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Chapter Song's-

Apologize by: Timberland

Angels on The Moon by: Thriving Ivory

Shattered by: O.A.R.

Story Quote-

The cruelest kind of love. The one that almost kills its victims, is unrequited love… Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories? Those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one-sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. The unloved. The walking wounded.

- Kate Winslet

-The Holiday

Official Chapter Song- Come Around by: Stars Go Dim

You've got to believe me, When I say I'll follow you.

Through the depths of higher water, 'til the end I'll fight for you.

I'll wait till you come around, 'till you find yourself in you.

'Til you find that there is no one who

could love you more than me.

And I'll wait 'til I'm your last memory

and I'll hold you till you fall in love.

'Cause I'll be here when you

come around.

I'll never be the one to put you out or put you down. Your

life will never be the same. When you're with me honey everything seems to

fall in place. Somehow I'll be here when you come around.

You have your doubts on love, you will always have your fears.

You will have your apprehensions, scared that love will lead to tears.

I will always be, right here waiting for you.

Cause forever love doesn't always come around

everyday.

'Cause I'll be here when you come around.

I'll never be the one

to put you out or put you down.

Your life will never be the same. When

you're with me honey everything seems to fall in place.

Somehow I'll be here when you come around.

So take your time, don't you worry now.

I don't want to rush you into anything, that you're not ready for.

'Cause when the time is right you know that I'll be waiting here, to love you girl.

I'll never let you go.

'Cause I'll be here when you come around. I'll never be

the one to put you out or put you down.

Your life will never be the

same.

When you're with me honey everything seems to fall in place.

Somehow, I'll be here when you come.

'Cause I'll be here when you come around.

I'll never be the one to put you out or put you down.

You'll live will never be the same. When your with me

honey, everything seems to fall in place.

Somehow, I'll be here when you come around

I'll be here when you come around.

I'll be here when you come around

Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.

June 3rd

Sunday

2007

BPOV

Today was the day that I was officially graduating Highschool. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. After this, I would have to wait on the college applications I sent out. Everybody was in a hustle, this morning I had to get up early so we could do a rehearsal for the ceremony.

My dress was hung on a hanger after being perfectly steamed. It was a simple black spaghetti strap dress that went to my knee's, with a black lace overlay and a thin light blue ribbon on the waist. The shoes I am going to wear are light blue stiletto's, matching the ribbon perfectly. Almost too perfect.

Alice and I had gone shopping together, putting alot of time into what we were going to wear. Newton was hosting one of his blowouts after the ceremony, but I had gently told Alice that I didn't want to go, and since I wasn't going to, neither was Edward because he is unwilling to attend without my presence.

Prom had been on Friday, and I hadn't bothered to go, but Edward went with the rest of them, and had a good time. I was glad that he went. Prom just really wasn't my scene, so I just decided to skip it like I'd done to all of the other dances.

I have no dates, I have no dress, so why even bother to go when I know that I won't have a good time. Ontop of that I am horrible at dancing, and it would just be a waste to attend a dance when I couldn't dance to save me.

Tonight our parents just decided to get us a cake, and I definately wasn't opposed to eating anything chocolate with frosting. I would be a complete and utter idiot to decline cake.

The ceremony starts at seven, and ends at about nine or so. I spent the day lazing around and watching television. Edward was going to pick up his brand new tux that Esme and Carlisle had purchased for him two weeks ago. He had gotten it fitted and it was probably flawless.

Pat was covering my hours today, and then I would just continue on the summer working until I went off to college and had to quit. Of course they knew about it, because I would never put them in the dark about that kind of future situation.

I was a little scared whether or not I would get into the college I wanted, but I knew that I had good grades to get in, and just hoped that they would accept me. It was quite nerve wracking just waiting for them to answer back after I sent the application in late March. And if I did get in, then I would be going off on my own, that is if Edward changed his mind about New York or didn't get in.

I prayed that we would be together for college, I'd have no idea what to do without him if he didn't live atleast within an hour of me. We've always been like two minutes away from eachother, and I couldn't stand the feeling of knowing that I couldn't just go over an see him with a short distance between us.

" Are you nervous, sweetheart?"

I shook my head, looking at my mother. " No, not really."

I picked up the maroon gown and cap, the gold-ish colored tassel hanging from the cap. I took a seat on my bed, taking a deep breath and smiling.

" I'm very proud of how far you've come. And even though you want to be miles and miles away from me, I just want you to be happy and do what you think is best."

" Thanks, mom."

