Why Me? Im not even Beautiful? Chapter 30, a twilight fanfic

Hey Guys. I hope yall enjoy this chapter cause I am extremely tired and I am not going to talk much I have been up since 5:30am and it now almost midnight. I cant beleive I have stayed up this long. Im exhausted. So enjoy.

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I couldnt think of anything else between the time right now and what I want to write/plan for this story. SO this is just a new idea. Its not a best but in this chapter you will get to see Edward's point of view.

Chapter 30

2 months later.

BPOV

So it was Febuary 28th, Almost March. 2 months had passed by since the Edward incident. Nothing had happened lately by him. He had another surgery in January and was still recovering by going through counseling every Monday and Fridays. I think he was still getting better though. If he couldn't get his way, then he threw a fit. I could be around him and he wouldn't do anything to me. I remember the other day when Emmet, Jasper, and Edward were playing the Mario Cart Wii the other day….

"Go Go Go!" Emmet cheered as he drove his little car off the edge by accident. "No! No! No!"

"Yes! I won!" Jasper said when he came in 1st place with Emmet in second and Edward came in 6th.

"You guys cheated!" Edward said through his teeth as I sat on the couch, reading while Carlisle read the paper.

"No we didn't, Bro," Emmet spoke up and next thing I knew was that I was screaming because there was a huge clash in the room. I looked up and saw that the Wii remote was smashed through the TV and Carlisle made Edward go upstairs and then Emmet and Jasper went and bought a new TV. I shrunk back as I watched everything.

As for me, it has been a few months since I have talked, but the good thing was that I could walk around the house freely with only a boot on my leg. Carlisle still didn't want to risk me messing it up or something happening to it. But he also said that I am still having stress on myself which is why I don't talk and I usually have bad dreams in the night and so, Carlisle gives me medication before I go to bed.

"Everyone, I have an announcement," Carlisle said as I sat in the recliner, watching Pride and Prejudice. "Everyone come to the living room."

I turned off the TV, silently and shifted in my seat as everyone came in and Edward happened to sit on the couch on the end closest to me.

I looked up and Carlisle and Esme were standing in front of all of us and I took a sip of my drink I had sitting on the coffee table.

"Whats the announcement, Carlisle?" Alice asked, jumping up an down from being anxious and Jasper put a hand on her knee and she instantly calmed down.

"Well, Esme and I have decided. Since Bella is feeling much better, Edward is basically cured and is perfectly fine now. No Explosive Disorder. We decided that we are going to take a family vacation!" Carlisle said and I saw Edward looking at me. His… His eyes weren't the way I expected them to be. Instead of hatred and terror and anger, they were filled with what? It seems to be love. I shook the thought out of my head. He actually looked cute. Stop it Bella! He almost killed you! He is NOT cute. Don't fall for him! My mind cheered me on and I shut my conscious off.

"Yay," Alice and Rosalie cheered and started jumping up and down.

"Where to, Dad?" Edward velvet voice spoke out and it was like I was falling in love. This couldn't be happening. I mean why is this happening to me, NOW!

"Denver, Colorado. We are going skiing," Esme said and Emmet jumped up.

"Yes! Finally. I loved it when we went last time!" Emmet cheered and Edward rubbed his chin.

"What do you think, Bella?" Esme asked. But she knew I wasn't going to talk.

"I-I t-think i-it's a g-great i-i-idea," I stuttered out and everyone looked at me, amazed.

"What did you say Bella?" Carlisle asked with his doctor instinct coming out.

"I t-think it's a g-great idea," I repeated again not stuttering as much.

"Have you ever been skiing before Bella?" Emmet asked and I shook my head.

"No, m-my family could n-never a-afford i-it," I said in a quiet voice and he nodded.

"When are we going, Carlisle?" Jasper spoke up for the 1st time from when he was watching.

" We are leaving on Friday," Carlisle said and Alice gasped.

"Rose, we only a day to shop and pack. We gotta hit the mall," Alice said and started to jump up and down again.

"How long are we gonna stay?" Edward asked and looked at the time on the clock. 4:48pm.

