Lanie had worked extremely hard to make everything seem perfect even though it was extremely difficult to get things done on crutches. She had set the table and lit candles on it even though a part of her knew it was a waste.

She had started the dinner she was making and while the chicken finished baking she had decided to grab a bath and change clothes. It took some serious time to get herself undressed and into the tub and she had taken the phone with her deciding to call Kate.

"It is not a date" Lanie argued for the tenth time since calling Kate.

"Come on Lanie. Candles...it's a date" Lanie bit her lip and Kate spoke again.

"Ok...if it's not a date what are you doing right now?"

"uhm...Shaving" Lanie said it a little guiltily.

"uhhu it's a date" Lanie sighed and dropped the razor blade on the side of the tub Kate laughed.

"Good luck and Lanie..."

"Yeah?"

"I packed something for you at the bottom of your suitcase for an emergency like this" The line went dead and Lanie got out of the tub as fast as she possibly could to see what Kate had done.

She stood looking at her suitcase the outfit Kate packed laying on the bed. Black lace underwear with a matching bra and a little red dress that she never had the nerve to wear. It was bright red and fit tight all over ending a little about the middle of her thigh and the top part had short sleeves and was equally tight with a low enough square shaped cut to show off her cleavage. She bit before figuring why not and reaching for the panties.

Esposito downed about his eighth shot in the past 2 hours since entering the bar. At this very moment he hated everything about his life. He may have lost his job today and all because he was in love with a beautiful woman who was now at his apartment and he was to cowardly to tell her how he felt. So tonight the whiskey was warming him instead of her.

He slammed the glass down and decided that it didn't matter. He didn't need to touch her or hold her. He could still go home and she would be there and for now that was enough.

He took a cab because even though he was drunk he still knew he wasn't good enough to drive. He had a slight stagger but he made it up the stairs to his apartment. He didn't drink much so he wasn't the greatest at holding strong liquor.

He opened his door and was surprised at the smell of food and the dimness of his apartment except for the candles that were lit on the table. He went around into the kitchen to see Lanie pouring something in a bowl and she looked amazing. He didn't think he had ever seen anything more beautiful. The dress hugged every curve and showed off her long slender legs. Her hair was up in a clip and her crutches were there but she was mostly standing on her good leg.

"Lanie...What?" She spun around.

"Oh good, I took a chance you'd be home soon and I made dinner for us" She smiled and he weakened.

"Do...you think you should?"

"Why not I'm perfectly fine as long as I don't bend my leg or put weight on it" She turned for a second using her crutches.

They slid. her crutches slid on the floor and she pitched forwards almost landing on the hard tiles on her face but Esposito stepped forward without thinking he grabbed her around the waist. Her crutches clattered to the floor and she fell against his chest instinctively she grabbed onto his back for support and the pain was excruciating.

Maybe if he had taken the pills like he was supposed to it wouldn't hurt so bad. Maybe if he hadn't had quite so much alcahol he would have had the sense to hide the pain and maybe if he wasn't so angry about what happened at work he would have reacted different.

He cursed loudly and leaned her against the counter before turning away and throwing the bread box off of the counter grabbing the pills he threw back two of them and Lanie watched. Once the pain eased and the shaking it caused had resided he looked at her.

"Are you alright?" She looked shocked and he felt stupid almost instantly.

"I'm fine"

"You don't look it" Somehow she crossed the kitchen dragging her bad leg a little she ripped the bottle out of his hand and read the label.

"Esposito this is a powerful pain medicine. Why do you need this?"

"It's nothing" He ground out the words through his teeth and she put a hand on his shoulder he winced and pulled away.

"Esposito? What happened to you?" He sighed.

"I got hurt let's leave it at that" He turned to walk past her angry at so many things and she grabbed his arm.

"WHAT HURTS!" She demanded and his anger boiled over.

"YOU WANT TO KNOW? I'LL SHOW YOU!" He dropped his jacket and ripped on his shirt ripping off the buttons and throwing it behind him and then turned showing her his back . He had a white tank top underneath and he reached to lift it enough to show her. She almost cried.

Even with the white tank top on she could see the injuries. His back had a deep cut right below his left shoulder blade it was about the length of her hand long and below it were a few other scratches and burns none looked too deadly but they looked painful. He dropped the tank top back over the wounds after a few seconds.

"Why didn't you tell me?" She had tears in her eyes when he turned around.

"BECAUSE I DIDN'T WANT YOU TO FEEL GUILTY!"

"I ALREADY DO!"

"YEAH BUT YOU DON'T KNOW!"

"KNOW WHAT?"

"THAT THE BOMB WAS MEANT FOR YOU LANIE!" she backed up and he felt bad the instant he said the words.

"why didn't you tell me?"

"Because I didn't want too" It sounded nastier then he meant it.

