Authors Note- I have no excuse for not updating Tuesday. I was tired, and unfocused so I really couldn't go over it without failing and missing all the mistakes. I am really sorry, just believe that. But look how early it is! I mean, some may live in different states, but it's only a few hours, and this is EARLY, for me. And I have a song!

This is How a Heart Breaks by: Rob Thoma

Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.

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January 10th

Tuesday

2006

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BPOV

" World War 1. It was a military conflict that lasted from 1914 to 1918 and involved most of the world's great powers. Assembled in two opposing alliances. More then seventy million military personnel, including sixty million Europeans, were mobilised in one of the largest worlds in history. More then fifteen million people were killed. Effectively making it one of the dealiest conflicts in history."

I listened as the teacher went on and on about World War 1. While an eager Jasper listened from his seat next to me, I didn't really pay attention. I just wanted to go to lunch at the moment, I was getting sick of school and it only started back up yesterday.

When class was over I went to lunch, spending the entire period eating an apple with a bottle of lemonade. Twirling the cap with my fingers. Once the lunch period was over I walked off to Biology, taking my seat next to a smiling Edward.

I ignored his creepy smile during class, but I was even more suspicious when he was following me to gym. Finally I stopped outside of the door and glared at him. He stared back at me, a strange look in his eyes.

" Why are you following me?"

" This is my last class."

" No, that's History."

" The class was getting full, and I couldn't go into another History class so I did a little switching of my schedule so now I have Algebra, then History, English Lit., Italian, Lunch, Biology and Gym. So now I can see you and your clumsiness."

I glared at him a moment before walking into the gym, and to the girls locker room. We hadn't exactly talked much after I had gotten over my illness. He just ignored it all and I did the same.

I dressed in a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. We were doing Volleyball, and I knew that it wasn't going to be pretty.

When I walked out there were two nets, and there were four teams. Unfortunetly Edward was on the opposite net on the left, across from me. I was on the right and paired up with Jessica Stanley, a random girl and some guy named Brett.

Tanya was on Edward's team with the other net, and she and him were talking and laughing with eachother. When the ball was passed to me, Jessica looked at me warily. I threw it up in the air and put my hands together. I popped it in the air and closed my eyes. Luckily, I hit nobody.

I watched Tanya and Edward flirt with eachother shamelessly. Fuck I wanted to hit her so badly, but I couldn't.

" Bella!" the Brett kid shouted.

I snapped my gaze from the happy couple and saw the ball coming towards me. I slapped my hand against it, way to hard then I intended. My hand was burning and I heard a loud smack followed by an ' Oh, shit that hurt '. My eyes shot open and I saw Edward laying flat on the ground, his hand on his head.

I didn't realize I was that angry...

Quickly I scrambled away from my spot and sprinted towards him. Tanya was glaring at me as I knelt beside him worriedly.

" Oh my god, Edward. Are you okay?"

" You can really hit can't you."

I laughed " Yeah. Look, I am really sorry."

I stood up and gave him my hand. Fireworks shooting up my arm as he held my hand. I helped pull his two hundred pound frame up and let his hand go. As I was walking away he grabbed my hand.

I turned around and looked at him " Yeah?"

" We should talk today. After school?"

" O-Of co-course." I stuttered.

Without warning, he just wrapped his arms around me and hugged me. I could almost hear Tanya huffing in anger. A loud wolf whistle sounded and a familar voice of Tyler yelled.

" Score, Cullen!"

I rolled my eyes and blushed before pulling away and heading to the locker room. When I walked in I was startled by someone pushing me against the lockers. The lock dug into the side of my arm. That would be a bruise.

Tanya let me go and glared at me "What the fuck, Swan? You realize thats my boyfriend. Not yours."

" He hugged me. Don't be so jealous, it's not attractive."

She pushed me once again into the lockers, harder this time.

" Hey, let her go." A small, but stern voice said.

Over Tanya's shoulder I saw Jessica Stanley.

