Authors Note- I feel like I haven't been around for a year. Four days away from the internet is hard, I don't wish to do it again. Maybe I should get one of those fancy iPhones that people have.
Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns everything Twilight.
January 28th
2008
Monday
4 Weeks since Accident.
EPOV
Since the accident and the trip back to New York, things have been a little tough adjusting to my new living area, and school wise. On the bright side, my bald patch is starting to have hair grow back on it.
Of course, I loved my Bella dearly, but living with a girl was a little frusterating. I knew that me living with her wasn't the best for her either, we've already had fights about the toliet and toothpaste. Of course, both of those being my fault. I forgot to put the toliet seat down, and Bella said that she basically almost fell in, which made me laugh, which made her yell and give me a headache due to sensitivity to noise. Then I pushed the toothpaste all the way down to the tube, which pissed her off, and more yelling.
I think that helping to take care of me, and being in her space was a little stressful. And she had been going to my college to pick up things, and get notes from students on request. Most of the teachers were sending me things, luckily they understood my situation after I and my father spoke to them. Lately, I've been having that damn stomach problem that Bella did, and I threw up more in this injury then I have with the stomach flu.
Out here I had gone to the hospital about my wrist, and they were going to be treating it for the time being until it healed. It was getting a little better, but Bella still had to help me put my pants on and shirt. I was not complaining, having her hands on me was the best.
Being with Bella seemed to be even easier then I ever thought it could be. It took me time to love her, but now that I did, I really felt like I was in love. It was different from when I was with Tanya, we knew every single inch of eachothers lives and we were so passionate about eachother, I never felt that way about Tanya. Maybe to some extent, but with Bella it was fully there.
I started seeing her in such new ways, ways I never thought I would see her. She's such a sexy women, and I had no idea how I missed that in the past. Absolutely beautiful is what she is.
When Bella got home from work at nine thirty, I decided to surprise her with dinner as a gift for taking care of me, and being gracious about everything.
Okay, it was chinese takeout. I can't cook for shit.
" Edward...You didn't have to do this."
" Yes, I did. I've been in the way and a huge pain in the ass, and you've been making and bringing dinner for me."
She set her keys and purse on the couch next to me, draping her jacket over the back. Bella hopped into my lap, her legs on either side of me and her hands on my shoulders. She smelled so good.
" You are a bit much, but I love you, and I do love to take care of you. I don't think you mind too much that I help you put your pants on."
" I don't. But your so dedicated, normally girlfriends only help their boyfriends get out of their pants."
She giggled in the most cutest way and I leaned forward to kiss her.
" How's your head today? I know that Carlisle had given you another bottle of pills to start giving a lower dose."
" Okay, it still hurts like a bitch sometimes, but atleast I get to lay down in a delicious smelling bed every once in awhile for naps."
" Mm, thanks for the compliment. You smell nice, too, Mr. Sexy."
When she was kissing my neck, it drove me crazy and I had to push her away. She pouted at me and I sighed.
" Am I not desirable enough tonight?"
" Ugh, way too desirable for your own good. It's hard to refrain from jumping you." I teased.
She frowned " I was being serious."
" Bella, if it were my choice, I would keep you bound to the bed in some nice lingerie."
" That can be arranged." she said, giving me a wicked smile.
I smiled " I would like that as an anniversary present."
" Deal."
We ate chinese on the couch together. Curling up on the couch with the television on and forks in hand. It didn't matter whether we were out having fun or inside, I had a great time no matter where Bella and I were, that was one of the many things I loved about us. Even as kids it never mattered where we were, as long as we had eachother, everything was great.
She pulled me off the couch once we finished eating, and dragged me in the bedroom.
" Someone is a little needy lately."
" If I'm needy for you isn't that a good thing?"
Bella sat on the edge of her bed, biting her lip and bending her head up to looked at me. That look just about melted me down to my core, she was beautiful.