At six thirty I had already showered, done my hair and make-up, and was slipping into my dress. I held it against my chest as my mother zipped it up for me. I had wore a black push up bra underneath it. I'd tried it on not wearing one, but the dress wasn't very supportive for my bust and it looked odd.

Once it was zipped up, I sat on my bed, grabbing my light blue heels and slipping them on, slinging the strap behind my ankle and standing up. Luckily, the weather outside was nice today, not too cold and not windy. Just nice.

I checked myself quickly before grabbing my cap and gown, slipping into my truck. As I was about to back out, there was a tap on the passenger window. I looked over, seeing Edward. Oh, fuck did he look amazing in the black and white tux. I wanted to lick him. Of course his hair was sticking up, having a mind of his own. His face was perfectly shaven and clean. I rolled the window down.

" Yeah?"

" Can we go together. I feel kind of lonely."

I rolled my eyes and he hopped in, draping both of our gowns over his lap. His eyes wandered over me, a smile coming to his face.

" You look beautiful, Bella." he said sincerely.

I blushed " Thanks. You clean up pretty nice."

I pulled out of the driveway and sped down the streets towards the school.

" Jesus, how do you use the petal in those four inch monsters."

I shrugged " It's not that hard. I would of gone for shorter but Alice insisted, and she's been having a hard time lately so I decided to just make her happy."

When I pulled into the school parking lot, it was already packed, people parking on the grass at this point. I sent a quick text to my mother before getting out of the car and heading into the school. When we got in, they were getting the teachers in line. All the teachers would be walking out first, then the student's.

Edward leaned against the wall, unbuttoning his suit jacket slowly. I looked at him warily, wondering why he was doing that at this moment.

" What are you doing?"

He showed me the vest underneath the jacket, it was a light blue, matching the ribbon on my dress, along with the light blue heels that I was wearing. I laughed quietly and shook my head.

" I don't think they will ever try to stop matching us. I mean, this blue doesn't even match the maroon tie I have on. They said nobody would see it. Mom insisted." he chuckled, buttoning it back up.

" I don't think so either."

Finally about fifteen minutes later we were getting lined up. I felt absolutely horrible for Edward because his last name was Cullen, and he had Denali right after him. Why couldn't people have a last name with two letters ' Da' or at least ' De ' with any letter before ' n '.

When I heard the music, I slipped my cap on and zipped up my gown. All the teachers were wearing gold, and it wasn't a really nice gold, almost dirty looking. There really was no choice though because the school colors were gold and maroon. I was glad that I didn't have to wear the gold, I looked terrible in that color.

Slowly I walked with all the other people who were in the line next to me, and the people infront of me. Chairs and a stage were set up in the football field, and from what I could see, there were lots and lots of people filling the bleachers

We split up left and right with the people next to us, and I took my seat on the metal chair. It was very hot from the sun that was beaming down, but it seemed cooler after a little while. The speech by the Principal and the Valedictorian came and went, and truly, all of the Valedictorian speech's had something to do with 'Our lives are just starting'. I really think that someone needed to say that that line shouldn't be used anymore.

I sat in my chair as they went through a few of the names. I cheered loudly when Alice got on the stage, she was smiling brightly at the principal and photographer. I could hear her family cheering from a distance, making me smile for her.

When they got to the C's, they went on and one until they finally got closer to Edward's. I didn't know where our parents were going to be seated, but I wondered how badly they would embarass him infront of a crowd of family, friends and students.

" Edward Cullen." the principal said.

I smiled, letting out a loud whistle using both of my fingers. I could hear Esme screaming, very loudly, 'THATS MY BOY!'. And Emmett clearly yelled 'GO, CULLEN!'. He took his picture and grabbed his diploma, walking down the steps gracefully and taking his seat.

Rosalie was quite loud when Tanya's name was said. I rolled my eyes and listened as they went on. I cheered for Emmett, who was all smiles and goofy up on the stage. About ten thousands names later I was standing up in a line by the stairs because I was almost up.

" Katelyn Sutters."

The girl got on the stage, and I gripped the railing tightly with my hand. The girl accepted her diploma and look her picture before the Principal called my name out towards the crowd of student's.

" Isabella Swan." he named clearly.

I walked up the stairs carefully and walked across the stage.

" WOO, IZ B." Emmett bellowed

" YOU GO, BELLA!" Alice's small voice rang out.

I could hear my parents, along with Carlisle and Esme. Edward yelled my name along with the others and I shook hands with the principal and he handed me the diploma. I stopped at the end of the stage, smiling at the photographer and stepping down the stairs in the grass to walk back.

