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By the way the reason Bella was so bitchy is because I kind of needed her to be for the rest of the story. Sorry, I know it sounds nothing like her.

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Warning: another gab filler thingy.

Chapter 12

"do I have to go" I wined as Sarah pretty much dragged me out of bed.

"Yes, do I have to get Jared in here" she said putting her hands on her hips. Over the last four days the boys -Sam, Paul, Jared and Tyler- have been hanging out here a lot.

"you wouldn't" I said lifting my head from my thick blanket.

"OH Jared!!" She called down the hall. I quickly sat up in bed.

"no please" I pleaded. Jared popped his head in to the door way.

"yes Sarah" Jared said in a kind tone. Sarah smirked and pointed to me, laying in bed.

"tickling time?" he smirked and Sarah left the room with a nod. I looked at Jared with puppy eyes.

"cant we talk about this first" I asked pouting.

"I'm sorry Em, I have too" he smiled, shrugging his shoulder and walking over to me.

He jumped and I quickly got away from him. I poked my tongue out at him and he smiled. I run for the window and snapped it opened. I heard Jared jump off the bed so I got on to the window sill and pushed myself out, only I didn't hit the ground.

"you cant get away from us" Sam chuckled and put me down. I huffed.

"I don't want to come though" I wined and he lifted my chin.

"its just a little picnic and I want you to meet my beautiful Emily" the love

In his voice when he said her name was clear, made me smiled.

"and it would mean a lot to Sarah, she's been worried about you, you hardly leave your room" he explained.

I caved, he's right. Ever since the thing with Jacob I hardly leave my room. The only thing I do is mope around, blaming myself for everything that has happened. My dads death, my moms death, Daniel leaving and Jacob yelling at me. but just like everything else, Paul would protest against it.

"ok ok, I will come" I rolled my eyes and heard Jared laughing from my room.

"Get out of my room Jared!" I yelled through my window. He popped his head out the window making me jump back.

"I cant help it, you have a weird thing with animals" he said smiling.

"I do not!!" I huffed again which only made him grin."why is your room covered in wolves and bears?" he asked, one eyebrow razed.

"Because Sarah handed them down to me, it's a family thing" I explained. He nodded and popped his head back in. I turned to Sam and gave him a sad look.

"do I really have to?" I wined again, he smiled and put his arm around me, much like an older brother.

"Yep" he said popping the p.

"fine" I said walking back to the front door.

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"dude, your squishing me" Tyler complained shoving Jared.

"stop pushing me man, I cant help it" Jared said shoving him back.

I sighed and changed gars with a grunt. Why Tyler had to come I had no idea why but he did.

"boys stop fighting. we are nearly there." I yelled breaking up the mumbling between them.

"why you have a crappy small car like this, I don't know." Tyler said looking out the window.

I clenched my teeth. "you didn't have to come" I said frustrated.

"I'm sorry, I just think it's a piece of crap" he replied.

"that's it, I'm not talking to you for the rest of the day" I said tightening the grip of the wheel.

"aww come on, don't act like this baby" he wined.

"I don't think it's a piece of crap" Jared smiled.

"thank you Jared, at least your nice" I smiled back.

"suck up" Tyler spat at Jared looking back out the window, Jared just grinned smugly.

We pulled up to the spot where everyone was waiting for us. Sarah sat smiling and laughing with Billy, Sam had his arms wrapped around a beautiful women, she looked shy, must be Emily and Paul stood wolfing down food. I sighed.

"looks like they started the party without us" Tyler said jumped out of my car, Jared followed.

"yeah, party. woo" I whispered to myself before I took a deep breath and hoped out, putting on my fake happy smile.

I slowly made my way to the group.

I cant believe I'm here, I wined to myself.

Because the only thing you have been doing is mope, you need this, the other voice replied strongly.

I have not!, I just miss Jacob that's all, I defended. Which was true. I really did miss Jacob.

You cant lie to yourself Emma, your mopping around because you blame yourself. It wasn't your fault that bitch Bella through her drink on you, the other voice replied again.

I shook my head, I was talking to myself again. How insane can you get. I walked faster to the group and entered the space they were in. Tyler and Jared where now stuffing there faces with food.

"Emma, could you please come here for a moment" Sam smiled. I nodded and walked over.

"I would like you to meet Emily, my beautiful wife to be" he gazed at her lovingly. I smiled shyly and looked at her face.

She had three long red scars running down her face, neck and probably her body. One of the scars tugged at her lips making her smile slightly crooked but to me, it only added more to her beauty.

