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BPOV

Time seemed to fly by quickly and Edward and I found ourselfs back in Chicago for Christmas. We somehow got from the twenty third to the sixth off of work. Both of us pulled some strings so we could see our family, and luckily everything worked out. It was all about trying to do late double shifts and work whenever we had free time, even if it meant sacrificing to see eachother on Friday's and weekends.

I was really happy to be home, even though my room was empty for the most part. I still had my bed things set up in there, my pillows still taking up residence. Sleeping in here brought me so many memories.

Late movie nights with Edward.

Doing homework with Edward.

Watching Bears games with Edward.

Laying in bed with Edward.

Sleeping with Edward.

They all had him in it, I really can't remember one childhood memory that did not have that boy in it. He was always there, in every single memory that I will carry for the rest of my whole entire life. I would cherish them forever, and never take it for granted.

I enjoyed the amount of time that I spent with my family, I'd missed them. Even my nosy mom and overly protective dad.

On Christmas Eve we went out to dinner downtown at a restaurant of our parents choice. We ate lobster, steaks and salads. It was a nice part of our gift if I do say so myself. Edward feeding me forkful's of lobster was fun.

Today it was Christmas day, and us girls were going to be making a nice big dinner to feast on tonight. I was excited to do some real cooking, I've been eating takeout and ramen noodles lately

I awoke because Edward was childishly jumping on my bed, which was just like old times. I hit him with my pillow, smacking him until he stopped jumping around like a five year old. He pinned me to the bed and kissed my lips chastely.

" When will you man up and give me some tongue?" I teased

He stuck his tongue out at me " When I feel like it. Maybe I just think you have bad breath."

My jaw dropped " Your mean. Whatever, I need to shower."

When I was showered and dressed, Edward and I walked over to his house. This year we were switching things up and doing things at the Cullen's. I was immediatly thrown into the kitchen to help. My father was watching ESPN on the Cullens flat screen, but Edward and Carlisle were at the dinner table, talking with us and giving a hand every once in awhile.

I was chopping up the sweet potatoes while Edward had his arms around my waist, and his chin on my shoulder. He was definately playing as a sweet boyfriend right now. I didn't know what he wanted, but I was sure that maybe it was to earn some brownie points from my father if he came in.

" Taste?" he whispered in my ear.

I slivered off a peice from the round chunk of sweet potato, picking it up and bending my arm back to feed it to him. He hummed and chewed, placing a kiss on my neck. When he pulled away from me he sat back down. It was raw, and I didn't know how good it would taste. He didn't seem to mind.

" Someone is kissing up." Esme noted, giving Edward a pointed look.

" Am not." he chuckled " Is it a crime to hug people?"

" It is to hug your girlfriend, it's trouble."

My mother popped the turkey in the oven after Esme rubbed it with oil and put a whole mess of seasonings and herbs onto it. It smelled delicious even though it wasn't cooked. Esme chopped up some regular potatoes and put them in a pot with water, setting them on the stove but not turning it on. I did the same with the sweet potatoes and we all went into the living room, convincing my dad to turn on A Nightmare Before Christmas.

Edward sat at the end of the couch and I curled up next to him, wrapping my arms around his lean form. His chin rested upon my head, his hand rubbing back and forth against my arm soothingly.

" I really want to rip those gifts open."

" Tonight, love."

" I have no restraint."

I kissed his neck " Yes, you do. I mean it must be hard to resist my sexy body." I teased in a whisper, playing with his fingers.

" That's harder." he whispered lowly.

" What are you two whispering about over there?" I heard Esme say with a laugh.

I cleared my throat " Nothing, really."

He kissed the top of my head and nuzzled my neck. Across the room I heard my father clear his throat loudly. I looked up and saw he was glaring at Edward, he looked kind of pissed. He looked at me, his face softening.

" Isabella, could you get me another beer?"

" Sure, dad."

Edward released me and I went to the fridge in the kitchen, retrieving my dad a beer. I knew that he was trying to find ways to get Edward off of me, and while it was annoying, I also know that he was only looking out for me.

I just hoped he would realize that nothing would be changing anytime soon. After getting the beer, I set it on the table next to him and walked towards Edward.

" Can I get a glass, sweetie?"

I narrowed my eyes " You hate drinking beer in cups."

He grumbled something under his breath and I plopped down on Edward's lap, he steadied my hips with his hands and I leaned back against his chest, resting my chin on his shoulder.

