Chapter 4
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I suppose we've time for one more segment. A few more hours the sun will be up. You will need your rest and I will need to feed. I've not decided the arrangements yet I shall let you know when we're done. Another cigarette perhaps? He smiles shaking his head. Relax I do not wish to feed from you if that is your concern. You're not that appealing… He says clearing his throat.
Now on to the truth…
Isabella's hands were unsteady. The way her blood was pumping I feared she'd pass out. So I took precautions first and sit her down upon the bed. She reaches to her temples.
"Edward?" She says looking to me her tone soft, confused.
"Bella sweetheart I need you to calm down."
She shakes her head looking frightful.
"Do not fear me. I wouldn't hurt you. I also will not allow anyone else to cause you harm."
Bella could barely breathe. I knew this was a lot to take in. She just revealed her secret to me and here she was about to learn of my own. Isabella's boyfriend was a ruthless animal but her new "friend" a deadly vampire.
"Shh… lay down Bella."
I didn't want to compel her so I did everything in my power to calm her. I wanted her to know she was safe. I meant what I said. I lie beside her and look her in the eyes giving her time. I also wanted her to see I was telling the truth. That she had nothing to fear that I was patient and willing to give her time to think and breathe. I kept my hands myself but wanted to hold her like a lover would. This desire to protect her to let no more harm come to her… was so heavy.
All these thoughts but I knew one thing for sure. Jacob Black had just died…
"How are you doing that?" She covers her mouth for a moment.
"How did you get me to tell you that?" She goes to rise up again but I gently push her back upon her pillow.
"Please do not do that."
"How'd you move so fast? You were on my bed Edward…"
"I've a few secrets of my own Bella."
She winces as she rolls over looking upon me. I sigh and run a hand along her shoulder.
"Do you need those pills?" I hated the notion of her being on pain medication as I told her my story. But the mere idea of her being in pain drove me mad.
"I'll be ok."
"Are you certain?"
She nods. I clear my throat and lift up the comforter covering her up somewhat. Not just to make her comfortable but to cover her cleavage there was no way I could concentrate.
"Your eyes…" She says softly.
I was trying to think of where to begin. To tell my story is to tell my coven's as well. I knew my master wouldn't be happy about this either. We're not to expose ourselves or give away or secrets. I knew I would take punishment once I was done. It was better me however than for this girl to take anymore abuse from this were (werewolf). If I did not tell her who I was she would continue about this relationship and eventually I knew it would lead to her demise. Bella needed to know I could protect her. That I could defend myself. She also needed to know that once I was done I was going to destroy her boyfriend. I also wouldn't allow her to have a say in this.
"Bella my full name is Edward Mason Cullen. I died when I was 19 years old but I was reborn in 1918. My master Carlisle Cullen saved me from true death. He is a vampire Bella… I watch her face curiously.
I watch her neck as she swallows looking upon me.
"Which makes you…" She says tensely.
"Yes Bella."
She takes in a breath.
"I was dying of the Spanish influenza. My master was a doctor he turned me in order to save me. I've served him ever since."
"Served?"
I smile.
"Yes Bella, in a way it's like how Alice serves Emmett. Only she is his mate aka bride."
Bella rises.
"Easy…"
"Alice serves Emmett?"
Hmmm… I knew she probably wouldn't care for this part.
"Yes he is her Lord and she his bride. She is to obey his wishes."
Bella shakes her head.
"Does she serve this Carlisle as well?"
"Yes but it is different. We all serve Carlisle he is our master. But the women must serve their Lords as well. However that being said Carlisle is above all else. It is he that has the last say in everything we do. Such as an example if Alice wishes to do something and Emmett is ok with it but master is not then Alice is not allowed to. If Alice wishes to do something but Emmett does not see fit if master does however Alice is allowed. Carlisle always has last say. It is rare however for a bride to go above her Lord. The bride is usually always willing to please her Lord so the altercations are few and far between."
"So these brides… They pretty much haven't a say so in anything?!" She says with distaste.
However I cannot suppress my grin upon this issue.
"I tell you I'm a vampire and your focus goes to this?"
"It's a bit of a big deal."
"Hmmm now my dear why would it be a big deal to you?"
She licks her lips and adjusts herself.
"Well… it's not to me but Alice must be miserable."