" The whole school knows they are best friends. Stop being a bitch because he hugged her."

She let me go and looked over at Jessica " What's it to you, emo freak. Why don't you go crawl into your coffin and stay there." she spat before walking away.

Jessica was about to leave but I said her name.

" What?"

I sighed " Thank you. Your the only one who has ever stuck up for me."

She nodded her head once before leaving. I opened up my locker, wincing at the pain in my arm. There was a cirucular purple, blueish spot forming already. The sharp part of metal had cut the skin and it was bleeding slightly. I sighed and quickly dressed in my previous clothes.

I stopped at my locker and grabbed my jacket. I slipped it on and buttoned it up before heading out to Edward's Volvo. As I was walking down the cement steps I saw Carmen. She started coming towards me so I walked faster.

Instead, she walked faster and pushed me into a tree.

What is with these bitches and pushing me up against things?

" Stay the fuck away from him, Swan. Or I swear I will mess you up."

I gave her a once-over " Your don't intimidate me. You don't even scare me. Back the fuck off, or I will tell Edward exactly how she treats me. And who do you think he will believe?"

She backed off and I left, gripping my bag and heading towards his car. He was leaning against the drivers side, a smirk on his face. His face fell slightly seeing my expression.

" What happened?"

" Nothing."

I got into the car and slammed the door, putting on my seatbelt. He got in, starting up the car and drove towards home.

" You've gotta learn to start talking to me, Isabella."

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I threw my jacket down onto my bed, which was at an awkward angle across the room. I had planned to paint it sometime this week so I had been moving stuff and putting down tarps and taping around the wooden frames. I already had the dark purple paint, I just had to start painting.

Edward looked around the room, probably noting that the cot had magically dissapeared.

" Where's my cot?" he asked " You weren't that pissed where you?"

I shook my head "No. I got a bigger bed. Therefore it can't fit in here anymore."

" No more sleepovers?"

I shrugged " Don't know."

He sat down on my messy bed and sighed. When he looked back at me, his gaze was on my arm. Quickly he stood and strode to me, grabbing my arm. There was blood running down the gash and bruise. I jerked my arm away.

" Bella, what happened?" he demanded.

" Nothing. I tripped into the lockers." I mumbled going into the bathroom. I grabbed a cloth and wet it, wiping off the blood as best as I could.

" Truth." he stated.

" It was nothing. Carmen and Lauren did it. No big deal, barely hurts." I lied. It was Tanya who did it, but I couldn't tell him that.

" Why the fuck would they do this."

I sighed " What do you think, Edward. They don't like me, or my relationship with you."

" Jesus, Bella. I'll tell Tanya to make them stop. I bet she doesn't even know."

She was the one who did it!

I put a bandaid over the wound and went back into my bedroom. We both sat on my bed awkwardly, just waiting for the other to start saying something. I didn't know how to start up this conversation, but I fully expected Edward to start it because I had no idea what to say to him at this time.

" First. I really want to apologize for what happened. Second, the anger I took out on you, was not meant to be taken out on your, or anyone. And thirdly, I had no right to talk to you the way I did."

I nodded " Yeah, your right. And my life isn't perfect, Edward."

He frowned at me.

"And drinking was supid. It's just.. All my friends do it and they expect me to, just like smoking. I don't want to look lame or stupid."

I laughed and shook my head, standing up. " Why do you drink and smoke?"

" Because my friends do."

" Exactly! And do you want to be like your friends all the time. The first thing you told me when you started the team was ' I will always be the same Edward, I won't let it get to my head or take over who I am '. That's the guy I want back. The one who stayed with me when I was sick, and the one who was always my best friend. Who didn't ditch me for someone else or acted like a stuck up jerk. Now I just feel like you don't need me anymore. Your got your jock friends, a perfect girlfriend and everything that you have ever needed. It's right infront of you, and I am just cast aside, like a toy you pick up every once in awhile when you remember it."

He fiddled with his hands before running them over his face.