" I don't think Charlie likes me anymore." Edward whispered quietly.

" He still likes you, Edward. Your dating his only daughter, remember that."

" We've grown up together, out of all the men in the world he should trust me the most. He always knew that I looked out for you as a kid, what's changed besides our feelings and relationship?" he asked, sounding almost annoyed.

" He's just protecting me, Edward. It's what parents do."

" It's not like I'm taking advantage of you."

I sighed and shook my head. Edward locked his arms around my waist and kissed my temple. I rested my arms ontop of his and watched the movie, not exactly paying attention, but still staring at it.

At around four us ladies got up to finish up dinner. We started boiling the potatoes and my mother basted the turkey with the drippings. Esme prepared the green beans and set them in the microwave until it was time to start cooking them.

Once the sweet potatoes were done I drained the water and put them in a glass pan, sprinkling it with brown sugar and putting a marshmallow layer on the very top. I put it on the rack under the turkey and closed the oven.

"Isabella, dear can you prepare the mashed potatoes."

Every year I was in charge of that because I knew how to make it like Grandma Claire. I walked over to the pot, seeing the beater put together next to it. All I would need were the ingredients to put into it.

" Edward, can you get me a stick of butter and the sour cream." I asked.

He went into the fridge and got me what I asked, setting it besides the pot. After getting me a spoon he sat back down. I smiled at him and tossed the stick of butter in, letting it melt into the hot potatoes. I put a few scoops of the sour cream in and started up the beater, mashing it all together until it was just a little chunky. I poured some milk in, not bothering to measure it because I knew the amount I needed in my head and knew how long to pour. Once I was done with it I put it back in the fridge, along with the sour cream. I grabbed the salt and pepper, sprinkling both before resuming.

I kept going until it was silky smooth and not a chunk in the pot. I grabbed a spoon from the drawer, wanting to taste it before putting it on the table.

" Can I?" Edward asked, leaning over the counter.

I spooned some out and pointed the spoon in his direction. He wrapped his lips around the spoon and pulled back, I knew I was staring at him and everyone probably thought I was a freak.

When I finished up with the potatoes, I set it on the counter and took the sweet potatoes out, all of the marshmallow melted into it deliciously, seeping into every crack. Carlisle was now carving the turkey, putting the pieces on the platter.

Edward and I grabbed plates for the dining room, since it was a holiday, we ate in the formal dining room. We set the table together and as I was about to go back into the kitchen, he grabbed me around the waist and pulled me towards him.

" I feel like I'm not allowed to kiss you around them."

" Your not." I said, not even joking.

I pressed against him, pushing him against the wall. His head leaned down towards mine, warm lips connecting with mine. I kissed his lips sweetly, not wanting to get carried away. It's not like we even kissed any more passionate then this. Edward had his limits, and I abided by them.

He pulled away from my lips and placed kisses on my jaw and neck. I hooked my fingers in the beltloops of his jeans, pulling his hips against mine. Edward's teeth nipped at my jaw and I rested my hands on his hips.

" Isabella! They need you in the kitchen."

We pulled away from eachother abruptly, but Edward made no move to let go of me. Charlie glared at him hard and Edward sighed.

" She'll be there in a minute."

My father left and Edward kissed me once chastely before releasing me.

" Bella!"

I darted to the kitchen quickly. Carlisle had me carry in the platter of sliced turkey and we all went into the dining room, settling down on a chair between Edward, and my father. After cutting out food and having our plates prepared, Edward ate with his left hand as he held my left with his right hand.

After dinner and cleaning up, we gathered in the living room to open up our gifts. Each year it was almost harder and harder to pick out things for him, because I liked giving him things that he would absolutely love. Last year he got the Xbox 360, and that thing was basically his child.

This year I'd gotten him a Wii Console, that came out last year, but he had yet to get one. Emmett and Jasper had one, but he did not infact have one. I got him Red Steel, Super Smash Bro's Brawl along with Mario Kart with the wheel, along with three Wii remotes. I also got him an iTunes card. I knew I'd gone all out, but I loved giving people gifts.

I made him open mine before I opened his.

I enjoyed seeing the excitement in his eyes seeing all that I'd gotten him, he was entirely too excited for all of it. His eyes were wide everytime he opened a new one. When he finished ripping open each one, he stacked it all perfectly and wrapped his arms around me.

