Authors Note- I forgot...Yes, I forgot. I am reading an amazing story, and I got caught up. Sorry!
Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.
Chapter Song- You Belong with Me by: Taylor Swift.
BPOV
June 19th.
Dearest Bella,
These days have been a little slow for me, but I am getting by okay, still missing you of course. Alice and I have been spending alot of time together, we talk alot about different things, but Jasper hasn't come around because he is with Rosalie still about what happened. It's been a whole year, and nobody will talk about it or attempt to resolve it.
We need to resolve it with you though, because you are important when it comes to the situation at hand. Emmett is being held on a leash basically and I see him maybe for a few hours on the weekend, but Rosalie is being Miss. Bitch.
I saw Tanya at the mall with her today. Alice had dragged me there saying that I needed some fun for once, I agreed. We were walking around with our drinks and Alice had been fawning over the shirts she saw in the windows. Jasper was there, but he held her hand and was quiet.
Tanya and Rosalie we were walking, their boyfriends holding their bags. I wanted to hit Tyler so bad Bella, you have no idea. I don't love Tanya anymore, and I never thought I had, but just seeing her with him, knowing that she hurt me so bad with him, made me cringe. Rosalie was glaring at me, sipping her stupid starbucks drink and she started mouthing off about you.
I took her cup from her and the cap was off within seconds. Lucky for her the drink was half empty and not really that hot, just warm. I dumped it all over her grey shirt and white shorts. Did you know she wore underwear with spongebob on them? I didn't.
Again another day to tell you about.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
June 20th.
Dearest Bella,
Today nothing happened really, it was just one of those boring days. It's really hot here, tomorrow is the first day of summer. It's probably really hot in London too, I can imagine. You don't answer my calls, and I realized the other day that you left your phone charger, I sent it with this letter as you can probably see.
There are probably alot of voicemails. I sent sixty, which was the capacity of it, you can delete them if you want. The text limit was also two hundred and fifty, that's filled up also. Some of it is probably stupid, but charge your phone and call me if you'd like.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
June 24th
Dearest Bella,
I miss you. I say it in Italian, and it's very true. I won't talk about what happened, but I feel the loss of your presence everywhere. Riding my motorcycle really isn't the same without you behind me, and the Volvo is a lost cause when you aren't beside me.
My mom is still really quiet, I don't know if I ever mentioned that. She talks to grandma Claire about you, and I catch a few things here and there. But it'd be better to hear the good things from you.
I still go in your bedroom at night sometimes to sleep, I promise that I don't go through your personal belongings. Laying in your bed is just enough to keep me perfectly content with everything. Though your scent is fading away and starting to smell like me. I really hope that you don't mind all that much.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
June 27th
Dearest Bella,
Alice and I went to the mall again, and we got coffee, it made us both laugh. I went into hottopic while she went into Victoria's Secret, she tried to get me to go in with her and Jasper, but it would be way too embarassing.
Hottopic had a Muse t-shirt, and a sky blue shirt with the United Kingdom flag on it. I bought both for you and hung them in your closet. The price tag and receipt is ripped up so it can't be returned. I've never really shopped for clothes for you, but I kind of liked it...
I had been forced into going over to the Hale's when Alice begged me to watch a movie with her and Jasper. I think he has really been easing up on me because he gave me a nod when he saw me. I want my friend back, and I want him to realize that it went too far and it wasn't our faults.
Rosalie, however, can go fall in a ditch.
She had pranced herself downstairs, with Tanya, wearing the shortest of shorts that they were basically underwear. Of course Tyler had magically appeared and they were making out in the space right next to me.
I left early.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
June 30th
Dearest Bella,
Sometimes I dont know what to say to you, because the thought that you might hate me wanders around. I hope you don't, Bella. I do hope you are enjoying London, and I have some news to tell you.
I got into NYU!
I'm so excited that I can barely stand it. My parents are really proud of me, and I am proud of myself for achieving it. I also got into Harvard too, and my father was absolutely thrilled. But I know your going to Columbia, and I couldn't stand being in a different state then you. A country away is already driving me to the brink of insanity.