They finished up all of the names of the graduates and the Principal had everyone stand for the big class announcement. I stood up, slipping my hat off and took off the tassel. The principal smiled at all of us, as did the teachers that were standing proudly on the stage.

" I am very proud to announce to you, the class of 2007. Congratulations!"

Everybody screamed and yelled and I tossed my hat in the air, letting it mix with the other hats. I didn't bother to retreive it, instead I moved on with the rest of them, shuffling out of our seats in the same line we came in with.

I went into the parking lot, searching around for anybody familar. Suddenly I was swooped up in two strong arms.

" We did it, Izzy B!" Emmett yelled, twirling me around. I screamed in surprise and he set me down, smiling at me before telling me he was going to find Rosalie.

Alice found me next, we exchanged big hugs before we went off to look for our families. I saw Carlisle, Esme and my parents, Edward standing next to them and speaking with them. Upon noticing me, Edward put his arms around my waist, lifting me off the ground and kissing my temple.

My father handed me a bouquet of beautiful yellow roses and I hugged him for it, along with my mother. Esme wrapped an arm around my waist, whispering her congratulations to me.

Carlisle embraced me in a tight hug and told me how proud of me he was. He was alot of the reason why I wanted to be so successful in life, he showed me that working hard really can pay off, and while my parents taught me that, Carlisle was the one who taught me to read. After thanking them, Edward and I split, heading to my car.

It was very dark outside and crowded, Edward held my hand tightly, not wanting to lose me in the crowd. Soon we reached the car and we slipped in. I took a while for people to scatter away, but soon we were driving away.

" Can you believe we are done with highschool. Never thought I would see the day." Edward said, slinging his arm across my shoulders.

I laughed " Yeah, I know what you mean."

No more Tanya, No more Lauren or Carmen. None of them to get in my way ever again.

When we got to our homes. I stopped and put my flowers in a vase, dressing into a more comfortable attire of denim shorts and a dark red racerback, before heading over to Edward's for cake. All of them had already arrived before us, and they lit the cake for us and we blew out the candle's before digging into the chocolate goodness of the cake. It was the normal chocolate cake and frosting, which was the best if you ask me.

" I can't believe you both already graduated. I remember you both in diapers sharing the same crib." Esme said, looking between us.

" Time really does fly." I commented.

Once we all finished with the cake, our parents retreated to the living room and Edward and I cleaned up the food. I tossed out the paper plates and plastic forks into the garbage, taking the knifes and dropping them into hot, soapy water. Edward rolled up his sleeves, taking off his suit jacket and cleaning off the table.

I put the cake in the fridge so the frosting wouldn't melt, and then cleaned all of the dishes that were left in the sink throughout the day. Edward was very quiet during this time, just watching me quietly as I cleaned all of the dishes.

After drying everything with a tea-towel, I put the silverwear in drawers and the plates in the rightful cabinets where they belonged. I leaned against the counter, looking at Edward who was staring intently at me.

" Everything okay?"

" Yeah."

I looked back at him, curiousity gleaming in my eyes. Slowly he walked forward closer to me, more closer then he usually stood next to me. I stared into his emerald green eyes and reached my arm back to set the tea-towel down on the counter behind me.

His hand rested on my waist, the other on my right shoulder. He was nolonger staring in my eyes, but where his hand on my waist rested. I shifted warily, not exactly sure about what he was about to do.

" Edward, what are you?.."

Slowly he leaned down, pressing his lips gently to mine.

All of my thoughts flew out the fucking window.

The hand on my shoulder moved to my neck, pressing against the back and my head bending up towards his. My lips curling up slightly, I slowly moved my lips against his, my hand coming to rest on his hip as I leaned into him. Slowly he was pressing me against the counter, moaning into my mouth. His arm wound around my waist, pulling our bodies even closer. I tangled my other hand in his hair, tugging slightly as his tongue licked at my bottom lip.

Then, he broke away abruptly, turning away with his back towards me. I stood for a moment, almost in a state of shock about what he'd just done.

" Why did you do that?" I asked after catching my breath.

" I don't know." he answered, looking at me.

Oh god...Now, it's time to tell him. I felt the panic inside me, but I somehow knew that now it was time to tell him how I felt about him. I wouldn't tell him I loved him. I wouldn't go that far.

This moment could either make me or break me, I knew that, and it scared me, but everything was telling me to just get it out. To just let my feelings spill out of me and get rid of the one ton weight that was on my shoulders for so many year.

