A/N: It's a short one this time. Only 4 pages, but the next chapter (Or maybe next two. I really dunno. XD) Will be so, totally. AWSOME! 8D

I haven't had the internet for nearly a week now. And on Thursday (26th August) I'll be off to jolly old London. So I won't be able to update. T^T

My hairs grown again. Down to my shoulders... It was above before. ;-;

Yes, I have Yuki-Styled hair. Same way for the fringe too. (though I wanted it the other side, so I could cosplay Deidara easier. V_V)

The good thing about London, is that I might be getting a cosplay set. By "Set" I mean Akatsuki cloak, Headband and maybe some other nifty stuff. I'm not too bothered about the fishnet shirt and top, cuz they're easy enough to buy (fishnet) or make (Top).

Anyways, enjoy the 20th chapter! (20th? Golly Gosh. O_O")

~Renai x

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Chapter 20!: Under the Sakura!

Deidara

As soon as Madara left, I looked down at the floor again. I knew she wasn't looking at me. She was looking into the water with the Koi fish swimming around in. I decided to make the first move, and walked onto the bridge, standing at the opposite end that Yuki was stood on. I leant against the railing and kicked the wall of it gently. The scene was quiet, and I bet it would have made a beautiful picture. I was about to sigh and turn around to her, when she spoke.

'I... I'm really...really sorry... Deidara...' She whispered; her voice full of deep sadness and fear. 'I shouldn't...have treated you like you meant nothing to me... You were right... I'm just a whore.' My eyes widened. This wasn't what I had wanted at all. I could tell she was truly sorry, and that it was like I had ripped her heart from her body and torn it up in front of her face. I stayed silent from fear of my voice braking, and the fact I couldn't make myself speak from a lump in my throat.

'You'll probably hate me for life.' She continued. 'But I understand completely. I should never have been such a slut.'

'Hush.' I managed to make myself say, but my voice was raspy, and I realised tears were falling from my face. 'I'm the one... Who should be apologising.'

'No...' She murmured, and I heard her voice breaking down. 'If it wasn't for me, this would never have happened.' For the first time in four hours, I turned my head and looked at her. She had her back to me, and her shoulders were hunched. I immediately presumed she was crying.

'But I was the one who didn't bother to listen.' I said, watching her as she ran her hand through her hair. 'If I had done so, then we wouldn't be having this conversation.' I saw her shoulders shake, and then I knew we were both crying. 'And we also wouldn't be stood here, staring at these stupid fish crying our eyes out, un.' Her head lifted, as I put a bit of the usual me in the last sentence. She turned her head, and slowly met my gaze. We held the contact, then she looked away again.

'I know I hurt you.' She murmured. 'So don't pretend I didn't...'

'I'm not pretending that you didn't.' I said quietly. 'I hurt you, too. I hated to be away from you, not knowing if you were alive or not.'

'...Deidara...' She whispered my name, and I turned around to face her fully. I stood behind her, and listened to her sobs. I heart suddenly felt heavy, and I felt incomplete.

'I'm the one who's sorry.' I said, and I put my hand on my forehead. 'So don't try and jump off the canyons... I can't bear to lose you... and besides, I overreacted. Badly. Really badly.' I swallowed down the bile in my throat, and continued. 'I understand if you don't want to be with me... If you wanted to be with Hidan instead...'

'No!' She said, quickly turning around, so I took a step back, slightly startled. 'No, no, no! I don't want to be with Hidan!' Her eyes were full with tears again. 'I want to be with you!' My eyes widened.

'Y- Yuki-Chan...'

'You're the only guy I've ever been in love with! You always stuck by my side, and pushed me forwards when I was scared!' Tears started falling from her face. 'You always treated me like I was the only person that mattered! When Itachi was mean to me, you stuck up for me, and to be honest...' She looked around for a moment, took an intake of breath and blinked away some of the tears. 'You... You are, the most amazing guy, I have ever met.' My breathing stopped at I gazed over the top of her head.

Did she mean that? I thought. Did she really, really, mean that...? Instead of thinking that, I said it out loud.

'Did... Did you really mean that?' I asked, not meeting her gaze. I heard her sobbing, and I looked down at her. Her tear filled eyes looked up at me, and she nodded, and bumped her head into my chest. I was too shocked to speak. Her words had frozen me, and even my breathing had stopped. I didn't realise I was crying until I rubbed one of my cheeks. I put my arms around Yuki's shoulders, and rested my head on hers.

'Forgiven?' I asked, closing my eyes. I felt her arms wrap around my waist.

'Of course.' She whispered. 'But what abou-'

'Just... Don't bother...' I murmured, 'And I take back what I said. You can call me Deidara-Kun...' I didn't need to turn, but I knew that Madara was watching us. Was he seriously anticipating what I was gonna do? I wasn't going to do it until I was sure, anyway. And right now, I'm on the wavelength.

Yuki

I wasn't too sure of what had happened. I only knew that I nearly killed myself out of misery and depression because Deidara thought I was cheating on him. I guess the way of kissing Hidan to make him shut up was a crap idea, but Deidara forgave me. The worst bit is, I can't forgive myself. I talked to Hidan (when Deidara was around so he didn't get suspicious, of course.), and despite the fact he had a humungous crush on me (yes, that's why I kissed him. Kind of mean, huh?), he agreed to the whole "Let's just be friends, not close friends but friends". For that, I thanked him, because I knew it was hard for him. I mean, come on. You get kissed by the love of your life, then find out it was just to shut you the hell up. On a lighter note, I guess it worked, didn't it?

Deidara has appeared to have not gotten over it yet. He's adopted my side and stayed there practically the whole time. Unless it was something we had to do alone, such as take a bath or use the toilet, though sometimes we share a bath anyway. What? We're Saving the planet here! (Yes, that is my excuse.)

