OMG! I'm so sorry I haven't posted in forever! So first I didn't post because I was lazy but then I fractured my wrist and THEN I went to a 2 week sleep away camp with no electronics. Make sure to read the bottom note thing!

Alex, I don't know how to tell you this but, I have

The paper cut off there. I felt tears streaming down my face. Whatever Nate has, it's been hard on him and he's needed me but I wasn't there for him. I laid down next to him so I would be there for him when he woke up. I gasped as the book he had on his lap fell open to the title page.

How to Deal with Type I Diabetes.

Chapter 8: I love you too

I stayed in the same place with the same expression for a longer time than I can remember. Over time, I realized that I was now just staring at the ceiling. Bored, upset, and curious, I finally moved and grabbed the book lying beside me. I glanced at the table of contents and began reading the Introduction. As serious as I was at the moment, I am Alex Russo and what would Alex Russo do when reading a boring book? That's right. Fall asleep.

When I awoke, Nate was still asleep so I went downstairs where a smiling Mrs. Gray was.

"Oh Alex dear, I'm so glad to see you!" she said and I smiled.

Weird. I could've sworn she was just at the funeral. I shrugged and began eating the lunch that was soon set in front of me. Vegetable Soup. Yum. I ate the soup slowly and had a nice conversation with Mrs. Gray. All of a sudden, Mitchie came up from behind and dragged me down the hall and up the stairs to the center of the 2nd floor. I always used to get confused because it was a circular area with doors covering all parts of the wall.

"I'm going to spin you and you open the door that you first see when you stop spinning. There's a prize for you in every room but only one room contains the grand prize. Good luck." she said with a smile.

Around and Around I went until I finally stopped and I smiled when I saw that I'd stopped right in front of Nate's door. I opened but frowned when I didn't see Nate or anything in Nate's room. I walked around a bit and then it hit me. I was back in the waiting room with my mom. The doctor came out.

"I'm sorry but Nate Gray will not be waking up from his diabetic coma." the doctor told me.

My eyes widened and I sprinted to the door. Maybe if I ran fast enough, I could leave the pain here. All of a sudden the doors were locked and I was the only one in the waiting room.

"Noooo! Not again! Noo!" I sobbed.

My eyes snapped open when I felt myself being shaken but the tears kept flooding out of my eyes.

"Sssssh. Come here Ally. I got you." I heard Nate say and I gasped but a smile soon crept onto my face.

"Nate!" I yelled and hugged him as hard as I could.

I still couldn't shake off the dream so I spent the next 20 minutes blubbering like a baby into his chest. Finally I could form coherent phrases.

"I missed you." I told him in a whisper.

"I'm so sorry Ally. I love you. Please forgive me. I can't take another day without my best friend. Please." he pleaded and tears began trickling down his cheeks. I simply wiped his tears with my thumbs and smiled.

"I love you too and I forgive you." Yeah, in the back of my mind I knew that I meant that I loved him in a different way but I'd rather have in my life and not be in love with me than to not have him in my life at all.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face into his chest. I finally felt safe.

"Ally?" he asked with a slightly more serious tone.

"Yes Natey?" I asked, kind of worried about what he was going to ask.

"I suppose you know now?" he asked and I felt warm tears dripping onto my forehead.

I thought about what he was talking about and it didn't take me long to figure out what he meant.

"Yeah I do." I whispered.

I pulled away to look at his face but as soon as I did, he buried his face into his pillow and began crying. Of course that made me cry but I still scooted closer to comfort Nate.

"Does someone need a hug," I managed to get out between sobs. "because I sure do." I

He slowly got up and I outstretched my arms. Nate collapsed into them and began crying on my shoulder.

"Sssssh. It's going to be okay." I murmured.

"I'm so worried. There are so many rules I have to follow and serious consequences if I don't I'm scared Ally. I'm just terrified." He cried.

I'd never seen Nate this vulnerable.

"Ssssh. It'll be fine. I promise."

"You don't know that." Nate replied, still sobbing but now he was sitting up on his own. Oh how I hated to see him cry.

"I know that I just lost my Father and if I lose you I would go insane and spiral into a deep, dark depression and God won't let that happen so yes, I can promise you that. Nate I love you so much even though we've only been friends for a few years and no one is going to take you away from me. Just trust me and everything will be fine."

Nate nodded but I knew better. He was still whimpering so I decided to distract him.

"Nate, you want to hear a song I began a while ago?" I asked.

His face lit up when I said that. He's been begging me to write a song FOREVER!

"Of course." he said softly, a small smile forming.

"Ok, well it's not finished but here it goes:

Thunder booms and thunder bangs

I need you to feel safe

Eyes closed I wait for you to say

It'll be ok.

No where to run No where to hide

You were there every time I cried

Your were the sun on my rainy day

I think you saved me

Through-out the thunderstorm

No need to be alarmed

If I'm not in my room

Hoping it's over soon

Through-out the thunderstorm

I will be in your arms

I will not be afraid

Because you're with me"

[original song by me ]

I rolled my eyes when Nate started clapping

"Amazing!" he told me with a smile.

"Why thank you Nathaniel" I said and we laughed together, something that I really missed doing.

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