Bella, if things don't work out the way it's planned, I hope that you still want to be my friend, and I am not saying anything because right now. I am still confused, but as I said. I WILL get my shit together, that's a true promise.
When I get to New York, I really want to be able to branch out from all the places. I want to grow up and live without my parents money to support me. I want to support myself because when I have a wife, I want to be stable and be able to start a family with her.
It's my dream to get married, have kids with a sucessful job...Maybe we both can get the name?
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 5th
Dearest Bella,
Happy July.
Alice, Emmett and I went out back with my dad after the pool was completely drained of that nasty green algae water. Remember when you pushed me in the summer we were fifteen? It was October and I was so pissed at you.
We got in the pool today, wearing our bathing suits and cleaned the lining, bleaching off the stains from the algae. Once everything was all finished, we got the hose ready and it's been filling up all day, tomorrow morning it should be done is what my dad said.
Alice and I have been really close lately, I never realized how great of a friend she is.
NEXT DAY-
The pool is all filled up, and the water is sparkling. We put the heating mat over it for the sun to attract to it and warm it quickly. I wish you were here to take the first dive into it with me. I went to the meadow today, the flowers look so pretty. The lilacs have been growing and the tree's are very green.
I wish I could share it with you. I talked with my mother today a little, I've been spending time with her in the kitchen alot. We bake together and talk. It's a good thing you weren't here to taste the berry cobbler I made, it was absolutely terrible. The crust was gummy and it took me about fifteen minutes to scrub it off my teeth. And the berries...lets just say they were still frozen.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 8th
Dearest Bella,
Before I tell you the tale of events, I have been seeing Tanya entirely too often for my liking. I couldn't resist telling you.
It started out normal today until I got a call from Alice telling me to check my e-mail. After booting up my laptop and going through my mail, there was a video in one of the attachments that was from Tanya, Alice told me to look at it.
Did you know that Tanya Denali is Bi-sexual, and that the whole entire Youtube universe and her friends know that she is a lesbian on the side with none other then, Jessica Stanley. Can you fucking believe that? I mean this is the shy emo Jessica Stanley, making out with a girl that kicked her off the squad. And the video was recent. Of course it was just PG-13, but hell!
I hope it makes you laugh just as much as it made me. Registration is basically in a month. I've been looking online at apartments that I can afford when I get a job out there, hope everything is okay with you, Bella.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 10th
Dearest Bella,
Today Alice, Emmett and I went out on a movie binge. We saw Juno, Transformers, Disturbia, Knocked Up and Superbad. Spoiler alert on each movie below, so watch out if you don't want to know.
Juno - Okay, so this girl get knocks up by this guy who is obsessed with orange tick tacs who is in track, wearing gold shorts. Total geek. She decides to give the baby up to this awesome family, with a cool dude who has bad horror movie taste though. Basically the dude leaves the wife who is going to be taking care of the baby when it's born, and she has the kid. Juno is pretty f-ing cool and shit. Ellen Page is good.
Transformers- Just...cool. Megatron, Optimus. Can't get any better for me. Your going to see this with me, no matter what you say.
Disturbia- Hello again Shia. His dad dies, he flips on a teacher who makes a comment and ends up on house arrest. A super hot chick moves in next door and he has a crush. The neighbor is suspicious for killing people and he gets wrapped up in it, along with this girl. Nobody believes him and when his mom is captured, he has to go into the dude's house, which is uber creepy. Great movie, gotta see it.
Knocked Up- Graphic, not my favorite. You are not seieng this movie. Your too pure.
Superbad- Fucking hilarious, okay. Seth, Evan and Fogell are three teenage guys who love to drink and desperately wish to get laid. When a girl that Seth really likes, asks him to get the drink for her party, he sees this as a perfect opportunity to make her his girlfriend. The trio plan out how to get the alcohol, even including Fogell's new fake ID, but things won't got smoothly for the trio. Seth and Evan become separated from Fogell (now called McLovin) and they still haven't got the alcohol for the party that night.
