Chapter 6

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I didn't feed from her that night. I couldn't I wanted her too bad. Bella only offered to feed me not sex. Now if she had offered that… He grins lighting up another smoke. I certainly wouldn't have turned it down. That was also something I needed to consider however. Bella was a 17 year old virgin. My body might be that of a 19 year old but I'm over a century old. I've been around for quite some time. She deserved some kind of respect considering that. I was sure she wouldn't be too happy if she had ever known just how many women I'd been with.

I went back to my post and continued to keep watch. Once I see she's heading to her truck for school I take my leave. I beat her to the parking lot appearing by Jasper and Emmett's side. They cut me a glance and I shrug. Jasper grabs my arm looking me in the eyes.

"You still haven't fed?"

"I will soon."

"How can you stand it?"

He shakes his head and drops his hold. Bella however turns our way. She looked pissed. Jasper starts to chuckle and walks away. Emmett takes Alice's hand. Bella makes her way over and slaps me across the face. I swore I heard Jasper's laughing get even louder. I gently grab her hand keeping in mind she's human.

"What was that?" I hiss.

"You actually hit a vampire?" I whisper.

"I didn't hit the vampire I hit the man within him!"

"And why?"

"You just left Edward you didn't even give me a chance to say anything!"

"What was there to say?"

She shakes her head looking to the ground.

"Tell me."

She steps to the side placing her hands against Carlisle's car.

"You have to understand something as well Edward." She says softly.

""I'm just as much the villain in this story. I knew Jacob before he became what he is now. He wasn't always that… monster. We grew up together somewhat. When I came to stay with Charlie during the summer he was the only friend I really had, the only one that truly got me. When I moved back I started to get feelings for him but I wasn't sure what to make of it. I'd never looked at him that way before. One day Jacob admits his feelings for me as well. However he had more passion than I had. The first time we kissed I felt somewhat of a spark." She sighs shaking her head. "However the more we hung out I was beginning to realize I enjoyed his time more than his touch. I started to fill guilty about this. I kept trying everything in my power to keep my attraction to him to come up with reasons to keep the relationship. To somehow make it work. I just couldn't bear to break his heart. I knew how he felt about me. I thought the best way was to ask him to slow down a bit. I thought maybe I just needed some space from the make out sessions. He was my first real experience having a boyfriend. But it seemed the more I asked him to give me time the more hands on he became. The more he had to be around. It seemed I couldn't breathe without him there. Towards the end before I knew about what he was. I started to actually become nauseas just from kissing him. He started to become more and more controlling, more jealous and even touchier. That night Edward… Sunday night… the night I went to confront him. The guilt weighed upon me heavier than it ever had. It weighed on me because of how I felt about you. I wasn't even quite sure what it was. I just found myself wanting to be around you more and around him less. I felt like such a bitch. I mean this guy I'd known nearly my entire life. I'd only known you for a short time and already I was more curious about you. I wanted a reason to dump him. I wanted to get in a fight with him just so I could do it! I just never imagined… Edward I'm not so innocent. What I did to Jacob was just as wrong. I hurt him I led him on if anything I only ignited the beast inside. I created the monster I hate so much I was he wish no more." She turns facing the school.

She shoves her hands in her hoodie pockets.

I wasn't sure what to say. Bella had truly blamed herself for what Jacob had become. But I knew that wasn't true. The beast was to awaken with or without her in the picture. There's no running away from something like that. It was his choice on how to control it.

"I've made you late for class."

I shrug looking to the time. It was 10 minutes passed.

"Edward…" She says looking into my eyes.

"Black…" She says with a sigh.

Bella takes my hand leading me to the back of the building. She takes off her jacket and tosses it onto the concrete.

"Don't argue…" She says and lifts her hair away from her neck.

This time I didn't. I couldn't even if I wanted to. I was far too gone in my hunger. I make my way over and clasp my hand over her mouth. She whimpers softly as I delicately pierce my fangs into her neck. However neither of us expected the results. Her whimpers turn into moans. Bella's back started to arch against the wall. I pick her up and her legs go around my waist. I force myself away and look upon her in astonishment. She covers her mouth with the same expression.

"What was that?" She finally manages to say.

I grin.

"I mean is that normal?"