I ignored my head and looked at him, trying to talk with my heart.

" What would you say if I said I liked you more then just a best friend?" I asked in a whisper.

Immediatly his gaze met mine, his eyes widening. I looked down at my hands and sighed quietly.

" What did you say?"

" I said. What would you say if I said I liked you more then just a best friend?" I asked more clearly.

" I-I-I...No, thats just not right. Were like siblings, Bella. That's very wrong to think about."

I sighed " Were not, Edward."

An odd expression was on his face and he started to walk away. I followed him, stopping him in the foyer by grabbing his bicep. He stopped moving and I stepped around him, staring into his deep emerald eyes.

" Don't walk away from me."

" Bella...How can you think like that? How long have you thought like that?" he asked incredulously

I sniffed, biting my lip nervously " I've liked you for awhile, since we first kissed."

" What?"

" Edward, I've liked you since I was thirteen years old." I confessed

" Oh my god." he whispered.

" I couldn't tell you. For the first few years I was just shy about it because I was scared. Then Tanya came along and I knew...I knew that I could of never told you while you were dating her because it would ruin everything, and I don't know if I am ruining everything now...But I can't hold it inside of me any longer. It eats at me every day and I can't take it. When I'm not with you, I want to be. I think about you all the time. I can talk to you hours on end without getting bored and everytime I touch you...Edward, I just..."

" Bella." he whispered brokenly " We can't be together. It's wrong, it's so so wrong. Both of us were raised as siblings. We took bath's together, shared cribs...hell, we shared parents! And now you tell me that you have kept a secret of liking me for...five fucking years? I mean, come on."

" Why...Why is it so wrong? I mean, you just kissed me, and New Years day..."

He shook his head. " It can't ever happen. It's wrong."

" Can't you just understand. You've always understood me, Edward. Please just...I love you."

The word love slipped out on accident, I hadn't meant to say it.

Edward stood up, suddenly stiffer at the last part of the sentence.

Ghandi said whatever you do in life, will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it.

I tend to agree with the first part.

I have no doubt that it's not true. Everything I do, has little value and importance.

I stood before him, the chandelier's lights gleaming down on our bodies. His gaze was fierce, intense, and made me want to look away from the shining emerald green. My throat felt like it was closing and my mind was running haywire. There were too many thoughts to process and I felt as if I were going to explode.

Edward stared at me, standing tall and stiff, as if he was ready for anything that I was going to tell him. I knew him better then he knows himself. Edward hates painful truths, it's just something that gets to him. And he has weakness's.

I am one of his.

All I wanted was for him to understand. Edward always understood me, but he couldn't seem to grasp how I feel for him, how my attachment to him ran deep,. He was the only thing keeping us apart. His hesitance and confusion. I wanted to run my hands through his gorgeous bronze hair and tell him that it's okay, that I understood his mixed feelings. But I was angry. Angry that he messed with my mind, knowing that it would be simple, easy.

" Bella," he whispered brokenly, shaking his head.

" Your scared!" I accused " Your scared because you know that I love you and you don't want to love me back." I screamed, a hand running through my untamed wild hair.

" I can't love you, Bella! Why can't you just understand."

" Because your reason is pathetic." I wailed. " Why did you kiss me tonight? How could you mess with me like that?" I yelled

He pinched the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger, something he did when he was frusterated or nervous. I stared down at my battered converse and denim shorts, wanting to be swallowed by the world.

" I can't do this anymore. Maybe when your ready then we can talk this out. But as of now, I need to get out of here."

" Bella, don't leave me. I ca-"

I scoffed " What? You can't deal with me being gone? Well, I've waited for you for a long time and now you can wait until I am ready. For once, I am putting myself first and right now, I can't be here. The beginning of Junior year you started pushing me away, and that's why I was so messed up. You took my heart and just kicked it around like a toy and then it got better and you just...confused me. I don't know what to think now."

Reaching for my hoodie, I saw my mother enter the foyer, Carlisle, Esme and my father coming in and shuffling around the area. They all seemed to look surprised, except for Esme. She knew that I loved him, in some strange way. I have never spoken of my feelings for Edward to anyone, and now I had laid everything out for everyone to see. I felt bare... exposed.

" Sweetheart-" my mother started

" I. Can't. Be. Here. I can't walk around like I am fine when I'm in love with my best friend...And he... he doesn't love me back. I need to get my head straight, and I can't do it here."

I looked at her, tears in my eyes " I'll catch a flight to London and stay with gran and pappy. Please, understand." I begged, feeling like I was going to break apart at any given moment.

