Chapter two:
"I want to help him." I tell Watari.
Watari goes over to the foot of the bed and sits down with me watching with one hand still on the hidden door. He rests his elbows on his knees and looks to where the ground meets the wall. "I understand how you feel, I want to help him and show him his power isn't bad. He calls it his family's curse and it was passed down to him at birth." He starts explaining. "When I found him he was isolated from every single person in an icy room with snow falling in slow motion from the ceiling. It was a little over a week after his sixth birthday that I found him. His parents had died and he had no one to turn to except for himself. I agreed to take him in and I became his guardian. I promised to help him but even my help can only go so far with him. He won't let anyone really help him with his powers. He prefers to be alone to try to regain control his emotions. He began trying to keep as little as possible contact with people and things not wanting to freeze them or hurt them. If he accidently hits someone with his powers they can become frozen inside out. If he accidently hits the heart then those we would go to if he accidently hit's someone won't be able to help that person. Luckily it's never happened so I don't know what happens when it happens. He accidently hit an orphan back when we were at the orphanage I was taking care of him in at the time. He was a teen at the time and the orphan was only about three years old and had just arrived there. He told me who and where to go to when this happened. They healed the orphan and had to take away the memories of his powers. Which is good since he has always been told to not let anyone see or let them know of his powers. He's always had to conceal them to keep them a secret. He started as a detective at the age of seven. He froze the keyboard but he hacked into the police computer from the computer at the orphanage solving a seven year unsolved case. I helped him and we moved away from the orphanage making sure he stays mysterious and no one knows who he is. He became the man you know and he was really hesitant to show himself but he knew if he was going to continue with the team he would have to. He also wanted to recruit you as he had suspicion you're Kira. So he knew he had to take the risk and did what he did. Now for once he's let someone else other than me not only see his powers but also get close to him. He pushes his emotions away as his power scares him especially when it keeps getting stronger and he knows it gets worse when he's upset. He struggles for control over his powers."
"Why are you telling me all of this? Is it because I know of his secret?" I ask him.
He raises his eyes to look to my face in my eyes. "Because there is only so much I can do to help him with his powers. But maybe you can do more than I can." He tells me sounding a little old for the first time since I've known him. His eyes look a little tired from age and it's obvious he's ready to be in retirement but he's fighting it to stay with L.
I blink and nod. "I will do my best." I promise him with determination.
He smiles softly. "Thank you Light. He really can use all the support he can get even if he tries to push people away." He lets me know.
I turn to the hidden door that one of my hands are still resting against. "Please let me help you L." I say even though I still don't know if he can hear me. I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and I reach my free hand into it pulling it out seeing that it's my dad. "I'm sorry Watari I should take this so he doesn't come searching."
He nods. "I understand."
I answer the phone bringing it up to my ear. "Hey dad." I greet him.
"Hey Light. Watari told us L has some important work to finish and said we all have the day off. How about we go home and eat dinner with your mother and sister." Dad tells me.
"Sorry dad. I actually have enough food at my place I need to eat as is. You know me, waste as little as possible." I lie to him though I am such a good liar, I have been for quite a while.
"Alright Light but you're free to join if you change your mind." Dad a little reluctantly agrees obviously wishing I had agreed to join.
"Yeah I will dad. I promise." I assure him.
"See you tomorrow or maybe later son. I love you." He says his good bye.
"Same to you dad. Love you too." I tell him back.
We both hang up then I put my phone in my pocket. I look to Watari. "I'm going to stay here and wait for him to come out. If that's alright." I tell him.
He nods. "I'll bring some stuff for you to do when you get bored and I'll also bring you food to eat." He tells me as he stands. "I'll be back with some stuff to do soon." He leaves the room.
"Thank you." I tell him just before he leaves the room. I press my back against the hidden door and I slide down it till I am sitting on the floor with my back still against it along with my knees bent but not against my chest. "I'll wait no matter how long it takes for you to come out. I only want to help you." I try speaking to him again. I pull out my phone and text Misa to keep killing criminals so Kira doesn't stop then as soon as I get conformation she got my text I put my phone back in my pocket. I don't care what she said after as all I am worried about is L. "It seems you want to have a little time to yourself but that doesn't mean I'm going to walk away. Take your time." I say hoping he can hear my through the secret door.
L's P.O.V.
I sniffle when I run out of tears and raise my head slightly.
