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Hey ya'll! You're reviews have been great and make me all fuzzy inside! Anyways…here's the story!
Harry's POV
"What is all this?" I asked looking around at the picnic with a smile. Draco and I have been secretly seeing each other for a few months now, it was safe to say Ginny and Astoria suspected nothing. I felt so guilty at first but now after three months of being with Draco things have changed. Instead of feeling guilty for cheating on Gin when I was with Draco I'd feel guilty when I kissed her, almost like I was cheating on Draco. It sounds crazy but it's true. Right now Draco had led me to a breezy cliff side where a red and white checkered blanket was laid down with a wicker basket, champagne and the smells of freshly baked ham wafted towards me.
"What do you think Potter?" Draco smirked. I quickly learned he only called me Potter when he was feeling nervous about something, like when he bought me Roses enchanted to change color for Valentines day with a card that said simply, To Potter, you better like these. They cost me a fortune -DM. It was one of his endearing qualities, one among many. Getting to know him was an adventure all its own but after three months it was almost like he was a part of me. I knew what every look, every gesture, every everything meant. It was safe to say that I loved Draco Malfoy, I haven't told him yet though, been waiting for the right time.
"I think it looks fantastic" I took his hand gently and squeezed it. He wasn't a big fan of random affection but today was a special occasion. Our three month anniversary. Three months since our first kiss. Three months since I realized there was more to life then doing what was expected of me. We sat down and I rested my head against his shoulder, normally I'd get a light shove and him telling me stop being a poof, cant expect a Malfoy to change over night after all, but today he obliged and wrapped his arms around me. We took out our food and ate happily, in the basket was salad, ham, roasted potatoes and for desert a delicious three layer chocolate cake. We laid on our back two hours later, completely stuffed.
"I can't believe you ate that whole cake" Draco smirked.
"Me! You ate like eight pieces! I only had four!"
"Only four?" he cocked on eyebrow at me and I punched his arm lightly.
"So…Ginny told me to owl you and invite you, Astoria and Scorpius over for Easter dinner…"
Draco propped himself up on one elbow and looked at me. "You think we can handle that?"
"Whacha mean?"
"Being together, with our families and I'm guessing the Weasel's-sorry, RONS family and not giving our relationship away?"
"Well we can't avoid each other forever. Our kids are dating." I reminded.
"You're right," he said then spit over his shoulder. "Ugh, even if I'm shagging you saying that leaves a disgusting taste in my mouth."
"You're such a Malfoy!" I laughed at him.
"And you're such a Potter" He kissed me softly, I cupped his cheeks gently.
"Hey Draco…" I broke the kiss.
"What? This better be good." He always got a bit grumpy if we were interrupted
"I love you…"
"I'd sure as hell hope so" he leaned into kiss me again but I sat up
"I tell you I love you and all I get is a 'sure as hell hope so!'"
"Well considering we've been seeing each other behind our family's backs for three months I figured it was kind of a given we were in love" Draco rolled his eyes.
"You never said that"
"Who am I again?" he pointed at himself.
I rolled my eyes "Draco Malfoy, the Slytherin Ice Prince."
"Exactly, I'm not a romantic person."
"This picnic was romantic" I traced his biceps
"Really? I just didn't feel like spending Galleons on an expensive dinner"
"You are such a jerk!" I wapped him.
"Wanna break up then?" he kissed me deeply.
"You wish" I smiled and kissed back.
It was Easter holidays and the kids were all back from vacation. I had learned my lesson against playing wizard chess with Rose so Ron, the kids and I were playing Quidditch in the backyard while waiting for dinner and Malfoy's. Adults vs. Kids. To say I was nervous was an understatement. My wife and my lover were going to be in the same house. Yeah, I was freaking out, so much so that I let James catch the snitch twice already, Ron was just about ready to check me into St. Mungo's.
Then Hermione stuck her head outside "Come on children, get off your brooms, dinner's almost ready and the Malfoy's just flooed in."
Albus practically jumped off his broom and ran inside, I followed more slowly, trying to act nonchalant but deep down my heart was pounding. A hoard of Death Eaters seemed like nothing compared to this. I walked inside to see Scorpius and Albus locked in a kiss, Rose coming in behind me gave them a little shove.
"Knock it off you two before we loose our appetites" she rolled her eyes amused.