" I deserved that." he started " I'm incredibly sorry that it has gotten to the point of where you view me different. I guess it is stupid, the reason why I drink and smoke. But at the end of the day. I am still Edward, not a stuck up jerk. But I still need you Bella. Your the one part of me that reminds me of who I really am. Around my friends I can't be who I really am. They don't know that I used to cry when watching the Titanic. If I acted who I was, they would think I was just a weak, spineless sissy."

I sighed and paced around the room " Well I like you when your a, 'weak, spineless sissy' if that's what you call yourself. Infront of me I see a strong person, who is maybe a little sensitive, but holds alot of love in his heart for people. I see someone who treats their parents with respect, and someone who has value's. Not someone who smokes and gets drunk and acts like they are better then everyone else."

A tear slid down my cheek and he stood up.

" Why are you crying?" he asked.

" I'm crying because I shouldn't have to tell you who you are."

Edward wrapped his arms tightly around my waist " Your so right, Bella. You shouldn't, but sometimes I need to be reminded. I'm so sorry for how I have treated you, you don't deserve that. Fuck, I am such an idiot. I don't even deserve your friendship for gods sake."

He put both arms around my waist and I bent my arms to rest against his biceps. I rested my forehead on his shoulder and sighed.

" You act like an ass half the time. But your my best friend, you will always be my best friend no matter what."

" Your too easy on me."

" What do you want me to say? Edward your a fucking jerk and I hate you? No, that's not what I think of you."

He pulled away from me and turned towards my dresser. Edward grabbed the white box, lifting up the cap and taking out the bracelet. He handed it to me.

" I saw it, and thought of you. Will you wear it, please?"

Slowly, I held up my wrist and let him clasp it. I smiled and admired it on my wrist, the emerald stones sparking in the light along with the pretty diamonds.

" This must of been really expensive." I noted.

" Nothing is too expensive for you."

I smiled " Edward, this bracelet is worth more then I am." I chuckled, fingering it nervously.

His eyes and expression were then very serious when he looked at me.

" Bella, your priceless. Any person should know that."

A blush swept across my features " Thank you for thinking so."

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March 4th

Saturday

2006

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Painting.

It had taken me until now to actually go out and buy paint for my bedroom. With school, tests, quiz's, work and friends, I haven't had much time to get around to it. My parents were pests when it came to complaining about the mattress, which was still in the living room. Until I got my purple paint, they were quiet.

Rosalie and I haven't spoken very much. She is still a little upset at me about when I was sick. She knew how to hold on to a grudge, oh boy does she. But Alice still talks to me. She thinks that Rose is just acting stupid and is a little confused. I was only going to wait until she came around because I had nothing to apologize for.

Edward and I have been okay the past month. He had promised me that he wouldn't take his anger out on me anymore, and would stop drinking heavily. I didn't want to be acting like his mother, but I didn't want to be around him in that state of drunken-ness.

As I put the cap on the paint can, Edward burst into my room all smiles.

He wrapped his arms around me and lifted me up abruptly. I let out a small screech of surprise and he chuckled.

" You have been painting since yesterday. Come on ya, nutter. We are going to the diner."

Edward set me down and I glared at him.

" I am not a nutter. And your paying." I stated, a smile on my face.

" Of course. Now, lets go." he said, opening the bedroom door.

I convinced him to let me get dressed in better clothes and went to the bathroom. I dressed quickly and slipped on my jacket. I walked out of my bedroom, skipping, more like tripping, my way down the stairs. Edward zipped past me, opening the front door and walking to his Volvo.

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The drive to the diner was short, and when we got a table and ordered drinks, I watched as his eyes scanned the menu. He was sitting next to me, on the left.

How was he even sexy looking at a menu?

I realized that I had been shamelessly staring when Edward had looked up from the menu.

" Bella, why are you staring at me like that?" he asked, closing the menu.

I shook my head, clearing my thoughts and looked down at my own menu. He chuckled.