" I don't know any girlfriend that would willingly buy their boyfriend video games. Thank you, beloved."

After placing a chaste kiss on his lips, he stood me up and pushed me towards the large box in the room, telling me to open it firts. I ripped down the middle, shoving all of the other paper away, underneath it was a big cardboard box. I got the tape off with scissors, and opened up the flaps, stopping short to turn around and look at him.

Inside the box was a perfectly new wooden easel, with three blank canvases inside. He smiled at me widely, rocking back on the balls of his feet.

" Edward, you really did not have to do this."

" I really did. You told me just a few weeks ago how much you missed painting. Open the other gifts."

He'd gotten me so many different colored paints, along with brand new brushes that looked expensive. He even got me a tray for the paints. I wrapped my arms around his waist, hugging him close to me.

" I love you. Thank you so much." I whispered against his chest.

" I know you do. Your very welcome."

The day before New Years Eve, Edward recieved a call from Rosalie. I knew that he had intended to just hang up on her and ignore it, but he actually went upstairs to his bedroom after I encouraged him to go and talk to her.

I didn't exactly know entirely what she had said to him. All I knew was that they had a very long talk over the phone and Edward seemed to be acting better about it, he expressed to me that she apologized, and explained herself, and even though he is hurt, he knows that it's the right thing to do to forgive her instead of harboring these harsh feelings towards her.

She invited us to her New Years Eve party, of which some of her family were going to attend, along with a whole mess of friends from highschool that were still here. Rosalie did say that Tanya was going to be there, it was avoiding the inevitable because her parents were friends with Rosalie and Jasper's parents, and they were invited each year.

New Years Eve night, I got myself showered and dressed. I wore a pair of dark skinny jeans with a grey denim tint on the front. I had on a grey tanktop with a black sweater over it with a short black trech coat and a pair of mary jane pumps that I wore for my Birthday a few years ago. I clasped them around my ankle and stood.

My makeup was darker, matching the smokey clothing style that I'd picked out for myself. I was a little nervous, but Edward would be there and he wouldn't leave me. I curled my hair and looked at myself in the mirror. I spritzed on some of my Burberry perfume and took a deep breath, walking downstairs and out of my bedroom.

Edward was leaning against the door and waiting for me. I leaned into him, kissing his lips. He rubbed his lips together and licked them afterwards.

" Cherry chapstick. Some things just don't change with you, Bella."

I looked towards the living room at my parents. " Were leaving."

" Be back right after midnight." my father stated sternly.

My mother slapped his shoulder and glared at him before looking back at us.

" Don't you listen to him. Come back when your done having fun, no drinking."

We smiled " Sure thing, bye!"

Edward opened the door of Carlisle's Mercedes, which we were borrowing due to the fact that his car was back in New York, and held my hand, l dropped it once I was in and he shut the door safely and got in the other side of the car, starting it up. The drive to Rosalie's house felt very long, but eventually we were pulling up to the street. There were many, many cars and we found a parking spot on the opposite side of their house.

" Are you nervous, you look scared." he noted.

" I...uh, a little bit. Are you okay with this."

" I'm okay if you are."

I smiled " Lets go."

When we got out of the car I grasped his hand tight in mine. We walked up the driveway, and it was easy to hear music playing, it wasn't blaring, but it was loud enough. When we got to the door the glass door of it was unlocked, the wooden front door open infront of it.

Edward pulled the lever and motioned for me to walk in. I stepped in, seeing a whole variety of people walking around. He stepped in behind me and I saw Rosalie appear from the crowd. She was wearing a strapless black dress with a pair of red leggings and black pumps. Her hair was curled and her makeup was flawless as it always was. She looked the same.

" I'm glad you both made it. Here you can put your coats in the closet."

Edward had a wary look on his face, probably not wanting to lose his jacket in all the others.

" Don't worry, only a few people have theirs in the closet, my extended family and some friends have them upstairs."

He nodded and slipped his off, helping me with mine, I noticed how Rosalie watched us closely together as she hung up the coats. She waved us towards the living room and we were thrown into big groups of people.

Edward wrapped his arm around my waist and led me towards the table that was filled with drinks. Without hesitance I grabbed a beer, Edward looked at me skeptically and grabbed a Corona. I drank down half of it, glad it was really cold.

" Um...Do you even like beer."

" I guess so, I need something to get me through tonight."

