Chapter 19!: Stupid, Sadistic and Suicidal!

Deidara

I woke up to the sin shining down on my face through the glass windows of Yuki's flat. Late Morning, or Early afternoon, I wasn't exactly sure. But I knew where I was.

The brilliant sunlight streaming through the glass doors, the clouds passing through the streams every now and then: making the room fall into a slight gloom.

I opened my eyes slowly, and felt something shift from on my stomach, and I looked down at my chest to see Yuki fast asleep, but smiling. Her arms were coiled around my torso, and mine were resting on her back. The only sounds were our breathing and our heartbeats. Both were synchronised. I didn't speak to wake her up, though I suspected she was awake. Instead, I let my fingers trace patterns on her skin. I would have been happy to lie there forever, to never disturb this moment, but then a giggle emanated from my chest.

'What's so funny?' I murmured, still stroking her back. My voice was husky, and it deeply reminded me of the night before, and I felt a blush find its way to my cheeks.

To answer my question, Yuki stomach growled, and she giggled again. I chuckled, and sat up then looked at her. She grinned at me and I raised an eyebrow.

'We should... Put clothes on...' I murmured, and Yuki's eyes widened.

'Oh yeah.' She answered, jumping out the bed and running to the bathroom.

I quickly got changed and grinned at Yuki when she walked out the bathroom, with a can of hairspray and a hairdryer. She stuck her tongue out at me and sat in front of a mirror, sticking her hair up.

Oh yeah, she had her hair re-cut when I had brought her back from the Juichuri's cage.

I pulled a hairbrush out of a bag I had with me, and attempted to put my hair up in my usual half up, half down. Yuki looked at me from in the mirror, and grinned.

'Need a hand?' She asked, turning to look at me.

'Nope.' I murmured, the hair falling back down. 'I can manage.'

'You boys are so independent.' She said, walking over and sitting me on the bed, and then she sat behind me, taking the hairbrush and hair tie.

'Why do you girls make it look so darn easy?' I moaned, and she smacked me on the head with the hairbrush.

'Years of practice.' She raised an eyebrow. 'And you should be good at it. You've had long hair pretty much all your life.'

'I used to have it more down than up.' I murmured. She smiled at me, and tied it up.

'I love your hair.' She whispered, and I turned to look at her as her arms snaked around my neck. 'It's like gold.'

'To you...'

'To me...?' She questioned, and looked round my shoulder at me. I smiled at her.

'I used to get bullied for it.'

'N'aww.' Her grip around my neck tightened. 'They were just jealous.'

'No...' I said, turning to her and hugging her around her torso.

'Well, they should be.' She said, running her hands through the loose part of my hair. 'Cuz you've got me.' This made me grin, and I pulled her into me.

'Totally.' She kissed my forehead, then hugged me again.

'I'm always gonna be here for ya, Dei-Sama.' She whispered into my ear. I smiled.

'And I'll be here for you. But...' I looked at her with democracy. 'Cut it with the Deidara-Sama thing.' She raised an eyebrow.

'Why?'

'Call me Deidara-kun.' I grinned, and she smiled at me again.

'Oké, Deidara-kun.'

'Oh hey, uh. I need to go out for an hour or so.' I said, and she looked at me quizzically.

'Why?'

'Ah, something Pain asked me to do, un.'

'...Pain...' I looked at the thought in her face. 'I wonder how he and Toshiko are.'

'They'll be fine.'

'Konan.'

'Oh. Uh. She'll be pissed.'

'She was already pissed.' She furrowed her brow.

'Ah shizz.' I murmured, and looked at the clock. 'Ah, double shizz. I was meant to meet Pain 5 minutes ago.' Yuki ushered me to my feet.

'Then get going! I'll be the one who gets the blame!' I laughed at her, and kissed her once more before I left out the door.

Yuki

When Deidara left, I suddenly felt lonely, so I went outside and stood on the balcony. My father was walking out of the Uchiha Area, supposedly, to go and visit Sasuke in the training area.

'Yuki-Chan?' I look down and see Hidan stood there looking up at me.

'Hidan?' I ask, looking at him curiously.

'Mind if I come up to talk to you?' He asked, with a slight smile.

'Sure...?' A few moments later, Hidan was stood by my side.

'What did you want to talk about?' I asked, as he looked around Konoha.

'Well...' He thought for a moment. 'You seemed lonely so... I came up to keep ya company.'

'Oh.' I said simply. After a few moments I broke the awkward silence. 'Any news about Sasori?'

'Nope.' Hidan mumbled. 'We haven't yet seen him.'

'I can't believe that bastard is Toshiko's older brother.' I hissed. Hidan looked at me suddenly.

'Omigosh.' He said. 'You actually cussed.' I looked at him blankly.

'Oh... Oh yeah...' I laughed nervously and rubbed the back of my head.

'Yeah.' He continued. 'Toshiko's nice. Sasori's a bitch ever since he raped Deidara.'

'Hmm...' I murmured, lost in my own thoughts. 'I have to say, I'd quite like to strangle him.' Hidan let out a low chuckle.

