Authors Note- Happy Ambivalence Friday, everyone! So...Anybody see a 'Remember Me' trailer. I did, and it makes me more and more excited for March 12th. Sorry I did not update last Saturday, but it wasn't a guaranteed. I hadn't gotten to my computer until after midnight and I was just drained from the days events.

Read on!

Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight. If I owned Edward he would go to EA! Of course, Carlisle would be locked in my basement for eternity so I could do as I wish.

BPOV

On Thurdays lunch I was walking in the cafeteria, making myself a salad, which was normally what I ate during lunch. I messed around with the hard boiled eggs, lettuce, carrots and cucumber. When I was satisfied with how it looked I drizzled italian dressing over it, grabbing a plastic fork to eat with.

I sat in the normal table in the middle of the cafeteria with Emmett, Alice, Rose and Jasper. They were eating their lunch and chatting amongst themselfs. I set my bowl down and dug in.

" Bella's usual edible art." Rosalie stated, looking at my salad.

I smiled shyly " Yeah..."

Behind me I felt someone gripping the chair. I stayed still, knowing who it was by just the mere presence.

" Hey, guys." Edward said, taking his normal seat next to me, draping his arm across the back of my chair like everything was perfectly fine. It's not like they knew what happened.

I picked up my fork and stabbed a peice of lettuce with it, getting a carrot also. I jammed it into my mouth and chewed slowly.

" So, Bella. Alice here tells me your going to Newton's party. I thought you would come up with an excuse to study, since Friday is normally when you and Edward study and do homework together. I would think Ed would ditch and you stay home."

" I just need some fun. Didn't have the best weekend." I stated.

" Stub a toe?" Rose asked

" Hit your head on something?" Jasper asked.

" Hospital visit?" Emmett chortled.

" I KNOW! You got your period!" Alice chimed.

I stared at them incredulously " Um no. And Alice, don't shout that in a cafeteria or in the presence of Emmett and Jasper!" I scolded.

" You forgot to mention, Edward." she informed me.

Edward laughed loudly " Well, Alice. When she was twelve, I was the first person she told. She was quite frightened and she was scared to tell her mother. I somehow convinced her to do it."

My eyes bugged out of my head and everyone at the table laughed, a bright red blush spread across my cheeks and I moved my leg over to kick Edward in the shin. He winced and muttered an 'ow'.

Rose slammed her hand on the table, still in hysterics. Tears streaming down her face. I desperately wanted to slap her just to make her stop laughing.

" Stop it! That is so embarassing."

" You were scared to tell you mom! Of all people! But you told, Edward. And he was a boy!" Alice said, not believing it.

I elbowed her ribs " I knew he wouldn't say anything! I was scared and... I just really don't want to talk about it. That's personal." I said with finalty

Emmett finally shut up and resumed eating his buffalo wings. Alice took a bite of her pizza and slid it over to Jasper, who also took a bite.

If anyone else heard that conversation, I would be made fun of for life... and then I would kick Alice.

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I couldn't really believe myself when I stood infront of the mirror. I was seriously going to a party. One that was liable to have beer. One where people would be basically humping eachother all over the place, and having sex in the bedrooms on the second floor. Stereotypical

Partying was never my scene but as I said, I needed fun. With Edward's constant attitude at me I was just getting run down. Sleep hadn't come easy last night, I was up all night having strange nightmares.

Tonight, I was wearing tight medium washed denim jeans with my black boots that hugged my calf. The heel was tall but I could handle it. My top was a white racer back and I had on a black vest over it that ended above my belly button and had a deep V. It was meant to go over clothes. I was going to button it, but all it did was squish my boobs together and make me feel like I was suffocating.

My make-up was light and my hair was curled and shiny. I looked at myself once more in the mirror before stuffing my phone in my pocket and walking downstairs. I had informed my parents I was attending this party. They were a little wary, saying I was only sixteen and there would be drinking. My father was very opposed.

