Authors Note- There was a family Birthday today, I'm sure you understand why this is late.

Disclaimer- S. Meyer owns all things Twilight.

BPOV

I wasn't able to fall asleep for my nap, instead I just hugged my comforter to my chest and let the tears fall. Edward hadn't come into the bedroom, and I hadn't heard him move around much. He didn't want this, and I knew it for a fact.

Edward probably wanted out, but knew that he couldn't because he'd always been there, and at this point there was no choice. He felt stuck and he was scared to tell me because I would get upset. I knew how he worked.

I didn't want this pregnancy any more than he does, but it's here and it's happening so I have to deal with it. There was a small baby in my stomach right now and I had to take care of it. I couldn't stand looking at myself in the mirror if I aborted this baby, killing something that is a part of Edward and I would be horrifying.

My eyes flashed with images of a little Edward with brown eyes. A little crooked smile and the crazy bronze hair, sticking up in many directions on his small head. A small smile came to my face and I moved my left hand to my stomach, sighing.

I used my other hand to wipe the tears that fell, not wanting to get my pillow soaked with my tears.

The hardest part would be telling our parents, I knew that my father would go crazy and tell me to get back to Chicago, and my mother would be beyond herself in anger, telling me that I was so careless. Of course they both would be pissed that we had been having sex.

Esme...Well, I think that she would be the most understanding out of everyone. Esme is such a calm gentle person, and I think Carlisle may be upset, but similar to Esme in a way. Edward's parents are so much more calm and understanding then mine are, which is a reason why I am so glad that I grew up with them.

" Bella, what's wrong?"

I was broken out of my thoughts by Edward's voice. He sat at the side of the bed, brushing my hair away from my face and wiping the tears off my face with a kleenex.

" I don't expect you to stay. You don't want this." I stated quietly.

His face was a mask of shock, " You think I would leave you?"

" At the doctors office you didn't even want to look. I know that this is a terrible time but could you atleast try and talk about it. Your life is not the only one that is about to change. I'm the one having this baby, I'm the one that's going to have to put school on hold to take care of this baby."

" I know that!" he said, his voice raising " I'm not completely oblivious! Right now, I am a little freaked out about everything. I'm nineteen, I still want to be a kid and I want to be able to be carefree. But I can't do that because I am going to be a parent. I am going to have to care for this child and pay for the expenses for my child."

All I heard was the ' I ' in the sentence's he spoke. He was acting like all that was on him now, he didn't get it at all. I wiped the fresh tears and got up from the bed.

" Where are you going?"

" I can't do this right now."

I slammed the bathroom door behind me and leaned against it, sliding to the floor and taking a deep breath. I couldn't talk about it anymore, it was only stressing both of us out further. I heard him knock on the door.

" Bella, open the door."

...

" I don't want to fight with you, love. Bella, I love you and let's just take it day by day and deal with things along the way. I don't want you to be stressing out, it's not good for you or the baby. Please just open the door now, you can't sit in there alone."

...

" Please, Izzy B

I begrudgingly unlocked the door, not wanting to really sit in here forever. At this time, I needed Edward more then I ever have in my entire life. He was always there in the important parts of my life, and I especially couldn't shut him out when it came to our baby.

He sat next to me on the floor, holding me tightly in his arms. I curled up against his side.

" You need to take that nap." he murmured.

" No, it's okay."

" I need one, too."

Edward lifted me up into his arms as if I were a pound. We got into the bedroom and he set me down, kissing my lips softly before laying next to me. Our foreheads were pressed together, hands clasped between us and legs tangled together under the blanket.

For a moment he sat up and kicked his jeans off, throwing his shirt on the floor. I slid out of my jeans and unbuttoned my green top. I threw it along side Edward clothes and laid contently in his arms, placing a kiss on his adams apple.

His hands slid over my arms and his lips pressed under my jaw, tipping my head back gently. I melted into him, my body slack against him as he kissed my neck.

" I would never leave you, Bella. You mean, too, much to me and I am way to crazy about you to let you go." he murmured against my neck.

" I-I-I...I'm gonna be sick."

I meant to say that I loved him, but when I felt my stomach start to twist, I knew that I was about to vomit, and I sure as hell was not going to get sick in here. Quickly I dashed to the bathroom and released the contents of my stomach in the toilet.

" Shit! Can't you give me a break." I whined, wiping my mouth.

Then I realized that I was actually talking to the person inside me. That was odd, but I was it's...mother. I was still digesting the fact that I was carrying a baby, and now I was already calling myself a mother and freaking myself out further.

