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Tuesday

August 14th

BPOV

Fuck, last night was exhausting.

I'd tried to get my whole entire bedroom together, but I was so tired that I ended up sleeping on a mattress with one blanket on it. I hadn't even gotten around to putting the sheets on. What I awoke to was pounding on the door and a scared sounding Edward who thought I was dead.

I slumped out of the bed and went to the door that was straight down the hall. I unlocked it and opened it, Edward swooped me up in his arms and kicked the door shut.

" Looks like your the freaked out one."

" I worry. You better make me a copy of your key."

" There's another one the kitchen counter." I added, rubbing my eyes with my palms.

He chuckled and walked towards my bedroom, setting me down on the bed. I grabbed for the blanket and sighed in happiness that it was still warm.

" You did alot last night. Looks like you assembled the metal cd shelf and put them alphabetically in order. It's quite convenient that there are some shelves on the walls for your thousands of books, which are also in order. Damn, you even put your clothes in the shelves in color order. Drawers filled, too."

" What time is it?"

" Look that the digital clock you plugged in."

10:53am

I groaned " Shower, must shower."

" Oh, what a surprise, you cleaned the bathroom, too!"

I went into the living room and grabbed my shampoo, conditionair, body wash, loofa and a razor. Edward grabbed the wash cloths and towels for me. I put my shower things on the shelves and put the makeshift shampoo and soap holder on the metal shower head rod, hanging my loofa and putting my razor on there. The sink didn't have a cabinet, so Edward just put the five towels and three wash cloths on the shelf that was a few feet above the toliet. I supplied some toliet paper and kleenex inside and took a shower.

It was weird taking a shower in there, but I guess I would get used to it. The curtain was light blue and the two carpet peices are white. I lathered my body, rinsed, washed my hair, shaved and then got out to dry off. Quickly, I combed through my hair with my brush that was on the smaller shelf beside the sink.

Since I hadn't brought clothes with me, I wrapped the towel around myself and went to the bedroom. Edward strolled in just then with a crooked smile on his beautiful face.

" I checked out the closet looking thing that's right outside to the left of your door. It's a washer and dryer, so that's pretty cool. I am guessing you guys share because there is already Tide, Downy, Clorox and Shout for the clothes."

" Cool, I didn't want to have to go to a laundromat."

I grabbed a few articles of clothing, a pair of dark wash jeans, a white, blue and green striped polo, underwear and socks. I changed into my clothes and put my towel and previous clothes in the basket in my bedroom. I tossed my hair up in a ponytail, did my makeup and slipped on my converse.

" I'm thinking we should make the bed."

Edward picked up my bed-in-a-bad and laughed upon seeing the familar fabric. There was no doubt that he wouldn't tease me about it with the laughs that he was obviously trying to keep in. I pouted.

" Bella, you must have a fetish for these sheets because you have had them in Twin, Full and now Queen size beds."

" I like it!"

" Okay, whatever makes you happy."

We made the bed with both of the sheets and then the comforter. I put the new pillows in the new pillow case's, because alot of my old pillows had been flat, now they were fluffy and plump looking. I tossed my stray blanket ontop of the bed.

Edward helped me in the kitchen, we had to clean out the cabinets before putting things in there, but I only had seven plates, most of them just in case I have visitors, a set of silverware, three different sized pots, and three different sized pans. I had a few other cooking tools, but not that many, just enough to get by with what I need. My father bought me a brand new Ice cream scooper, he knew me so well.

" I think we should go grocery shopping." Edward said " I have not a morsel of food in that apartment of mine."

We seperately took cars and drove to the nearest grocery store, which was a Jewel. I'd only bought things I really needed and were needed especially; Eggs, bread, flour, sugar, orange juice, milk, a few vegetables and fruits. I got some bacon, some randoms like Cheez-Its, fruit snacks, a box of Famous Amos cookies, Life cereal, frozen pizza's, tyson buffalo wings, a carton of Mint Chocolate Chip icecream (green kind) and just a few other things that I liked to eat. I had to get pasta and mozzerella and parmesan cheese, the parmesan being fresh and not shredded. I'd even bought a hand grater like I had back home.

I had brought a few packages of chicken breast and ground beef, along with many many different seasonings because I basically used them daily on everything I made. I was not going to be eating a whole mess of fast food around here, and I loved to cook for myself and Edward. Having meats around would be necessary.

I had to watch what Edward bought, because the man had six different kinds of cereals, four boxes of gushers and fruit by the foot. I also noticed the two boxes of oatmeal cream pies, I don't even think he likes them.

