Chapter 2: Making The Choice

Karin had been staying with Sasuke every after the first night Sakura saw them together. Sure, she had been going there night after night in hope that she had been wrong, but she hadn't been.

Day after day she forced to act the same as always and smile at Sasuke as if nothing had happen, but she wanted something so badly that she was having trouble keeping her head straight.

Sasuke.

She wanted Sasuke for herself so badly that when he was a foot away from her, or three, she wanted to jump him. She wanted to dig her nails in his back and hug him close enough to were they would think they were one in the same.

Sakura then found her answer to her unasked question in the back of the library. In the corner farthest away from the entrance and in the farthest corner to were the lighting was very poor.

A medical herb book that was so old it was registered in the library, so no one knew that Sakura had taken it for her own. It felt like it would fall apart in her hands, but it didn't. It merely opened to the page she had been looking for without knowing.

She read it over and over and over again until she had memories the instructions on how it was to be made correctly. It never failed and it always gave the person the exact result they had been looking for.

Could she really do this to her Sasuke-kun?

Would she really do such a thing?

Did she really want to do that such horrid thing to her Sasuke-kun?

It was a simple task and very easy to do, but very hard to decide if she should do it. Sakura had the recipe and she knew exactly were to find the ingredients. The question right now was; would she go through with such a thing.

"Hi, Sakura,"Karin smirked and the pink haired girl who glared as an answer, but then changed it to a smile as Sasuke walked up next to the red head.

"Good morning, Karin,"she turned to Sasuke and clenched the books she had to her chest, her knuckles turning white do to the force she was using to dig her nails in the books,"Good morning, Sasuke-kun."

"Let's go, Karin,"was all that Sasuke said before taking hold of Karin's arm and pulling her out of the library and into the streets of Konoha.

Sakura's body started to shake as she watched the pair walk off and never once looking back at her. Her lips started shaking, or twiching, which is a better description seeing at her shaking lips had turned into the wicked smirk from before.

She no longer had to walked the streets of Konoha thinking if she would do such a thing to the person she loved the most. She no longer could deny that she wanted to do that to Sasuke-kun so badly.

Her body was craving it, asking for it with desperate cries that caused so much pain to her. She couldn't tell her body no because it was something it needed to live from now on. From the moment he arrived it had needed it, but she had been trying to kill it.

She had been trying so hard to push it bad into her mind and forget about it. Something that sinister was not her and it never was her, but she was wrong. It was her, the real her, her real thought and desires.

You could even say it was her dream.

"I would say sorry, Sasuke-kun,"the wicked smirk had not left her lip as she licked a small mushroom from the end to the very tip of the top,"But I just don't feel I should apologize."

She through the small mushroom into the small bad she had wrapped around her waist. Herb could be seen when she opened the bag as well as small bottles of syrup and other bottle that were yet to be filled.

Three bottle were left and even thought she knew it was easy to get them the thought of failing made her think twice on going for it. In the end she had ended up killing what carried the last remaining portions that she needed.

Sakura had gotten all the ingredients she had need, but felt a twinge of regret of having killed the poor creature. They would have gotten killed any how, they were poisonous creature feared by all.

That's why she had killed them, because there had been no way of getting their poison without them trying to do the same to her. Besides, what she was about to do was most likely more horrible that what those poor creatures did.

Now, she only need one last thing and it was the easiest one she could get. So she first made what she had waited so long to make and once it was ready for the final ingredient she went into her drawers and pulled out a kunai.

"Just this once,"she stretched her arm on top of the small bowl that sat on her night stand and placed the kunai on her wrist and began to dig it in her pale skin,"Just this once, Sasuke-kun, be mine just this one time."