'I know how ya feel...' I looked at him questioningly, and his eyes widened. 'I mean, like, I've been in the situation before and... and...' Oh god no...

'Hidan...'

'I didn't mean like, you know that I was...'

'Hidan...'

'Cause that would awkward you know? And...'

'Hidan...!'

'And then that would be like, really, really weird and...' I gave up. Then I did the stupidest thing I have ever done before. I leant forwards, and I kissed him.

As assumed, he shut up immediately, so I pulled away.

'That didn't mean anything.' I said, and he nodded quickly, obviously feeling the anger emanating from me.

'Well, it meant an awful lot to me, un.' I turned, and looked at a very pissed Deidara stood in the doorway.

'D- Dei?' I exclaimed. 'It... It wasn't-!'

'Sure. Right. Whatever.' He growled. 'Apparently, I don't mean shit to you, so I guess that's okay, right? To have Hidan over while I'm not there, and be a whore, un.' His words hit me like someone had kicked me in the stomach.

'Deidara-kun, it's not like that.'

'Don't call me that ever.' He hissed 'I'm nothing to you. And you, Yuki, are absolutely zilch to me.' He turned and walked out the room muttering to himself. Automatically, tears started streaming down my face, and I fell to the floor in a heap, crying and yelling at myself. Hidan stood silently behind me. After a few minutes, I stood up and looked at him, tears still running down my cheeks.

'Don't tell anyone I'm gone.'

'What?' Hidan exclaimed. 'You can't leave!'

'There's nothing left for me here...' I looked at him in grief. 'Especially not Deidara.'

'Look.' Hidan said, standing beside me. 'It's a big misunderstanding.'

'No.' I murmured. 'He won't forgive me... and Hidan?' He looked up at me in sadness. 'I won't be coming back. Ever. And if they find out I'm gone, tell them I said it's useless. I won't be around for them to find.' I turned my back to him and walked out the door, still crying my eyes out.

When I stumbled out into the sunshine, I ran through the Uchiha area, past Sasuke who called out my name, but trailed off as he saw I was crying. I ran past Pain and Toshiko, who were stood outside Ichiraku's, and they started after me cluelessly. I then ran past him and he was too painful to even look at. I did notice his eyes were red and sore, and his cheeks were wet. I ran to the edge of Konoha, near the beach. But instead of running to the sand, I ran up a hill and along to the canyons. I had a feeling someone was watching me, but they couldn't stop me now. I was 20 meters away from the edge.

'Deidara...' I thought.

15 Meters...

'You won't forgive me...'

10 meters...

'But You should know...'

5 meters...

'...I love you...'

The last thing I knew, was that I was hurtling down the steep cliffs, down to the pointed rocks, and heavy flowing waters below.

Madara

I saw her run past me, but I wasn't too sure what she was doing. I noted her eyes were red, and her face was streamed with tears. But then I realised she was headed for the canyons. I leapt out from the bush I was picking blackberries from, and lunged towards her, as fast as my legs could take me, before I knew it she was out of sight.

Focusing my chakra to my feet, I ran down the canyon, my eyes on her the whole time. I leapt across the water, catching her in my arms, just in time. I ran up the opposite side of the bank at laid her on the grass. Her eyes were closed, and she was sobbing.

'What in Konoha were you thinking?' I hissed at her. She looked at me with sad, red eyes, and sobbed again.

'Just let me die...' She sobbed, and put her hands over her face. I pulled them away and looked at her.

'What happened?' I asked, holding her hands.

'I was being a prick...' She muttered, still crying.

'Yuki!' I snapped. 'Watch your language!'

'Sorry...'

'Now, why are you upset?'

'I kissed Hidan.' She whispered. I paused.

'Why?'

'Cuz he wouldn't stop talking.'

'Oh.' I looked at her blankly. 'And you're crying because of that?'

'Deidara happened to be standing in the doorway.'

'Ouch.'

'I know right.' She stated. 'Now, like I said, leave me to die.'

'Come on, Yuu.' I murmured, sitting down and pulling her into my lap. 'He'll forgive you.'

'Uhh. No he won't, dad.' She muttered.

'Course he will.' I reassured her, rocking her like she was a child. 'He loves you.'

'That's exactly why he won't forgive me.'

'Hmm?'

'He thinks I'm two timing. He called me a whore. He said He meant nothing to me.' Her voice broke and she shoved her head in her hands. 'And that I meant nothing to him...!' I looked at her sympathetically.

'N'aww, Yuki-Chan.' I murmured. 'Why don't you let me talk to him?' Her head snapped up.

'No! No, no, NO!'

'Okay! Just... suggesting...' I said taken aback, she put her head in her hands again. 'Do you still love him?' I said after a few moments. Yuki nodded reluctantly.

'I... I always have...'

'The reason why he said all of that, was probably because he was hurt.'

'But dad...' She whispered, turning her head to me and resting it on my shoulder. 'He hurt me, too.'

