I woke up with a small gasp and in cold sweat.
As I looked over in the semi darkness I found Sam still sleeping beside me.
I was having the dream again. The one with Ben.
Slowly and carefully I got out of bed, trying hard not to make a noise to wake up Sam.
My were soaked with sweat and I felt shaky. After grabbing some new clothes I headed for the bathroom. As I walked into the now luminous room, I caught a glance at myself.
I looked like crap. I was pale and weak looking. My hair was a mess and I looked almost frail. Swallowing hard, I shut the door quietly and tried to calm myself down.
Pull yourself together Bella. I thought to myself.
I decided to splash my face with some water, hoping that it would wake me up some more.
As I leaned over the sink, splashing water over my face, the door creaked open and in stepped a sleepy Sam.
"Hey." He groaned rubbing his eyes.
"Hey, what are you doing up?" I asked looking at him through the mirror.
I have patrol with some of the guys this morning. What are you doing up so early?" he asked now getting used to the light and being up.
"Nothing." I said and then wiped my face.
"Why do you have an extra pair of clothes sitting there?" he asked looking at me through the mirror like I did with him.
"Umm…" Hurriedly I thought of something.
"I was all hot and sweaty from your body heat. I forgot what it was like to sleep next to you." I lied.
He looked at me, knowing I was hiding something, but nodded none the less.
"Well, I will change out here and let you get ready." I told him in a hurry. I grabbed my clothes and was about to step out of the bathroom when Sam blocked my way.
"You sure you're ok?" he asked me.
"Yea," I smiled. "I'm all good."
He nodded again and bent his head down to kiss me, which I happily accepted.
After the short but loving kiss, he made his way into the shower while I changed in the room.
I tried lying back down, just listening to the shower run, but I couldn't sleep. Instead, I laid there thinking about my nightmare. It made Goosebumps appear.
I covered my temples with my hands, still thinking about the feeling of the gun. Tears surfaced to my eyes and I was overcome with this emotion to just let out an angry cry.
"Hey." A voice said breaking me out of my thoughts.
I looked over and saw Sam kneeling down beside my side of the bed with a concerned look on his face. I sucked up my emotions and put on a happy face.
"Hey." I said in a fake cheery voice while moving my hands away.
His concern didn't fade and he ran a hand over my cheek.
"I love you, you know that right?" he asked me.
I gave him a true smile this time and nodded.
"Of course I do."
"Then you know you can tell me anything right?" he asked me again with a hint of emotion in his voice.
I looked at him and broke my stare.
"I know Sam." I whispered.
We stared at each other for a little longer before Sam finally got up and kissed my head.
Without saying anymore words, he walked to the door to leave for patrol.
"Sam?" I asked shakily, watching him leave.
He turned around and looked at me.
I got out of bed, pulling the covers off of me and walked to him. He held his arms open for me and I hugged him tightly, burying my face in his shoulder.
When we broke away, I leaned in, standing on my tip toes to give him a kiss. The kiss got deeper and sweeter, making us move our bodies to the wall.
We stayed in close contact with each other, breathing deeply. As his body covered mine against the wall, I put a hand over his cheek and rubbed it with my thumb.
"I missed you." I spoke.
His eyes met mine and then fluttered closed. He leaned even closer, his head snuggling into my neck and pecking it with kisses. I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of him.
"I missed you too." He whispered while putting our foreheads together. My eyes fluttered open and we stared at each other for a while. We both took a second, closing our eyes and just holding each other.
Banging was heard downstairs and we opened our eyes.
"You should get going; the guys are waiting for you." I whispered.
Sam's eyes fell and he nodded.
We kissed one more time and had a hard time pulling away from each other.
My arms found their way around Sam's neck and his found their way to my waist.
"I love you, always." I told him in his chest and loosened my grip on his neck.
He let out a groan and hugged me tighter.
Finding a smile grow on my face, I let out a small laugh and pulled his arms away.
"Come on you goof. Let's go."
I dragged him downstairs and found the guys waiting for him.
"Dude, what took you so long? You said 530. No but's about it." Jared said slightly annoyed.
"Yea man, we've been ready." Embry told him.
"Sorry boys. I stole him for a little longer." I told them while heading into the kitchen.
"Oh, it's ok Bella." They then said.
I rolled my eyes and let out a little laugh.
"Let's go boys." Sam commanded.
After the door slammed, I watched from the kitchen window as they headed out to the woods. Sam waved to me and I gave him a smile.
In a flash, he was gone and off to do his alpha role.
As I cooked breakfast, arms wrapped around my waist and a chin rested on my shoulder.
"Hey you." I laughed.
"How'd you know it was me?" Seth asked.
I looked over at him, taking my eyes off the pancakes.
"It's always you." I smiled. He looked at me in a knowing look and I rolled my eyes.
"Ok, so maybe you have a distinct smell. A good one." I smirked and kissed his nose. He laughed a little and watched me cook.
"Need any help?" he asked, still standing behind me with his arms around me.
"Sure, wanna turn on some music and start chopping up some fruit?" I asked him.
He nodded and reached over me to turn on the radio.
"Sparks Fly" came on by Taylor Swift. I didn't know the song very well, but I sang it none the less.
Seth and I were working productively until he slipped on a grape while passing me the flour and fell backwards.
Flour covered his face and I couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"Are you ok?" I laughed while holding out a hand to him.
"I am now!" he laughed and dragged me down to the mess.