" Edward, you really need to be careful with what you buy. You can get these things in moderation, not four at a time." I said with a laugh

He released the handle on the cart and turned around, slidding his arms around my waist. His hands slipped into the back pocket of my jeans as his lips pressed against my forehead.

" Want some honey buns?" he asked.

I reached back and slapped his ass " Already got some, love."

Edward scowled and me and reached over to pick up a box of HoHo's.

" I have alot to teach you, Edward."

Edward went to his place to put his stuff away while I went to mine. The fridge was all clean when I opened it, no funny smell or anything, just smelling kind of like plastic and new. I put the butter in quickly and put the icecream in the freezer. It was fun putting all the things where I wanted them. The bread was in a basket by the toaster and the coffee beans were by the coffee maker, unlike at home where they are in the cabinet.

I arranged the drinks in the fridge, along with the vegetables and fruits. I put the cheez-its, a bag of chips, cookies and fruit snacks in a cabinet. There was a drawer beneath the stove that I put a baking pan into.

With a sigh, I looked at all my other stuff. Edward came by and helped me with my television. It was on the coffee table I had acquired. I put the DirecTv box in and plugged everything in, turning it on and flipping through the channels to make sure it all worked. I put my game systems in the open place under the top of the coffee table, putting the games in the two drawers.

All of my movies were on a movie tower next to the television. I adjusted the couch infront of the television, putting it close enough, but far enough away. I adjusted a few other belongings I had and stood by the door, looking around the room.

" My turn."

" Edward, why did you put your movies in with the silverware box?"

" DON'T KNOW!" he shouted from the bedroom.

I rolled my eyes and took out the new silverware, I put them in the drawer with the plastic seperator. Last night Edward had already put the living room together, which had a plasma, black leather couch, glass coffee table and he put together a bookcase for his books and movies, along with a few scattered pictures of us and his friends.

He had a few peices of art he wanted to hang on the walls, so we hung those first while I did everything in the kitchen. The food was still on the counter except for the freezer things. I asked him a few questions on where to put things but he didn't care so I did it my way. Coffee beans by coffee and bread by toaster, a simple way. I put the paper towels on the counter near the sink and hung the tea towels on the hand bar on the oven

At around four thirty we were basically done with everything. There weren't many things to take care of and it went by quick. His kitchen was organized, as well as his bathroom and bedroom, and everything was put in it's place for the years to come.. We collapsed together onto his couch with a long sigh of exhaustion.

" That was fun."

" That's what you think. I am hungry."

" I got some ground beef, want me to throw together some burgers? I've got buns!"

" I'm sure you do. Yes, please."

He kissed my cheek and bounded off to the kitchen, talking about how he was cooking for the first time in his kitchen.

" So, when do you get a call from that cafe?"

" They said somewhere between Thursday and Sunday. I'm hoping Thursday. Since all of my classes all end at three this semester that I will work from three thirty to nine. And I get seven fifty an hour. I get Saturday off and I work Sunday from ten to seven, so thats nine hours and lots of money for me. What about you, Esme said you got a call last night from the restuarant right off campus."

" Yup, your looking at the new waiter as of next Wednesday. I get seven dollars an hour and I work from four to ten. I'm wondering when I'll have time to study, but I've got Friday and every other Sunday off. But on Saturdays I start at noon, so we can have special sleepovers if we don't have to study too much."

" I like that." I murmured

Edward finished making us dinner and we ate together on the couch, chewing on the burgers and talking until we'd ate everything. I helped clean up the dishes and we went back on the couch to watch some television until I had to leave. Though it really couldn't be called watching television with Edward's lips on my neck and lips. It was hard to concentrate on the screen.

I'm not complaining though.

I was fully expecting someone to come in and interrupt us, per usual, but nothing happened.

That was probably the best part.

His tongue ran over my lip, and I gasped. Edward had never used his tongue, ever. I gripped his biceps, letting out a low moan against his mouth. He squeezed his arm around my waist and I leaned up, using my other arm to help. Edward's other hand gripped the back of my neck before moving down.

Suddenly his grip tightened on me and he lifted me up in his strong arms, carrying me out of the living room and to his bedroom. He lowered me to the bed as I played with the buttons on his shirt, I got them through the holes and tossed the shirt off. He pulled away for a moment to pull my polo off before resuming our kiss.

Then, the phone rang.

We attempted to ignore it, but Edward eventually pulled away to see who it was.

" Even when we aren't home they are still doing this!"

He answered his phone, putting it to his ear " I'm busy!...Yes, seriously...Fine, mom...Bella's perfectly fine, actually she is feeling very neglected, I was giving her a daily dose of special attention...Kidding...No, I'm really not...Okay...I love you, too, mom."