I thanked my mom for convincing him to let me go, on a few conditions:

No drinking.

Have my phone on me at all times.

Make sure that I have atleast one friend around. Them being Alice, Rose, Emmett, Jasper or Edward.

Edward's parents aren't home, so we both had to make sure that we called if we slept over at his house, which was not going to happened. But if we came here, Edward had to sleep over.

Those were basically the rules. A loud honk from a familar Porshe broke me out of my trace. I said goodbye to my parents and bounded down the steps. Quickly jumping into Alice's canary yellow car.

She had a huge smile on her face driving the whole way there. I shifted in my seat when the loud music from a minute away sounded.

Mike Newton may be a tad creepy, but he threw awesome parties from what I heard. Alice said that he never half- assed anything. The only thing was that nobody that was a freshmen could come, which was understandable because they are only fourteen or fifteen.

Alice parked on the curb next to the big grey mansion. The lawn was covered in lights and kids were walking around, drinks in hand. When Alice got out of the car I could see her outfit in full. She was wearing a purple dress, that looked like one for clubbing and she had on four inch white heels. Her hair was in it's normal spike and her eyes were smokey looking.

When walking inside the house she turned to me.

" If you need me, just text okay. If you can't get a hold of me then try Rose or someone alright. I'm going to find Jazz." Alice stated, giving me a hug before running off.

I walked around, feeling a little out of my element. When I spotted Emmett he was at the snack table, no surprise there, and he was digging his hands into everything he could. With a laugh I walked over to him.

A goofy grin spread across is face when he saw me. He lifted me up in a bone-crushing hug.

" Hey, Bells! Fancy seeing you here, girly girl."

He was most definately crazy. In his right hand was a beer and it seemed to be almost empty. I eyed it, just wondering what it taste like. Emmett held it out to me, silently knowing I wanted it.

Your parents told you not to!

When have I ever just not listened for once?

Without hesitance I tipped the beer bottle to my mouth and took a sip. I abruptly pulled it back and gagged.

" Shit, Em. This taste like piss." I complained, wiping my mouth.

He laughed and drank the rest " You develope a taste for it after awhile."

I shook my head and walked into the kitchen. There was a huge punch bowl, no doubt spiked, but I got a glass of it anyways. I chugged down the first, feeling the burn of what was probably Vodka. I filled it up again before walking towards the huge living room.

The music blared from the black speakers and people danced and grinded. I could faintly spot Edward sitting on the couch, Tanya perched in his lap as he talked with a player. She ran her hands up and down his chest and kissed his neck. He would turn his head every few seconds and kiss her neck in response. Making her smile in satisfaction.

She was wearing a glittery white dress. More like a scrap of fabric. It was tight and short, which didn't look right. She was wearing red heels that were probably higher then Alice's and her make-up was all pink.

As I walked further into the room my heels tapped on the floor. I caught sight of Alice, who was shamelessly making-out with Jasper in a overstuffed arm chair. He seemed to be enjoying himself.

I felt a light tap on my shoulder and turned around to see James Laurent, a guy who is in my history class. He's kinda cute. Short blonde hair and stubble on his jaw, his bright blue eyes out shined Rosalie's, which was a shock.

" Bella, right?" he asked.

" Um, yeah." I said nervously.

He chuckled " Your in my history class. I'm James... I've never seen you at one of Newts parties."

" It's not really my scene. I just needed some fun."

A smile spread across his face " Well, I am just the guy to deliver." he said, wrapping his arm around my waist.

He didn't make me feel uncomfortable, so I guess that must be good. The song changed and James rested his hands on my hips swaying slowly.

" I can't really dance," I whispered in his ear.

James grabbed my right hand with his and spun me outwards, coming forward and wrapping his arms around my waist, moving us to the beat of the music.

" Lucky for you, I can."

To each song there was a different sway. He was gentlemenly enough not to grind against me, probably knowing that it would make me uncomfortable. When another song stopped so did I.

" I'm going to get a drink." I stated.