I brushed my teeth very thoroughly, twice, getting every place in my mouth before rinsing with listerine twice and spatting it out in the sink. I went back into the bedroom and saw Edward laying above the covers, wearing only his black silk boxers.

" Sorry I di-"

" It's fine." I interrupted " I don't expect you to get up every time my stomach decides that it's done holding food."

I hopped on the bed, settling myself on Edward's stomach as he stared up at me.

" Will you still love me if I look like a whale?" I asked quietly.

He chuckled " A whale? I doubt it, but I will always love you."

I leaned down and blew my minty breath over his face.

" I brushed my teeth twice and rinsed with mouth wash. Fresh?"

" Always."

My hair curtained around me, falling around Edward's face as well. He wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling my chest against his. Our lips met, eager and passionate. His hands ran over my smooth, lotioned legs gripping the skin firmly. His tongue massaged mine softly, our lips moving quickly together.

I ran my hands over his sculpted chest, feeling a thin sheet of sweat on his skin. I pulled away from his lips and kissed over his heart. He didn't seem to like that I pulled away because he immediatly started kissing me again.

After a long while of kissing, I was absolutely exhausted.

Edward apparently was able to keep going because after I got off of him, he was on me. I rested my hands on his chest and leaned away from him, burying myself deeper into the mattress.

" I really want to take a nap." I murmured against his eager lips.

" More kissing."

I closed my lips and kissed him chastely before pushing him gently off. He laid against my side and looked down at me, his green eyes sad.

" Don't look at me like that. I am so tired!"

He sighed " You totally owe me."

" Actually, you owe me. I am carrying your spawn." I grumbled, pulling the blanket over myself.

" Spawn? I bet it's going to be like a drunk on stairs, and that doesn't come from me Miss. Graceful."

I slapped his shoulder " Shut up, that was not nice."

He wrapped his arms around me securely and I closed my eyes, dying for the nap that I had wanted earlier.

April 26th

1 Week Later

Ring.

Don't answer

Ring.

Don't answer.

Ri-

" Bella, what a surprise. How are you doing?"

Edward held me against his chest as I held my cellphone to my ear. I took in a deep breath and answered her.

" Okay, I'm doing great mom. How are you?" I asked, stalling.

" Great! We just got back from dinner and Carlisle and Esme are here with us. Is everything okay, Isabella?"

I cleared my throat " Actually, I have some news to tell you. Actually, all of you."

She was quiet for a moment " Would you like me to put you on speaker, make it easier?"

I looked up at Edward and put the phone between us so that he could hear the conversation also.

" Yeah, that's fine." I said.

There was one click before she told me that everyone could hear me. My hands shook slightly and Edward's hand rested on my knee, rubbing softly to keep me calm. His lips pressed against my head and I took a deep breath.

" I found out about a week ago that I'm pregnant."

Not only was I terrified that I was pregnant, but it's a whole other story telling our parents that I am pregnant. It was a very scary moment. I had no idea how they were all going to react to my news. I only hoped that I had someone's support. And if I didn't, I still have Edward.

It was very quiet, so I decided to speak up once again.

" We didn't mean for it to happen, we'd been taking care of it to make sure nothing would happen. A few weeks ago I started getting sick. I went to the doctor, took tests. I'm was already a month along last week when they did the ultrasound."

It was quiet.

" I know that this won't be easy, but we need support right now." Edward stated.

" I'm to young to be a grandma!" I heard my mother screech loudly.

" Is that all you have to say?" I asked, my voice cracking.

Edward held me to his side, smoothing my hair back. I rested my head on his chest, taking a deep breath. They were still didn't say anything to us, all I could hear was the sound of their hushed whispers. We sat, curled up on the couch waiting for them to say something.

" I'm disappointed that you both were irresponsible." Carlisle stated.

" Dad, she was on the pill. Did you think we expected me be the damn point one?"

" Calm down, son."

" I'm going to fly up there, Isabella. We are going to take you home and you can stay with us. Edward can continue with school." My father said gruffly

What the fuck?

" What? You think I am going to leave him here in New York while I deal with this away from him. I have school, other things to take care of. My job!"

" You should of thought of that before you got yourself into this situation!" he bellowed.

" But, dad, I-"

" No, Isabella!" my mother shouted. " No more. This is all of your fault, and you have to deal with your mistakes."

Edward brushed my tears away " Apparently this conversation can't be held calmly. We'll call in a few days after you digest all of this. Nobody has the right to yell to Bella about something that isn't her fault."