" You are one strange girl, Isabella Swan."

" Which is why you love me." I said, not taking my eyes off the menu.

When the waitress came back, she made sure to pay extra special attentiont to Edward. Nobody batts their eyelashes that fast naturally. I glared at her as she leaned over the table, giving us a show of her cleavage.

" So, what can I get you?" she purred

Edward smiled polietly at her before speaking " A waitress that doesn't flash her cleavage at me. I would appreciate it if you would take the order and leave us be."

She leaned back abruptly and Edward draped his arm around my waist, scooting closer to me. The girl glared at me with hate-filled eyes. I just smiled at her and rested my head on Edward's shoulder.

" I would like a Garden Burger with a Garlic Roll."

" A medium cooked burger, with sauteed mushrooms, also I want a garlic roll, please."

Quickly she jotted it down and looked once again at us. Edward placed a kiss on my neck, making my heart shatter into tiny little peices knowing that it was all just fake. Since Edward was the major women attractor, he used me, Alice, Rosalie or someone just to ward them off. Unlucky for me, it was mostly I that he used.

Once she left, he released me and I scooted my chair back over. I looked out of the window, drinking my water. People on the sidewalks were hustling through the crowds. A thin sheet of snow covered the ground, and scattered patches of ice.

" You in there? Keep spacing out." Edward said, tapping my arm.

I set my water down and looked at him " Sorry. I just have alot on my mind." I said.

" Don't you always?"

I nodded and gave him a shy smile.

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Once the waitress delivered our food, I basically devoured it, feeling absolutely starved. I tried to eat slower, not wanting to eat like a pig and embarass myself infront of Edward. Once I finished with my garden burger I munched on the garlic roll slowly.

After Edward finished his lunch we slipped on our coats. Edward grabbed his keys and we walked towards the door. He opened it up for me and I walked through. As we walked towards the car, snow fell into my hair, tangling in my curls.

His car was parked on a curb and I took a step forward closer, not seeing the patch of ice on the ground, and slipped backwards abruptly. Edward made a quick grab for me, only to bring himself down on his bum, while I lay on the ground. Luckily my head didn't hit the pavement hard.

" Whoa, shit, Bella. Your head is bleeding!" Edward shouted, standing up and taking hold of me.

Okay, maybe I did hit it that hard. I winced as I reached to touch the back of my head. When I saw the blood on my hand I started to feel woozy. Edward unlocked the car and reached for a napkin in the glove department. He wiped my hand, knowing that blood made me sick, and ushered me into the car.

" Don't lay your head on the headrest, please?"

Only Edward would worry about his Volvo.

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Luckily, Carlisle was home when Edward got me into the house. He looked startled when we entered his office but he made me sit on the desk while he got a first aid kit.

" So, what happened this time."

" She slipped on a patch of ice by the Chicago Diner, we were walking to the car. I tried to catch her but she had already hit her head."

He came back and examined my head, brushing some of my hair out of the way. I winced as he touched the tender spot.

" Well, you've got a pretty bad gash here, but it's not deep enough to hurt your skull badly. Maybe just a concussion. But I will clean and stitch you right up, just stay still."

I have had enough stitches to know what it was like. I hated the tugging feel, and I was very sensitive when it came to breaking things, or getting stitches. Edward held my hand as Carlisle cleaned the cut and got to work. He put the bloody gauze in a bowl and when he finished it, he took a match and lit it on fire, letting it flame up and burn out until the gauze was nothing but ashes. He gave me a pill to swallow and I took it easily.

When he helped me stand, I was once again dizzy and literally fell forward into him, stumbling into his side. Carlisle quickly caught me with fast reflex's and stood me straight. My head was pounding uncomfortably and all I could think was; Bed.

" I would like to see how you are in the morning, so I think you should stay here for tonight just in case. I would like to watch over you and if your headache doesn't get better I may want to take an x-ray of your head." he said " Edward, could you take her to your bedroom? I'll have Esme get her clothes."