He smiled and nodded and I went out to the kitchen. I re-filled my glass for the third time. I was feeling a little buzzed but I was on a high dancing with him. I handed him a drink and he downed it quickly. I drank mine down and he swept me up into his arms once again.

EPOV

My eyes couldn't leave the scene infront of me. I was appauled and shocked. It was like a car accident, bad, but not able to look away when you pass it. Tanya was talking with Lauren, one of her good friends, while I went off to get drinks.

Thats when I saw her.

I did see her throughout the night, dancing with James Laurent. He was a nice guy, never did anything around school that seemed bad. He played on the Track team and worked for the schools paper with Eric Yorke.

Bella had dranken alot of the punch, probably full well knowing it was spiked. I drank a glass, but that was it. I was not going to get drunk because I knew that I had to keep an eye on Bella.

I couldn't see her for the past hour, but then I got up and went into the kitchen to get some punch for Tanya and water for me.

Thats when I saw Bella through the sliding glass door outside. My eyes couldn't peel away from her outfit for some reason. Her pants were tight and her boots were tall. Her shirt was fitting and her long hair was curled.

She was straddling James Laurent's lap and her mouth was glued to his. I could see his hands wandering over her and it was not just drunken groping. I could tell that he wasn't drunk. It was Bella who was.

I angrily slid open the door and walked over to the chair. I almost threw up when I saw her grinding on him. Quickly, I grabbed her around the waist and yanked her away from James, who was shocked.

Bella slumped against me and I could smell the alcohol on her. I stood infront of her and glared at James. Everyone knew how protective of her I was. It was no joke, and nobody would take advantage of my friend.

" What the hell do you think you were doing?!" I screamed " Taking advantage of her when she is drunk and you clearly aren't!"

" Why do you always ruin all the fun?" Bella groaned into my ear.

James stood up and backed away " I'm sorry. We were just dancing and she said that she wanted some air because she felt claustorphobic. I sat down in a chair and she was on my lap. I wasn't going to have sex with her, dude. But I'm a guy and once she got going..." he said sincerely.

I sighed " Whatever, okay. But you should stopped her. The whole school fucking knowns how protective I am. If I ever see you doing what you were just doing with her, I won't hesitate to get the Police Chief on your ass."

He nodded and walked straight away. I turned back to Bella, her eyes were glazed over and she looked like she was about to fall. I scooped her up in my arms and she pushed me away.

" Don't fucking touch me. You... You hurt my feelings and made me feel bad." she mumbled.

I kissed the top of her head " We'll talk okay."

I could tell she was upset and I couldn't blame her. I had acted like an ass on Monday and I knew it. Bella always came first in my life and I seemed to forget it but when she went off in class I lost it and had to fight back.

Tanya does take up alot of my time. I just like being around her because I like to be. But then I always forgot about Bella, who had always been around for me and was always there when I needed her about anything.

I didn't want us to split up in life. I was afraid it would happen.

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When I got back in the house I had to tell Tanya I had to go. She was upset and said that it was only 1:00am, but I had to get Bella back. She was all giggly, but then all angry. I would have to take her to my house because if Charlie and Renee saw this... We would get in huge trouble.

I pecked Tanya on the cheek and told Alice that I was getting Bella home. She nodded and I dragged Bella outside. She was trying to make me let go of her wrists and she was planting her feet hard on the ground so it was hard to drag her away.

" Bella, please, babe. Just let me get you back and you can go rabid around my house."

She huffed and stumbled to the car, she tugged relentlessly on the handle until I unlocked it and got in with an angry sigh. I started up my Volvo and drove towards my house. Bella rested her hand on the head rest and turned her head towards me, a weird dreamy look on her face.

" Edward," she started " Why are you so damn cute?" she asked me seriously.

I chuckled and ran a nervous hand through my hair " Um..."

" Why?" now she was demanding.

" I don't know, my parents?"

She giggled drunkenly and turned her head to the windshield " Yeah... Your dad is pretty cute. To bad your mom has him."

