Hey guys, its Pj. :P

Well I just want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for your lovely review's. all of you made me smile ear to ear. (:

Thank you so much, its means a lot to me for all your comment's. I know Paul is temperamental but every one has two sides, and I really wanted to show Paul's caring side for a bit. But don't worry, he soon returns to his normal self.

Also with Emma's suicide attempts are far from over, Jacob hasn't even phased yet ha ha. But I just want to warm all of you, this is only the first book/fanfic thingy's out of three. The first one -Under The Full Moon- is very sad and willowy.

There are lots of reckless, stupid things that happen, more heart breaking moments and tears. But of course there are happy, loving, fun times with the pack. (:

Sorry to people that love the Cullen's, they are hardly in this part. L Sorry guys.

All three book/fanfic thingy's are timed with New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn. So I'm sorry if you get upset about that. ):

I hope you enjoy my fanfic I am wrighting for the beautiful and lovely Emily. Sorry if there are some parts you don't understand, don't be scared to ask questions.

Love Pj. xxx

Chapter 6
I woke up silently, no screams or heavy breathing. i wasn't covered in sweat or even in the same clothes as I was last night. I sat up in bed, looking around to find an unfamiliar scene of tall trees. I was sitting in to the middle of the forest. My bed was now gone and I was sitting in a patch of damp grass. I stood up.

"where am i?" I asked myself -although I thought it- I was voicing my thoughts uncontrollably.

I was wearing a long white dress, no shoes and my hair was down and shorter then normal, it was cut shoulder length. I was looking around the small grassy area until i heard something, something that didn't sound happy to see me.

"what was that?" I said voicing my thoughts again.

I turned around and searched for whatever was making the sound. But nothing, just darkness stretched behind the trees. I felt carm, so carm i had to sit. As I sat down and put my hands in my lap I noticed two different coloured forget-me-nots growing around me. they were blue and red and the speed they there growing was amazingly fast.

"flower's?..." I whispered to myself as I laid my hand out as one of the beautiful blue flowers grow in to my hand, I touched it and it started to go a smoky black then died in my hand.

I looked around panicking, all the blue ones were dieing. Only the red stand tall, taller and much warmer then the blue. I was confused, all the red were blossoming yet, not turning black and dieing in front of me. I felt myself stand up, my movement was now controllable to.

I heard a deep growling sound in front of me and I looked up. A shadowy figure stood tall in the darkness behind the trees. I wanted to scream it was that big -it was at least 1 foot bigger then me- but i couldn't voice the scream. I backed away slowly.

"J-Jacob" i said out loud. I had no idea why I said his name.

The thing stepped forward, still not coming out of the dark. I turned around on my heels and started running, a deep snarl followed behind me and a thump, like feet hitting the ground after jumping.

"go away!" I said breathless, running as fast as I could but my feet felt heavy, and I could have sworn I was no more then walking. The massive creature wasn't far behind me, tears rained down my face, I was a goner.

Growling filled my head, make me put my hands to my ears. I felt a slight wind against my back, it was clawing at me.

"Jacob!" I screamed again, but nothing.

I was alone, running from this huge thing I couldn't put a face or name to. I looked in front of me, a trail of red forget-me-nots were in a line. My legs followed them, still running as fast as I possible could.

Another snarl and a slight wind crossed my back. I screamed and looked behind me for the first time, I couldn't see what it was. The only thing I could see was a reddish brown blur.

before I new it I hit something head on. It was warmish but faded in and out of coldness. I pushed away from it and blinked a few times.

"Sam.." I whispered and he didn't look at me. He was shaking, angry look on his face and his fists clenched.

"Sam.. " I whispered again. He looked at me sharply.

"I do what's best for my pack!" he said strongly. His whole body turning in to a pure black blur with a ripping noise. I screamed silently and ran from him, I ran to the right of me and hit something else. I looked up to find Paul.

"Paul you have to help me, the thing is going to get Sam" I panicked but just like Sam, he didn't look at me. His eyes not leaving behind me, the same angery look and his upper lip slightly razed in one corner.

I heard a noise behind me and quickly snapped my body around, a pure black, a reddish brown, a chocolate brown, a gray and black, a light gray, a sandy yellow and a white blur were all spread out, walking towards me with there what looked like teeth showing.

I turned back to Paul to wrap my arms around him but as I did, he started shacking.

"Paul?" I said, my voice cracking.

He did nothing, just shake and look at the ground. I walked past him and turned to face him, slowly backing up with my hands in front of me.

"you don't belong here leech!, We wont let you near her!" he exploded, a dark gray blur took over his body with the same ripping noise. I felt myself being pulled back.