Edward led my wobbly form to his bedroom and I collapsed on his white cot/couch. He covered me with his fuzzy black and white blanket and kissed my temple.

" Are you okay? You haven't spoken much."

" Why was I born with such ungracefulness?"

He chuckled " I don't know. But Charlie isn't that balanced that well. Remember when he was running downstairs because he was late for his shift and he fell straight on his ass. Or when he tripped over your ballet shoes when you were eight. I could name many more."

" Yeah... He tripped up the stairs this morning."

He laughed once more " See. Your not the only one."

A little while later Esme came in with a pair of pajama's. I lazily slipped into them and she took my other clothes to wash. I thanked her with a hug and laid back down. Edward was laying in bed, a book open and wearing his reading glasses. He wore contacts in school because he didn't want to look like a 'geek' as he put it. I just thought it made him look smart... and incredibly sexy.

I rolled over, facing the glass wall, and closed my eyes. A few minutes later I heard him switch off the lamp and roll over.

" Goodnight, Bella."

" 'Night." I replied

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I was awoken in the middle of the night. The sky was still dark but I could hear voices beside me. It sounded like both Carlisle and Edward. My head was still pulsing and I begged for it to just go away and let me sleep.

" Isabella, the stitches broke open. I need to stitch you back up, darling." Carlisle said as Edward helped me sit up.

A loud yawn escaped me and I sat up. Edward was rubbing something onto my sleeping lounger. I then realized that their was blood on it.

" I am so sorry." I murmured sleepily.

" It's fine. It comes right out. No worries." Edward assured me as I felt the uncomfortable tugging.

Carlisle worked on my head for a good ten minutes, stitching me up well. Edward held my hand for this once again, trying to keep my mind off of what Carlisle was doing. Once he was finished he threw out more bloody gauze and turned towards Edward.

" You should lay a towel over a pillow and let her sleep in the bed. Since the cot has the drying damp spot. Or she could sleep in a guest room or the couch downstairs."

" Um, no. She can sleep in here with me. I'll just get a bath towel."

" Okay. Try and sleep, Bella. If you notice anything again Edward, wake me."

He nodded and Carlisle stepped out of the room, looking sleepy in his pajama's. Edward went into his linen closet and grabbed a grey bath towel. He laid it over his white pillow and motioned for me to lay down. I crawled into his bed and laid my head on the pillow, sinking into the mattress.

" You better not squish me, squisher." I mumbled sleepily.

" Mhm." he murmured, getting back into bed.

I felt the mattress shifting until he stayed still and I could hear his soft snoring. My eyes drifted close once again and I was swept into a deep sleep.

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EPOV

I heard a loud knock on my bedroom door, awakening me from my slumber. I looked over at Bella, a little lump under my comforter, and saw her sleeping soundly. The towel was still clean, no blood. I shifted around, trying to once again get comfortable.

Then knock sounded again and I groaned.

" What, ma!" I asked, clearly annoyed

Once again, there was a knock. Not wanting to wake up Bella I slumped out of my comfortable bed and opened my bedroom door. I was startled to see Tanya, fully dressed and everything.

" Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked, pecking her lips.

She pushed through the door and I looked over at Bella. I knew that Tanya would be pissed the fuck off if she saw Bella in my bed. I ran my hands over my face and smiled.

" I called you, but you didn't answer. I was a little worried." she said, looking around my room.

" Sorry, I was up late last night, couldn't sleep well."

Tanya nodded " Well I figured maybe we could go out today. Alice, Rose and I are going shopping and I need someone carrying my bags."

It wasn't my favorite activity, but I would do anything for her.

" Yeah, sounds great. I'll just shower and we can go."

" Why do you sound nervous?" she asked curiously, scanning my room.

I rolled my eyes " I think your paranoid. I am perfectly fine."

Like her eyes were gravitated to that spot, she glared at Bella who was under my covers. She looked back at me, anger in her eyes.

