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I finally reached the church and I opened the big doors as Harper got off the stage?
"Would anybody else like to say something about Jerry Russo?" the preacher asked.
"I would." I spoke loudly and my voice rang through the church. I was getting all kinds of look from people but I saw some proud faces too. I marched down the aisle and to the stage. I adjusted the microphone, took a deep breath, and started speaking.
Chapter 7: You don't even know
"When I look at you all, some of your faces are shocked, some disappointed, some disgusted and some proud. I'll bet all of you are wondering, 'Why didn't she want to come to her own Dad's funeral? Didn't she love him?' Yes. I loved my Dad. I loved him dearly. That's exactly why I didn't want to say goodbye. I didn't want to accept that he's no longer with me. I figured that if I never said goodbye, he would never leave me. Someone one really close to me then let me in on a little secret. He has left me already. He is no longer here to stand by my side on this earth. If I didn't say goodbye, he would leave anyway and I would regret it later. I'm so glad they told me this.
My father's death will always sadden me and I like to think more than others. You see, it's my faul- well, I blame myself for his death. I pranked my brother Justin and that's the whole reason he was driving to my friend's house anyway. I'm the reason he got in the accident. Now, I know some of you are thinking 'Honey, it's not your fault', but that will never change what I think is. It may not be my fault. Some could blame Justin, for being annoying enough to get pranked. Some may blame my mother, who I think probably was the only parent really upset. Some may blame Max for laughing so hard and causing my parents to notice Justin. Some may blame the other driver. I blame myself and no one else.
I look at all of you and I see so many people I love. I see family and friends. I see people I don't know, and people I never took time to get to know. My father's death has helped me to realize that everyone's time on earth is limited and a long life isn't guaranteed. This death has helped me get my priorities straight. Why spend time mad at someone when you could spend time happy. I finally understand the expression forgive and forget. If you don't, you could be wasting precious time with someone you love.
I love you Dad. I'll miss you so much, but I know you will always be with me in my heart and will watch over me and your loved ones. Thank you for such a good time together. This isn't goodbye, this is see you later."
I stepped off the stage and kissed my Dad's cheek, closed the coffin and walked out of the door. I could faintly hear Mitchie calling me and could barely feel her give me a hug. I was so deep in thought. When I told her I wasn't coming back, she ran to go back and sing a song for my Dad. I walked up to the door of the Gray home and unlocked it with my key. I walked up the stairs and into the room I spent so much time in over the years. There lying on the bed, asleep, with a pen and paper on a book in his lap was Nate. I smiled and then furrowed my brow at all of the paper on the floor. I picked up a ball of paper and unfolded it. It started:
Dear Alex,
I understand why you're mad. I would be too. I need you to forgive me. I need you right now. Yesterday I was diagnosed wi
The paper stopped there. My heart was pounding so hard and fast that I didn't hear the crinkling sound as I unfolded another ball of paper.
Dear Alex,
I need you. I need you by my side. I have just been diagnosed with
The paper stopped again. Frustrated, I walked over to Nate and looked at the paper he was currently writing. When I picked up the paper, it was a song. I began to read it.
TO: ALEX
Got the news today
Doctors said i had to stay
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
When i thought it'd all be done
When I thought it'd all been said
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
And you don't know what it's like to feel so low
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know
All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
Waitin' on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer and I'll be fine
But you don't know what you got 'til it's gone
You don't know what its like to feel so low.
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow
You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know, know, know.
You don't even know, no
And you don't know what you got 'til it's gone.
Don't know what it's like to feel so low, yeah!
And everytime you smile you laugh you glow,
You don't even know! yeah! woah!
So I'll wait 'til kingdom come.
All the highs and lows are gone.
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
I'll be...fine
Alex, I don't know how to tell you this but, I have
The paper cut off there. I felt tears streaming down my face. Whatever Nate has, it's been hard on him and he's needed me but I wasn't there for him. I laid down next to him so I would be there for him when he woke up. I gasped as the book he had on his lap fell open to the title page.
How to Deal with Type I Diabetes.
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