I let out a squeal and laughed along with him.
"Seth!" I laughed as I looked at myself. I was now covered with flour.
We started a food fight, not caring how much of a mess we were making.
The rest of the guys which consisted of Leah, Jake, and Brady all ran over to the kitchen and looked at us.
Seth and I took their stunned opportunity to smirk and grab a pile of food to throw at them.
Soon, they were a part of the fight and we were all making a huge mess.
Who knew how long it was before the guys came home, but when they did, they were shocked to say the least.
"What the…?" Paul asked.
"Hey!" I said happily and then quickly ducked.
"What the hell is going on?" Sam asked.
"Oh loosen up Sam." Leah said while she and I hid against the table.
Sam went to talk over to us, when he intercepted a flying maple syrup pancake thrown by Seth. It hit him smack in the back and all went quite.
I was trying hard to hold back my laughs but I couldn't and ended up laughing my ass off. Leah was soon after me and then Jake and everyone else except Seth.
Seth had fear in his eyes and he quickly ran to hide by me and Leah.
"Nice going Seth." Leah laughed.
I continued to laugh but snuggled up to Seth.
"It's ok. Nice shot." I laughed again and kissed his cheek.
Growls were sounded through the room and I narrowed my eyes at the jealous men.
"Oh it's on now." I said and began throwing food at the men in the doorway.
They all soon started to duck for cover and throw things back.
We were all laughing and having a good time till we ran out of food.
"Oh man, that was awesome." I huffed with happiness.
Seth was just about to agree with me, when I was picked up into a strong pair of arms and twirled around.
"AHH!" I laughed and smiled.
As I was swirled back to the ground, I smiled up at Sam and let him kiss me hard.
"Good to see you too." I laughed. He smiled back at me and kissed me again.
After everything was semi cleaned up, Sam had me go take a shower.
"The guys can take care of this." He told me.
"Are you sure?" I asked, feeling bad.
"Yes." He said and pecked my lips with a kiss.
So I went up and showered. When I was out and clean, I headed back downstairs and found the kitchen clean.
"Nice job guys." I smirked and kissed both Seth and Sam.
"Do you have to do that Bella?" Paul groaned, referring to me and Seth.
"Jealous much?" I challenged Paul.
"No." Paul growled.
"Bella, its ok." Seth whispered, trying to make me back down from a fight.
"No, it's not." I snapped.
"He's not even yours Bella." Paul growled.
"Is he yours Paul?" I asked.
Paul twitched and growled a no.
"I didn't think so. I can kiss whoever I want, whenever I want. So back off." I said between my clenched teeth.
"No you can't. I'm your brother." He said, shaking a bit.
"Paul, stand down." Sam commanded.
I let out a breath and tried to calm myself.
"Then start acting like one." I bit and then raced out of the house, slamming the door.
As I stomped down the stairs, I found Jared now fresh and clean in his cop uniform walking up to the house.
"Everything ok?" he asked.
"Yes. No." I huffed. Jared stopped and looked at me.
"it's just Paul being Paul." I said in a sad tone.
"Don't worry Bella, whatever it is, he will come around. He is just overprotective about you because well…your you." He laughed a little.
A smile grew on my face and I looked at him.
"Thanks."
He nodded.
"Ready to go back in?" he asked.
I looked at the door and shook my head. "No, I think I'm gunna go for a little walk."
As I turned around, making my way down to the beach, Jared came running up to me.
"The beach sounds like a good place to be. Mind if I join you?" he asked me.
"Nope, your welcome to." I smiled.
We walked in silence for a little bit then Jared spoke.
"What happened this morning?"
I looked at him confused.
"Sam was thinking about his day…he wasn't being very careful, and…we just saw you in the bathroom this morning. He was concerned." Jared explained.
"Wait…how did you…?"
"When we are wolves, we can each other's thoughts. It's like a movie playing in our heads." He cut in.
I nodded and took in a deep breath.
Taking a leap of faith I told Jared everything.
"I've been having nightmares about everything that's happened with Ben, the kid at my school." I swallowed hard.
"I know it's stupid. I mean he didn't even do anything, but every time I close my eyes…or just…or just let myself think about him…it's like I can feel the gun against my head. I can remember every word he's said and everything he's felt. It's like a movie in my head that I can't stop. Every time it's like a different ending. Sometimes he shoots me, sometimes he…he doesn't make it." My voice cracked and I took another deep breath.
"I'm scared." I whispered.
"Bella…" Jared said compassionately.
"Would you come back with me to the station? Maybe if you finally talk about what happened in the room everything will go away. Maybe giving your statement will heal just a small part of you." He said.
I swallowed hard and nodded.
"Yea, I like that idea." I wiped away a tear and smiled at him. We made our way back to the house and went to grab his car.
I went in the house grabbing my purse while Jared told the guys he was off to work.
"Where are you going Bells?" Seth asked me, grabbing me into a hug.
"Just out. Don't worry about me." I smiled at him and kissed his cheek.
"Bella?" Sam asked as Jared walked out the door.
"I will be back later." I kissed his lips and walked out of his arms.
"Hey." He said grabbing my arm.
"I love you. And I don't care about your relationship with Seth ok?" he told me.
I gave him a smile and nodded.
"Thank you. I love you too." I kissed him again and walked out of the door.
Jared was waiting for me, opening my car door.
"Thanks." I smiled. After he closed it, he ran to his side and we were off to the police station.