Fandom: Grey's Anatomy
Character: Addison&Derek
Rating: T
Status: In progress (Chapter 3/5 – Everything you want)
Disclaimer : Characters and show belongs to Shonda Rhimes. Title of the fic belongs to The Research. Title of the chapter belongs to Vertical Horizon.
Author's Note: Guess what, guys? I've decided to make this fiction 5 chapters long instead of 3. Two days ago, while I was jogging, I had other interesting ideas… so well, the more the merrier, I guess. This is just a filler chapter, so nothing really cool happens this time but I hope you'll like it anyway. Thanks for reading!
Lonely hearts still beat the same.
- Chapter 3 -
Everything you want, everything you need..
After a very long shower you know what you have to do. You can't just stay here pretending Derek didn't tell you that he loves you. You need to fly to Seattle and talk to him, because if there's a chance, even a tiny chance, you need to know.
You take your Louis Vuitton Keepall 50 and you start packing. You don't know how long you're going to stay away, it will depend on Derek. You don't need a lot of things, just some change of clothes and underwear. Make up and shoes. You're almost done when you hear your bedroom's door opening.
"Addison… What are you doing?" Sam asks you. His voice sounds curious.
"Hey…" you turn to look at him. "I'm… I'm packing" you just tell him.
"Yeah, I can see that" he replies like he wanted to tell you that he's not stupid "Where… where are you going?"
"I'm going to Seattle" you reply, while wearing the necklace Derek gave you many years ago. You're now feeling ready to wear it again. You kind of need to wear it.
"Seattle?"
"I… I have something to…"
Sam notices your necklace. He recognizes it and he knows you haven't worn it since you and Derek divorced. He comes closer to you, takes a deep breath and starts talking.
"You're going to Seattle for Derek, aren't you?"
You turn your face down and put on your Loboutin shoes.
"Addison, please…" he tells you, holding your arm tightly.
"I'm sorry, Sam. Okay?" you reply, looking at him straight in the eyes. "I have to go there… If there's a chance I can get my husband back, I won't waste it."
He lets your arm go and hugs you. You didn't expect such a nice treatment from him.
"Addie… Go and get him. Okay?" he kisses you on your left cheek "I'm sorry we didn't work. I didn't mean to hurt you. You deserve the best. I don't know what made you change your mind about Derek but if you feel like you still have a chance with him, well… if that's the case, just go and get him!"
Sam is such a good friend, you think. That's the problem. He's a friend to you, not a boyfriend. It's one of your best friends, that he is. Nothing less, nothing more.
"Sam, thank you so much" you say, hugging him even tighter. "I'll keep in touch, okay?"
"Sure" he lets you go "Goodbye, Addison."
"Goodbye, Sam" you give him one last kiss on his left cheek.
Sam kisses you back then he leaves your house. You know it's for good. You also know that if things don't turn out as you want in Seattle, then you'll be alone again. The thought of being on your own once again scares the hell out of you. This time, though, you want to take the risk. You have to.
It's 6.00 am and you're ready to leave Los Angeles. You lock the house and drive your car to the airport. The first flight to Seattle leaves in three hours, so you have all the time to buy the ticket and wait at the check-in line. You're so nervous and impatient. Derek doesn't know you're coming and you have no idea how he'll take this. Will he yell at you? Will he be happy to see you again? Will he pretend he never told you that he loves you? All these questions are killing you. You need to know the truth.
The plane takes off right on time. The flight won't last long but you need to sleep a little, so you just close your eyes and sooner than you could ever imagined, you're arrived.
It's raining. You hate the rain, you prefer snow and you're now used to Los Angeles' sun and heat. Luckily you have an umbrella with you, so you won't get all wet. While walking to the first cab you can see, you bit your lower lip like you always do when you're nervous. You can't believe you've been so impulsive. It's true that love can make you crazy things, you think while getting into the cab.
Seattle Grace Mercy West Hospital. You're standing outside the hospital, under the rain, unable to enter. You're frightened. It takes you five minutes to feel ready to get into the huge building.
You have no idea where Derek might be so you decide to ask a nurse to page Dr. Shepherd for you.
"Dr. Montgomery!" you hear a female voice calling your name.
"Yeah?" you turn and you see the last person you'd like to see right now. Meredith Grey.
"Meredith" you just say "How are you?" you're really trying your best to be polite.
"Fine, thank you. Are you here for a case?" she asks you, giving you her annoying smile.
"No, not really. Do you know where I can find Derek?"
"Yeah, sure… He's in the Chief's office. He's doing some research for this surgery he has to perform on a five years old girl affected…"
"Thank you, Dr. Grey" you interrupt her and walk away.
You take the elevator and walk through the hall and then you're arrived. You're now standing outside Webber's office. You raise your right hand and knock on the door.
"Come in" Derek says.
You slowly open the door and you finally see him. He's giving you his back so he doesn't know that you're the one who's standing by the door. Your heart is beating faster than its usual, you get that warm fuzzy feeling you always get when you see him. He's the one you love, he's the only one who knows everything about you. He's your soulmate. You lean on the door, your arms crossed on your lap.
"Hi, Derek." you simply say, smiling at him.