Well there is all the movies. I know that I suck at the descriptions, but I really don't think you want me to describe watching a baby being born in knocked up. I am not tainting your pure mind. I hope your doing good in London.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 15th
Dearest Bella,
When are you coming back? Everyday has been getting a little worse after the last letter. I haven't heard from you, I know nothing, but I've been on edge and I am really starting to feel the impact more after the day you've been gone. It's been over a month now. A month without seeing you, hearing from you or anything.
Now things are starting to get bad, but I hope that your doing okay.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 21st
Dearest Bella,
I know I haven't written in six days, actually I've been putting this letter off because it's the last that I am going to be sending. Right now, I am no longer as confused, but in order for you to know anything, you need to come home back to Chicago.
Everyone of our parents are starting to get a little upset about all of this, and I've had enough of being without you. Yesterday I got to the airport before my dad came to get me from getting on a plane to London. Everything is getting worse so sudden. Please, I need you to come home, now.
I miss seeing your brown eyes, going to the diner with you, riding the motorcycle with you. I miss doing everything we used to do. Alice has been coming over more often to keep me company, and Jasper finally talked to me.
He apologized Bella, and want to know what he said; he said that he missed Izzy B being around. I miss you, and Alice does and Emmett misses you too. Rosalie may not be in the picture, but it's obvious who is the glue to our group, and it's starting to break loose.
This is my last letter, Bella.
Li manco. Venga a casa, per favore.
Sincerely,
Edward
July 28th
BPOV
I read the letter over and over, examining every little single inch of it, seeing where the paper was ridged where the tears fell. His last letter he had said. I knew that since the letters had home to an end, that it was really time for me to go home. Face the music and make or break my life.
Grandma Claire smiled at me, helping me fold my clothes and stuff my belongings into my bag. My flight was booked for nine thirty tonight, it would take nine hours and fourty five minutes to get there, so I would arrive at approximently one fifteen in the morning in Chicago time.
My phone was charged, and clear of all the voicemails and texts that I had aqquired. I read most of them and listened to each voicemail. The anguish was enought for me. I picked up my phone, dialing the house phone, it was three in the afternoon back home.
" Isabella! Honey, you finally called!"
" I'm coming home today...or tomorrow. My flight lands at one in the morning, fifteen after that time. I'll call for a cab to get there, but I'll see you guys soon."
" We can pick you up, honey."
" No, it's fine really."
" We'll wait up, okay. I love you."
" You, too...And I'm sorry."
" It's alright, honey. Just get home."
I hung up my phone, continueing my packing job. I rolled up my charger, stuffing it in, along with a stray pair of jeans on the floor and two t-shirts that were on the bed. I folded it up and put the last of it in the suitcase, zipping it up confidently with a smile on my face.
Grandpa Allen opened my door for me and I stepped out, grabbing a hold of my bag. He embraced me tightly, wrapping his arms around my waist and kissing my temple. I would miss him, but we would visit soon enough, and this time, it would be for a good reason.
" Thank you, for taking me in at such late notice."
" Of course, honey. Be safe, okay?"
" Always am."
I went through baggage and told them my only carry on was my phone, I showed them my plane ticket and passport, I walked through the terminal and onto the plane, taking my place in a second class seat by the window.
A girl, maybe fifteen was sitting next to me, listening to her iPod and bopping her head. I could hear N'Sync playing and I laughed quietly and leaned back in my seat. I didn't know whether or not things would be okay when I got there, but I was confindent that I could get through anything right now.
Heartbreak...
I've already dealt with it.
Rejection...
That was why I was in London in the first place. I felt rejected by my one true love.
But I was going to see him soon, and as I had said, it was really time to face the music and see what course my life would take me through at this point. I only hoped it would make my life better at this point.
Right when I was off the termial, I called a taxi service to come pick me up. When I was finished picking up my suitcase from baggage claim. The electric blue bag really stuck out in the crowd of bags, that was the point when I picked it out.
I grabbed it and went outside, seeing a man holding a sign with my name on it. I walked up to him and he smiled, taking my bag.
" Let me get that."
I slid into the car and gave him my address, my nervs getting worse and I got closer and closer to home. It felt good to be back in Chicago, It had almost been two months away and that was enough. This is where I belonged right now, I also belonged with my family and with my friends.