I put my hands on both sides of her face and leaned down. Firstly, I kissed both of her eyelids, before trailing down to kiss her cheek. When I got to her lips, I paused, feeling her hot breath against my lips. When I finally kissed her, she leaned back and fisted my collar to bring me with her. I braced myself on the bed and slanted my mouth against hers, feeling her tongue against mine was the most amazing experience.
We'd been enjoying such enthusiastic kissing, that was until I felt my stomach twisting. I pulled away from her, she was flushed and confused. When I was running to the bathroom, she got it.
I was entirely glad I hadn't eaten rice, but the chicken sure did come back up. Bella was behind me, rubbing my lower back with her head resting on my upper back.
" Go, I don't want you to see me like this."
" Shush."
Instead, I heaved once more into the toliet, my head now pulsing uncomfortably. I wiped my mouth and rose to my feet, brushing my teeth quickly and thoroughly. When I laid back in bed, Bella sat on the side of the bed, sweeping my hair out of my eyes.
" I'm sorry, I just ruined that."
" No, don't apologize. I've been there, Edward. It's okay. It's only been a little over two weeks, and your injury is far worse then mine was."
She leaned forward, resting her forehead against mine and pecking my lips once with her lips. I felt so bad about it, but there was nothing to do. Slowly she moved forward and I scooted back, taking her in my arms to hold her close.
" I know your upset about it. Love, don't feel bad. I get to kiss you for as long as you will have me."
" I feel bad."
" Don't. I love you, and I understand. Rest, do you want your pill?"
I nodded, wanting an escape from the pulsing. As she left the room, I slid my jeans off and used one hand to get the buttons through the holes on my shirt. When it was on the floor, that was when Bella came back. I took my pill and laid back down, she layered the blankets over my body gently, kissing my temple.
" I have homework to do, but I should be back in about an hour. Sleep, okay?"
" Yeah. I love you, beloved."
" I love you, too, love."
She left the room and I shifted about the bed, wanting to feel her warmth instead of the cold sheets. I rested my body in my usual sleeping position and quickly fell asleep, distantly feeling Bella crawl in behind me a while later.
I knew that I would never deserve Bella. She was way more then I ever deserved.
All I could give her was my love, and hope that it was enough for her.
BPOV
Alot of girls who have boyfriends would be thrilled to be sharing an apartment with them, of course it sounds like a fabulous thing, but living with a boy isn't as fun as one may think it is. Yes, I am able to just kiss him whenever I want, but when he isn't well, then I am dealing with a sensitive person that sleeps and eats.
My wrist was already perfect and healed up, and his was basically not broken anymore. His next appointment next week he would be getting the cast off. It would be bruised for about a week or two, but that was normal.
Edward was a little much, but I do love him and would do anything for him. That's why I didn't get pissed when he stopped kissing me to throw up.
I wouldn't take it personally.
My easel that Edward had bought me from Christmas had arrived shortly after our arrival here, and whenever I had a little bit of free time I would go and do a little bit of painting.
I went out in the living room and did a little bit of homework, wanting to get it out of the way so I could turn it in on Wednesday. Before getting into bed with Edward, I went to my closet quietly, not wanting to wake him.
I grabbed a pajama nightgown. It was a royal blue with a long boat neckline, it fell of my shoulders, but that's how it was supposed to be. The fabric fell to my mid thigh with a small slit up the left hip. Edward loved this on me, of course, I've shown him many different arrays of sleep wear. He was particularly interested in the satin nightgowns with the lace.
Slowly I slipped into bed, laying behind him with my hands on his shoulders. This semester, my first class started at eleven, and I had more time with Edward in the morning, which we both seemed to like.
Edward must of thought that he had to make up from last night, because I awoke in the most best way in the morning. His hand was slowly running up and down my upper thigh, lips attached to my neck.
" Mmm, good morning." I murmured.
He pulled away from my neck, a mark probably already there. I had only just woken up so who knows how long he has been going at it. The blanket was pushed to the other side of the bed, completely ignored.
I bent my knee up, closing my eyes to relish in the feel of his lips on my skin. When he reached over to the drawer in the end table beside my bed, I stayed still. He held something in his hand, and brought something to my lips. I trusted him, so I opened my mouth.
