The reviews were minimal but I get it. You guys didn't think you'd be getting an update for a bit so. Okay, I start school this week, on Tuesday, and would you believe it, my first day of high school. Yeah. So I wanted to update before school starts. Anyway...
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His jaw clenched and released like he struggled to say something. I almost wanted to knock some sense into him but that probably wouldn't end in my own favour. I waited for a response, any response, maybe even a little nod, but no. He didn't do so much as move. Couldn't he reassure me? He has so many times before.
"Edward, for once I really want to hear what you have to say."
He cleared his throat noisily. "Um, Bella." He paused. "I get that you don't want anyone to know and all, but its for the best. Now I know I can say this until my face is blue and I guess I will if it means you'll consider it; talk. To. My. Dad. Seriously, Bella. I could do it with or without your help."
My defence shot up. "You can't tell me what to do, Edward," I replied, tightening my fists. I have felt more anger toward someone before but not this much physical anger, actually wanting to hit him. "I...I can make my own decisions, I have been for years and years."
"All I want to do is help," he said harshly, his own anger evident. "I don't want to..." He waved his hand in front of him. "Don't want to, like, ruin things or whatever, but things aren't good for you already. I'm sure anything I do can't hurt that bad."
"What are you going to do?" I demanded. All Edward repeated was "I want to help you, just let me." I'd given him so many chances to and it was warring on me now that I didn't know his thoughts or what he thought could be done.
Edward's hand reached up and tugged on his hair, and I couldn't take my eyes from the movement; it reminded me of when we were kissing and the feel of those strands between my fingers, on my skin. I felt the urge to step forward, rip his hand from his hair to replace it with mine, and maybe even lay a kiss on him. But I wasn't anywhere near that bold.
"Well, Bella, I was thinking..." He drifted off, looking somewhere over my shoulder. I snapped my fingers in front of his eyes, because he could say this to my face. "That...maybe...you would move in here."
I blanched.
That was the only way to describe it, before I overflowed with incredulous amazement. The thoughts in my head were so jumbled that I couldn't pinpoint what I was feeling. He wanted me and the girls to move into his parents' house – albeit their permission – after he accidently kissed me and fully regretted it. Would his parents just allow this? I haven't even met his mother yet!
No. Its too good to be true. That setup isn't even slightly appropriate.
"Edward, your insane," I told him, rather loudly. "Move into this house...oh my God, what have you been smoking?"
"First of all, I don't smoke anything, Bella," Edward defended calmly. "Secondly, I'm not insane. I know what I'm talking about. My dad, he wouldn't just roll his eyes at the fact that you and your sisters have been abandoned. Even my mom wouldn't just let you go back there knowing that, Bella."
"But that's just..." A horrible idea? "I get that it'll be..safer or something like that, but really? Live here? I...don't even know where to begin that that's inappropriate."
While I talked I was looking at the floor, so I saw his feet shift uncomfortably and an awkward air hung around. A few seconds passed before he drew in a deep breath. "Bella, about that kiss..."
"Save it, Edward," I interrupted. "I don't want to hear it, okay? I saw the regret in your eyes. Now, where are we sleeping?" I started toward the stairs but he grabbed my arm.
"Regret? What are you talking about?" I just stared at him. What was he talking about? "Do you really think I regret kissing you?" Edward asked incredulously, eyes wide.
I blanched at his surprise, yet again, pulling my arm free from his grip. "Edward, I saw the look on your face," I said calmly, my voice breaking once. I cleared my throat. "Don't try to lie for my sake, I don't even care. I know you didn't mean to."
He raised his eyebrows and slouched back on his heels, crossing his arms with a look of bring it on. "Clearly you don't know much than. I didn't regret it at all, I was just surprised that I did it. And I didn't even know what you wanted or anything," he added quietly. Why did this make me feel guilty?
"Did you just insult my brain cells?" It slipped out before I could stop it, but I was working myself from sentence to sentence Next I would be focusing on his comment of not regretting what happened.
"Bella," he groaned.
A tingle burned in my stomach in reach to that voice. Silky and ridden of the happiness. It still gave me happy chills, despite his less than happy mood. "What? I don't appreciate you attacking me like this," I told him evenly.
Edward hit his forehead in frustration before dramatically falling to the ground with a loud thud that had to be painful, arms and legs spread like a star. I rolled my eyes at his antics even though he was being completely serious. "We're getting off topic here," he muttered. "I don't regret kissing you, Bella, I'm serious." Edward's head lifted enough to see me before it fell back again, bouncing off the hardwood floor.
Looking down at him, I frowned. "Edward, please stop, your going to hurt yourself."
I think I saw him roll his eyes. "Please," Edward drawled dramatically. "The only thing hurting me right now is you." A wave of sadness hit me at the thought of me hurting Edward. I cared about Edward in very scary ways, ways that I knew I shouldn't. "Look, Bella, I like you, okay? I know I'm the new boy in Forks and your really my only friend, but what I have for you isn't just some kind of stupid friendship. I...uh, really like you."
Boy, that was awkward. My face flushed bright red and I think my silence only added to the building awkwardness. I think the heat also started to deter my train of thought because I couldn't think about what would be appropriate to respond with. Any and all of my responses would be uber awkward.
"You wanna go out with me, Bella?" Edward asked, completely relaxed. And slap me if he didn't have a smirk in his voice. Of course he knew how flustered I was feeling then.
All I could do was nod.
"Saturday night then? Maybe go to Port Angeles for dinner and a movie, just be classical here?"
I looked up from his feet without really looking at him. "I can't just leave the—" I started, but he cut me off.
"The girls will be fine," he reassured, still not wiping the smile from his face. "I'm sure my mom would love to babysit – she loves kids. And Alice, too—"
"I don't want to be a burden," I interrupted. "Maybe we should just forget it; it is a little inappropriate too. We could just—"
Edward started shaking his head before I was even finished. "Nope. Its no problem, Bella—"
"One: you don't know that. And two: why do you keep interrupting me? Just let me talk, Edward, or we won't be getting anywhere here." I slid down on the wall and my feet nearly touched his, until he pulled himself up into a sitting position opposite to me.
A smirk quirked his lips. "You interrupted me too, you know. Not very nice, Bella," he chided teasingly. I rolled my eyes in his direction, smiling just slightly. "So, you will still go out with me, right?" he asked, more cautious now.
I felt the smile slip and a new ache replaced the happy one I'd had a few moments ago. I had a mild flashback, the girls, my bland childhood, my parents. "That was my first kiss," I mumbled quietly, staring at my knees like the denim was the most amazing thing in the world.
I feel bad for prolonging this whole sequence of events – at the Cullens' house – and I really don't want to, and I feel bad, but I had a different date set for this chapter and the next coming chapter. However, things are really mixed up right now, I had a lot to deal with and there is a lot of other work that is requiring my attention.
I will update as soon as possible instead of just waiting until I really have time if I get...330 reviews. Can you guys get me there and I will try my absolute hardest to get an amazing chapter out. Maybe Bella and Lolliward to kiss a little more and next chapter will have Carlisle and Esme as well, so be ready!
I really don't want to keep prolonging this as its chopping at my plot, so hopefully, with the reviews, I will get a lengthy, filled chapter out!
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