Chapter 15

Gonna give all my secrets away

Clare stood still as her father put her hands out to her. He gripped onto hers,and swollowed hard. "Clare,your mother and I have filed for a divorce." Those words hit Clare harder than she thought they would. She expected it,with all the fighting and arguing,but still it didn't make it hurt any less.

"It's because of me,if I wasn't sick you'd be together." Clare said,and let go of her dad's hands. "Clare,no,baby." Clare shook her head. "Is there anything else,you'd like to get off your chest?" Eli asked,interrupting her dad. "Eli..." Her dad started,giving him a look like be quiet.

Eli could not sit quiet. "beep beep beep" Clare fell back onto her lilac colored comforter and breathed deeply,as her dad left the room. "Clare" Eli started. She laid flat on her back,stareing at the ceiling. "Are you going to tell me now?" Clare asked,taking a breath in. Eli walked over to the door,closing it.

"must be bad,or you wouldn't of closed the door." Clare noted,pulling her pillow to her chest. "You going to sit up?" Eli asked. Clare shook her head and continued staring at the ceiling. Eli took his shoes off,and walked over to her in his socks. He climbed onto her bed and laid down flat on his back next to her.

"So what's so great about the ceiling?" Eli asked,stareing up at it. "like me it used to be perfect,it used to be innocent,and now it's full of cracks,and eventually that ceiling is going to cave in,just like me." Eli rolled his eyes.

"That's some of the most depressing crap I've ever heard in my life." Eli sneered. He rolled over,leaning on his elbow. "To me you're perfect,you're innocent,and those cracks can be repaired." Clare looked at Eli,her blue eyes turning into pools of water.

"Tell me why you're upset enough to run?" She shut her eyes,covering her face. "Hey,I told you before,I'm not going to dissapear. You move your hands away,and open your eyes and I'm still going to be here." Clare gasped. "beep beep beep" "Ally is giving up her heart for me." Eli stood quiet. "wow" He exclaimed. "and I can't let her do that Eli."

"You know what my biggest regret is,Baby Blue?" Eli asked. Clare turned around,falling to her side. "What?" She asked,leaning on her elbow,directly facing him. "I not only didn't get a chance to say goodbye to my dad,but I killed him." Clare gulped. "whaaat?" She sat up quickly,wrinkling the comforter underneath her.

"I didn't give him my heart,and because of it, he died." Clare covered her face again. "oh my God!" Clare said,not knowing where to go or what to say.

"So Ally is giving you a tremendous gift,that's a really good friend,right there." He said. Clare shook her head. "I wouldn't be a good friend,if I let her do that." Clare responded,and picked up her duffle bag. "What if I switched hearts with you?" Eli asked,stareing at the ceiling.

"to make up for not giving your dad yours?" Clare scoffed. "forget, I asked." Eli rolled his eyes. "Why me,Eli?" Clare asked,dropping her duffle bag. "I'm dying,and running out of options,and I'm not going to go through with that proceedure." Eli pursed his lips.

"you're right,let's go somewhere?" Eli changed the subject,picking up his leather jacket.

"That's not answering my question." Clare said,as Eli handed her a jacket. "Come on,Edwards" Eli said,pulling her out the door.
"Where are we going?" Clare asked,as Eli jingled his car keys in his pocket. "Well if you're not going to go through with the surgery,then we're going to need to get a lot more things done on this list."

"Eli there's 94 more things to do on that,there's not enough time."Clare answered, Eli rolled his eyes.

"I don't want to hear the word time,again. Any minute,any second someone in the world dies, okay? It's not just you,something could happen to me,something could happen to anyone,so stop telling me that!" Eli rose his voice,startling Clare.

"Are you alright?" Clare asked,concerned. "I'm fine,just need to get out of here." Eli said,climbing into the drivers seat. Clare hesitantly followed. "So what are we doing?" Clare asked. Eli made 2 circles on both their lists. "We're strieking." Clare gulped. "Eli,it's..."

"completely crazy and I don't really care." He finished. He popped the door handle and climbed out of the car,stripping off his clothes. "Can we change that to run in our underpants?" Eli shook his head. "You want to bail?" Eli asked. "That's okay,more naked fun for me." He teased,and pulled his skinny pants down. "Eli!" Clare covered her face.

"Edwards it's not going to go away,you open your eyes and it's still going to be there,"

"Can't we do something different,like paint a picture,or design a dress?" Eli shook his head and ran down the street like one of those blink 182 videos. "Darn" Clare bit her lip and slid her dress off. "Fine,but were walking with our eyes closed!" Eli made her do crazy things. "Where's the fun in that?" He asked. "right your heart monitor." He remembered. He opened his eyes,stareing at the colorful nobs and patches on her chest,and the wires running from her heart to her stomach.