"No it seems to be a bit of a Bella thing."

Her jaw drops.

"I just thought I was feeding you."

"You were." I say with a shrug and light a cigarette to distract myself from the other things on my mind.

"Is that how it was…" She hints.

"Not to that severity but yes you did seem to take a liking to both times."

"What's wrong with me?" She mutters.

I cock a brow at this.

"Well whatever it is I like it."

"Edward!" She scolds but is laughing.

"I like that."

"What feeding?"

"Well that's a given but no… when you laugh Bella. You should do it more often."

She bites her lower lip looking to the ground. I grab her jacket and place it back on her. However I glance to her neck.

"That's the problem… You don't want me to compel you. How are you going to hide that?"

"I'll find a way." She takes out a compact from her purse.

"That's actually like really small Edward. Doesn't even look like a bite."

"That's because I barely pierced through I just did it enough to drink."

"Nothing a band aid can't fix." She places her hair down along her shoulders.

She looks to me and sighs.

"I can't believe I slapped you. I'm sorry Edward I…"

"Yeah about that… I wouldn't make it a habit, going around slapping vampires."
She grins shaking her head. I lean into her ear as I throw down my cigarette.

"Besides you hit like a girl."

"Edward!" She says hitting me in the arm.

"See there you go again. I could snap you like a twig."
"You wouldn't do that."

"And why's that?"

She turns to me with a certain look that's maddening.

"Because you crave me remember?"

Cruel, cruel game but I liked it.

"I do believe you have me at a checkmate there."

"You still taking me out this weekend?" She says as I open the door for her.

I look upon her.

"You still want to do that? You know considering…"

"If anything Edward because of that, I could use some sort of normalcy."

I raise my brows.

"And normalcy to you is dating a vampire?"

"Did I say we were dating?" She taunts.

I grab her and pen her against one of the lockers. I lean into her.

"Tell me Bella just how many of your friends do you wrap your legs around? And how many of them cause you to soak your panties?"

And I leave her at this. What she wasn't aware of… I could smell it. I wasn't lying. I found myself wanting to bathe in it. I'm not even sure how to explain the smell of her arousal all I knew was I was done being her friend. It was time she saw what I had to offer.

Come lunch time things were certainly interesting to say the least. I sat with Jasper, Alice and Emmett. She with her friends however neither of us could quite seem to look away from one another. I wink upon her at one point and she blushes and looks down to the table. I loved that I had that effect on her. At one point Angela leans over and whispers into her ear. Bella looks my way once again and nods. She was telling Bella that she thinks I'm "into her" Angela hadn't a clue just how "into" Bella I was.

"Hey Bella."

Mike says from across the table.

"About yesterday?"

Bella closes her eyes for a moment as if the memory just dawned on her.

"Mike I'm sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that. You just caught me at a bad time."

He leans over.

"Does this mean you'll go?"

She sighs.

"No Mike. It's just really not my thing."

So what is your thing? I found myself wondering.

"Like I said we don't have to go even. I mean we could just go to the movies."

Jessica scoots out from the table at this point. The girl was pissed and had her feelings hurt. Bella covers her face and rubs it as if she's irritated. Once Jessica leaves Bella leans back over.

"Mike you really should ask Jessica."

"But I'm asking you."

"I get that and I'm flattered. But it's not happening." I heard her heart pattern on this.

Bella hated hurting people even low life's like Mike. If only she had an inkling of what kind of guy he really was. I don't think she'd be so apologetic.

"Oh… well." He clears his throat.

Bella nods and rises from the table. She once again empties her tray. The girl needs to fucking eat I found myself thinking as her tray yet again was full, especially if I'm going to feed from her. Her phone rings and she looks to it then looks to me. Her hand shook as she answered it.

"Hello?"

She closes her eyes. I make my way over pretending to dump my tray as well.

"Hey baby. How you doing?"

I shake my head on this. The look on this girl's face, like she'd heard a ghost.

"Bells?"

"Jake?"

"Are you ok baby you sound like something's wrong."

You're fucking kidding me right?

She covers the receiver looking upon me lost as hell. She mouths the words "What the fuck?" To me. Honestly I was just as disoriented.

"What?" She says to him as though in a trance.

"I miss you when can I see you?"