" Okay, be careful." she whispered

I looked towards Edward " When I come back, you can tell me how it is." I whispered, my voice just above a whisper.

I opened the front door and took one step out. I felt Edward's hand lock around my wrist tightly, stopping me from moving further. Slowly I turned around to look at him. He looked broken, upset and very confused. I understood the feeling. I leaned forward and kissed his cheek as he stayed unmoving.

" I love you," I whispered before running down the stairs.

As I packed my bag, I called a taxi to come. I packed my belongings, stiffling the sobs of pain ripping through my entire being. I felt like I was slowly shattering inside, like everything was going to crash down inside of me at any moment and there was nothing thtat I could do to stop it

I shoved a few handfuls of clothes, personal items and a few important things into the bag quickly. I zipped my bag shut and grabbed my phone, dialing the number to my grandparents. It was nine fifty here, and three fifty in the morning there. I only hoped they would wake to answer the phone for me.

I heard a tired Grandpa Allen answer the phone, answering with a quiet greeting.

" Grandpa." I said through tears.

" Darling, are you crying? What's wrong."

" I'm leaving the states. I need you to pick me up from the airport. I'll call you when I get there okay?"

" Is everyone okay?"

" Yeah, I just...I need to leave right now. I can't be in Chicago anymore."

" No problem, honey. I'll see you soon, have a safe flight."

I hung up the phone and grabbed my passport, turning off everything in my bedroom and slamming the door. I lugged my bag down with me, hearing the taxi driver honking the horn. I ran out of the house, putting my bag in the back with me and ordering him to drive to O' Hare Airport.

I didn't let the sobs get to me when I was in the car, or when I got to the airport. I hopped on a flight that was at ten thirty to London, buying my ticket and getting on the plane without one glance back. I arrived at London at eight fifteen their time, my body feeling numb.

The people in the airport, running in a rush, were ghosts with just voice's. I felt like I was somehow fading. Edward's words played over and over in my head, breaking me apart further until I could barely hold myself together.

I called my grandpa and he picked me up from the airport, squeezing me tightly and ushering me into the car, grabbing my bag for me and putting it in the trunk. As he drove towards his and Grandma Claire's house.

" What happened, love?"

" E-Ed-Edw-" I couldn't even say his name without choking on it.

When we arrived at the house, Grandma Claire was sitting on the porch. Her dark hair in two braids down her back. I grabbed my bag from the trunk, making my way to the porch of my fathers childhood house. I dropped my bag and wrapped my arms around my grandma, letting my sobs take over my body.

" Oh, baby girl. Allen, did she talk?"

" Edward." he said gruffly.

I cried even louder feeling the anguish of his name. I fell next to her into the outside couch, my body emptying all of the tears of pain and rejection from my body.

She ushered me into a room after I had finally been able to get up, leaving me to get water and soup. I cried into the pillow, soaking it with my tears as my body shook violently. My phone rang and rang, but I couldn't move to answer it.

I couldn't move to do anything. Because all I felt was pain.

Esme POV

The house phone was ringing around the time Isabella would be in London if she got a flight out soon, she'd must of been there for a few hours already though. I felt my heart breaking for her just thinking about the situation. Edward had locked himself into his room after staring at our front door for an hour, no expression on his face.

Swan, Allen; flashed across the caller I.D and I immediatly picked it up.

" Allen, thank goodness. Is she okay?"

" Hi, Esme, it's Claire."

" Is she okay?"

I heard her sigh " She's broken, Esme. Fell right apart in my arms the moment I touched her. I finally got her to one of the rooms. When I brought her soup she was still sobbing. Do you know what happened to the poor, dear?"

" Isabella...I've noticed that she'd taken a liking to Edward over the years, but he was dating another girl. I really think that did a great deal on her until they broke up. Apparently Edward kissed her tonight and she told him that she loved him...And he just doesn't think it's right. She probably feels rejected right now. She ran out of here after telling us all goodbye."

" I'm going to hit that boy of yours."

" Carlisle tried to talk to him, but he just completely shut down and locked himself in his bedroom. I think he feels the same way...But he's confused right now. I know that he would never hurt her on purpose like that, Isabella means the world to him."

" I know that...Look, I'll just call you next week and tell you how everything is going."

" Okay, Claire. Take care, send Isabella my love."

" No problem, goodbye, dear."

" Bye."

Authors Note- Not long, but it sure as hell is one of a chapter. I hope it's what you guys expected, or not what you expected but you liked it anyways... I think I deserve some major love.