A groan of dissapointment fell from her lips and I laughed once again. " Bella, do you have the hott's for my dad."

" No!" she refused " But your pretty cute. Wouldn't mind being locked in a closet with you for a few hours."

My eyes shot to hers. She was clearly joking.

" Seriously, Bella? That's funny. Were like best friends." I said, parking on the driveway of my house.

She got out of the car and mumbled something to her self. I locked up the car and helped her up the steps. When we got in I locked the door. My parents were gone for today and were coming back tomorrow afternoon. My father had to travel for an open heart surgery taking place in Washington and mom hated being away from him when he traveled.

I thanked my lucky stars...

Bella stumbled up the stairs and I flipped open my cell phone to call Renee and Charlie. They picked up on the first ring, basically expecting the call.

" Hey. Bella is going to stay with me over here. She passed out in the car and it was easier to get her to my house."

" Okay, sweetie. Is she okay, no drinking?"

I smiled " Nope, perfectly sober. She was just a dancing machine." I lied smoothly.

Renee chuckled " Alright, sleep well both of you."

I wished her a goodbye and went upstairs. When I got to my bedroom I almost backed out and ran away. Bella had taken off her vest and top and was shuffling through my drawers, wearing only a bra on her top half.

This was my best friend for gods sake!

" Where the hell is a shirt when I need one?"

I rolled my eyes " Bella, your looking through my pants drawer."

She giggled and I walked over to the dresser. I handed her one of my shirts and she reached behind her.

" Whoa there. Bella, I have a bathroom." I objected quickly.

She stood up and looked up at me through her eye lashes. " I knowwwww, but 'ight now, I don't care." she slurred.

I went into the bathroom and shut the door quickly. Atleast she wasn't all touch feely. That would be so wrong.

I took a piss and dressed for bed, hoping that Bella was already dressed her self. When I opened the door it was dark in the room. The moon shone through the window and I could see all of Bella's clothes scattered around. Oh fucking god please tell me she put on the shirt and kept pants on.

Her jeans were mocking me from the floor and I groaned. Her bra was strewn right across the middle of my floor. If any person were to walk in here, it would be obvious what they would think.

On my bed, Bella was sprawled out in the middle, ontop of my sheets. Her legs were bare but I could see a part of her underwear which was like a tiny pair of shorts. My shirt went a few inchs below her hip and I sighed in relief.

I got into bed next to her and shifted her around to get the covers over her. She was awake, but acting fairly cranky.

" Stop moving me!" she screeched into my ear.

" Jesus, Bella!" I yelled back in protest.

She rested her body a little more close to mine then normal. A cool shiver shook her and she rested her face close to my neck, I could feel her breath against it as she breathed. My nose wrinkled at the smell of alcohol and punch mixed. I draped the blanket over us and kissed the top of her head.

" Sleep, okay?"

She mumbled incoherantly and I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

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BPOV

I awoke at three in the morning to a pounding headache. My head was pulsing and I felt like someone had just twisted it all around and knocked it against a wall over and over again.

The headache wasn't was made me wake up though. It was the swirly nauseous feeling in my stomach. I lurked out of what seemed to be Edward's bed, and ran straight to his bathroom. I bent down by the toilet and wretched into it violently.

Behind me I felt familar hands hold my hair back. I could feel little sparks when his skin made contact with mine. A clammy moisture broke out on my skin as I continued to vomit. My throat was burning slightly and my head was spinning. I felt like I was about to throw up my actual stomach.

Edward flushed the toilet in the middle of my throwing up, only for me to start at it again.

After round six I stood up and washed out my mouth in the sink. I felt completely drained and felt like I was about to drop to the ground. Edward swept me up in his strong arms and walked us back to his bed. I slumped against the mattress and rolled onto my side.

" Are you going to ignore me?" he asked.

" That's the plan." I grumbled.

His wrapped his arm around my waist and turned me to face him. I stared up him, my head against his shoulder. His back was propped up on the headboard and he was looking down at me.

