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Chapter 4

He's The Only Thing You Live For

Jacob stared at me in disbelief.

"What..." he said in a softer voice. My eyes started to water.

"When you where off talking to that girl, I was nearly dragged down the beach and raped Jake! What happened to you protecting me?" I snapped and he wrapped his arms around me. I cried in to his chest as he shushed me, softly stroking my hair.

"Oh honey, I didn't know," he said with a guilty voice.

"I-I was so s-scared," I stuttered, crying.

"I know I'm so sorry," he said in to my hair.

I stopped crying, sniffed and looked up at him, his face wrinkled with concerned.

"Emmy, you need to promise me one thing." he said and by the sound of his voice he meant it.

"Anything." I answered putting my head on to his chest, letting his heart beat soothed me.

"Promise me you won't talk or see Sam... and Paul" he said holding me tighter. I thought about it for a second.

"Ok, I promise." I said. I would do anything for Jake and if that means not talking to them then I won't. He held on tighter if that's even possible and just then, just the way he held me. I new I loved him.

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I was starting to get worried. I haven't talked to Jake in 2 days, I know that's not that long, but I wanted to tell him how I feel before something happens and I loose my chance. He was being distant. After the bonfire with that girl, Bella swan- the one that was with the Cullen boy Edward or something before his family left- I hardly see him. I hear too much about the Cullens, I frowned thinking to myself.

I rolled over to the other side of my bed, uncomfortable at the thought of their family; Sarah didn't like them too much. All the stories Billy and her told said way too much about them. My grandmother being Quileute -along with my dad- I grew up with all that stuff. But I believed in them, more then Jake, Quil and Embry, I can tell you that much.

Although I don't look Quileute -because I take after my mom- I was still half. I moaned and put my pillow over my head.

What could he be doing? I thought wishing he would just come over and show me he's ok.
I pushed the bad thoughts out and got up, I wasn't going to waste another day lying around the house, just breathing and moping. I stood up and made my over size bed, I was surprised it could fit in my tiny room.

I put my iPod on its speaker and set it to shuffle, turning it up loud and playing music. Thankfully Sarah was out so I could have it as loud as I wanted. I went and had a shower, leaving the door open so I could hear the music, trusting that no one would see. I needed a nice hot shower after the sleep I got last night; I wouldn't even call it sleep. More thinking hard with my eyes closed.

I got undressed and stepped in to the hot water, letting it run down every part of my body. It relaxed me so much I sat down, curling my arms around my legs and laying my head on my knees. I tried to picture the night of the bonfire, with Jacob and Bella, Sam and Paul.

To me, Sam didn't seem that bad. Paul always looked angry but in a cute way. I found it weird for Jacob to act so differently around them. It was like he felt uncomfortable around them for some reason.

I finished up in the shower and got out, got dressed and walked out and got an apple to eat. I went and sat outside on my porch. I sighed in relief when I saw that Jacob was walking up, hands in pocket and his normal happy-go-lucky face.

"Hey Jake," I said taking a bite from the apple. He smiled.

"Sup Emmy." he said taking a set next to me.

"I haven't seen you in two days. I was worried you had died or something." I joked. His laugh was small, it worried me.

"Em, I'm going have to call off our plans for this weekend, stuff came up and yeah. Sorry," he said sounding guilty.

"Oh... no it's ok" I smiled. I didn't want him to feel bad.

"Are you sure?" he said putting his hand on my leg, it was warm and made my leg tingle.

"Yes Jake, but can we do something today?" I asked hopeful.

"I'm sorry Em, I already have plans today." he said and I nodded. A little hurt but mostly scared. Scared that the only thing keeping me happy and my now best friend that I love was ditching me this weekend and couldn't hang with me today, something was up. Something I needed to know.

"Jake tell me the truth, are you hanging out with Bella?" I asked and he looked at me quickly.

"N-no. I'm just hanging with Quil today and..." he thought for a moment "and Embry on the weekend"

I didn't totally believe his story but I trusted him, so I gave in.

"Ok, I hope you guys have fun." I said smiling fakely. I couldn't help but be upset that Jake wasn't hanging with me but I understood he has other friends. "Umm I'm going to go inside and umm... clean up" I said standing up and walked for the door.

"Can I come in? I don't have plans until later" he said following me hopefully. I felt even more hurt and a little annoyed he would ask something like that. I'm not a backup plan, I thought.

"No Jake. I'm going to do umm... girl stuff." he looked down sadly.

"Oh... ok, talk later though right?" he said and I nodded stiffly before I shut the door behind me.

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I was set off to go to the Quileute river doc, it was always nice there and I needed to stop thinking about all this stuff with Jacob. He was acting very weird and I had a feeling it was something to do with Bella.

I shook my head, trying to push the bad thoughts out.

I stepped over a log and kept walking through the misty forest. The forest floor was damp from the rain last night and I could hear the scrapping sound of my feet dragging against the ground. It was always a bad habit of mine to drag my feet to low to the ground.

"I hope it doesn't rain," I said to myself, trying to keep the silence away so Jacob couldn't sneak back in to my mind.

I made my way out of the dark creepy forest to a long stretched out clearing that led to the small path way to the dock. I thought I would say in the clearing for a while.