I was surprised when he slid a mentos in my mouth. Quickly I chewed and swallowed the candy. When he slid his lips over mine, I immediatly got the picture. His touches became more intimate as we kissed slowly.
" Edward..."
His hand slid over the smooth skin of my thigh, rubbing my skin with his beautiful hands. I tilted my head to the side and I leaned up on my elbows, letting my tongue twist with his and explore his mouth. He tasted like peppermint and he must of gotten up to brush his teeth before this because it wasn't the mentos flavor.
Edward's slid his hand that was on my thigh, up my side, softly caressing my waist. My body was completely melted into the mattress from his touch. This was definately a new experience for both of us, besides the fact that we were like this when we had sex. I could still remember that night, it would be forever burned in my mind.
When we pulled away from eachother, we were gasping loudly, but he didn't seem to be done. I couldn't find it in myself to care that he was creating another mark on my neck, the feeling of him sucking on my skin was too pleasurable to stop.
Once he was finished with my neck, he pulled away from me and rolled onto his back. I drug in a few deep breaths, turning my head to look at him.
" Not that I mind. But what was that about?"
Slowly he drew his arm around me, pulling me close to his body " You just looked so beautiful laying there in that...short night gown."
I smiled " Remind me to wear it again soon."
" Or just pull out one of those satin ones."
I sat up just a little bit and eased myself over him, resting my hands on his chest. He lifted my hand and placed a kiss on the inside of my wrist.
" Your beautiful. How did I get so lucky?"
" I was always right there, just took a little bit to figure out that what you wanted was right infront of you."
" Oh, you think I want you?"
" I know you do, love."
I wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my entire body against his. His left hand ran up and down my spine, and his wrist lay beside him. My eyes shut on their own accord, but I stayed awake.
" You have to get up." Edward murmured moments later " It's already ten."
I sighed " I wish I could lay in your arms all day long. So warm."
He chuckled quietly " Your pretty nice to lay with, too. This weekend we can just lay in bed."
" I'd like that very much."
Februrary 6th
Wednesday
" So, how are classes going. Everything not too bad?" I asked as he slipped into the car, pushing his bag onto the backseat.
Since it's been five weeks, Edward started attending classes two days ago on Monday. Things have slowly been getting back to normal and today he was getting his wrist cast off. I was sad to see it go, for I had drew and written things on there. Including an owl holding a dum dum, yeah It was kind of a joke, but we loved it.
" Good, things haven't been too bad. I thank god it's not summer and the sun is hidden behind all of these clouds."
I smiled and drove around New York, reaching the city soon enough. The hospital wasn't far from my apartment, maybe twenty minutes. Edward was holding my hand over the console, gently rubbing his finger across my knuckles.
When we reached the hospital, we sat to wait for Dr. Chadway. He was a really nice doctor, very compassionate about his job like Carlisle is. We sat in the waiting room for about ten minutes before he saw us and waved us towards a room. They had the medical saw for the cast and Edward sat down on the table.
He asked both of us how we were before starting with the cast. I sat next to Edward while Dr. Chadway used the medical saw to take of Edward's cast. Once it was open he slid it off, tossing it aside.
" So, how has your head been doing? I know that you started up your classes again this past Monday."
" Everything seems to be going alright so far. It's not too noisy, but being in brightly lit area's kind of irritates me still. It's easing away slowly everday."
He nodded " Good, that's great. In about two weeks, we will do an x-ray, the crack should be completely healed, if not in two weeks, then most definately three." he assured him, cleaning off his arm with a warm rag.
It was purple and brown, bruises scattered around his wrist, but atleast it wasn't broken anymore.
" Okay, here we go. The bruising will start to fade in the time of a week or so. Give it time and just be careful. You can start going back to work, but as I said, be careful."
We talked with the doctor a little longer before we left. At this point, my head was hurting like a bitch. I hadn't said anything about it, but I thought it would go away, apparently not. When we got home, I went into the bathroom, grabbing one of Edward's pills.