I leaned into him and he kissed my forehead " It's just for a few hours, and if you want to leave early, just tell me. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable."

" Okay."

" Let's go find Alice and Jasper."

We found them talking with Emmett by the dinning room table, and when Alice saw me, her arms wrapped around me in a death grip. How she moved to me so fast I have no idea. I embraced her back tightly.

" How are you doing! I've missed you!" she exclaimed, a big smile on her face.

" Great, how are things with you?" I asked.

" Amazing, school and Jasper are just fantastic. Everything is going right, and Rosalie and I are getting better, so it's all good."

I smiled " Good, that's great, Alice."

Emmett lifted me up, giving me his signature bear hug and squeezing the life out of me. When he set me down, I ran into Jasper who caught me and steadied me.

" Don't kill the poor girl, Em. She's fallen one too many times."

I smoothed my hair down and stood beside Alice. She grabbed my hand and dragged me over to an empty spot on the couch in the living room. I sat down and she sat in the spot next to me, bouncing with happiness. Her smile was big enough to look like it hurt to smile so wide.

" So, how are things going with you and Edward?"

" Things have really been going great with us. I am really happy with him and I can't picture myself with anyone else."

" That's good. I'm really happy for both of you guys, really. I think Rose is even warming up to the idea!"

" Don't hold your breath, Alice." I sighed.

" I'm not, but I really think you should have faith."

" Rosalie and I aren't completely okay just because her and Edward made up. I don't care how long ago it was, but she really hurt me, Alice. I can't completely trust her after what she did to me, and what she did to Edward."

" Edward forgave her on that part, why can't you?" she pushed.

" If Jasper were Edward, and you were me, what would you think?"

She was quiet " I understand, you love him."

We talked for a little bit on the couch until Jasper whisked her away into the crowd. I finished my beer and tossed it, replacing it with a Sprite. Edward showed up a few minutes after Alice left and sat next to me, wrapping his arm around my waist.

" Should we go?"

I looked at him " Why?"

" You look upset."

" Don't let me rain on your parade, Edward. I'm fine, really. Don't worry about me, please."

Rosalie suddenly plopped next to us, a big smile on her face. She looked like she was having alot of fun, her eyes were glinting with excitement.

" Are you both having a good time?"

" Actu-"

" Great time, thanks for inviting us." I interrupted.

" Okay, I just wanted to make sure before I jump back in. You both should go dance or something. We've got snacks on a table and desserts in the kitchen along with punch, it's not spiked so no worries."

She left and Edward stood me up, pulling me to the middle of the huge room. I stood infront of him and he wrapped his arms around me. I dropped my head down and shook my head.

" I can't dance, Edward." I shouted over the music

" Anybody can dance."

Suddenly he wrapped his arm around me, pressing me against his chest before twirling me out, quickly he pulled me back in he twirled me once more, his chest against mine. I had no clue he had those kind of moves, but it was kind of fun.

Edward forced me to dance with him for a good fifteen minutes before I pulled him towards the kitchen. I was really hot, and I needed something to drink. I poured some punch into a plastic cup and drank it down, refilling it once more. Afterwards I tossed out the empty cup.

He set his arms around my waist once again, pulling me in for a passionate kiss.

I rested my hands on his chest, kissing him back enthusiastically. When I felt his tongue run across my bottom lip, I gasped in his mouth. This was definately something new. I opened my mouth and his tongue sought out mine, twisting and twirling together. He angled my head to the side and attacked my mouth fervently. I let out a small moan, which was probably not audible due to the music.

" Edward?"

He pulled away from me and released his hold on my waist reluctently.. I turned around and saw my worst nightmare in a tight red dress. Edward looked down at me exasperated.

" Yes?"

She smacked her gum and looked at me, sizing me up like she always was known for doing. I put my arm around Edward's waist, leaning into his side. He kissed my temple and hugged me close to him.

" Didn't know it was you. How are you?" she asked, walking towards us.

" Tanya, what do you want?" I asked her seriously.

Her blue eyes gave me an icy glare " I wasn't talking to you."

" Look, I'm done with you Tanya. I moved on and I'm happy. Your just not one for commitment, Bella is. I found someone who loves me, and knows everything about me, someone who cares to know everything about me.

She scoffed " Oh, please. The only reason your with her is because she is obsessed with you, and she's an easy lay."