I sat down and lay back, looking up at the sky. The sky was cloudy just as always and it looked like it could rain at any moment, but I didn't care. The rain would give me something to do on this plan free day. I sighed.

"Do I really need Jake to be happy?" I asked myself, closing my eyes and putting my hands under my head.

Yes you do, because he's the only thing you live for, the other voice in my head answered. That voice was once a happy voice but now, since things went wrong it has become sour.

"But he won't be around forever, what will I do then?" I asked the voice.

Fade away in to nothing, simply your heart will stop beating, the voice spoke again. It was getting harsher every day.

"What do I do?" I asked, now starting to get upset.
Hold on to him with everything you have. Without him, you're nothing. I sat up quickly and stoped myself from thinking about it. I stood up and headed for the dock, I was now going so crazy I was talking to myself.

I walked down the slushy dirt track I could hear a small voice humming something. As I got to the rocks on the rivers edge, I spotted a boy cleaning a small boat that was tied to the small wooden dock. I was surprised because this was the first time I had seen a boat here.

I went to turn around and walk away but something made me stop. It could be the one thing to keep my mind off Jake and Bella. I walked down the small wooden doc with my feet making tiny stepping sounds until I was at the end.

"Oh hello," the boy said with a cheery voice. He was wearing a loose checked shirt and a pair of grey shorts. He was cleaning the boat; I could smell the cleaning stuff.

"Hey," I replied with a smile. He returned the same smile, only his was much happier than mine.

"What brings you around these parts?" he asked going back to cleaning.

"Umm just needed to think about things." I replied.

"You wanna talk about it?" he asked and I laughed.

"You want me to tell you, a complete stranger my problems?" I said laughing.

"Well yeah." he replied seriously. I stopped laughing and took off my shoes, dipping my toes in to the freezing water.

"Ok," I said and smiled at him. "Well a friend of a friend of mine is having trouble with... umm love" I said.

"So this is a friend of a friend of yours, right?" he said laughing.

"Yes!" I snapped back "anyways... she loves her best friend but, he's been acting weird lately and she thinks he's hanging out with another girl." I said looking sadly down and playing around with the water.

"Maybe this friend should tell him how she feels?" he said getting out of the boat and sat down next to me.

"But what if she doesn't want to wreck the friendship?" I replied. He thought for a moment.

"How close is she to him?"

"They have been friends since they were five," I said and he nodded.

"If they are so close then nothing should happen." he said happily, getting back in to his boat and picking up the dirty rag.

I sighed and thought about it, I thought about everything that could happen. I thought about how he could react to anything I say. I don't know how long I was in a trance thinking about it but I noticed it was starting to get dark, and that's not a good thing to be happening when you have to walk home through the woods, plus there has been killings near forks, a bear or something.

"You should get home, there have been killings around forks and sighting's of a bear." the boy said.

I stood up and put my shoes back on.

"Yeah your right, I wouldn't want to run in to a bear being my size and all." I joked.

"I don't think it's the bear you need to worry about, something else is killing around here and trust me, it wouldn't matter about your size, he still would eat you" he said although I didn't take it as a joke and I wondered why he said it. I turned and started walking away but turned and faced the boy first.

"Thanks for listening." I said, he smiled and I started walking away again.
As I was out in to the clearing I started to get that weird feeling, the feeling when someone was watching me. The same one I had at the... bonfire. I shook it off, I had bigger problems to worry about, like Jacob and Bella, Jacob and me as friends or more and if I should tell him how I feel or just keep quiet.

I sighed and walked back in to the now getting darker forest. I walked for about 20 minutes until I got the strange feeling again. I frowned it was that strange. I kept walking until I heard a rustling sound behind me. I froze, but quickly started walking again.

I tried to tell myself nothing was there, but a shiver came over me and I felt like something was behind me. I walked faster, picking up my feet so I didn't trip over. Again the sound of something in the bushes jolted through my ears, I was now running more than walking.

My heart beat picked up and I felt a rush of adrenaline sweep through me. My feet picked up more and more speed, and now the thing, whatever was behind me was now running after me. I wanted to scream but I couldn't voice it. The only thing that was working was my legs.

You're going to die Emma, run faster!, a familiar voice rang through my brain. The other half of me was telling me to run. I listened to it and ran as fast as I could. I wasn't sure if my mind was just playing tricks on me or not but my body was running as fast as it could and I couldn't even stop to look around to see what was chasing me, it sounded massive.

You won't be able to see him again, the stupid voice said, I picked up the pace.

The only thing I could think of was Jacob, I wanted him here, I knew he could protect me. I just wanted to see his face one last time before I died. Whatever was behind me was hunting to kill me. I was a threat or even worse, food for this huge thing.

I started to get tired and I could feel my legs caving. I fell, landing on my hands, my knees squelching in to the damp ground. I could feel the tears well up in my eyes and they started to over flow. I got back up to my shaking, sore feet and turned around, the sounds of rustling and light foot steps behind were gone and nothing was in sight.

That was close, now go home, the voice told me.

I caught my breath back and calmed myself. It looked like I wasn't far from my house so I turned around and went to walk until I smacked in to something, something warm and tall, it was like a brick wall. I quickly pushed away from it and stared in to his caring eyes.

"Paul?" I asked stunned.

"I'm here," he soothed in a soft, yet deep voice.

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