I am not a drug addict, far from it, but he was on the same medication I was when I had the crack in the skull, and it helped with the recent pain I was having so I figured I could take the meds without saying anything and it would eventually fade.
When we were in the accident a few week back, I had hit my head on the interior of the car, and now it was really irritating me. It was normal, light was a little irritating, and the headaches were getting pretty awfull.
When I heard a throat clear beside me, I immediatly froze with the pill bottle in my hand.
" Bella, why are you taking my pain medication?" he asked me gently, as if he thought I was going to get angry.
Shit!
" Uh...Uh, I-I."
" Bella."
" I hit my head during the accident, where it was cracked before and it's been hurting. I'm not an addict or anything. But it's been really bugging me and your on the same medication I was so I was just..."
" Fuck, Bella! Why didn't you say something? You realize that could be serious if you hit the same spot?"
Edward ended up forcing me to go back to the hospital to see Dr. Chadway. They talked to Carlisle, who kept scolding me along with Edward. I really didn't think it was important, who gives a shit if my head hurts. Edward is more important.
After being patronzied from Edward and the doctor they did an x-ray of my skull, to see that it did infact crack again, about an inch away from the spot it had cracked before, but it was about a fourth of an inch long. I was quiet, sitting with my head hung as Edward glared at me the whole time.
They explained to me the importance of this kind of thing, and to always say something especially if it's happened before. I paid attention to what he said half heartedly, hating the fact that I was being scolded.
Being at the hospital once a day is already bad, but being there twice is even worse. I always hated the hospital, couldn't stand it, but I guess this time it was my own fault for not opening my mouth.
We got a prescription for pills and Edward drove to my apartment, still glaring at me.
" Why didn't you tell me?"
" Because your much more important."
" Cut that shit out, Isabella."
" Ooooh, full name."
He rolled his eyes and parked the car on the curb. I got out of the car and ran up the stairs, Edward jogged up behind me and closed the door behind me as I jogged up towards our apartment. It was our apartment now, I couldn't imagine him moving back to his apartment, though I knew he would be soon.
" Don't ever keep something like that from me again." he stated sternly, waving his finger at me.
" Sorry, dad."
" Your such a child."
" And your not?"
Edward reached for his hat and I bolted to the counter to grab it first. I decided to mess with him a little bit, just to play around. He didn't seem to be so playful today. He glared at me.
" Give me the hat."
" Why?"
" Because I want it. Give me the damn hat."
I looked up, faking the in thought look " How about...No."
He reached forward, grabbing for me but I moved. I smiled wickedly at him.
" Your so serious sometimes, let's just have some fun."
" I'm not in the mood."
I put the hat ontop of my head and walked towards the couch, knowing he could grab it from me. He pulled it off and gripped it, walking towards my bedroom with it in his hand. I sat on the couch, flipping the television on to the TLC channel to watch Cake Boss.
Buddy Valastro could calm me down in the mean time as Edward dealt with his anger.
I heard papers rustling, and knew he was doing homework. When we went into the bathroom, I slipped into the bedroom to change my clothing. I put on one of my nightgowns, like the blue one but it was a little softer and a light lavender, the hem a little up higher to make it a little more shorter.
As of right now, I really didn't care that much anymore. I had another crack in my head, I have medicine to get it taken care of and there is nothing more to do now. Edward would get over it eventually, because it really had nothing to do with him. I hated being fussed over, and him treating me like I was a child was stupid. I knew what I was doing.
When I got back on the couch, I heard him approaching the room and felt him staring at me as I laid out on the couch. I was too comfortable to move, but he was probably angry at me about this afternoon anyways.
" Im uh...Sorry for acting like your parent. I just don't like it when you keep a health problem from me, your very important to me."
" I know. I don't like to worry people, and you know that. I hate being fussed over."
" Yeah... Do you mind if I?..."
" Eh, to comfortable."