"Quite the opposite actually, Bella, Alice loves Emmett with all her being she would die for him and he for her."
Bella shakes her head.
"Well yeah I'm sure if he tells her to."
"Bella… to become a bride she must be willing as well. Alice knew of her future."
"I.."
"You what?"
"I just could never do that."
Here we go… this was the stubborn part I mentioned.
"Is that so?"
She nods.
"Even you Edward… How can you stand to follow this Carlisle? To be told what to do for eternity?"
"It's not quite like that. Carlisle yes he can be stern but he's not as bad as most masters. Don't even get me started on the Volturi."
"The who?"
"A different time my dear. You're causing me to get off track as it is. Honestly Bella you don't even seem truly frightened now. You sound more bitter about this whole bride thing than you show concern for your wellbeing of sitting next to me."
I lean into her and whisper.
"What if I was thirsty?" I cock a brow upon her watching her reaction.
"You said you wouldn't hurt me."
"And you trust that I won't?"
She shrugs but Bella makes a face as she looks down where she's hurting.
"I meant what I said." I reassure.
"Not like I could do much about it…" She hints.
I grit my teeth at this. But she was right, if I wanted to have my way with her. Bella couldn't defend herself. I could end her life right here and no one would ever know who did it. I watch as chills develop along her entire body.
"I'm not him. I have control of my actions. I hold myself responsible for the choices I make."
"Unless Carlisle tells you differently." She challenges with a teasing grin.
"I was right you are dark."
She sighs looking down.
"How was he turned?"
"He doesn't quite remember but his master left him for dead. Carlisle had to learn the ways of a vampire on his own. He swore to himself he'd never be so cruel. To turn someone and leave them goes against the laws of a vampire. To do so also defies the Volturi and you could be sentenced to death. Even the harshest of us all agree upon this."
"So the Volturi I take it are rather the master coven of all other's?"
"In a way yes."
"So Carlisle would have to answer to them?"
"Precisely."
"Sounds exhausting."
I grin.
"We rarely ever have to deal with such things. They only get involved when certain rules have been broken. We Cullen's typically don't break the rules…" I clear my throat on this.
"Or ever get caught."
Bella cuts me a glance.
"Did it hurt?"
"What?"
"When Carlisle turned you?"
I sigh on this.
"Yes Bella it's the most excruciating pain ever."
She grimaces.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't it was many years ago."
"So as a coven is it typical to take the last name of the leader?"
"In most cases if that's what the master wishes. Some wished for the name to be passed down. Such as if something ever happened to Carlisle one of us Lords would become in charge."
"That's just so…"
"So?"
"Weird."
She looks to me biting her lip.
"Do you like being a vampire?"
I shrug.
"It has its perks and downfalls to sum it up. I am thankful to my master for a second chance."
"So do you have a bride too?"
I grin.
"No Bella I do not."
She nods.
"Carlisle and Emmett both have their brides. Jasper and I however are bachelors as you humans would put."
She wrinkles her nose at something.
"What?"
"Just how you said that… "you humans.""
"Well with all due respect you are food." I taunt.
A bit of an alarm rises within her.
"Food?"
I nod.
"Yes Bella. We use you to feed."
Her body grows tense.
"Do you kill people?"
"We have… yes."
"So we as in you?"
"Yes Bella I have taken lives."
She grows pale and moves away from the bed.
"Bella…" I say softly and rise as well.
"We do not take lives here. It is our master's rules. He wishes us to live differently to blend in with the public."
"How do you feed then?"
"We compel."
"Compel?" She says weakly.
"Yes sweetheart."
She was growing fearful of me now. Bella took a few steps back her body reacting.
"Bella please stop that…"
"Have…" She starts to say and clears her throat swallowing.
"Have you compelled me Edward?"
I flinch at this and take in a breath.
"Yes Bella I have."
She nods the tears roll down her eyes.
"Bella please sweetheart calm down…"
"What did you do to me?"
I sigh and just spit it out.
"I have fed from you but that was it."
"How many times Edward?!"
I held up two fingers.
She nods again. I take a step forward.
"Don't." She holds up a hand.
"Just stay back."
"Bella…"
"I think you should leave now Edward."
"You're not safe…" I remind.
"Apparently I'm not safe with you either. Now please just go Edward."