I heard protests as he hung up the phone and I covered my face with my hands, crying. It was my fault. My mistake. When my crying turned into sobbing, Edward pulled my hands away from my face, looking at me sternly.

" Bella, you can't do this to yourself. This isn't good for the baby, and it's not good for you. We are in a bad situation right now, and we just need to stay calm. I promise everything will be okay."

" It won't! As they said, it's all my fault. If we had just keep it in our damn pants until marriage then none of this would have been such a big deal. They were right, it's wrong to do anything before marriage, and I-"

His hand clamped over my mouth.

" Bella, we are nineteen, and it is perfectly okay to want eachother like we do, and to fill that need. Shit, happens okay. And it seems to happen to us alot, but regretting everything now is only going to make us feel more shitty. There is a damn baby in your stomach, and there is nothing that we can do about it! So can you stop with the whole sex and marriage thing. It doesn't matter anymore, it stopped mattering the night we first had sex."

I stilled, taking in everything that he was saying, and realizing that Edward was right.

Freaking out about the sex before marriage issue was not even plausible right now. It was already past us and it was okay to want him. He wanted me, too. I felt as if everything were on me, I didn't want a child so young, I'm still a kid. I want to be able to have fun with Edward without worrying that the baby was hungry, or needed a diaper change, or was fussy.

I didn't want to be quiet because our baby was sleeping, I wanted it to be just Edward and I. I wanted to get married, enjoy being newlyweds and go on a long honeymoon where we had absolutely nothing to worry about. To go out to clubs, dance, drink and...get drunk with my boyfriend because I just want to.

I knew that I sounded horrible for saying this as such, but what person in my situation wouldn't miss being so carefree, being a young adult. I've not been living on my own for a year, and I already find myself struggling with what I am going to do with life, when my plan had already been foiled.

" What are we going to do, really, Edward?"

" I don't know. But we will figure it out. Let's just be happy for the good things. Both of us have jobs, stable ones, and school is almost over, also the baby is fine and healthy. Those things, are all that matters. We have to focus on the good and just...look past all of the negatives."

I nodded, knowing that what he was saying was entirely right.

I was now a little over a month along, and now all I had to focus on was school, work, Edward and the baby. It felt weird mentioning the baby, it was a new experience, something to get used to. Eventually we got off of the couch and I made us dinner, trying to stay calm.

As I stirred noddles, I felt Edward's arms wrap around me from behind, his lips gently kissing my neck.

" I'm making dinner." I murmured.

" Skip dinner?"

" No, I'm actually really hungry, so I want some food."

He kissed my cheek and went into the living room, sitting on the couch and flipping the television on. I rolled my eyes.

" Is sitting all you know how to do?"

" I could show you other things, but your too busy making dinner."

I sighed " Well, can you come over here and stir the sauce while I put the chicken in the oven."

" Nah."

" Fine, no dinner for you. Want the phone so you can order a pizza?"

" You don't play fair."

I put the knife down and stared at him " Want to know whats not fair? It's not fair that I have to be spending two hours worth of time throwing up everyday. It's not fair that even know I feel like shit, I have to attend classes. It's also not fair that I have angry parents because of this, and it's not fair that I have to work, study and make damn dinner for my boyfriend and I, while he sits on the couch watching television when his pregnant girlfriend does all the work, when he is the one that got me into this situation!"

Immediatly he stood up and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around me and kissing the top of my head. I kept my arms at my side, still a little miffed at him for not helping me with the dinner.

" I'm sorry, love. Here, let me help okay. Your right, and I didn't mean to upset you."

" Can you put a little bit of garlic and basil in the sauce, it needs more, and a teaspoon of sugar."

" Of course."

The chicken was already grilled with the breading on, I put a little bit of lemon juice on both of the peices before putting them in the oven and letting them cook for ten minutes. Once that was in, I strained the pasta and put half on one plates, half on the other. Edward stirred the sauce until the chicken was finished. I set the chicken over the pasta and Edward poured the sauce over both of the chicken's on each plate.

With a sprinkle of mozzarella, Edward and I settled on the couch with dinner in our lap, and a fork and knife in our hands. I literally scarfed down the food in ten minutes, and still felt hungry. Edward let me have a little bit of his pasta, feeding me small bites of it

" I was thinking that maybe I should quit school and start working full time." Edward said.

I immediatly looked at him, setting my plate on the coffee table.

" Edward, you can't." I started.

" We have a future child to support, and I think it would be best."

I sighed " Can you wait until July to make such a rash decision. I'm only a month along, Edward."

" That doesn't matter."

