walked into the kitchen and poured myself a large glass of wine. When I re-entered the living room my eyes widened in reaction to her song choice. Fucking Britney Spears – Toxic. Don't judge me okay? It used to be a really good song and I just haven't had time to remove it off my iPod. She started dancing around the room provocatively, fucking hell, make yourself at home why don't you. She hasn't even had a fucking conversation with me! She didn't even ask if she could touch my dock! (Yes, I said DOCK) I already don't like her. Why the fuck did Emily bring her here?!
I glanced over at Emily and her face went red. Probably in embarrassment of that muppet she bought here. I walked over to the iPod and changed the song to Mumford & Sons and turned the volume to an acceptable sound. With that, the girl sat down. I looked back at Emily and saw her roll her eyes and mouth 'Thank god'. I giggled to myself and sat down on the couch.
"So... Amber. Where did you come from?" I knew that wasn't her name but I just couldn't help myself.
"Naomi!" Emily raised her voice slightly to make it known that she was annoyed with me
Amber, Amy, whatever her fucking name is placed her hand on Emily's knee, Emily quickly placing her hand over the top.
"It's okay baby" Amy reassured Emily.
"We actually met online. Like love at first sight wasn't it babe" Amy said. I couldn't help but notice her Bristol accent really pissing me off.
Emily quickly stood up getting the attention of both me and Amy. "I need to pee" She nervously said while walking out of the room.
I turned my head back to Amy once I heard the bathroom door shut.
"So you met online?" I questioned her
"Yeah. She's so fucking fit yeah? When she arranged to meet me I couldn't fucking believe it. I thought 'I'm well in there'!"
I stared at her for a moment. What would Emily do if I were to knock out this girl right this second? I could quickly do it before she comes back from the toilet ant hide her in the cupboard and say she went home...
"She talks about you a lot you know" Amy said cutting me off my thoughts
"Me?" I pointed at myself like a dick head
"Yeah. 'Naomi this, Naomi that. Naomi would love this, Naomi would love that'" she mimicked Emily "Gets a bit annoying at times. I mean, you're not like anything how she described you. She bigged you up so much that I'm actually disappointed" She cut her eyes at me.
'I will knock you the fuck out you crazy bitch' I said to myself. But for Emily's sake I unclenched my fists and smiled at her
"Funny that, because she's never mentioned you" I said and couldn't help but feel a little bit smug when I saw her eyes widen a little bit
Before she got a chance to say anything, Emily walked back in the room.
"Alright Emsy?" I smiled at her
"Yeah, thanks" She said as she threw herself down on the sofa next to Amy and smiled at me.
I noticed Amy looking between our glances and she grabbed Emily's face and kissed her hard making me lost for words.
I sat there awkwardly not knowing where to look. When they both came up for air finally, Emily quietly sighed a 'wow' which secretly killed me inside.
"Ems, can we go back to mine? I'm not feeling all too well and I think I need some... TLC" Amy winked
"But we just got here" Emily said before glancing at me
"Don't worry about me, Eff will be home soon anyway. You go, with your erm... girlfriend" I coughed
With that, Emily got up and walked over to me and gave me the biggest hug. It felt nice, I haven't hugged her like this in a while and I didn't want it to end. But obviously it had to because of the intruder standing on the other side of the room tapping her feet and huffing. Who the fuck does she think she is? This is MY bestfriend and MY house! Bitch.
Emily pulled away from our hug and turned to walk towards Amy.
"Bye Naoms" She almost whispered
"Yeah, see you later babes. Lovely chatting yeah?" Amy said with a wink. If only Emily weren't here. She'd be on a stretcher right now.
I gave my best fake smile and walked towards the door to let them out and making sure the door 'accidentally' hit Amy on the way out.
As soon as they had left, I poured myself another large glass of wine and slumped myself on the couch listening to Mumford & Son still playing on my iPod taking in all the shit that had just happened. Where the fuck did that bitch come from? Since when was Emily talking to people online? That must explain all the texting. But why did she hide it from me? I thought we told each other everything.
As soon as I heard keys in the door and I couldn't help but feel a little relieved that Effy was home.
"Hi Naoms!" She called from the kitchen
"Hi, Eff. There's wine on the counter, help yourself" I called back
A minute later, Effy had joined me on the couch.
"Why are you listening to this hill-billy shit?" She laughed.
"You know I love Mumford & Sons. You don't even give them a chance" I snapped
"I hear them enough blaring from your bedroom every night to already know they piss me off"
There was absolutely no point in arguing with her.
"Whatever" I rolled my eyes. "Hows Cook?"
"He's alright,I'm going back there later. I need to just wash some clothes"
"Oh. Are you not staying here again?" I frowned
"I wasn't planning too" She scrunched her eyebrows
"It's just so fucking lonely and boring here"
"Why don't you tell Emily to come around?" I knew she was gonna bloody say that.
"She'll be busy" I said bluntly
"With what?" She said in an almost laugh
"Her girlfriend" I took a large gulp of wine.
"Her what?"
"You heard me"
"Since when?" Gosh, why does she ask so many fucking questions?
"I don't know. I literally only found out about her about half an hour ago when she bought her here"
"She brought her here?!" I nodded
"With no warning at all?" I nodded
"She told me she had a surprise but a loud, rude, attractive girlfriend I was not expecting"
"Fucking hell" She raised her eyebrows and sighed
We sat there for a while without speaking which made me think a hell of a lot about it all over again. Fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck. I see it now.
"Eff" I quietly said but loud enough for her to hear me while staring at the wall
"Yeah?" I felt her head turn to look at me but I just kept my eyes focused on the wall.
I sighed heavily and closed my eyes tight
"I'm gay" I finally opened my eyes and look at Effy just staring at me. I noticed the corner of her mouth twitch which turned into an all famous Effy smirk.
"Well halle-fucking-lujah!" She smiled and pulled me into a massive hug and I couldn't help but to let the tears pour down my cheeks
"It's about fucking time you admitted it to yourself" She said as she stroked my hair, still hugging me.
I smiled a little bit and closed my eyes, enjoying the moment between us for a moment. I'm so glad she is here right now.
"Please can you stay here tonight?" I asked and I broke away from the embrace and wiped the years from my eyes
"Of course" she smiled "as long as you don't try to grab my minge or anything"
"Oh ha fucking ha. You just couldn't wait for that one could you"
"You know me" She winked "So, what are you going to do about Emily?"
"What about Emily?"
"Don't act like a dick head, Naoms" she raised her eyebrows at me and I couldn't help but hate the fact I knew she was about to state the obvious.
"You have secretly been gay all your life but only truly started to let it show when you met Emily, you shared a kiss with her one night, got shit scared and told her it was a mistake and you should just be friends. You've been hanging out together nearly every single day and night I'm you never got it on any sooner. Emily now has a girlfriend who isn't you and you feel jealous and sad at the same time because you wish it was you taking her home on a Saturday night and making love to her on a Sunday morning just like her current girlfriend will be doing soon. So now you finally admit you're gay..."
I nodded at her
"...And you want Emily to be your girlfriend"
I nodded at the fact. Because I do. I want to be with Emily. I always have but I've been scared. I have to be brave. I have to be brave and tell her everything before it's too late. Maybe it is too late. Or maybe I have just enough time. Holy Shit. I'm fucking gay.
"Fuck"