She grabbed the nearest thing to her which was a measuring cup and hurled it directly at him. He ducked and it missed him hitting the wall and smashing behind him. She turned and still dragging her leg started for the door. He broke he just couldn't take anymore.

"Lanie" He went after her as she made her way down the hall way.

"Stay away from me" She spat over her shoulder she reached the door and he reached her.

He grabbed her arm and spun her around crushing his lips to hers and cutting off the curses that were about to come out. He shoved her back against the door and kissed her until she stopped fighting him and started kissing him back just as passionate and letting out just as much built up anger as he was.

He knew he was probably being a little too rough but she didn't seem to mind and he couldn't stop not now. Her hands had went to the bottom of the tank top he was wearing and she pulled it up and over his head before throwing it onto the floor. He crushed her tiny body against him his hand found the clip in her hair and he ripped it out letting his hands pull her hair and tip her head back long enough the bite and kiss her neck.

She didn't fight him she let him posses her. She found the buckle on his pants a second before he lifted her into his arms and carried her to the bedroom. His back ached but it was beginning to dull in the wake of his desire to be with her. He practically threw her onto his bed before climbing onto of her and kissing and biting anywhere there was skin exposed.

He fought her dress and she raked her nails up his arms. His hands kept going to her hair that he had wanted to touch for so long pulling it most of the time so he could angle her head where he wanted it. Her good leg locked around his hips and she pulled at his pants.

When she planned dinner for them tonight she didn't believe it would amount to this but she had hoped and she wouldn't be denied now that she was this close to getting what she wanted. He pulled back for a second as the booze and anger started to work it's way out of his system and he tried to stop her.

"Lane...Lanie...Are you sure?" He was as out of breath as she was and she pulled him closer with her leg.

"I'm positive" She bit him right below his collar bone and when she did a monster was unleashed.

He was back pulling at her clothes and biting and kissing her with in two seconds and nothing was going to stop him now. He wasn't sure he could stop even if she asked him too but thankfully she didn't.

Two hours later Lanie was sound asleep beside him and he was laying awake. He could still hardly believe what had happened. He loved her now more than ever and he didn't think it was possible. He smiled as fragments of what happened worked into his head. He would probably be getting evicted in the morning for noise ordinance between her screaming and the bed making awful noises but it was all worth it.

He rolled onto his side and kissed a bare shoulder that was peeking out of the blankets. She was bruising. Bit marks and hand prints were bruising her other wise perfect skin and knowing he had put them there made him even happier. She opened her eyes and smiled at him.

"Hey, go back to sleep baby" He kissed her forehead and she smiled.

"Why are you up?"

"I just want to watch you sleep" She smiled and he loved her even more.

"What are you thinking about?" He asked playing with a strand of hair which was all over the place and she knew would never be brush able with out some detangler.

"All this time I tried every trick to get you to sleep with me and all I had to do was make you mad" She teased and he winced.

"I'm sorry, Did I hurt you?"

"Yes but I liked it"

"It's not exactly how I planned the first time to be. I thought I'd take you out to dinner and try and romance my way into your bed...be all soft and gentle with you. Not slam you against my front door and act like a rapist"

She leaned up and gave him a soft kiss.

"You can't rape the willing" she said and he smiled before she snuggled back into his arms.

"Besides...you can make it up to me" She continued and he smiled kissing the top of her head before they fell asleep.

They ventured out of his bedroom awhile later to find her dinner burnt and after ordering pizza he cleaned up the glass on the floor from his measuring cup. When she came out on her krutches to help wearing only one of his shirts her pulled her down onto the floor with him and continued a repeat of earlier. Still not calm enough to hold back or take things slow. He was glad he had pulled on pajama bottoms however because they were easy for her to remove in the heated rush on his cold kitchen floor.

They slept again on the couch watching a movie and when she woke up he was in the shower she went right in and joined him. It was probably the best and yet shortest shower he ever had in his life. It ended with him carrying her to his bed both of them still soaked from the shower where he was at last able to reign in some control and make good on his promise to be gentle with her. They fell asleep her back against his strong chest which was amazing and his arms wrapped around her. She wore one of his shirts and he pulled on boxers. Neither of them admitting that the clothes they wore were selected for their easy removal.

He thought about telling her how much he loved her. He had plenty of opportunities in the past few hours. Each heated and frantic encounter would have been the perfect time for him to whisper in her ear how much he loved her but he doubted that over the noises she was making she would have heard him and even when he tried he found himself whispering more of the things he wanted to do to her and not once said ' I love you'.

A/N: Ok, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter I hope I didn't get too...what's the word? Smutty I guess. I really don't like writing in depth stuff but I wanted this to be very...I don't know hot I guess and a little bit deeper then most of my other ones. I pray I don't get kicked off the site for breaking rating rules but I think I've read worse in the T rating and it's not any worse then a PG-13 movie. So I hope the readers are happy.