'I know, love, I know.' I said, resting my head on hers. 'Are you sure you don't want me to talk to him?' I asked again. She paused this time.

'Maybe...' She said quietly. 'If you do... can you... can you tell him everything?'

'Everything.' I echoed.

'Thank you...' She murmured, pulling away from me.

'Are you going back?' I asked, and she gave me a slow, sad nod.

'I'm gonna go talk to Pain.' She said, looking at me sideways.

'Okay. I'll go find Deidara.'

'Be nice to him.'

'I will...' Sometimes, I think she should be my mother.

Finding Deidara was easier than I anticipated. He was stood on the other side of Konoha, looking out into the ocean. He had his hair down, and the hair tie was in his hand which was clenched in his fist.

'So...' I said, hands in pockets as I walked up behind him. He turned his head and looked at me through his fringe. 'I heard you had a fall out.' He snorted and looked out at the ocean.

'Who cares..?' The wind caught his hair and it flowed with the breeze. 'We were a lousy couple anyway.' I blinked at his words.

'Surely you don't mean that.' I said.

'No, I mean it.' He said, and I could swear a growl rippled through his throat. 'I'm sure she'd get along better with her new love, Hidan.' He sneered Hidan's name.

'You're aware she doesn't love Hidan, right?' I asked simultaneously. His head snapped around to me, his eyes blazing with bloodlust and anger, but a slight hint of fear and sadness too.

'Bullshit.'

'No, it's true.' I said, wanting to not approach him any more than I had. 'She was really upset about it when you walked away.'

'She lied to you.' He hissed.

'Then why did I have to save her when she launched herself off the canyons?' I saw him stiffen.

'She what?' He asked, not turning his head away from me. I folded my arms and looked at him like he just kicked me in the stomach.

'When you left, she got so overwhelmed by it, I assume she broke down, and ran out the house...' I saw the cogs in his mind tick. 'she ran to the beach and up the hills near the canyons. I was just picking blackberries for a pie I was going to make, when I saw her running past, tears streaming down her face, and she was crying your name.'

'My... Name...?' He asked his eyes wide with wonder.

'Mmmhmm.'

'Did she...?'

'What?'

'Did she fall down the canyon...?'

'No.' I replied, and I actually saw the relief spread across his face.

'She told me to tell you all this.'

'Where is she now?' Hope struck my heart at his words.

'She's back in Konoha, talking with Pain.' Before he got the wrong Idea, I added; 'Of course, she see's Pain as an older brother ever since Itachi passed away.'

'Yeah, I know.' He murmured, looking lost in his thoughts. 'I was there when they agreed to that.'

'Do you still love her?' I asked hopefully, but he stayed silent.

'Why... Did she kiss Hidan...?' He asked, and I saw the pain in his eyes.

'Hidan was being a blabber mouth again, and once he starts, he won't stop, as you and I probably know best.' I told him.

'... I don't... Believe you...'

'Whether you believe me or not, is up to you. But I am telling you the truth.' I said. He fell silent. 'Maybe you should talk with her before you make any drastic assumptions.'

'I don't want to.' He hissed, and looked away.

'Fair enough.' I said, and stood straight. 'I just think you should know that she didn't want this to happen. When you said what you did, she was heartbroken. She knew you had been hurt, and she was going to apologise, but you threw the insults at her, which, after you left, she broke down by.' I turned and shrugged. 'Oh well. It can't be helped. I see you are as stubborn as ever, Sempai.' I started walking away when he said;

'Fine.' I turned my head to look at him, and his head was down, but he was looking at me through his long eyelashes. 'Take me to her.' I smiled at him and nodded.

'Thank you.'

He followed me through Konoha, his hands in his pockets and he was looking down. Naruto walked past and put a hand up in a greeting.

'Hey.' He grinned.

'Hi.' I replied.

'If you're looking for Yuki, she's on the bridge near the cherry blossoms.' He stuck his thumb in that direction.

'Thanks, we were looking for her, actually.' Naruto glanced at Deidara, who was scuffing his shoes on the floor, when I said "we".

'Oh man.' He murmured. 'Something bad's happened, right?' I shook my head and Deidara sneezed.

'See you around.' Naruto said, and then walked on.

'Sayonara.' I muttered, and walked to the bridge, Deidara trailing behind.

Yuki was gazing out at the river that ran under the bridge and through the village. Petals from the cherry blossoms were floating around, and she seemed completely oblivious to our presence.

'Yuki-Chan.' I murmured. Her head whipped around, her eyes startled. I heard Deidara chuckle once from behind me. Maybe he remembered something? Or maybe he was just thinking she was pathetic.

'Oh, father.' She murmured. I looked over my shoulder at Deidara.

'Do you want me to leave you guys alone?' Deidara shrugged, and then I looked at Yuki who smiled faintly. I noticed her face was slightly pale. 'Well... You know where to find me.' I murmured, then turned patting Deidara's back as I left. 'Oh yeah...' I looked over my shoulder at him and he was doing the same to me. 'No catfights.' I saw his mouth curve up into a smile, and I grinned, leaving to two alone.