" Yeah, it does. Let's just get through a month or so, and see where we are then."

" What do you mean? It's not just going to disappear, Bella. This is a baby..."

" Can you just hold off on the school thing for now? Let's just get through some of the summer before we make such decisions."

He nodded and he finished his plate before setting it ontop of mine and wrapping his arms around me, holding me close to his side. I kissed his chest softly, frowning slightly that he was wearing a shirt.

" We're going to have to move in together, you know that, right?"

I sighed " Neither of us have room for a baby."

" We'll find something, a place that's half and half between campus with two bedrooms or something. We can't exactly just squeeze in because then we'll feel crowded, and I don't think either of us would want that."

Suddenly my phone vibrated from the cushion, and it was a call from Alice. I picked it up and held it to my ear.

" Hey, Alice, how's it going?"

" How's it going? How is it going? Bella, I just got a call from your dad, he was asking me if I knew about the pregnancy. What the hell, Bella. You didn't call me and tell me you were pregnant with Edward Cullen's baby?" she screamed into the phone.

I knew Edward could hear her. I stood up, and Edward frowned at me as I walked to my bedroom, taking a seat on the end of the bed and tugging at the ends of my messy, curly hair as I sighed.

" Alice, we only told them today, and I was going to call you. I swear. But after their freak out we just called it a day. We'd just been talking about it before you called."

" I can't believe this. YOUR pregnant, Isabella Swan. I swear your the last person I thought... Are you okay? Hows Edward about all this? The baby?"

" We're both fine, Edward and I, just trying to ajust to the news... I'm a month along already." I said, my hand resting on my stomach as I laid on my back.

" Why didn't you call me right away?"

" Alice, I was scared, and I knew I should have anyways, but I was just freaked out. Afterwards I was just digesting...Look, you can tell Jasper, just don't go blabbing to Emmett and Rose, okay?"

" Of course...Are you okay, Bella."

I sighed " I've always, wanted kids with him, but...I'm terrified, I dont want this at this time. I'll just deal, be strong for Edward."

" It'll be okay...Can I be Aunt Alice?"

" Sure." I said with a laugh

" Okay, I will call you tonight, I've got to get this killer paper done. Love you, Bells, and little baby."

" You, too, Al. Bye."

" Bye!"

I ended the call and rolled over to lay on my side, sighing loudly. Then I heard a throat clearing from the entry way and I looked up and saw Edward, looking very upset. I sat up and looked at him.

"What's wro-"

" Why can't you talk to me about your feelings?"

Shit.

" Uh, I- Um...I was just talking to Alice. Please don't blow this out of proportion." I said, pleading.

" I've always been there for you. Why can't you talk to me?"

I sighed " You don't understand what I'm feeling, Edward."

" And Alice does? Last time I checked she wasn't pregnant." he stated.

" Please, ju-"

" What, because your pregnant now you can't talk to me! I need to know what your feeling, Bella. So that I can talk to you about it, try to make you feel better. I won't let you fester in guilt because of this."

" Can you just calm down?" I asked, sitting up

" Talk to me."

I ran a hand through my hair " I have nothing to say."

He glared at me and I huffed " I don't, Edward!"

" Well, apparently you have things to say to Alice! Just talk to me, dammit!"

" Stop yelling at me like I'm a child! I'm a grown women for gods sake. And I am not talking to you like this. Not when your pissed at the world for getting me pregnant. I'm sorry, Edward. It takes two to tango and if you don't want a part of this...just leave. Now."

" Of course I want to be a part of this. But I can't be unless your willing to talk to me about it. I won't just sit here while you talk to everyone but me about it. You know me better!"

I slumped back into my pillows and felt the tears welling up in my eyes, threatening to fall. He let out a strangled sigh.

" If you cant talk to me then...how can I trust you?"

" I'm sorry." I said, wiping the fallen tears.

" Sorry as in your sorry that you won't ever talk about it?"

" NO! Edward, I love you..."

" You can love someone and not tell them things."

" I'm scared. There I said it. I don't know what to do in my position because...I just am not ready for this, I will try and be strong, but no matter what, I will be scared and unprepared. I wanted us to get engaged, I wanted to enjoy that bliss and then get married to you, go on a honeymoon and just relish in love for a few months. I want to get a job and then settle down to have kids. I wanted that to be the last step before growing old with you and watching our grandchildren run around."

" Bella, did you ever think that maybe I'm just as scared. I know your carrying the baby, but that doesn't mean I'm any less scared. I wanted everything you want befor having kids, I want all of it in the right order, how I was raised. But, love, we have to think about the change of plans now. I know that it wasn't part of the plan, although it's not we still have to work it into our plan."