I watched as the blur's faded in to nothing but green tree's but something else was with them, me. I watch as they all faded and I felt another carm take my body. I rubbed my eyes and opened them. I was now at the edge of a cliff. I was over looking the violent, choppy sea's of La Push.

Although the water looked harmful and deadly something was calling me. something that made me feel safe, made me smile. I looked over one last time and lurched myself off the cliff's edge, free falling down to the depth's of the water.

I hit it was much force, braking the surface and being swallowed by the freezing water. It was so cold I felt numb, the numb feeling how ever wasn't so bad.

As I drifted down under the waves, being able to breath perfectly fine under water, I was happy.

"Emma" a sweet, wind-chime voice called. "Emma, its me"

"Who?" I asked, confused on who it was, but I knew the voice well.

"its your mother." it spoke closer, almost next to me.

"mom?" I asked, turning around to find her beautifully perfect face.

"Emma, you need to listen to me carefully." she said holding my hand, we were now on the porch of my grandma, Sarah's house.

I was in my normal bed wear -a black singlet and a pair of underwear- and she was in her beautiful yellow sun dress that she never got a chance to wear because La Push was always rainy.

"yes mom?" I said laying my head on her lap as she stroked my hair.

"Please, don't leave" she said, I could tell she was smiling.

"I wont, I promise." I said smiling in to her dress. "but leave what?"

"Don't leave them" she said and I got up, she cupped my face with her hands, they were cold, almost freezing and her lips were now a pale blue-ish purple.

"Don't leave who?" I asked.

"Don't leave him" she said kissing my forehead. Everything was going bright.

"mom, leave who?" I panicked, everything almost blinding.

"I love you..." she said and with that everything was black.

I awoke with a scream, I was shaking and dripping with sweat. Again my sleep was haunted with nightmares, but this one confused me.

"I should have called Leah early." I said rolling out of bed and grabbing my clock. I squinted my eye's from the light of it.

I found out a few days ago that she wasn't giving me a death stare at the bon fire, she didn't even know she was looking at me. She was thinking hard about something.

"only 10 o'clock" I said to myself grabbing the phone.

Me and Leah always hung out together when Sarah would have meetings. but for a while now she has been bitter, she was heart broken but she never told me to full story. I dialed her number and waited as it rang.

"what." she answered.

"hello, Leah?" I asked, nervously and still a little shaken.

"Emma?" she said surprised.

"yeah... its me, sorry I rang so late"

"no no its ok, I'm glad to hear form you. What's wrong? you don't' sound... good" she asked concerned, even though she was worried, she still sounded hurt, angery.

"can we talk please?" I said in a softer voice.

"yeah sure, what's up?... Shut up Seth!" I could hear Seth in the back ground.

"i just feel like crap and well... heart broken."

~~~

As I sat in the shower with my head in my knees and my eyes closed, i felt better. I felt much better after the talk with Leah last night. But I still couldn't help but feel hurt that Jacob lied to me twice, I even asked him to tell the truth but he didn't and i don't understand why.

"Come on Emma I need to go soon." Sarah called through the door with a hard knock.

"yeah, yeah" I mumbled getting out and drying myself off. I got dressed in to a checked shirt and a pair of blue skinny jeans and just put on my vans. I walked out to the kitchen.

"I'm going to the meeting now, are you coming?" Sarah asked finishing off her coffee. I zipped up my jumper and nodded.

"yeah... " I said sticking my head in the fridge, trying to find something eatable.

"can you go to Billy's and see if he wants a lift." she said and I hit my head in the fridge.

"ouch" I said rubbing my head, i didn't want to face Jacob but I guess I had to sooner or later. "ok" I said in a monotone.

I walked out the door and slowly walked a cross the clearing to Billy's. I went the long way so i didn't go near the garage. When I got the to front of the house there was a faded red truck, Billy's old car. I sighed and knocked on the door, hoping Jacob wouldn't answer.
its not that i didn't want to see him because every inch of my body did, its just that I was scared on what I would find if I did.

I knocked again, this time someone opened the door. I looked down waiting for Jacobs voice but it wasn't him.

"Hello Emma, what brings you over here?" Billy said with his friendly warm smile. I smiled, relieved i wasn't you know who.

"Sarah wanted to know if you needed a ride to the meeting." I said trying to sound as happy as I could, I failed because he picked up on it. He knows me to well.

"yeah i would love a lift, can you just go tell Jake for me, its hard to get myself out there being this is thing." he said with a husky laugh. I smiled and nodded, what more could I do. Billy was like a father to me, I couldn't just say no.

As I made my way around to the back and through the line of trees I started to wish I never got up today, but it was good for me to do this. I couldn't run from my feelings forever, could I?

I as got closer I couldn't hear talking, it was the girl again.

"Quil and Embry?" they girl interrupted Jake from talking. "those are unusual names."

Jacob chuckled. "Quil's is a name-me-down, and I think Embry got named after a soup opera star. I can't say anything, thought. they fight dirty if you start on their names- they'll tag team you."

I stepped in to the huge door way, my heart sink. Bella was sitting in his unfinished Volkswagen Rabbit.

"Emma..." Jacob said standing up, Bella looked confused.

"you... Lied… to me." I said no more then a whisper.

"No its.." Jacob said, I just walked out. I couldn't even cry I felt that hurt. There were no tears, no sobs, just heart ack.

As I walked out I heard someone call after me but it wasn't Jake, it was Embry and Quil.

"Emma." they ran up to me. "Sup?" Quil said concerned. I didn't answer, just stood there.

"Emma talk what's wrong?" Embry said putting his hands on my shoulders.

"What did Jake do to you?" Quil said angrily. I looked at him blankly.

"I'm going to kill him!" Embry said, hugging me.

"don't... he's with Bella" I whispered and Embry pulled me out from his body and looked me in the eyes.

"Bella Swan?" he asked and Quil looked surprised. I nodded, still not starting to cry. I had no idea why but it was like I was broken.

"I'm going go check it out" Embry said kissing the top of my head "Don't worry, we wont say anything" Quil added on the end.

As they walked away I slowly and emotionlessly walked back to Sarah's, Billy was already there. They were waiting for me. As I got closer I smiled, to keep them off my back.

