Authors Note-
Chapter Song- I'm Not Okay by: My Chemical Romance
Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.
BPOV
I have no idea what possessed me to follow him, but I did. We walked silently to his Volvo, and he was holding a little bag in his arms. I didn't ask him, and he didn't say anything about it. Though I did want to know why he wasn't at Prom with Tanya. Juniors were allowed to go, so there was no reason not to. Tanya was probably -no doubt- pissed as hell that he ditched her for me. Why did he ditch her for me?
I scampered to the passenger seat, not giving him enough time to open it for me. He scowled, but kept quiet. He threw his bag in the back and started up the engine. I listen to the purr of the Volvo and focused on it as he peeled out of the driveway.
He drove and drove, and I had absolutely no idea when he turned left on Archer Avenue. I watched as houses and tree's went past us. But soon, we were on a deserted rode, a forest surrounding us. When he stopped, it was at a dead end.
Edward got out of the car and I stayed unmoving. He grabbed his bag and looked at me.
I stared back at him skeptically.
Maybe he was going to drag me through the woods to kill me.
I nearly rolled my eyes at the stupid thought. I opened up the door and walked around, facing the huge forest. Edward walked forward, stepping over the roots and twigs. I would definately break my ankle on all of this.
He held his hand out " Are you coming or would you rather stay here, alone?"
Slowly and hesitantly, I reached out to grab his hand, sparks shooting up my arm. I took a first step into the forest and tripped. He caught me quickly with a chuckle and we continued our trip through the forest.
When we came to a fallen tree, he stepped over the huge tree and held his hands out. I was going to take them when he grabbed my waist and lifted me over. I held onto his shoulders until he set me safely on the ground, once again taking my hand.
As expected I tripped over more roots, but wasn't caught. My hands scraped against the tree as I tried to catch myself. I fell onto my hands and knee's with a sigh.
" Oh, my. Are you okay?" Edward asked, standing me up.
" How much longer?"
" About three miles."
My eyes bugged out of my head and I wiped my palms on my jeans. He crouched down, taking off his bag. Waiting. I stood next to him, wondering what he was doing crouched on the ground like he is.
" Hop on, Isabella."
" No thanks." I said, walking past him.
He grabbed my wrist, turning me around. " Can you just listen to me?"
I rolled my eyes " Why should I? Why are you even bringing me here?"
Without any words, he threw me over his shoulder and walked. I slapped his back as hard as I could manage, making him wince and almost drop me.
" Bella."
" Fucking let me go before I stab you with my house key."
He dropped me and I stumbled into a tree. I shook my head before walking in the opposite direction.
" I'm just trying to make everything better. It would be easier if you helped?"
" Why should I help? You haven't been easy on me?"
His eyes were pleading with me. " Please."
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We lugged through the huge forest, and I was shocked that Edward knew where we were going. I had relented in letting him carry me on his back. But as we got closer he set me down. Finally Edward stopped, and we were in an open area with tree's scattered and the grass was high, basically coming up to my knees.
Flowers were poking out here and there, light purples and dark reds. Tree's looked like they were just made to climb, but covered in a little moss. Edward walked over to a huge rock, sitting ontop of it.
" So, you drag me five miles away." I said, sitting on a low tree branch.
" I don't know where to start, but to say; I am sorry. I'm sorry for what I have done to you over the past months. All of the mis-directed anger and the stupid drunk yelling. It's not me and you don't deserve it. And the thing about James... Bella, I was an asshole. What he said, was none of my buisness and about the secret or whatever. Everyone is entitled to their own secret, but if it has to do with me, or a person, I just want to know because I want you to feel like you can open up to me. We have been friends since birth, and I have always gone to you with everything. I came to you when I broke something and was scared, and even personal things. But I can't blame you because the way I have been acting is inexcusable. I've just been...I don't know. But I got in a huge fight with Tanya over this, she is utterly pissed and she has been acting weird around me and that is adding stress."
" Go, if you want to be with her, go. Because I don't want you here if you don't want to be."
His expression changed as he looked at me " Bella, I wouldn't be here if I gave into her screaming and yelling, ontop of Rosalie yelling at me."
" I'm s-"
" Don't you dare apologize... I just don't know what it will take for Tanya and Rosalie to realize we are friends."
He grabbed a lighter from his pocket, and poked a cigarette into his mouth. He lit it and I glared at him, standing on the thick, short branch. He looked up at me sheepishly.
" I'm sorry, fuck it's just helping."
I hopped ungracefully from the tree and walked up to him. I took the cigarette out of his mouth, him standing with surprise. I threw it on the ground angrily and stomped on it. Then I dug my hand into his pocket, took out the whole pack and threw it as far as I could, then threw the lighter in the opposite direction.