He laughed and stood infront of the couch, scooting me forward so he could lay behind me. His warm arms wrapped around my waist, pushing my back against his chest. I felt his hand on my thigh, rubbing as he did last week when we were laying in bed.
" What are you buttering me up for?"
" Those marks are starting to fade. I think I need to make new ones."
I turned my head to send a glare his way.
" Are you kidding me! I've been hiding my neck under scarves and turtlenecks. No more!"
" Your seemed to like it at the time."
" That was before I took a shower and saw that you made four on my neck. I knew of two at the time. That took alot of cover-up for it to be hidden, even then it looked like there was bruising."
Edward smiled in satisfaction " That is how people know you are taken. Nobody will ever have you except for me."
My breathing hitched just the slighest " Or so you say. Are you sure that you want me? Forever. What if...someday you change your mind, and find someone else to be with? Someone who you love alot more."
His face went serious, and his jaw tightened " I would never do that to you, or myself. Ever. I can't imagine not being like this with you anymore. I love you, more then anything in this entire universe. You've been my world ever since I was a kid."
I brushed my finger tips over his cheekbone gently " Your, too nice to me."
" Never...Your so beautiful."
I blushed " Stop!"
" What? I can't give you compliments either?"
" You make me blush on purpose."
His arms flexed around me " I do. It's just so adorable."
My cheeks flushed red once again. " Edward!"
I rubbed my leg against his and stared at the television, rubbing my hand idoly against his arm. I grabbed his hand and rested it on my stomach, keeping my eyes on the delicious looking cake on the television. He grabbed my hand that was on his arm and held it against my stomach. I looked at him.
" Something wrong?"
" Not particularly."
He shifted behind me and I moved forward when his knee poked my back.
" Seriously, Edward?"
He hopped off of the couch, and thumped me in the back of my head with his elbow in the process. I gasped quitely from the pain, and I winced away from Edward's touch.
" Fuck, I am so sorry."
" What the hell are you doing? We were just laying there. Do I smell bad?"
" No, no. I just."
I flipped off the television and set the remote down, walking towards the bedroom.
" Whatever, just watch television alone if you want. I'm just going to get some sleep." I said in a calm voice, sitting at the edge of the bed. I rubbed my palms into my eyes.
Edward came into the room, hands in the pocket of his jeans as I pulled the comforter back. I wasn't really upset at him, but I was curious as to why he wanted to get away from me so suddenly. I sat on the sheets and drew the cover over my legs, worming my body under the cool sheets.
" I'm sorry about that. I just, had to..."
" Had to what?"
He shifted " Your leg on my leg, rubbing. Your hand. I-."
Oh...OH!
" Oh, Edward, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to I was just doing that for comfort or whatever."
" I actually wanted to talk to you." he said, sitting on the side of the bed next to me.
" What?"
He kissed my forehead " Look, I know that I've been staying here for a few weeks because of the injury, but I've already gotten back to school, and I don't have my cast anymore. Don't get me wrong, I love being with you more then anything, but I think that I should start going back to live in my apartment. My parents sent money for last months rent because I couldn't work, but this Saturday I am going to be back on my schedule."
" Or you could just move in with me."
" Bella..."
" I was kidding. I know we aren't ready for that step, Edward. Look, do as you wish, but your always welcome here at anytime."
" Then...I guess I am going to head home."
I frowned " Can you stay, just for tonight."
" Yes, of course. I was hoping you'd ask."
He dropped his pants and I helped him get the shirt over his head. I grabbed his wrists and pushed forward, he fell ontop of me, his chest squished against mine. Edward chuckled and I leaned up to kiss him soundly.
" Mm, is this my farewell party?" he asked as I peppered kisses on his jaw.
" Oooh, you want a party."
Edward wrapped his arms around my waist, and I wrapped mine around his neck, holding him as close to me as I could get. We didn't have to be kissing to just have a great time, just holding eachother was enough. His right hand rubbed over my night gown, up and down my spine soothingly.
I felt his lips touch the top of my head " I love you, Bella."
" I love you, too, Edward."
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