My jaw dropped right down to the linoleum floor. I was going to deck her, my hand lifted up and I slapped that bitch right across the face as hard as I could. She steadied herself and recoiled, glaring at me. Her hand rested on her red cheek, she was clearly shocked that I had the balls to do that.

" You can take those words, and shove them right up you-"

Edward dragged me into the living room quickly, picking up a brownie on the way out. He pushed me onto the couch and I flapped my stinging hand around. Gently, he lifted it up and placed a kiss on my palm.

" Why did you do that? I was really looking forward to telling her off." I whined.

He ignored me, giving me a small smile.

" Thank you for that. And you are not an easy lay."

" I know, she just...She irks me."

" Here, take a bite."

He held the brownie to my lips and I took a bite, chewing it slowly as Edward look a bite out of it also. After letting me finish it off, I washed it down with his cup of punch. He put his arm around me and I looked into his eyes.

" Would you like to resume that kiss?" he asked.

" I was hoping you'd offer."

I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his, leaving my mouth parted. He waited no time to thrust his tongue into my mouth. His mouth tasted like chocolate brownie and punch, and while it may sound gross, it was delicious. I wrapped my arms around his neck and his wound around my waist, pulling me closer.

" This is alot more fun then closed mouth kissing."

" Mmm."

After a few more minutes of shamelessly making out on the Hale's couch, Edward got me up again and made me dance some more. It was a flurry of grinding and twirling. He seemed to be enjoying himself and I didn't want to ruin his fun. I was happy to see him smiling.

The night went on and soon everyone was shuffled infront of the television as they were counting down from a minute. Edward swayed us back and forth, his hands curled around my lower waist and I rested my head on his chest, warm in his embrace.

"Ten!"

" Nine!"

" Eight!"

" Seven!"

" Six!"

" Five!"

" Four!"

" Three!"

" Two!"

" ONE! HAPPY NEW YEAR."

Outside Rosalie's father and uncles were blowing off fireworks, they made loud noises outside but right now I was more focused on the gorgeous boy that was staring down at me, expecting his New Year kiss.

I tipped my head up towards him and locked my arms around his neck. He lifted me up and pressed his lips against mine, moving them slowly against mine in a sensual kiss. I kissed him back, keeping his slow pace.

To my left I heard a loud gasp. Edward and I pulled away and looked over, seeing a shocked Alice ,and Jasper on his knee infront of her holding a box with a ring inside. I put my hand over my mouth and set my head against Edward's neck. He rubbed my back and watched as Jasper slid the diamond ring on Alice's finger. She squealed in pure happiness and jumped right into his arms.

It made my heart swell with love for them. Looks like Jasper was proposing soon after all. I really was happy for Alice and Jasper.

I looked at Edward from under my eyelashes.

" I love you, Edward."

What I was expecting was his 'I know' response.

" I love you, too."

My breathing hitched and my heart stuttered.

" I do, Bella. I feel it."

I tangled my hands in his hair and kissed him deeply. He gripped my thighs and slowly lowered me to the ground. When I pulled away he smiled brilliantly at me.

He loved me.

Edward Cullen finally loved me back.

Alice had came over to me once Edward and I were finished with our exchange, showing me the round diamond that was on a platinum band, it was a gorgeous ring and the radiant smile on her face made me happy by just looking at it.

We hung around for awhile until we were exhausted and thought it was time to leave. After bidding our friends goodbye Edward helped me in the car, smiling the whole time. He shut the door and jogged to the other side, getting in quickly to start the car up. I slipped my jacket off, the car already being nice and warm, rolling the thin sweater up my arms.

He held my hand as we drove carefully down the icy road towards our house.

" Did you have a great time tonight?"

I rested my head on the headrest, looking at him with my cheek against it.

" Yes, I did."

He shot me his crooked smile and I looked forward just as I heard Edward gasp.

Everything seemed to almost happen in slow motion from there. There was the loud honk of a red semi- truck as it spun out of control on the almost abandoned street. It was barelling right towards us. I screamed.

Edward gripped the steering wheel and swerved off of the rode, we slammed forward and I regreted in that moment for not wearing a seatbelt. My forehead slammed roughly onto the top of the car and banged into the window harshly, the glass shattering all over my body. My wrist cracked painfully against a part of the car and my shoulder slammed against the handle. The front of the car was slammed in and smoking heavily. I could feel some of the glass was pricked into my arms, and the blood was seeping out of the fresh wounds.