"For 2 weeks," Esme smiled and I smiled. I was getting very excited about this trip especially since it was my first time skiing. Well I probably wont be able to ski. Maybe I can go sledding or something.

"Wow!" Alice exclaimed.

"Well lets get packing," Carlisle said, " We leave for the airport on Friday morning at 7:30am, we board the plane at 8:45am, then depart at 9:15am. It takes 4 hours to get there. Which it puts us arriving by 1:30pm. Get the rental cars. We will go out to eat. Go to the hotel and check in and then the rest of the trip continues."

After Carlisle finish, everyone left leaving me to my thoughts.

I believe this was going to be a fun trip.

Edward's POV

It was Febuary 28th. Almost March. I, Edward Cullen can proudly say that I am 'cured' from an Explosive Disorder. I couldn't believe how much I had actually hurt Bella, through all the surgeries and therapy I had and I am still taking, I cant believe how much I had hurt her.

When I first met her, I never intended it to be this way. I wanted what was best for her. I wanted to love her and she would love me. I wanted every morning she would wake up in my arms and every night she would fall asleep in them. Then I would lay awake at night and watch her sleep, listen to her heart beat.

But the way she reacted when I kidnapped her, it set me off. I was all protective. I put her through pain with the shots I made that evil Dr. Gore give her. Then I tied her up and beat her. The way I forced her here and when I put things on her plate when Aro was here and she got mad because she didn't want to eat the things I put there and I beat her for no dang reason.

Im an animal!

How can I even live with myself?

I almost killed her by beating her. As I said. ANIMAL!

Now the question is 'how can I make it up to her?

"Everyone, I have an announcement," Carlisle said and pulled me away from my thoughts in my room. "Everyone come to the living room."

I walked down stairs and saw Bella sitting in the recliner, so I calmly went and sat on the couch, closest to her on the closest end to her.

"Whats the announcement, Carlisle?" Alice asked, as Carlisle and Esme stood in front of us and Jasper calmed Alice down.

"Well, Esme and I have decided. Since Bella is feeling much better, Edward is basically cured and is perfectly fine now. No Explosive Disorder. We decided that we are going to take a family vacation!" Carlisle said and I looked at Bella and she caught me looking at her and I starred into her beautiful brown orbs she called eyes, lovingly and passionately trying to show her, I meant no harm to her, but she pulled away from our stare and watched Alice.

"Yay," Alice and Rosalie cheered and started jumping up and down.

"Where to, Dad?" I asked glancing at Bella who had a thinking face on as if she was in deep thought about something.

"Denver, Colorado. We are going skiing," Esme said and Emmet jumped up.

"Yes! Finally. I loved it when we went last time!" Emmet cheered .

"What do you think, Bella?" Esme asked Bella, but there was no way Bella would talk. I don't think so.

"I-I t-think i-it's a g-great i-i-idea," A small voice stuttered out and it happened to be Bella voice. Goodness gracious! I missed her angeletic voice. It was so beautiful.

"What did you say Bella?" Carlisle asked, astonished and I leaned back in the sofa, playing with the pillow beside me.

"I t-think it's a g-great idea," She repeated, trying not to stutter. She probably was having a hard time speaking since it had been 2 months maybe 2months and a half since she spoke.

"Have you ever been skiing before Bella?" Emmet asked.

"No, m-my family could n-never a-afford i-it," She spoke again.

"When are we going, Carlisle?" Jasper spoke up.

" We are leaving on Friday," Carlisle said and Alice gasped.

"Rose, we only a day to shop and pack. We gotta hit the mall," Alice said and started to jump up and down again.

"How long are we gonna stay?" I asked, looked at the time on the clock. 4:48pm.

"For 2 weeks," Esme smiled. May be on this trip, I could possibly make it up to Bella. Maybe I could speak with Dad and have like, room arrangements done or flight arrangements. The only thing I have to focus on is getting Bella calm.

"Wow!" Alice exclaimed.

Afte dad finished, I walked up to him as Bella sat there thinking.

"Dad, can I speak to you?"

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