"Sorry…" Albus blushed, breakin the kiss. Scorpius just shrugged nonchalantly, it was then Draco caught my eye. I was surprised to find worry there, he must be as nervous as I was but what was the real shocker was the jealously as Ginny came over and kissed me softly, attempting to fix my hair so I didn't look as raggedy.
"Gin, Gin, its fine" I smirked taking her hands
"You like you just played a championship Quidditch match."
"Hardly, he played better after that bludger hit him! God he was terrible!" Ron said
"Thanks a lot mate" I said and flushed when I saw Draco's amused smirk.
"Dinner!" Hermione called.
At the table the sitting positions were the same as Christmas Eve dinner but this time throughout the whole dinner Draco and I were running our feet together. No one suspected a thing. At least that's what I thought. After dinner the girls went to clean, yeah it seemed sort of sexist but they enjoyed it, it gave them time to gossip about their husbands and kids. Again all of the kids went outside to play and Draco and I sat out on the porch.
"That wasn't as bad as I expected" He said, lighting a cigar "The food was good too"
"Your foot molestation distracted me from my food" I chuckled.
"Oh yeah, its my fault"
"It always is"
"Is this my fault?" He leaned forward and kissed me softly.
"Yes"
"And this?" He kissed me again and I smiled, kissing back, he gripped the sides of my robes and pulled me close. I could taste the cigar smoke on his tongue, a taste I've learned to love.
"We cant do this here" I broke the kiss suddenly. "Someone might catch us."
"If you don't want to be caught you might think of not standing next to the door." a voice said behind us and we spun around. It was Hermione.
"We-I can explain"
"Okay, explain."
"Uh-we-it was-" I was to used to being Mr. Perfect. I wasn't used to being caught in a situation like this.
"Wow Potter, smooth" Draco said in a calm and cool voice but again that use of my last name gave away he was shaken up as well. He looked at Hermione, inspecting her closely. "You're not surprised" he announced and I looked back to Hermione. It was true, she looked upset, disappointed but not at all surprised.
"You two were practically shagging each other with your eyes during dinner" She sighed.
"We were not!" I objected a bit panicky.
"Don't worry, none of the others noticed."
"Do not tell anyone" Draco growled but Hermione ignored him, looking at me instead.
"Harry…how could you?"
"Its complicated 'Mione…"
"You're cheating on Ginny, Ron, my husbands sister."
"I think he's noticed that much Granger" Draco said
"And you!" She turned to face him, "You aren't much better! How do I know you have cursed or poisoned him or something!"
"He's not like that anymore" I said immediately hopping to Draco's defense and she turned to me surprised.
"Harry…"
"'Mione, I love him. And I-I know this is wrong on so many levels but I cant stop, I wont stop…"
"Then you have to tell Ginny"
"And how am I supposed to do that! It'll crush her!"
"She'll find out sooner or later."
"Then I'd rather it be later." I didn't feel like the Golden Boy then, I felt dirty, caught, tarnished. Anything but good, I was a horrible person and I knew it.
"If you don't tell her I will."
"Hermione! You cant!"
"And you cant keep lying to her!"
"And what about the kids? They'll be broken too! T-They'll hate me…"
"They'll hate you more if you go on with this!"
As much as I wanted to ignore her I knew she was right, as always. But before I could answer I heard Draco's voice, soft and almost sad behind me.
"She's right Harry."
"What?" I turned around shocked to face him. "We cant just leave our families."
"I know"
"Then wha-"
"We cant keep going on like this…"
"No-"
"We have to end this now"
"Drac-"
"Harry, they're our families. Neither of us could hurt them."
In that moment I forgot Hermione was there, I forgot anyone else existed in the world. "I cant just stop seeing you. Just like that…"
"You have to Potter. I'm breaking up with you."
"You don't want to though! I know you!"
"Its for the best…" he leaned in and kissed me softly. I kissed back, pleading him not to do this, to just stay with me but soon he pulled back. "Tell Astoria and Scorp I wasn't feeling well and went home…" he said softly before aparating away. I stood there frozen, staring at the spot where he had stood.
"You really did love him didn't you Harry?" Hermione asked
"More then anything…" I nodded and she put a hand on my back.
"Its for the best"
"The best for who?" I whispered, "This doesn't change what I did or how I feel. And if anything I want to run away now more then ever…"
I felt her hug me gently "Just give it time" she whispered softly but I knew no amount of time would heal the void left in my life.
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So yeah…kind of depressing…Review please!