Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
"What the hell am I doing here?" Rose thought to herself, "What was I thinking?"
She checked herself in the mirror once again. It had been so long since she had actually out on some makeup. She took out her cell phone and thought about calling Ronny and asking her to bail her out. But she then decided that it would be rude. She needed this. She needed to move on.
She walked out of the bathroom and went to her table.
"I'm sorry…. I just…" Rose tried explaining to the guy sitting opposite her why she suddenly left.
"It's alright" answered the guy giving a smile, "You ready to order?"
"Umm…sure…yeah..." she said.
"What the hell am I doing?" she thought to herself again.
Later…
"So how'd your date go?" Ronny enquired.
"So, so" replied Rose.
"Really? He looks pretty damn cute to me AND he has nice manners too" said Ronny.
"And he's smart" she added as an afterthought.
"Well then, why don't you date him?" replied Rose. She really didn't want to talk to Ronny about her date.
"Whatever Miss Grumpy…if I could date him I would, mind you. But her asked you out not me" shot back Ronny.
"I just…I just feel guilty…" said Rose, her voice quivering.
"Look at me Rose Oritz, there is NOTHING, absolutely nothing to be guilty about. You can't live in Mack's memory forever. He wouldn't have wanted that. He would have wanted you to be happy."
"I know…it's just hard"
"You need to stop punishing yourself for what happened. You need to move on"
"You want me to stop loving Mack?" Rose said, he voice getting higher.
"Did I say that? Moving on doesn't mean forgetting Mack or stopping to love him. It just means being capable of loving again" said Ronny.
"I don't thing I am capable"
"You gotta try, hon. You have to try."