Chapter one:

Light's P.O.V.

The Kira case isn't really going anywhere though it's how I planned it to be.

I know I shouldn't but I have fallen for L as we continued working together. I am in the investigation room with the team but L isn't here and there's no sign of Watari either, though we don't always see Watari anyways.

"I wonder if everything's alright." Matsuda says from one of the couches behind me.

I stare at the screen of the computer's on the wall and beside where L or as we call him Ryuzaki usually sits to work. I know I'm not the only one bugged about L's missing presence but it's really bugging me. I'm worried. I glance behind me seeing the others glancing worriedly in the direction of the rooms.

"He'll come down as soon as he's ready. Maybe he needs to finish something on another case. Don't forget he's the world's greatest detective which means the Kira case isn't the only case he has. So let's keep working hard to find Kira." Dad tells us.

I decide to check it out seeing as no one else will. I stand pushing the chair away from me. I head towards where the rooms are pausing at the door way when I hear my dad call my name asking me where I'm going. "I'm going to check for myself." I say plainly then I leave to go look for him feeling the others watch me as I go though none of make a move to follow. I walk up to the door to his room about to knock when I hear voice's on the other side. I press my ear and palms against the door listening in trying to not make a sound that'll let them know I'm there.

"It's still getting stronger!" L's scared and slightly panicked voice says then he says softly. "I'm scared."

Watari's voice tries to comfort him. "Calm down. Don't forget getting upset will only make it worse. It's alright. Calm down."

There's a second pause then L speaks up again.

"No! Don't touch me! I don't want to hurt you." He says sounding just a little more panicked.

There's another second pause only for Watari to speak worriedly this time.

"L I will let the team know they can have the day off so you can take a little time to calm down. Just don't forget that I am here for you. I have since the first day I came to see you to become your guardian and I always will no matter what. Never forget that." He tells L.

There's the sound of footsteps and I quickly dart into the room just across the hall as the door's open.

I watch Watari walk out of the room then down the hall from my hiding spot against the wall by the door of the room I am hiding in. I race to the door of L's room grabbing it before it closes and opening it going into L's room. I stop in my tracks spotting some spots of frost and ice on the walls like it was hit by powerful blasts of it. My eyes then rest on L who has his back turned to me as he stands in the middle of the room at the foot of the bed.

He glances over his shoulder at me and his eyes widen a little. He spins his body so he's completely facing me. "What are you doing in here?" His voice is the same as when I was listening to him talk to Watari. "You should leave. Now." He then turns so his side is facing me and his back is to the bed.

"L I came to see if everything's alright and you're my friend so I'm not leaving you like this." I take a few steps closer to him. "I'm here for you." I try to assure him and I really am really curious about what's going on.

He completely faces me again except for his body still slightly turned to the side. He takes a step back shaking his head and holding his hands to his shoulder that's turned away from me. "No. Don't come any closer. Just go! Please! I don't want to hurt you!"

I pause and blink then I reach towards him. "L. I trust you to not hurt me. Please let me help you." I keep my eyes on his scared ones.

"Don't come closer! I'm not going to risk hurting you!" He throws one hand as if to swipe the air from one side to the other that's level with his stomach.

A small light blue dust comes from his hand as it moves; the dust turns to snow a few inches from where it was released from his hand only for it to solidify to ice as soon as it reaches the floor.

I raise my arms to protect my face when the ice that looks like it was wind swept so the tips are facing me but still quite a bit away from touching me.

All of this happens in about a second.

I lower my arms and I stare in amazement at the ice on the floor then I raise my eyes back to L. I see he looks really panicked at what he's done.

He walks backwards and presses his hands against the wall behind him only for frost to appear coming from where his hands touched it only to spread to look like a powerful blast of thick frost hit the wall. He jumps away from the wall before it can get too bad then he looks to me still panicked only to rush to the wall across from the bed still keeping the ice he created between us separating us. He presses a finger against a finger print scanner looking like he's silently urging it to go faster.

I walk towards him. "L!" I go around the ice heading for him.

He pushes the secret door that opened as soon as the finger print scanner beeped then quickly rushes in the hidden room.

"L! Wait!" I run trying to get there before he closes the door but he closes the door before I get there and my hands land on where the closed hidden door is. "L!" I try to call to him through the door.

L's P.O.V.

I rush to the wall opposite to where the hidden door is located.

The room is white sound proof only on the inside room that has soft comfy walls and floor. It's bare but it's also only big enough for me to be able to walk around just a little comfortably. It has a light on the roof of course and as soon as that door opens it turns on automatically until the door opens once again.

I feel my hands slam against the wall with some frost starting to form but I remove my hands as I turn so my back's against it as I slide down the wall till I'm sitting on the ground with my knees to my chest. I stare at my knees as I try to calm my breath and I let my hands rest on the floor not noticing the frost for a moment but move my arms around my legs so my hands grip the opposite leg as soon as I notice. I can hear Light talking on the other side.

"L. I don't know if you can hear me. But you don't have to hide. I want to help. I trust you and I know you would never hurt me. Please it'll be alright. Just let me help. Please. I think you power is beautiful just like how you're beautiful." His voice goes to a little soft as he tells me that he thinks my power is beautiful and me.

I close my eyes. 'I can't! I don't want to hurt anyone! Please go away where you'll be safe Light! Safe from me.' I let out a soft sob as I start to cry a little. "I may hurt you even though I won't mean to." I let out another sob. "Don't let them in…." I sniffle. "Don't let them see…" I raise my arms to my knees and I lower my forehead to my knees and arms. "Well now he knows!" I sob blocking any outside noise.

Light's P.O.V.

I sigh softly as nothing happens.

"So you know." Watari's voice speaks from the doorway.

I turn my head to look to him. "I just found out but I think it's beautiful." I tell him. "I trust Ryuzaki to not hurt me."

Watari's face looks a little sympathetic along with a little worried and understanding. "At least he wouldn't hurt you on purpose and without regret."