" Bella, what the fu-"
" Are you going to start yelling at me again? Go ahead, be my guest."
He ran his hands through his hair and paced " I'm not going to yell."
" Well stop acting like such a dumbass. You've obviously changed your personality and your priorities, if I'm not in them, then whatever. I don't care."
" You've changed, too, Isabella! I am not the only one."
I scoffed " Right, tell me how?"
" Your attitude, clothing, confidence. And when was the last time you were in the music room, or sketching, or in the art room painting? Esme and Carlisle made those rooms specifically for you"
" And those are bad things. I've always had confidence issues, do you really want me to go back to wearing my old clothes. Would that satisfy you, Edward. Would that make you stop acting like a jerk?...And who cares if I am not in the music or art room, and don't shove the Esme and Carlisle bit at me."
" Your always so busy."
I rolled my eyes " Well, Edward my family doesn't exactly have the money to pay for college. I can't ask for money and I like the feeling of working for something. But obviously you wouldn't know that feeling considering you haven't worked a day in your life."
" Oh, way to throw that in my face."
" Like you haven't thrown things in my face. Your the one with the perfect life! Not me. Perfect grades, parents, financially fit for life, perfect girlfriend. Your just full of perfectness." I screamed, my voice bouncing off the tree's and echoing.
"Fuck, Bella! Nobody's life is perfect, and quite recently, neither is mine." he yelled back.
Without another word I turned around, heading back down five miles from where we came from. He grabbed me quickly before I got to far and I thrashed around.
" I can't fucking deal with this anymore, I can't do this to myself." I cried, the tears now freely falling.
He held me tighter and tighter as I kept moving, trying to make me stop. Finally he turned me around, wrapping his arms around me in a vice grip. I hung limp in his arms, unmoving. His hand ran up and down my back.
" I'm sorry, okay. I'm sorry because this is all my fault that we are fighting, and I am a jackass and every name you call me. I can't stand fighting with you, it just isn't us and best friends don't fight with eachother...And if you don't fucking hug me back I am going to cry."
Hesitantly I wrapped my arms around his neck. He stood straight, making my body lift up and my legs dangle as he hugged me. I breathed in his musky scent, which also smelt like a hint of cinnamon. I closed my eyes, relishing in the moment for as long as I could. He smoothed my hair down and kissed the side of my head.
" I love you, Isabella. You will always be my best friend."
" I hope so." I murmured against shoulder
He patted my back a few times before releasing me. I let out a long sigh and skipped over to where he dropped his bag. Edward looked at me skeptically, glaring at the bag.
" Your daily bag of Coke?" I asked with a laugh.
" Right, Isabella. Give it here."
I threw it at him, and he caught it easily, unclasping the flap and opening it. Without warning he threw a plastic bottle of coke at me, hoping for me to catch it. Instead, it hit a peice of broken off wood, broke open and the soda flooded out.
" Nice going. Now your sharing yours."
He laid out an afghan and I sat down on it. When he pulled out the second coke, I reached for it, he took a swig and handed it to me. I glared before taking a gulp of the drink and handing it back. Edward seated himself next to me and took out his yearbook, handing it to me with a permanant marker.
I quirked a brow " You want me to sign your yearbook."
He nodded and I opened the flap. My eyes dragged over all the notes. Emmett's read:
It was another great year my little british buddy!- Emmett
Then Rosalie's:
Edward, I'm so glad that you and Tanya are together, you make eachother so happy. Your a great guy, and Tanya is a amazing girl, you both belong. Love ya, Rosalie.
I wanted to throw up, but then I read Tanya's:
Eddie, baby, I love you so much, you are my one and only forever. This year has been almost been the best of my life. You love me, and I love you, for like...Ever. Love ya! Tanya
Eddie baby? Fuck that was hilarious. I took the cap off the marker and wrote my note.
Yet another year, and I am hoping the next is better. We'll always be best friends, and I hope that when your an award-winning actor you will still have time for me --smiles--. Your a great friend, and I love you, Edward. - Izzy B, Iz, Iz B, Izzy, Bella, Isabella. I have way to many nicknames.
I smiled writing all of my different nicknames that I had been given. I handed it back to him.
" Award-winning actor..." he chuckled " I wish."
I laughed with him " You never know, this is Edward Cullen were talking about."
" You have too much confidence in me."
" If I don't, who will?" I teased.
His jaw dropped and his hands went to my sides. I screeched in surprise and started laughing uncontrollably as he tickled me. I squirmed, bursts of laughter escaping me as he continued, little tears escaping.
" Stop!" another fit of laughs " Edward, please!" I pleaded.