Edward tossed the phone in another direction and scanned his hands over my stomach and chest. I threw my head back into the pillows, his lips connecting with my neck. He moaned against my neck and reached for the loops on my jeans, pulling up.

" Mmm, Edward, what are you doing?"

" Giving you some special attention."

I put my hands on either side of his face and pressed his lips against mine, encouraging him to continue. After a few minutes of heated kissing later, Edward pulled away. I groaned from the loss of his body against mine, his lips on my skin.

That was the hottest none tongue kissing ever.

" Bella, I can't keep going any longer. Were obviously not doing that...so.."

" On your decision."

" You agreed!"

I pulled out from under him and grabbed my shirt. I let out a sigh of frusteration at the situation, but in my mind, I knew that it was probably best for now. My brain and body just couldn't help but be upset about it though.

" Bella, come on don't be mad."

" I'm not mad. I'm frusterated. There is a difference."

" Well, I'm sorry, okay."

" I'm going to head back, I'll see you later."

He stood up and followed me as I walked towards the front door, fastening the three buttons on my polo shirt.

" Will you please talk to me?" he asked.

" What?" I asked, slipping my converse on.

Edward ran a hand through his hair and sighed, he looked around the room for a moment before speaking up. I tied my shoes and stood infront of him, waiting for the words to come out of his already open mouth.

" Nothing, nevermind."

I sighed and opened the door.

" Bella, I..."

" I love you, Edward. Sleep well."

" You, too." I knew which part he was refering to.

I walked down the stairs and out of the main door, walking to my car quickly. I drove to my apartment, being quiet when I went in just in case any of my roommates were alert people with good ears. I jogged up the stairs to my apartment and took out my key, I jammed it into the lock and twisted it.

When I got in I striped to my underwear and got into bed. It was very quiet, not one noise. I sniffed once and closed my eyes tightly, falling into a dreamless sleep.

EPOV

I felt a little bad, so I had decided to sneak over to Bella's and try and make her feel better after last night. I showered, dressed and was out.

I didn't know if she felt rejected or what, but I knew that she was very upset when she left last night. I felt like an even bigger asshole that I couldn't even told her I loved her back last night. I'd almost said it, but I stopped myself.

Her kitchen was stocked with all the things I needed to make her a nice, big breakfast. Luckily, there was directions on how to make pancakes, so I quickly mixed it up into a nice batter and grabbed a pan, spraying it down with vegetable oil before pouring a circle of the batter in the pan.

Grabbing some bacon and eggs from the fridge, I grabbed two of the other pans, using the bigger one to cook some bacon and the other to make scrambled eggs. I made sure that the eggs weren't at all leaky, because I knew Bella hated them if they were even a little leaky. I just put a little salt and pepper on it and fried it up.

Once everything was cooked. I put the two big pancakes in the middle of the plate, put the bacon on the side and the scrammbled eggs on a small plate. After collecting a fork I walked into her room quietly, she was just a little lump under the covers. I set the food on her end table and knelt on the side of her bed, resting my hand on her shoulder. I took note that she was only wearing underwear. It wasn't anything new, Bella actually admited when she was fifteen that she hated sleeping in clothes.

" Bella, wake up. I made you breakfast."

She was still fast asleep.

" Come on, beloved." I whispered in her ear.

Suddenly she shifted around, groaning in the process. " What do you want?"

" I made you breakfast."

" You can eat it."

Alright, so maybe she was just a little pissed.

" Iz, I am really sorry about what happened last night. I mean, I said a few weeks ago it would be best for us to tone it down a bit because I thought it would be better. I'm a guy, of course I want sex, but when it comes to you I want it to be special, not just because it's in the heat of the moment and rushed...But just because I see it that way doesn't mean you should give me the cold shoulder, I'm just looking out for our relationship."

" Whatever, fine."

I sighed " That's not the answer I want."

" No, your totally right. I'm just frusterated at times because I want to, but you hold it back. I know your only doing what's best and I am sorry for being so hostile about it." she said, tilting her head with a tired look.

I kissed the side of her head and Bella smiled. I set the plates in her lap and her eyes widened.

" Wow, you went all out didn't you, love?"

" Only for my favorite women in the whole entire world."

" What would Esme think?"

" She knows your the favorite." I teased.

" Even if I am psycho girlfriend sometimes?"

" Bella, I love that your not perfect, or the fact that you don't try to be perfect."

" Thank you."