"hi" I said just as shy as my smile. She laughed, it was like wind chimes.

"nice to finely meet you Emma. Paul has told me you make a mean steak" she giggled, leaning in to Sam's side. I blushed, I made horrible steak that day Paul come over, in fact I wouldn't even call it steak.

"its nice to meet you to Emily." I smiled.

"Princess" Paul called from behind me. I turned around and smiled slightly.

"Hey Paul" I said waving as I walked over to him.

The same happy smiled tugged at his lips like every other time he saw me, I had no idea why but he was always happy to see me, yet with everyone else he would bite there heads off if they did one tiny little thing.

"thought I wouldn't get a chance to see you until later on today." he said opening his arms, pulling me in to a tight bear hug, making me crash in to his chest and loose all the air in side me.

"no I was made to come" I huffed. He let go.

"by who" he asked with one eyebrow razed.

"Sam" I pointed to Sam who was staring deeply in to Emily's eyes, compassion willed up in side them.

"oh, right" Paul laughed.

"listen Paul about the other night." I tried to explain but Paul stopped me.

"Emma, I don't mind. I'm here, I have told you that" he smiled.

"but I'm not just talking about that part. Over the last few days I have been unfair on everyone, but mostly you. I'm sorry." I looked down, disappointed with myself.

"Listen Em. You don't need to say sorry. its not your fault that dickhead was to idiotic to look at your top, seeing it was wet from Queen bitches little fit" he laughed.

I couldn't help but giggled at his nickname for her.

"Paul" I said softly, both of us stopped laughing. "why do you ca-"

Right on time, Mr. cant keep my pants on Tyler walked over with a smirk, interrupting me right in the middle of my question.

"hey Baby, sorry about our little fight in the car." he smirked.

I didn't answer.

"aww come on babe, still not talking to me?" he pouted. I shook my head.

He walked pasted Paul -making him tense- and put his arm around me, I crossed my arms feeling uncomfortable.

"just you know baby, If I could see you naked, I'd die happy." he grinned smug with his comment. none the else, Paul didn't take it to well.

"If I saw you naked, I'd probably die laughing" I replied rolling my eyes.

Jared must have heard because he spat out his food laughing. Paul smirked, but still was pissed off, the look in Paul's eyes said it all.

"don't be like that. I swear it must have hurt so bad" he replied, I looked up at him confused.

"did what hurt?" I asked and he grinned.

"when you fell from heaven baby because you're an angel." I walked right in to that one.

I felt Tyler being ripped away from me. I stepped back stunned and watched Paul punch Tyler repeatedly in the face. Jared ran over and covered my eyes. I tried to get his hand away so I could watch the horrible slight but he was to strong. A ripping sound happened and I thought I heard growling, real animal growling.

"Paul!!" Sam yelled, I flinched back in to Jared's chest. "Tyler!!" he yelled again.

"its ok Emmy, just think of the ocean" Jared whispered in to my hair.

I was shaking in fear, I had no idea what was going on around me. I could only listen.

"The woods Now!" Sam yelled and the sounds of fighting, growls and yelps stopped in seconds.

Still shaking, Jared sat me down. The odd sounds I heard running through my head and I was turning to name or even put words to them.

"Emma" Jared said waving his hand in front of my face, I snapped out of my emotionless gaze.

"yeah" I answered , my voice shaken.

"Em its ok, Paul just got in to a fight with Tyler, happens every day. Sam has gone to sort them out." he smiled reassuring.

I sighed in relief.

"good.. Umm c-can I please have a drink?" I asked nicely and he nodded and went to get me one.

What the hell just happened, why was there strange noises and growling sounds. There's clearing no animal around here, the unanswered thoughts raced through my head.

"here" Jared said and I jumped.

"its ok calm down Em. Every things fine" he chuckled.

"oh… yeah, sorry" I half smiled and nervously sip my cold drink.

Why am I so scared from this, I was nearly dragged down the beach and raped and then chased by something through the forest that might have not even been there.

I felt the tears well up in my eyes and I blacked a few times to hold them back. I had to think of something else, talk about something to keep my mind off this. I tuned in to what Sarah and Billy where happily talking about with Emily.

"So how's everything with you Billy" Sarah asked after laughing. I didn't get why they where so cool about what happened before.

"every things fine really, something's troubling Jake though. When Bella's not around he just mopes around the house staring out in to the clearing in between our house." Billy said concerned.

Jacobs name pulled at my in sides. I wrapped my arms around my torso. The feeling of being alone kicked in and I felt the breath being knocked out of my chest.