~~~

As I walked behind Sarah and Billy -Sarah was wheeling him- with my hands in my pocket, I didn't know what to feel. I only felt empty, not even sadness or anger. I felt like an empty shell, just flouting through the day without reason. You have to understand, if you loved your best friend who acted like he felt the same sometimes, then lied to you twice because he was ditching plans with you for another girl you would feel the same.

"keep up Emma" Sarah laughed as we walked through the doors.

As we walked in I noticed faces I have seen before, some where closer to me then other's. Leah, Seth and Harry Clearwater where sitting together. Sam Uley was up the front with Paul and another Tall, Tanned, Boy with a well built body. I sheepishly followed Sarah and Billy until someone taped my shoulder.

"Emma come sit with us." Seth said from behind. He was just as bouncy as always, with his wide smile and lit up eyes. I turned to Sarah who nodded and then followed Seth to there seats. Leah greeted me with a small smile and slight wave.

"So why did you come this time?" Seth asked me in a whispered as they started the meeting. I smiled at him, getting closer to his ear so I didn't have to say it loud.

"bored, nothing to do and Sarah made me so.. I had to" I said and his face dropped a little.

"aww so your not here to see me?" he said kind of sad.

"no I'm happy to see you, i haven't seen you since you were only you where 12, I missed you kid" he laughed but pushed me because I called him kid.

"its not kid anymore!" he whispered back.

We started listening to what Sam was saying, he was looking at me most of the time, it confused me. It was like he was waiting for something to happen.
Then I caught a gaze from Paul. He was looking at me with angry, but, behind the anger was worry.

He was mouthing something but I didn't understand what, Seth didn't like it and moved closer, making me look away from Paul and to Seth.

"are you ok?" I quietly asked Seth, who was moving to get comfortable.

"yeah its just... I'm getting a weird vib." he said, he wasn't the only one. I was getting it too. I was going to ask Leah but she was looking dead on at Sam. I kinda got the hit that, that's why she is like she is now. But I didn't think any less of Sam, it was not my business.

"and its been months and the Cullen's still having come back..." I caught the end of what Sam was saying. I thought it was strange that they still were going on about them but, the Cullen family were a big part of the tribes legends and what not.

Again I caught a gaze from Paul, still mouthing the same thing. Only this time he was singing silently. I still couldn't understand what he was staying.

"what's he saying?" Seth asked just as confused as I was.

"I have no idea Seth." I replied.

I looked again, bit this time I mouthed 'what?' back. He smirked, or grinned I couldn't tell.

Then he did it again but a little more clear then the last time. he was saying 'I know you want me, you know I want cha' he was singing the new song by Pit bull. My mouth dropped open, surprised that he would say that and a little annoyed he would think I wanted him.

"What an ass!" Seth said, he was following everything Paul was doing.

"He's an ass alright" I laughed. Giving Paul a razed eyebrow.

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