"You okay?" Clare asked,covering up. "It's just that reminded me of my dad." Clare gulped. "A naked girl reminds you of your dad? Then you've got issues." Eli laughed. "You would say that." He held her hand. "Now don't look." Clare warned,and they walked down the street naked...

"uhh Edwards, what about cars,and dogs in the area?" Clare laughed. "I'd hate for one to think that was a chew toy." Clare said laughing. Eli smirked. "It can be," Eli laughed. Clare made a disgusted expression. "ew" She said. The two walked around the neighborhood,naked.

"What you looking at! Haven't you ever seen two nudists holding hands?" Eli snarked at a neighbor. "Eli,I'm getting cold." Clare announced. The two turned back to his car.

"uhhh,so what's next on that list?" Eli said. "dye your hair a crazy color?" His brows raised. "What were you thinking?" he asked. "hmm how bout brown?" Eli laughed. "right,dye your hair your natural color,very rebellious." He snarked sarcastically. "How bout a color with a cause?" Clare asked. "sure" Eli agreed. "purple for no h8te." Eli smirked. "just as long as it's not a vampire color." Eli snarked.

"alright,then." Clare looked down smiled,as her eyes traveled,forgetting Eli was naked. Her eyes darted back to his face as an embarrased look danced across hers. "um,Eli we're still naked..." She bit her lip nervously,going around the back of the hearse and slipping her clothes on. Eli did the same,but in the front of the car,where the neighbors could see him from their living room windows. "Okay fully clothed." Eli announced and climbed in the front seat,Clare in the passanger side.

"So off to dye our hair purple" Eli said,and hit the gas. The two pulled up to a hottopic store and bought some manic panic purple hair dye. Clare smiled. "You sure we can't get something less extreme?" Eli shook his head.

"to quote this list,dye my hair a crazy color. This right here is crazy cottoncandy." Eli smirked. "don't worry Edwards, if your parents freak it washes out." Eli laughed,as Clare wrapped the towel around the back of her neck. "Now hold still." The hair color felt extremely cool,causing her to shiver. "beep beep"

"My turn" Eli said,washing the purple from his hands. "okay" Clare shook the bottle,squirting some on Eli's eyebrows. "I'm so sorry" Eli smirked,and tried to rub the color out,no such luck. The two waited 30 minutes,and rinsed their hair out in the kitchen sink. Eli towel dried Clare's hair like you would a little child,getting out of the bath tub.

"okay,whoa" Eli exclaimed. "What?" Clare freaked. "beep beep beep"

"Well it's purple" He commented. Clare laughed,taking the towel from him. She repeated the same towel drying motion on him,and gasped. "What?" Eli freaked. "uh,just avoid mirrors for a while." She smiled,as Eli picked up a shiny pot and looked at his reflection. "Oh shit!" Eli exclaimed. "I look like that beepin alien with a tv screen on his stomach and a triangle on his head!" Clare laughed.

"oh you mean tinkie winkie?" She asked. "Tink a what aa?" Clare laughed again. "He's not an alien,he's a teletubbie." Eli laughed "Let me guess you have a secret love for children's programming?" Clare smiled. "What? is that wierd?" Eli shook his head and looked at his watch. "I better get you home black berry." Eli snickered,ruffling up her hair.

*A few hours later*

Eli sat his car keys on the kitchen counter,and went into the fridge,taking out a bottle of soda. "Eli?" His mother asked. He lifted his head and whipped his hair. "oh teenage rebellion,much?" His mother asked. Eli snickered. "Nope,got in a fight with a troll doll,that's all." Eli said. "There's a message on the answering machine from Doctor Lenyards" Eli noted his mother's unpleasent expression.

Eli took a breath. "Is it bad?" He asked. His mother shook her head. "well it's certaintly not good,Eli."

Eli closed his eyes. "I'll call him back." He picked up the cordless phone,and hit call return. "Hey Doc,got your message,yes I understand that, When will you know,for sure?" Eli nodded,jotting down some notes. "yah,uh hum,thankyou." Eli pressed the end button and looked at his mom. "They'll know Saturday,the day after prom." He rolled his eyes,and went up to his room.

to be continued...

Wow! So what's going to happen? Oh dear, what's he hiding? x3 Review hehe and I hope you have a beautiful new years eve :)