Bella screams into the phone and drops it. She smashes the phone with her foot. I wrap my arms around her and drag her out of the cafeteria. Neither of us says anything. I have her lean against the wall and I look her in the eyes keeping one hand on the wall.

"You can't be around me Edward." She says softly then looks down.

I lift her chin up so she'll look me in the eyes.

"Why the hell would you say something like that?"

"You're safer if you stay away from me."

"You're concerned about my safety?! What about yours Bella?! Huh! Tell me when does Bella Swan start giving a damn about her own life?!"

"He's not going to let go."

"You're not his to have. He doesn't have a choice. He doesn't own you Bella. It is you that decides what you want. This is your life not his."

The bell rings and I take her hand.

"From now on this is my concern. Not yours. I want you to let this go. Jesus Bella allow yourself to be free."
"He's not your responsibility Edward."

"The hell he isn't!"

"Why! Why would you think that?"

"Because you're my responsibility!" I snap and slam my hand against the wall.

She jumps. I sigh shaking my head. That wasn't my intention. I wasn't angry with her well other than the fact I wish she gave a damn about her own wellbeing instead of everyone else's. I drop my hand and step back.

"Bella…" I say softly.

"I'm not going to hurt you. I might lose my temper but would never lay a harmful hand on you."

"Why would you say that I'm your responsibility?"

I half laugh in misery.

"You just don't get it do you? You really don't."

The bell rings and I take her hand.

"Let's go."

At the end of the day I walk Bella to her truck.

"Please go straight home."

She nods. I watch as she drives away. I feel a hand upon my shoulder and turn.

"Get in the car." He demands.
I glance back to the road Bella travels on.

"I will not ask you again Edward."

I sigh and he opens the door as I get in.

"What did I tell you?"

"Carlisle you don't understand."

"I seem to understand that you have a problem with authority! You had specific orders to stay away from this girl! Do you not remember what it is to defy me what the consequences are?!"

"Carlisle!"
"Excuse me?!"

He turns directly towards me.

"Master…" I say behind gritted teeth.

He pulls into the drive and yanks me out of the car. He opens the door to the house and tosses me inside.

"YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND I CANNOT STAY HERE HER LIFE DEPENDS ON IT!" I roar.

His eyes go black. I'm slammed into the wall.

"No you do not understand!"

I shake my head and break the hold he has on me. I start towards the door.

"Edward Mason Cullen I forbid you to leave this house. For your defiance you will starve until I give you permission to feed again! I do not wish to see your face. To the basement!"

Suddenly my body flies back and I'm locked away.

Edward comes to a stand. His hands go about his hips as he looks to the ground. I believe I need a moment. Perhaps it is time we took a break. The interviewer nods but notices the look in his eyes.

"Sir?"

"Do not bother me! GO!"

She swallows back nervously as he points to the door.

"We will continue this in 20 minutes."

Once the interviewer returns, Edward has his feet kicked about the table leaning back in his chair. He finishes his cigarette.

"Sit." She nods and takes her seat.

"It is important that you never argue with me when told to do something. I'm a very temperamental vampire and cannot be accounted for my actions if you wish to go against me."

He clears his throat.

I was furious. This made the very first time I wanted to rip my own master's heart out. All I kept thinking was Bella Swan was going to die now. I wouldn't be able to keep my word about keeping her safe.

Days and nights passed. I paced around that basement like a mad man. Through my masters demands my body would not allow me to leave. I'd no choice but to stay here and wonder if today was the day that Jacob Black got to her. I was so focused on her that I did not think about my starvation. I however did begin to feel weak. I even begin to feel tired. The only true time a vampire does actually sleep is through weakness alone whether be through starvation or great impairment. I lay down looking to the basement ceiling.

I hear the door open and light is shined down upon me.

"Edward?"

I jump up and turn. I already saw it in his mind.

"NO!"

"Edward!" I look towards the stairs smelling her and knew there was a great amount of blood loss.

"Carlisle please!"

He sighs placing a hand on my shoulder.

"Go on…" He nods looking towards the stairs.