"that's no good." Sarah said. "its been the same with Emma, all she does is mope around the house all day. If it wasn't for Paul and Jared she wouldn't even get out of bed in the morning." he told him thinking I was listening.

I felt guilt rush over me.

"but I don't blame her Billy. I think her mother's death in taking a toll on the poor girl. I just hope her and Jacob talk about it soon." she finished, I felt better.

"yes, I know Jacob has a hard way of saying it because he's trying to help Bella Swan out but he cares her Emma. A lot more then he leads on." Billy sighed.

Jake doesn't care for me, he cares for Bella, I thought sipping my drink again. and I don't blame him, she's so beautiful.

I took a deep breath. I wanted to ask so many questions. Like what just happened and what kind of animal did I hear, but didn't.

"Sarah" my voice cracked. "I think I'm going to go now. K" I said standing up. She frowned but nodded.

"bye Billy, it was nice meeting you Emily." I smiled and waved. I hugged Jared and walked for my car.

I started the car and drove home. On the way it was lonely. I felt like it was only me on the earth and I had no one to talk to. I sighed as I pulled up my drive way, also half Jacobs.

I parked the car and hoped out. The air was cold and it was going to rain soon. I quietly walked to my front door but was meet half way by a familiar sound. I stopped dead in my tracks.

Jacob was laughing, at what I don't know but I didn't care. The sounded warmed me and I didn't feel alone anymore. I tried not to look but I had to. I turned my head to find Jacob looking at me, his smile fading and his eyes hurt. I looked away.

"just walk forward" I whispered and walked to my front door, I fiddled with the keys for a second but quickly got them in.

I walked through the door and shut it behind me. The house was cold so I shut the windows and started a fire in the fire place. I walked back to my room.

"Hey Princess" Paul came out of no where. I jumped back with my hand on my chest.

"you scared me" I said threw my keys at him, he caught them.

"Sorry" he grinned, rubbing the back of his neck and throwing my car keys on my bed.

"are you ok?" I asked grabbing the keys and putting them on my desk.

"Yeah I'm fine" he laughed. I looked at him skeptical, after what I heard today I didn't believe him for a second.

He looked at me with his eyebrows razed. "do I really have to?" he asked in a winy voice.

I pulled my eyebrows together and nodded. He rolled his eyes and turned around slowly, to my surprise me was fine.

"Happy?" he said when he finished spinning around.

"yeah" I said sitting on my bed.

"Sorry about today Em, I just had to put that idiot Tyler in his place" he clenched his teeth and he snarled his name.

I shook my head and put my arms around myself.

"its fine Paul. He's a creep anyways." I reassured him. he smirked proudly over something.

"what are you so happy about?" I asked, my voice was small.

"I just like being around you" his smirk turned to a loving smile quickly. I looked him in the eyes.

"why do you care about me so much Paul?" I asked all of a sudden, although I have been trying to ask him for a while now.

He looked at me dead serious. He was thinking really hard about something.

"why do you ask, is it because the dickhead next door doesn't care?" he asked him it hurt a little.

"no" I said in no more then a whisper, looking down to my feet and tightening the grip I had around myself.

"Emma" he said strongly, insisting I tell the truth.

"I just don't get why anyone would care about someone as useless and worthless as me" I choked out, without letting myself cry.

Paul sat on the bed making it sink like last time and pulled me close.

"don't ever say your useless or worthless again." he said holding me tight.

"but-"

"No Emma, your not. no matter what he does to you or makes you feel, you are not worthless!" he sneered through his teeth.

We sat there in silence for a while. He was as stiff as I bored but still held me in a caring way. He let go and brought my head up.

"I have to go princess but I will be back soon. Ok" he said kindly. his voice was unlike his when he spoke to me like that. It had no angry in it, no rage or frustration, just kindness.

"oh ok" I nodded mindlessly. he stood up and gave me one last look then went through my bed room door and out the back.

I sat there thinking about everything that happen today, yesterday and every other shit day in my life. My head started to hurt and the wind was picking up. I looked around my room dazed.

"the window is still open" I sighed to myself and stood up and walked for the window.

As I put my arms up to shut the window I looked out to find a face I missed seeing everyday. Jacob stood in his garage fixing a red motor bike. I stopped and stared lovingly at him. His brown shirt clinging on to his god like mussels, his well built arms working on the bike and his beautiful russet face content with concentration.

I felt one of my hands press against my heart as his gaze from the bike founded my face. He stopped what he was doing and the stress on his face turned to something else but soon enough Bella came around the corner and my face dropped.

I shut the window and turned away.

Why do I love him so much?

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