Not quite how I wanted it to go. I didn't get to tell her everything yet. But I knew it would be no easy task. I respected her wishes… but for now. By no stretch of the imagination though was she getting rid of me that easily. For now though my mere concern was this child of the moon and I wondered where the fuck he was.
I leap on out of her window and turn back watching her close and lock it. She looks upon me for a moment. I take out my zippo and light my cigarette. Bella closes her curtain. Like that's really going to keep me out, I think to myself as I leave. I did not concern myself with her revealing our secret. I knew she wouldn't.
"Where've you been?"
I shrug and kick back on the couch.
"Isabella's…" Jasper answers for me and he sniffs the air around me.
"Cut it out Jasper."
Emmett grins.
"Oh really?"
"Shut up."
I realized I hadn't even got to tell Bella about Rosalie. She'd never even met her. She also didn't know the history behind the others. There was still so much she needed to know. I just had to prove to her first that I wasn't like this Jake kid.
"So…" I say looking to my brothers and Alice.
"Any of you know about a werewolf like creature living right here in Forks?"
They all cut me this dumbfounded expression.
"That's what I thought."
"What are you talking about?"
"This girl's boyfriend."
"That's a joke right?"
I shrug
"That's rich, not only are you trying to get in the pants of a human girl but she's got a boyfriend at that and he's a were?"
"So you've encountered such things?" I question looking to Emmett.
"No but he has." Emmett says as Carlisle walks in the door.
"Are my ears burning?" Carlisle asks as he puts his coat away.
We all stand as Carlisle enters the room.
"Sit." He demands and we all take our seats.
"Rose…" He calls to the stairs.
Rosalie descends from the staircase with a smile. He smile in returns and wiggles his finger. I thought about Bella and how she found aversion in such things. Rather funny actually. She makes her way over planting a kiss. His arms go about her waist. That's the problem with being a mind reader as well. I try my hardest to ignore my master's thoughts. He wasn't quite in the mood for talking. He wanted fuck his bride. That was all that was going through his mind and the various ways. Though I've not seen Alice or Rosalie nude in reality I already knew all I needed to know through my master's and Emmett's mind. Both very alluring in their own ways… Rosalie was very voluptuous and had some sizable breast. Alice was petite she'd much smaller breast. Unfortunately I also knew what every man in this room looked like as well. I found myself surprised on women's thoughts. Master's bride particularly she was a very sexual vampire. However Jasper had us all beat. Besides blood lust Jasper thought about sex more than each of us. Of course as of late I might have him beat. I couldn't get Bella out of my mind. There were so many things I wanted to do to that girl.
"If there's something that needs to be discussed, make it fast."
Great no pressure…
"Actually master I was wondering if you'd ever encountered something along the lines of a were creature?"
He raises a brow turning to me.
"No why would you ask me such a thing?"
Emmett grins.
"He's got the hots for some human that's dating one."
Carlisle rises.
"Stay away from her."
I rise as well now and look him in the eyes.
"I cannot do that sir."
"You can and you will. I will not discuss this further."
"Master please this beast seeks her harm!"
Carlisle turns to me his eyes dark.
"Then that is her problem. You will stay out of it Edward."
He takes his bride and goes upstairs. I cut Emmett a go to hell glance. I grab my cigarettes and jacket.
"Where are you going?" Emmett questions.
"Out."
"Edward…" He cuts me a warning glance.
I look back towards the stairs. I put a cigarette in my mouth.
"I know what I'm doing."
Jasper shakes his head looking to me.
"Not a word of this!" I look to them both.
This was the second time I'd ever defied my master's orders. Well make that third he didn't know I'd told Bella our secret. All I knew was I wasn't about to let this bastard touch Bella again. I'd stalk the poor girl if I must.
Perhaps it is time for another break? His eyes dark with thirst… He smiles. Even I have needs. The sun will be up eventually as well. Shall we meet again tomorrow? Same time?
"Yes sir that could be arranged."
"I do hope you've nothing planned for quite some time. I assume I will be taking up most of it."
The interviewer nods.
"You should know… I do not take lightly to being screwed if you get my drift. I maybe letting you free but only to succumb our human and vampire needs. Do not make me regret this decision. I had better be able to trust you."
"You can sir."
"Very well do not disappoint me."