I opened my eyes, the pain in my head shooting through me. What I knew was about to happen, made me scream bloody murder. The truck was off of the road and headed straight towards the drivers spot, right towards Edward. As quickly as I could, I grabbed Edward's arms, he was unconsious and I could see blood on the back of his head. His wrist was twisted in the steering wheel oddly, I had to pull it out and cringed at the cracking noise.

He was heavy, but in that moment, all I focused on was that I was seconds away from losing someone that I loved and I needed to help him. I grabbed him and pulled him forward, he was mostly ontop of me, and I had to get the fuck out of here. My wrist and arms was screaming in pain, but I had to keep pulling.

I quickly pushed myself backwards, Edward dead weight was laying over me and I felt the truck hit the car. The snow and grass had slowed it down slightly and it had pushed in the drivers door and it stopped at the console.

My breathing was shaky and I felt blood trickle down my temple, it touched the corner of my lip.

I heard alot of yelling of someone to call 911 and I held onto Edward, tears streaming down my face. His eyes were closed and a little blood was seeping into my sweater. I felt someone behind me.

" Edward, please wake up. Don't leave me, love." I whispered, gently holding the back of his head.

There was three people around us, standing by the car.

After what felt like an enternity, I heard an ambulance in the distance and looked down at Edward, begging for him to be okay. Suddenly I felt someone touching my shoulders gently and I jumped.

" Ma'am, are you okay."

" My boyfriend. His head is bleeding, you have to help him!"

Slowly they eased both of us out, keeping Edward supported on me somewhat. Once they had me mostly out they grabbed Edward and lifted him onto a gurney, immediatly loading him in. I begged for them to let me stay with him, convincing them I was fine.

As they looked at Edward I held his hand tightly, telling him it would be okay.

When we got to the hospital they rushed him into the ER. I followed him as long as they would let me, then they had to take me into a room and clean me up. They called our parents as a nurse sat in a chair and cleaned my temple. I had a nasty cut that they had to stitch up and the nurse quickly took care of it.

She bent my wrist around and found it was badly sprained, they fit me into a brace and the nurse got out more stitches and a few bandages. I could see my arms bloody with cuts all over them from the glass. Suddenly my parents burst into the room, panick evident on their face.

" How's, Edward? Have you heard anything?" I asked hurriedly.

" No. Bella, what happened?"

" A truck was out of control on the road...Edward swerved, we hit a tree.

The EMT that came to us found was standing in the room. " You saved his life. If you hadn't moved him out of the drivers spot then his whole lower body would of been entirely crushed. One more second and I am sure he would not of made it. The person who was driving the semi made it out just about unscathed as you. A few bruises and bumps, a slight concussion. He explained to us that he was only going three over the limit and he swerved on the ice, said that he could not get the truck in his control."

Tears leaked from my eyes and a doctor walked in, Dr. Gerandy it looked like. He checked me over, saying that I would have lots of bruises and would be sore for awhile. They checked my badly bruised shoulder after I explained it had been hurting, and luckily it wasn't dislocated or broken. There was a large peice of glass wedged into my wrist. They had taken that out carefully while I gasped in pain. Dr. Gerandy stitched it up himself and wrapped a medical bandage all around my wrist and secured it with medical tape.

I looked down at my sweater, seeing Edward's blood from his head on it. I looked away for the most part as they stitched me and cleaned my arms up. Once I was done, I was flying like a bat out of hell. When I felt a hand on my shoulder, I stopped.

" We have to wait, sweetie. It's okay, Carlisle is in there and Esme is waiting in the room."

When we got to the area, it was empty for the most part. Esme was there, sitting down on a chair. She was crying and talking to the EMT I had talked to just a moment ago. After he was gone she looked up at me, running quickly towards me and putting both of her arms around me tightly. I winced when she had brushed my shoulder.

" You saved his life, Bella." she said shakily.

" Is he okay, have you heard anything?"

" It's been a half hour already. Carlisle hasn't come out...God, he has to be okay."

We sat down, and I tried to contain my crying, trying not to break down in a hospital waiting room. My arms and wrists were hurting terribly, along with the throbbing cut on my temple but I was trying to keep my focus on Edward.

I hated hospitals, everything about them.

The fact that they smelled like lysol and blood, the blinding white walls and the overall fact that they made me depressed. Knowing that Edward was the one who was seriously hurt, pained me. I wished it had been me, he was hit in the back of the head by some force, and it was bleeding. I wanted it to be me because he didn't deserve that kind of pain and suffering.