I ran out of there and followed her scent to one of the spare bedrooms. There she lay and I turned in grimace. The others stood around her as well looking to me. I saw it all through their minds…

I saw where the three of them took turns keeping watch. I saw where Bella had asked where I was. Jasper had to calm her because she had feared the were's got to me. That Alice had literally stayed the night with her at one point. But I also saw today…

Jasper, Emmett and Alice were about to leave school and Jacob pulls up on his bike.

"Hey Bells baby."

He says after he takes off his helmet. Bella tries to ignore him and walk around the bike. He grabs her arm.

"Come on baby don't be like that. You're not even going to kiss me?"

"What part of we're over don't you get." She hisses.

He leans into her ear.

"We're far from over get on the fucking bike."

"No Jake. I'm going home."

"Get on the bike." He growls.

Emmett sighs and makes his way over.

"She's not going anywhere with you." Emmett takes Bella's forearm and starts to lead her to Carlisle's car.

Jacob gets off his bike and stands before Emmett. He yanks Bella out of his hold.

"Another fucking leach?"

"Easy you do not want to cause a scene here." Emmett warns looking around.

Jacob smiles.

"Get on the bike Bella."

"Bella…"Jasper says offering his hand.

Bella goes to take it and Jacob grabs it and drags her towards the bike.

"Get in the car." Emmett says eyeing the bike.

"What are we going to do?" Alice questions him.

"Just get in the car baby."

Emmett peels out of the parking lot and speeds after the bike. Once Jacob realizes he's being followed he speeds up.

"She's not holding on!" Jasper yells and springs into action already seeing it.

Jacob turns the corner and Bella flies off the bike. Her body slams into the road. Jasper catches her before she bounces again. Jacob slams on the brakes and turns back. The three of them stand before him challenging him to attack. He shakes his head looking to Bella as she's in Jaspers hold. He hits the clutch and takes off leaving her behind.

I see the three of them in through master's eyes as they carry her in, the way they looked upon him apologetic yet unyielding. Jasper gives our master a pleading look as he places Bella into his arms. Alice places a hand upon Carlisle. He sighs but carries Bella into the spare bedroom.

Alice holds Bella as she lies beside her. She nods once she sees me and comes to a stand. The flesh on Bella's arm and shoulder was peeled back and pebbles were imbedded into her flesh. Carlisle began to pluck them out with a pair of tweezers and placed them into a base containing alcohol.

"Hold her Edward. This is going to hurt."

I pull her into my chest and hold her hands down as he pours alcohol over her wound. She screams out. Jasper does his best to influence her. Bella turns towards me.
"Edward?" I nod caressing her cheek.

"What happened to you?"

Carlisle raises his brows looking to me.

"Don't you worry about that right now."

"I thought they got you! I thought…" She bites her lip as he wipes her off.

Carlisle looks upon her.

"They wouldn't tell me anything!" She points to Emmett.

Then she says the one thing she shouldn't.

"You need to feed!" Emmett winces shaking his head.

I hear Carlisle's teeth grind.

He looks upon Bella.

"Feed?" He questions.

I sigh shaking my head.

"Bella…" I say exasperated.

Her eyes widen once she realizes it.

"I thought… Oh my god Edward."

Carlisle clasps his hands around my throat.

"NO!" Bella cries. I motion for her to stay back.

"You exposed us?!"

His grip becomes tighter.

"PLEASE! I'm SORRY!" She stumbles out of the bed and grabs hold of Carlisle's arm.

"Please sir! I'd never reveal anything."

"NO! Carlisle!" I read it in his mind and look to Bella in a panic.

"You can't do this!"

Alice's eyes widen and she yanks Bella back. Carlisle turns seeing this.

"Alice!" Emmett scolds.

She continues to keep Bella behind her. Carlisle slowly approaches.

"To your room now!" Emmett demands Alice and she lowers her head but obeys Emmett's orders.

Bella swallows and backs away from him.

"You will come to me." Bella shakes her head.

"Master don't do this!"

"Stay!" He demands.

Carlisle tilts his head and pushes her against the wall with one hand.

"You will remember nothing about Edward Cullen or any of us. In fact you will fear us. You will go about your life as if he never existed!"

Bella blinks her eyes a few times. She nods.
"Away with you."

She begins to walk out of the house but she pauses.

"You might can make me stay away from Edward. But you cannot make me forget him."

Each of us turn to one another stunned.

"Oh my God." I say completely floored.