"What's that?" she asked, obviously trying to stay calm. Her expression spoke otherwise.

" Look, Tanya. Bella and I went to the diner yesterday, and when we were coming back, she slipped on ice before we got to the car. So I took her here and my father said for her to stay because she had a bad gash in her head and he wanted to watch her. She slept on my little cot but in the middle of the night the stitches broke and she started bleeding. So I had to clean the blood off, making the spot damp, and Carlisle stitched her up and said that she should sleep in a bed with a towel over the pillow. I let her sleep with me so I could make sure there would be no more bleeding. Nothing happened, we slept on seperate sides." I explained quickly, trying to calm her.

She was fuming " You slept in the same bed with her?!" she screeched.

" Your going to wake her, can we please talk about this later?"

" No, Edward. Your with me, not her... Why did you let her sleep in your bed. You don't even let us have sex for gods sake, yet you let her sleep in your bed."

Not the sex conversation again...

" Bella and I have always been friends, will always be friends. And nothing more, Tanya. What don't yout get about that?"

She sighed " I just want you to open up to me like you do her, Edward. Your both so close and I want that with you."

I wrapped my arms around her waist and hugged her lovingly. I felt really bad, and I just wanted her to feel better. I didn't want her to feel upset about the situation.

" I can't be with Bella like this because I don't have the feelings for her, as I do you." I stated.

She smiled at me and pressed a chaste kiss to my lips " Your so sweet... I love you, Edward."

It was the first time she had actually said it to me, and it made me smile widely " I love you, too."

BPOV

" I can't be with Bella like this because I don't have the feelings for her, as I do you." he stated

" Your so sweet." I heard after a moment " I love you, Edward."

" I love you, too."

This is how it feels when your heart officially breaks... Officially shatters into small peices. Into microscopic peices. I tried, I tried so hard at that moment to not cry, to not burst into huge sobs. As quietly as possible, I lifted myself from his bed and stood up. My head throbbed but I couldn't think about that.

Edward was in actual love with her, something that I had been trying to prevent. He said the words to her, that I wanted to hear from him. I could hear the noisey sounds of their kissing and knew that I had to get out of there. Stat. I grabbed my things from his desk and draped them over my arm.

Once I made it halfway through the room, Edward seemed to notice me, breaking away from Tanya's lips.

" Bella! I didn't see you wake. How's your head?"

I kept my body back to him, not wanting him to see me like this " F-Fine. I got to get home."

" But, Be-"

" I'll see you later."

I darted down the stairs, only to run into a startled Esme who was holding her scrapbook stuff. Pictures skimmed across the floor, as well as glue, picture corners, and the book itself. She grabbed onto the railing not to fall and I stopped moving.

" Esme! I didn't see you. I'm really sorry." I said, running down the rest of the stairs to help her.

She knelt on the floor, looking at me " It's fine. Why in such a rush, dear?"

My breathing caught in my throat " Uh...Um... Tanya is here so I just needed to go." I said quietly.

" Why, do you not like her?" Esme asked timidly.

" No, it's not that. I just figured I'd let them both be."

After helping her clean up all her supplies, managing not to cry, I left the house, rushing out as quickly as I could. When I got to the front door, I unlocked it quickly and walked upstairs. When I got to my bedroom I locked the door, and let myself collapse on the bed with sobs wracking my body.

Would it ever get easier?

Authors Note- I hated writing EPOV, of him with Tanya. It broke my heart just a tad, but it had to be written, and I promise not to torture you all too badly with it. I hope all of you are enjoying this so far.

Also! The impending PROLOGUE question!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will truthfully tell you reviewers, I am working on chapter 27 of this story right now, and I have yet to get to it. Maybe chapter 29 or 30 alright...Go ahead, groan in pure anger and mentally kill me in your mind painfully, but I can't rush it guys. This story is based around the fact that Bella has extra feelings for him, so it's going to be a long ride there.

Anyways. Review if you'd like.