Everyone was quiet, not wanting to speak and break the silence. It had been over an hour, and I as desperate at this point to know what was going on with him, if he was going to be okay.

When the door opened and Carlisle walked through, he came straight towards us with a very grateful and relieved look on his face.

" He was lucky, very lucky." he said shakily, dropping in the chair next to Esme, taking her in his arms before looking at me.

" He suffered similar to what you did two summers ago. His head hit backwards on the hard surface on the inside of the inside of the car, and he had a straight crack in his skull, althought his was more serious. We had to make a very small incision in his head to use medical glue to repair the damage and make sure it would heal correctly. His wrist had gotten stuck in the steering wheel, which Bella had to have pulled out, and it's broken pretty badly, we fixed that up and right now he's on medication and a little confused and in alot of pain. Although he is very irritable right at the moment, he wasn't letting the doctor touch him. Bella, you did save my sons life. They moved him to a room, and he will have to stay atleast three nights, five at the most."

I bent my head down, letting a tear drop on my jeans " Can I see him?"

" I'm going to take Esme in first, okay?"

I nodded in understanding and he took Esme in. I waited patiently, my leg bouncing up and down. My father left briefly and came back with coffee for me. I drank down the coffee quickly, it wasn't the best coffee I tasted, but it was fine for now.

My mother held my hand tightly, handing me a new tissue every few minutes. I tried to contain the sobbing, but I was just so relieved that he was okay that I just couldn't control my moments right now.

All I wanted was to see Edward.

Carlisle came out a few minutes later, looking mildly frusterated.

" What? What's wrong?"

" He wants to see you, actually he is swearing and screaming that he wants to see you...Some certain concussions can cause inappropraite emotions towards a certain situation. He's very upset and confused right now. I think you should..."

Quickly I got up and Carlisle took me down a long hall, leading me left once, and down another hall until we reached a room. When I walked in, I expected him to maybe be tired, and he did look tired and in pain, but he also looked pissed and Esme was quietly sitting in a chair.

I scurried to the side of the bed and he looked at me.

" Now y-you let me f-fucking see her."

" Edward.." Carlisle sighed. " You need to calm down, not fifteen minutes ago were you being woken up."

I sat down in a chair and leaned over the bed close to him. His shaky hand reached up to grab my left hand, which was in the brace. I saw a tear leak out the corner of my eye and I leaned forward, kissing his cheek before pulling away and staring into his tired green eyes.

"Oh, Bella. What d-did I do?"

" You saved our lives, Edward. I'm not even that bad. I've just got to take care of you now."

" They t-told me that you g-g-got me out of the way wh-when the truck as coming t-towards me. You sav-saved me."

" If you were hadn't gotten off the road it would of been worse." I fretted,

He sighed, wiping his tears " I l-love you."

" I love you, too. Everything is going to be just fine, your okay.."

" I d-don't want you to ha-have to t-take care of me."

I rested my head on his chest " You've taken care of me many times, now it's my turn to take care of you."

He sighed and patted the bed. I gave him a wary look, scrunching my face up.

" I don't think..."

" This da-damn hospital b-bed is bad enough, p-please lay wi-with me. You w-won't hurt me."

I walked over to the other side of the bed and slowly lowered myself into it, ignoring the stares of our parents as I did so. I laid on my stomach and put my arm on Edward's chest, resting my head against his shoulder.

" Bella, don't you want a change of clothes?"

I sat up slightly and slipped my sweater off, along with my heels. Esme tossed me an extra blanket and I draped it over my body. It was thin and cold, but it didn't matter. Edward was fast asleep beside me, his left hand holding my left.

" I am guessing that your staying here tonight."

" I'm not leaving."

" Okay, I will let the nurses know so they won't bother you both. Edward probably will be having an on and off night due to the medicine, but he needs it unless he wants to feel all that pain. Until it dulls he will need to have it regularly, the pain would be way too much for his body to handle at this time."

I nodded and placed a tiny kiss on his neck. They all had to leave, but Esme volunteered to bring me a change of clothes just in case and came back. I didn't expect to see her carrying a bag. She had things for Edward, a change of clothes for me and Edward's black and white blanket.

She put it over both of us and kissed his cheek and mine.

" I'm so t-tired." he mumbled.

I rubbed his chest " I know, love...Do you want some water maybe?"