With a chuckle from him he stopped, but still hovered over my body. I leaned up on my elbows as his emerald eyes stared into my brown ones. There were no words passed, just staring. Only a moment later he slowly dipped down, eyes flickering from my lips to my eyes.
I knew that this wasn't what he wanted, it would be weird and awkward if he kissed me now. He loved Tanya, and he made that very clear. I rested my hands on his chest and pushed him back, hearing my cell-phone ring at the same time. He sat back and I stood up, taking my phone from my pocket.
" Hello," I answered, running my hand through my hair.
" Bella! I've been trying to get a hold of you for awhile. Esme and I have been worried. Where are you?"
" I'm with, Edward."
" Isn't he supposed to be at Prom with Tanya?"
I sighed " He showed up. But, no, were fine. Did you need something?"
She cleared her throat " No, just wanted to make sure your safe, that's all. Will you be home in time for dinner?" my mother asked.
" Probably."
" Alright, sweetie, see you later."
" Bye."
I hung up my phone and looked toward's Edward " They, uh, didn't know where we were."
He nodded and I sat next to him, stealing his coke and taking a long swig. We stayed in the little meadow, watching as the sun went down slowly, we didn't talk very much, instead he put on soft music that could play outloud on his iPod touch. He pulled out an extra blanket from the bag and let me lay next to him, my head resting on his shoulder.
It didn't take long until I had been closing my eyes, Debussy playing as I fell asleep.
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When I awoke I was startled, and slightly scared. The iPod touch was dead and Edward had also fallen asleep. So here I lay, five miles away from the car, and panicked by the darkness. Now I wasn't afraid to the dark, but the fact that we were so far away from the car scared me. And we could see absolutely nothing, for even the moon was covered with clouds.
"Edward," I whispered.
He rolled over, his head coming to rest on my upper thigh.
" Edward get the fuck up, now!" I scream whispered.
Quickly he shot up, a little confused.
" Fuck, oh my god. Were in a forest."
I smacked his arm " Thanks to you. How do we get back."
Whilst in the dark, we shoved the things into his bag. His phone was dead and mind had on little bar of power, and the reception sucked out here. There were missed calls, but I couldn't call back. And I was scared... Seventeen, and scared of a dark forest. This was scarier then when Alice dared me to go into the stupid haunted mansion on Halloween, I swear to this day I saw a ghost wearing a top hat and a dress rope.
" Bella, calm down, I know the way out... It'll just be a little harder in the dark..."
Seeing that I was terrified to the point of being frozen he wrapped his arm around my waist, holding me closely. We stumbled around in the creepy darkness, running into tree's and getting hit by branches that stuck out.
" Remind me never to play soft music in a forest."
I choked out a small laugh and when I saw a familar fallen tree, I breathed a sigh of relief, we hadn't been going the wrong direction yet. He helped me over and I got my shirt snagged onto a sharp peice sticking out. Now my shirt was ripped, nice going. Edward pulled at me, ripping it further. Finally I wormed my body out of it and it hung limp, stuck to the tree. Now I was stuck in a tanktop and I was cold.
" Be a gentlemen and hand over the leather jacket." I asked, my teeth chattering with the cool night air. Edward shrugged out of his jacket and draped it over my shoulders, I slipped my arms through the sleeves and continued the journey out of the forest.
The inside was so warm, and it was bathed in his scent. I secretly wished to myself that I could sleep with it. Right now, I could just bask in the smell.
Edward pushed branches out of the way, walking carefully through the forest. Something must of caught on his foot, because he suddenly started hurling forward, bringing me with him and we fell to the damp ground, rolling down slightly from the uneven ground. Leaves were tangled in my now damp hair and I felt Edward's huge body laying over mine. This would of been since, if it didn't happen this way. His stomach was flat against my chest, my boobs getting squished. It was quite painful.
I tried moving his arm, seeing a bleeding scratch on it from something sharp. The scarlet liquid dripped onto my jeans and I tried to ignore the rust and salt smell.
" Shit, Edward. You're bleeding." I stated.
He shuffled off of me and I breathed in air.
" Thanks for laying on my chest." I muttered to myself.
I must of not been quite enough because he laughed. I glared at him " Go, ahead, laugh. Your not a girl."
" Glad I'm not."
I grabbed his back, fishing out the first aid kit. Of course he knew that someone would get hurt, probably thinking it was me. The gash was quite large, and a unsuspected amount dripping out. I grabbed the cleaner and leaned forward. He was going to take it but I batted his hands away. I sprayed it on his arm, him wincing from the sting. I cleaned it with gauze and grabbed tape and more gauze since a band-aid was too small. I wrapped two layers of gauze on his arm and taped it up.
" Nurse, that's what you should be."