He sat on the side of the mattress and held me in his arms. His lips pressed to my temple, his fingers running through my hair.

" I love you, and I don't want you to keep everything inside."

" I know. I'm sorry."

" You've always come to me, and this situation is no different. Okay?"

I nodded against his chest and curled up to his side. He laid us down on the bed, rocking me slowly with his hand rubbing up and down my back gently. I sniffed against his shoulder, pressing my body against his tightly, not wanting any space between us.

His lips pressed against my neck, and I shut my eyes, sighing.

For a long while we laid together, silent, and only the sounds of our breathing. An hour later he was asleep, his body molded comfortably to mine. I tried to relax, I tried, but I just couldn't not be rigid.

" Can you not be so stiff." he mumbled.

Apparently he wasn't asleep.

" I'm sorry." I whispered.

He rolled us over, resting me on my back and pressing his stomach against mine, his arms on either side of my face. Edward pressed his lips to my forehead and ran his hand down my waist, trying to get me to relax. I took a deep breath and felt his lips press against mine. His hand slid over my neck to tangle in my hair and I sighed against his mouth.

His hands eased over my shoulders, rubbing gently.

" What's wrong, tell me?" he asked in a whisper.

" I don't know."

Edward rested his forehead on mine " Just talk, beloved..."

" I'm just scared, Edward. That's all."

EPOV

All I wanted was for her to be comfortable, to accept what was going on and be alright about it. My fear was just as hers was, because I wanted alot of things before having kids, I wanted the exact life Bella had put out for herself. School, Job, Engaged, Bliss, Marriage, Honeymoon and then kids at the end.

Of course life never goes as planned as the saying goes, and I will have to take things as they be tossed at me, whether it be a health setback or a surprise pregnancy, and I'll just have to deal with it.

There was no way that this pregnancy was being terminated, I didn't have the heart to actually kill something that was a part of Bella and myself, it would haunt me forever and I knew that it would do the exact same to her in that situation. I wouldn't even be able to sit there and watch the needle pierce her stomach. I shivered at the mere thought of such a tiny baby being killed.

As I held my beloved in my arms, I let her soak my shirt with her salty tears. She was so fucking rigid as if she were scared of me, and it worried me. She was scared, she'd said, that was the problem, I had to make it better.

" I know that your scared, and I understand that you are not ready for this but we just have to get through all of this together. I'll always be here, Bella, and hold you when your crying and calm you down when I do something that pisses you off. Hell, at midnight, you can call me up if you want pickles and icecream. I'll do it all, but I need you to help me, and I know that's hard..."

She kissed the side of my neck and look up at me with tear filled eyes. I sat up and she followed suit, letting me wipe her tears with a kleenex. I gave her a small smile.

" Hey, we get to share the name now!"

" Yeah." she laughed " If it's a boy."

I rested my forehead against hers " Is it weird that I want a little girl that looks just like my Bella."

She blushed " No."

I kissed the tip of her nose " It's going to be fine. I promise. Okay?"

Bella nodded and wrapped her arms around my neck, situating herself in my lap comfortably.

" How'd I get so lucky..."

" I ask myself that everyday."

My hands rubbed up the length of her back and she sighed.

" How about we get some sleep?" I suggested.

" Yeah, I just need to change."

She dug into her drawers and grabbed her clothes, escaping to the bathroom to change. I shed my jeans and tossed my shirt on the floor, sitting back against the headboard. She seemed to be taking awhile, and when I heard gagging I stood and darted to the bathroom.

Her hands were braced on the floor, her body arched over the toilet. Quickly I knelt beside her, holding her hair back from her face. I felt awful for her that she had to deal with not even morning sickness, but sickness throughout the whole entire day.

I rested my forehead on her back, not exactly wanting to look at her dinner. I kissed over her nightgown and a few minutes later she flushed the toilet. I waited for her to brush her teeth, and noticed how tired and run down she looked now. She almost looked like she was sick.

I lifted her tiny body in my arms and carried her to bed. She didn't protest, and let me lay her down in bed. When I laid, she wrapped her arms around my waist and rested her head on my stomach.

I knew that these next few months were going to be difficult.

We'd be fine.

Authors Note- I PROBABLY WILL NOT update next Friday, this is the last complete chapter, and I am sure you understand I need to get things together. If I do update, then I will, but I probably will now.

So here it is. Remember the line; Is everything really as they seem?

Review, let me know what you think.

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