" Bella," he started " I don't want us to ever split up. It's what I'm afraid of, it's not what I want. You mean so much to me. We grew up together and it's not just because of that. I've always confinded it you for everything because I can talk to you about everything. I don't mean to push you away just because I have a girlfriend now. I feel like a complete ass for doing it but I still love you, Bella. Your...Your always first on my list, you will always come first in my life, no matter what."

I looked down at our hands, just wishing he meant he loved me in a different way. The way I wanted him to mean it. Tears dripped down my face and I quickly wiped them.

Edward wrapped his arms around me " I'm so sorry, Iz B." he whispered.

" It's okay. Let's just forget about it."

" I can't forget about it when I hurt you... Fuck, Bella what was that nightmare about?"

I shifted nervously " Nothing really."

He looked at me skeptically. I was a horrible liar, everybody knew that.

" Bella," he started.

" It was stupid, Edward. Your words just echoed in my head."

" Like?"

I sighed " Nothing, just the comment about what you do with your girlfriend." I said quickly.

Edward released me and I sat up against the headboard next to him. He looked at me a hint of blush on his cheeks.

He didn't...

" Edward... You haven't... With her?" I stammered.

I stared at him. He always told me about that kind of stuff. Hell, I told him about the time I made-out with creepy Newton in the hallway during lunch hour. From what I heard about Tanya, which I hate talking about, all they do is kiss. If she defiled him...

I felt like an overprotective mother, which was stupid. Edward's virginity was something that was his buisness.

Please, Edward, tell me you didn't lose it to her. I'd rather it be Lauren Mallory!

" Not...tecnically." he stated looking away.

" Tecnically? Edward, its either you did. Or didnt."

" No, okay... Shit, Bella, I'm only sixteen and I may be... I am not even going to say it... but I'll atleast wait a year or two. Hell, I am all for sex after marriage." he said, clearly embarassed.

I let out a gush of air " Thank god," I muttered to myself.

When I looked over at him, his face was flaming. I laughed " It's a good thing, Edward."

" What about you, Bella? I mean, the way you were straddling James Laurent last night..."

" WHAT?! Edward, what the hell did happen last night. I can't remember after the third glass of...punch"

" I was with, Tanya. I saw you dancing with him but when I got more punch I saw you in the backyard, and you were in his lap kissing him. After I ripped you off him I yelled at him. He apologized, basically saying that he was a guy and you were pretty... He just left after apologizing for it all."

" Atleast he has some decency... Thanks for doing that though. I don't know what I was thinking. It's not like me and I just wa-"

" Bella, it's fine. Your home with me and everything is okay."

I shifted my legs under the white and black sheets, the softness feeling nice under my bare legs.

Bare legs?

Quickly I scrambled upright, feeling below the covers.

" You let me strip in here, while you were here?!" I yelled.

He shook his head " No, but you were very willing to give me a show. I escaped to the bathroom before you molested me."

My jaw dropped and I slapped his arm " Me, molest you? That's like- Eww, no. Never."

Liar!

I sighed in relief knowing I was atleast wearing underwear with the shirt. Around the room my clothes were scattered around, pants, shirts... I got up from the bed and collected my clothes.

" Sorry about this... About everything. I was so stupid and you shouldn't have to deal with that," I said, snatching up my vest.

" Were best friends, we are supposed to have eachothers back."

I smiled at him and stumbled into his bathroom. I re-dressed with my clothes from last night and walked back into his bedroom. Edward was still lazing around in his bed and I smiled at the sight.

" I should probably head home. Thanks for taking care of me." I said quietly.

He smiled at me " Of course, Iz."

I slipped out of his bedroom and leaned against the wall.

I'd never wanted to kiss him so much in my life.

Authors Note- So, drunk Bella? Are we liking it? Well, it won't happen for a while so don't expect more drunk Bella anytime soon. Now drunk Edward...Well maybe if you guys are lucky...