" I've hurt myself more then I can count and I know how to patch myself up. I don't really like the thought of taking care of other people with gashes."
" What about me? You just fixed me up."
I put the stuff back in the kit, and shoved it into the bag. He stood up and I kissed his cheek, slinging his back over my shoulder.
" Your my best friend, it's in the job description... Now lead us out."
He grabbed my hand, the sparks flying up my arm, and led us forward.
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I breathed a sigh of relief and exhaustion upon arriving at the car. I threw his bag in the back and crawled into the passenger seat, reclining it backwards. Edward turned on some music as he drove through the dark streets. It was three in the morning, and our parents were probably worried.
I knew that I must have dozed off because when I awoke again, Edward was carrying me upstairs to my bedroom, his grip was loose, and I knew that he was tired himself. When reaching my room he laid me down, and I could feel him plucking out a few leaves. He slipped off my shoes, but didn't remove the jacket.
With a groan I rolled over to the right side of my full bed. I heard clothes rustling and my shower running for a few mintues before the bed shifted. I could smell strawberries and laughed to myself.
He used my shampoo.
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The morning was rough. Edward must have been charging his phone because all it did was ring, and ring, and ring. Then a little ding! signalling a text. When I breathed, I inhaled his scent from his jacket that I was wearing, but it also mixed with mine. Fuck did our scents smell good together...
Edward groaned as his phone rang once again.
"Uhh, go away!" he yelled angrily, grabbing his phone. " Stupid, Rosalie." he muttered, answering the phone.
" What the hell do you want. I was sleeping."
There was a pause, and then alot of yelling on the line, from Rosalie of course. I heard Tanya's name being thrown in the mix and knew it was about last night. Of course Rosalie would stick up for Tanya.
" Will you shut up, Rosalie. I had something to fix, and it came before partying... Well then get the fuck over it, it has nothing to do with you so stop being a bitch... I don't care if you are, this has nothing to do with you...She is no-... No we are not!.... Fuck just shut up already...Whatever keep going on, I'm hanging up, goodbye."
He shut the phone and threw it on the ground.
" Fucking bitch." he muttered into the pillow, pulling the covers over his body.
I sighed " Rosalie, right?"
" She's pissed because I 'ditched' Tanya. I told Tanya that I couldn't make it, and yeah she was kinda pissed, but I didn't just blow her off without a word. Now Rose is pissed because I was with you, Jesus christ she is a nightmare."
I nodded in agreement and laid on my side, facing my bedroom door.
" Don't let Rosalie get to you, Iz. She's just getting her nose into something that has nothing to do with her."
" Yeah."
I heard him babbling something in Italian before the bed was still and I could once again hear his even breathing.
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" Edward! Bella! Time to get out of the lair, get down here!" I heard Carlisle yell upstairs as Edward and I were in an Epic battle of the video game.
I heard Carlisle yell for us once again and we scampered out of Edward's bedroom. He raced ahead of me on the stairs and we went into the living room, seeing both mine and his parents sitting on the clean, crisp couch.
We probably looked a little disheveled from all the fooling around. He kept trying to push me off, and I did the same. My clash shirt was all wrinkled. I smoothed it out and looked down at my shoes before looking at them. Edward plopped onto the couch, his feet on the coffee table. Esme shoved them off and glared.
" You were born to have class." she scolded as Edward smiled at her widely.
" Love you, ma."
She scowled and look back at her husband, holding his hand.
" Wait! Mom, are you pregnant?! Oh, fuck, please no! I thought we agreed on the whole ' Edward's an only child '. Didn't we?!" Edward said, spazzing out like a freak.
" Edward! Calm down and yes, you are going to be the only child. After having you we wouldn't want another nightmare now would we?" Carlisle said, stopping his little banter. " Now, back to the subject. Alot of the hospital staff is partaking in the Make A Wish Foundation and we are holding an event on July 1st where people can freely make donations. I am going to be in charge of this, and I am going to be doing the speech's, along with the directors of the foundation. Last year, we did a different charity even, and Edward, as you remember, Tanya was very unwilling to go, so this year we thought you could take Bella if you both would like to go. You are invited, but do not bring your friends into this, I ask. We all know how Rosalie and Alice go all out for no good reason, and if they ask, just tell them that it's not their place to go." Carlisle explained.
Edward shrugged " Cool with me. You want to be stuck with me, Bella?"
" Do I have a choice."
" No."
I rolled my eyes " Fine."
Authors Note-
The charity will probably be not next chapter, but the one after that. And besides that event, another important one will be coming. Prepare yourselfs, this is just the beginning...That thought might scare you more considering all they have already gone through.
Now, I think I deserve a review for the back to back chapters last week. Don't you think so?!