" No, no wat-water right n-now. Just l-lay with me. I'm s-sorry that you can-can't sleep..."

" I want to be here, nobody could make me leave right now."

He smiled " I h-hate hospitals, but you ma-make it t-tolerable."

I smiled right back at him.

Edward fell asleep for about an hour and a half until the nurse came in to give him the medicine. He drank a little bit of water and had to use the washroom. They disconnected the I.V, and left. I didn't want anybody helping him but me. I helped him get out of the bed, he was a little wobbly on his legs but he was okay to use the bathroom on his own.

After washing his hands he walked back out and I helped him in bed, being careful when setting his head down. He propped his legs up and I laid back next to him, draping my arm across his stomach. Suddenly as he looked down at me, he gasped.

" Your arms, B-Bella." he said, reaching his broken wrist up.

" The glass shattered. I'm okay, Edward. I'm only worried about you right now."

" Don't. R-Really. It hurt-hurtss like a b-bitch, but I c-can only imagine it would b-be wor-worse without the meds."

" You can't tell me not to worry. I always worry."

" Try n-not to."

I sighed and kissed his chest, hating the hospital gown already. Though it was pretty easy to shove off, that was the point. I wrapped my arm around his waist as tightly as I could, he winced.

" What?"

" My ri-ribs, their a lit-little bruised."

I quickly recoiled my arm but Edward's unscathed left hand grabbed it, resting it lightly over him and patting it down reassuringly. I felt the tears glossing over my eyes.

" D-Don't do th-that. Just d-don't squeeze, I'm f-fine."

My head shook in disagreement, tears dripping down my face.

" No, your not fine. It's not okay."

" Be-Beloved, you n-need to c-calm down."

" I wish I was the one who got it worse. I do."

" I d-don't. Finally I take-take a h-hit." He wrapped his arm around my waist and sat up, lifting his head up and wincing.

I sniffed " Lay down, Edward... I'm going to use the washroom a change, give me a moment."

" B-Bella..."

Esme had put a pair of pajama pants in the back and I went to the bathroom and slipped them on, combing my hair neatly and taking my time. When I was back in the room, Edward was fast asleep, just like that.

I laid next to him and put my head on the second pillow that was laying long ways, trying my hardest to fall asleep.

Authors Note- Well, that was the chapter. I hoped you liked it.

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Now, onto a few important things.

Some of you that follow me on twitter probably read my note about the Bella situation. If you haven't, here is the exactly note-

Today I recieved a review commenting on how I write Bella, that she just didn't like her. And I am by no means mad at this person, because I completely appreciate all of your words. I always take them and try to make myself better in my writing.

But I've always had trouble writing Bella, and even in Ambivalence everyone really has an issue with her, and I'm really starting to have a hard time right now.

I really can't write her POV without her having bad characterizations, and now when I write in EPOV, I still can't seem to get who I see she is, right. I am deeply sorry about this, and I am very upset about it.

Truthfully, I have no idea what to do right now besides go back and just...Try to make her better because she isn't a bitch. When I look at her, she is a girl that is nice with a side of her that is strong and independent, which I think has been taken as her being mean.

Really, I am sorry about this, and I think that maybe I need to take a little bit of a break to get things together for Deep Into The Darkness, and maybe Ambivalence.

I won't be posting teasers, and I'll let you all know if I am posting on Wednesday for Deep Into The Darkness, by either posting a chapter, or not updating at all.

I hope none of you take this as me being overly sensitive, or just blowing it out of proportion, but as I've said, I really do need to just take a step back and figure out what I am going to do.

Any of you who have ever said anything about my Bella characterizations, I am not mad at all. I'd rather try and fix it and make her better. I am not trying to please everyone, but I am trying to please myself because I do not want Bella to come off as she has. It was never my intention.

Dated- August 5th, 1010

That was basically the issue at hand, about writing Bella's point of view, and I really have been struggling with it, but I can't really just change her when I don't understand why people see her that way. I try to make her genuine, she is genuine, which is being taken differently. As I said, I am by no means upset at all, not even a little.

The reason I was discouraged is because I just couldn't grasp it.

So here is what I want you all to do.

I want you to tell me any issues you have with Bella for this story, don't hold back, tell me everything. I will not be upset at you as long as your just nice about it like the reviewer the other day was.

I would really appreciate it.

So click the button, review, and tell me.