He drove on the highway, and we passed the grocery store, Chicago Dough, the highschool. Places with many many memories that I held. When he turned on my street, I took a deep breath. In the Cullen house, some lights were on, but in my house, all the lights were on, lighting up the house.
I stepped out of the car, almost tripping on the black peep toe pumps that I was wearing. My outfit was of white leggings and a dress. the bust was white, and the rest was black, I'd gotten it cheap from Nordstums and it was really nice for warm days and nights.
I grabbed my bag and handed the taxi driver a fifty, probably a little too much, but I didn't care. Grabbing the familar key from the eave, I opened the front door, shoving it with my shoulder.
They were all there, except for Edward and they embraced me so tight that I thought I was going to choke. My mother held onto me tightly and I breathed in her scent, missing it. Next was Esme, who was in tears and crying into my shoulder. I felt so shitty at that moment.
" We missed you so much, darling." Carlisle said, wrapping me in his arms. " My son never talks literature with me as you do."
I chuckled and hugged my dad, tearing up at the moment. I'd missed them so much, but not as much as a certain bronze haired boy that I'd run away from.
" He's upstairs... Charlie and Renee will stay with us. We can give you both the time tonight to talk."
I nodded, hugging them all once more before heading upstairs. Upon turning the corner to the hallway that lead to my bedroom I could see him leaning against the wall, his back facing me. My suitcase fell to the floor and he turned around.
I crumbled just as easy as seeing his face, which looked sad, but happy, and tired.
" I'm sorry." he whispered. " I'm so sorry."
Without another thought I ran into his arms, wrapping mine tightly around his waist, tears streaming down my face. He hugged me even tighter back, and it hurt, but in a good way. I'd never felt as safe as I did now in his arms. He was warm...He was Edward, exactly what I needed.
" I missed you. I missed you so much, Bella. Don't ever leave me again, please."
I pulled away, looking up at him " I needed time to get everything sorted. I couldn't do it here, with you around. It was hard for me, harder then I ever imagined for it to be like without you. You needed time, too, Edward."
He sighed against my skin " I did. I didn't like it but I think I did. I know my decision now, no more confusion."
" Do we have to do it now?" I asked.
Slowly, he turned me around, leaning me against the wall. Panic seeped through my body because I knew it was the moment. My eyes flashed back to all of the different times that I'd spent with Edward, like a life-flashing-before-my-eyes kind of thing. I closed my eyes, my body feeling lighter.
His hand brushed against my face, and I opened my eyes, seeing his green eyes blurring into my brown ones. My hand rested on his, which entwined with mine. Sparks shot up my arm, taking over my entire being.
" Yeah." he breathed " I think so."
I felt his breath against my cheek before everything suddenly shifted between us. His hand came up to cradle my jaw before his lips were on mine. I breathed using my nose as he thrust his tongue into my mouth, tilting our heads at a better angle.
He wanted me.
Edward Cullen wanted to be with me.
He pressed me up against the wall, hoisting me up so that I could wrap legs around his waist. My shoes hit the floor as they slipped off and he jumped in surprise at the noise. I smiled against his lips, my hand drifting up towards to tangle in his wild hair.
Kissing him didn't feel enough to me, my other hand went to the buttons of his shirt, using one hand to work the buttons through the holes. I felt his hand drifting to the back of my dress, touching the zipper gently, as if he were asking if it was okay.
I leaned into him further, my nose brushing the side of his.
" Bella, are you sure?" he gasped for breath.
" I love you, Edward."
He sealed my words with a righteous kiss, his hands working down the zipper on my dress, I slid his shirt off his shoulders, sighing into his mouth. Slowly I jumped down off him, grabbing his hand and dragging him into my room.
I pushed him back to sit on the bed and he did as I motioned, I kneeled between his legs, bending my head down towards him to kiss him deeply. Edward's hands traveled over my back and my hands drifted down, touching his belt lightly.
" I'll never hurt you again. I promise."
Authors Note- This part was planned out from the moment I thought of the story. This was where I started with, and the rest was just built around it. They are teenagers, and shit happens. But do they regret anything? Wait? Did they even do anything beyond this? I have no fucking clue!
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