We've both decided that our ideal place to meet, or just relax is by the cherry blossoms. Since the certain incident, that's where we can find each other. No doubt, my father is in on it, and he sometimes sits there, and sometimes he fishes. I yell at him and he stops... Eventually... I think he's plotting something, you know. Because when myself and Deidara are together, which is practically all the time, he wears an odd smile on his face, which makes me epically suspicious. What makes it even weirder, is that Deidara always grins at him like they're best pals... Though I guess they are, since they've known each other for god knows how long.

Okay. I admit. I'm jealous of their bond. I think Deidara loves me, and that's it. To me, he's my best friend, my lover and so much more. But to him... Bah. I guess we don't really know much about each other... I know more about Pain than I do about Deidara.

I guess Pain has been my best friend in like, forever, but still. I feel guilty of not knowing much about Deidara... Well anyways. It was about 5 months after the incident, and I had slipped out the house for some "Alone time". I was sitting outside on the deck at our Tatami house, which I didn't know we had at the time, and my father comes up behind me. I look around at him and sigh.

'No, I'm not doing that washing up. again. Make yourself useful in this household for once and do it yourself.' I said. Well, what do you expect? He has I-Can't-Be-Bothered-To-Do-Any-Work-Alitus. Such a rare disease. Seems to be common in men. Not my Deidara though. He looks down at me and grins.

'Actually, I was going to tell you something.'

'Hmm?' I say and look back up at him. 'What is it?'

'Deidara said to meet him by the Cherry Blossoms.' I nod, and jump up, then run to the bridge. Deidara was sat with him back to me under the sakura (which is cherry blossoms if you're a dork.). I walk up behind him and sit next to him.

'Dad said you wanted to meet me here?' He looks round at me.

'Yeah...' He smiles softly. 'It's your birthday tomorrow, right?' He asks, and I groan and fall backwards onto my back.

'Oh god no. Twenty Two. Don't remind me.' I sigh. He laughs at me.

'I just wanted to know if you wanted anything.' I look at up at him.

'Not really.' I pull a lousy grin. 'I've got what I want already.' He smiles at me.

'That's good to hear.' He looks around at the trees, and sighs. 'I'll have to pull off some lousy party, then.' My head shot up.

'A party?' I give him a sarcastic look. 'When you turn 26, I'm gonna make you look old.' He looks around at me, gawking.

'You little cow!' I start laughing at he throws a bunch of cherry blossom petals at me. He then gives me a grin. 'I know what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna embarrass ya.'

'You wouldn't dare!' I say, and thump him shoulder.

'Oh, wouldn't I?' He says, still grinning, then he gets up. 'Just you wait, Yuki Niiro. I shall get you, and hard.'

'Noo!' I cling onto his leg. And he looks down at me.

'It's won't be bad. Promise.'

'Better not. And only friends and the Akatsuki. No random villagers.'

'I know... I bet Sakura and Toshiko would help me decorate, and the Akatsuki aren't friends?'

'Well... Yeah, but still. And, Oi! If either of them flirts with you, they'll walk out of that place with no head and a lot of bruises.' He chuckles at me.

'Trust me, they won't.' He turns, and walks away, waving at me with his back to me. I squint my eyes.

'What have you got up your sleeve this time, Deidara... ?' I murmured to myself.

I walked into the Tatami house later on in the afternoon, we had moved from the flat to here, and Deidara was sat on the garden swing, just simply rocking in thought. His elbows were resting on his knees, and He was resting his mouth area (As in his head. –laughs-) on his hands like Sasuke would, and staring into a small pond.

'You dreaming again?' I asked him, and instead of jumping again, he simply looked up at me without moving his head, and I have to say. He looked very, very dark, and also very, very sexy. He gave me a cocky smile.

'Not dreaming. Planning.'

'Oh god, kill me now.' I sigh, and slump down next to him. He chuckles and puts his hand on my head.

'It's not scary...' He says, and gives me another cocky grin, and I look at him very sarcastically. (Basically like this T_T) 'It's exiting.' He reassures me, and leans back to me.

'God... Exiting as in so awesome that I fall down and have a heart attack?'

'... I sure hope not...' He says.

'So it is.'

'Maybe.'

'Argh.' I bump my head into his shoulder. 'I'm getting old, Dei-kun.'

'You're getting old?' He chuckles, and puts an arm around my shoulders. 'love, I'm 25. I'll be 26 in May.'

'But you look young.' I say, looking up at him and prod his cheek. 'You don't have tiny Tear troughs.

'Bah.' He says, and pulls me into him. 'Be that so, it just adds character to you.'

'Gee, thanks.'

'Hey! It was a complement!' He exclaims, tapping my nose.

'Was it? I must have been hearing things then.'

'Fine, it makes you look cute.' He pauses thinking about his words. 'Cute... cuter' I raise an eyebrow at him.

'Charmed.' He jabs my forehead like Itachi used to.

'Don't be such a drag.' He says, and then kisses me where he poked. (FOREHEAD. Don't be dirty.)

'You're reminding me of Itachi...' I murmur, and he looks down at me sadly.

'Sorry, Yuki-Chan.' I say nothing and huddle against him.

'I won't ever get over him, Dei-kun.' I whisper after a few moments. 'He meant a lot to me.'

'I know, love. I know.' He says into my hair. 'It's hard to let people go you're close to. I know exactly how you feel.' I froze, and remembered about Hinote and Deidara's parents.

'For once...' I say softly. 'Someone really does know how I feel.'

'We've both shared the same pain.' He whispers into my ear. 'And now we have to move on together. We never have to be alone again.' I nod as a tear falls from my face.

'It's true.'

'Too true...'