It was little that I knew that time with Bella, was very limited now. Of course, we saw eachother Friday nights and slept over. On the weekdays we never saw eachother at all because after school, it was work. Bella had gotten the job at the cafe

We called eachother before going to bed every night. I could tell how much being away from me wore her down, and it was the same for me because I couldn't stand not seeing her for a day, let alone five. Today was a Wednesday, and I was definately looking forward to Friday. I'd gotten up and went through my classes, I started my first class at seven thirty, and I was over with all of my classes at three fifteen, then I have fourty five minutes to get ready for work.

I got out of my last class and headed home, dialing Bella's number to talk to her for a few minutes.

" What!" I heard her spat angrily.

" Should I call back later?"

" Edward...I'm sorry today has just been fucking horrible. I got up late, and had to run to campus quickly, ontop of that a kid ran into me with scorching hot coffee on my white shirt, and then proceeded to laugh at me when he saw my bra. Then I figured out that I was so tired that I didn't put my underwear on right, I had conditionair still in my hair and everyone was staring at me because it looked greasy. Then I totally failed at a stupid quiz because I hadn't had time last night to study."

She was crying, I could hear it.

" Oh, Bella. Don't cry, look I'll come by tonight after my shift and stay for an hour or so."

" No, no. It's okay, I'm just really frusterated and upset."

" Just take a deep breath. Look, I'll see you Friday, I can pick up some chinese food and when you get off at nine I will be there." I assured her, trying my hardest to soothe her.

Bella sighed " Thank you for that, and for calling. Your voice makes it better."

I chuckled " It's in the job description."

" Okay, well I have to head off to work. I love you."

" I know, try and have a good day."

" Will do."

September 5th

Wednesday

" You've got table six, Edward."

I groaned, I was already waiting another table. " Alright."

When I got to the table, I saw two people, two guys infact, and they were staring at eachother with love in their eyes. I guess I was supporting gay people today, too. Tonight they were short two people, so I had to come in today and fill in until eight thirty.

" Hello, I am Edward and I will be your waiter. What drinks can I start you out with tonight?"

Oh, shit. Why are they giving me the googly eyes? I forced a smile and the dark haired guy gave me a huge smile.

" I would like a Diet Coke, and my partner here would love an iced tea, sweetened."

" I will be right back with that."

I scrambled away from the table and went to table fifteen, making sure that their meal was satisfying, after assuring things were fine, I grabbed the drinks for table ten and got the order, and then went back to six to give them their drinks.

" Do you need a few minutes to scan the menu?"

The blonde was scanning my body, I felt suddenly dirty. I would definately take a shower before going over to Bella's tonight. He was smiling as he stared at my legs, was it because I was tall or something?

" No, were just fine. I would like the alfredo with the grilled shrimp, nice and spicy."

Uh...

" And I want the New York Strip, with mushrooms and garlic mashed potatoes on the side."

He enphasized the 'strip'. I would definately be telling Bella about this one.

I put their order in and went to table fifteen, they took their check and paid cash, giving me a five dollar tip, I took it happily and went to the kitchen to get table ten's order. It was a group of four ladies, and they were ogling me, too.

What is with people these days?

" So, Mr. Waiter, have a girlfriend? wife? fiancee." the busty red head purred.

I rolled my eyes and felt her rubbing her foot against my ankle. I jumped back in surprise.

" I'm married." I lied.

She quirked a brow " Your can't be over twenty...And where is your wedding ring?"

" I don't wear it to work, it tends to get lost easily."

" Too, bad. You would be fun." a blonde said from across the table, giggling with the other girls.

I dished out their food and went back to the ogling gay couple. I refilled their drinks and went to the kitchen to get their food. I served it to them and went back to the group of girls to refill their drinks. Finally, I was able to sit down and breath for a moment.

" Tired, champ?"

I looked over, seeing my co-worker Amber smiling at me.

" No, idea. I've got a gay couple looking at me like they want me to get in to their group of two and make it three. And a group of four girls ogling me. Had to tell her I was married to get those claws off of me."

When the two guys had paid their bill and left already. I was relieved to see that it wasn't a dine and dash because it had happened last week to Amber, she said it happens every once in awhile. I went back to the table to collect the tip they left. Of course they didn't just leave me a twenty dollar tip, but a note underneath it with a number.

555-7727

You'd make a great addition.

Your beautiful.

- Chad and Julian

I shoved it in my pocket, along with the little love note from the red head named 'Chasity'.

I needed Bella.

Authors Note- Looks like Edward is attracting males in New York, huh? Are we liking Chad and Julian? Should we see them again...I'm not planning on it.. Haha.

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