"It seems you want to have a little time to yourself but that doesn't mean I'm going to walk away. Take your time." Light says from the other side of the secret door.
I raise my head a little more. 'Why waste your time when you could be doing much more?' I think to myself. 'You can't get close to me; I could accidently freeze you to death without meaning to. Can't you see that?' I whisper to him even though he won't be able to hear me. "Leave me alone before you get hurt. Save yourself from me." I look to the ground.
"Here. This is some things I found that might give you something while you wait." Watari's voice comes from the other side of the secret door. "Is this good?"
"Yes thank you so much. You can just put it there please." Light responds.
There's a pause then Watari speaks up again.
"I have tried all I can to help him and as I told you even my help can only go so far. Thank you for joining in helping with him." He says gratefully sounding a little tired.
"It's no problem. Why don't you take a rest? I'll be fine and I'm not going to leave this spot until I can leave with him." Light's voice sounds kind and a little worried.
I let out a small bit of air then I glance to the side looking at the wall across from me.
"Thank you Light. If you need me." Watari pauses. "Click the W on this computer and it'll instantly connect to me. Don't worry about asking for what you need."
"Thank you Watari but I'm sure I'll be fine. Now go ahead and rest." Light tells Watari.
A second of silence.
"Please let him help. I'm sure he can help you more than I can. Just let him L." Watari then leaves, I can tell by the sound of the closing of the door.
"L I'm right here for you just open up as soon as you're ready to." Light softly says.
I turn to look to the secret door and I repeat Light's words over and over again in my head. I shake my head and clench my fists only to slam them against the walls by me creating a thick layer of ice over the two walls though the ice also sort of branches onto the other walls along with the floor. "I can't let him in. I don't want to hurt anyone which is why I should be alone. One wrong move and I could freeze you inside out." I bring my hands into view and I stare at the palms of my hands. "Then what am I supposed to do?" I mumble.
Lying down on the ground I lay there on my side with one arm under my head as I bring my knees slightly up towards by body. "The cold doesn't bother me anyway." I whisper to no one.
Light's P.O.V.
I glance to the books and magazines Watari brought also seeing a bowl of stew. I smile softly and reach towards it picking it up feeling the warmth coming from the bowl reach my hands as I pick it up. I set it on my lap and begin eating seeing as I'm hungry. 'Watari knew I was hungry without me telling him. I wasn't going to bother him with it but he still gave me food.' I think to myself as I finish eating it then I put the bowl down off to the side by the books and magazines. I glance to the secret door I am leaning against. "I don't know if you can hear me but shutting people out just because of one minor thing like this isn't going to help in anyway. Even if it's just me or even Watari maybe even my father let someone close enough to truly help you. Trust me only good comes from it. Things you keep locked away will come back with nasty revenge. Please L I can't stand seeing you suffer so much all alone. It'll be good for you to let someone in enough to truly help you." I press a hand against the secret door. "Remember it doesn't have to be me if you feel better if it was someone else. But no matter what my arms and hear will always be open to you." I lean the back of my head against the secret door. "Just come out when you're ready and it'll be a start." I look at the ice and frost. "It truly is beautiful you know. Beautiful to go with your beauty." I almost whisper.
He's scared of this? He has the power to control it, I know it. He's a strong person and is a lot stronger than he gives himself credit for.
The ice and frost sparkle when the sunlight streaming through the window hits it. The ice and frost almost look like they're made of crystal. They also make small beams of rainbow on some parts.
I can't believe he doesn't see the beauty of his powers.
As soon as I finish gawking at the ice and frost I turn to the stuff Watari brought me and I scan the titles knowing I may be sitting here for quite a while.
I pick up the chapter book titled 'The GARGOYLE' by 'ANDREW DAVIDSON' and I begin reading it. I do glance to the secret door from time to time but nothing seems to change about it but I still keep looking hopeful. I finish the book and I glance outside seeing the sun start to set.
It's been that long already!? Wow.
I put the book by the bowl and I look back to the secret door again. 'Does he have anything in there to do?' I wonder to myself. "I am still here. I told you I wouldn't walk away." I remind him then I glance to the room a little surprised the ice and frost aren't really melting at all. I look to my watch on my wrist not caring about the time but I start thinking about the death note piece hidden inside the watch. I push it away and lower my hand to my side again. "Do you want to build a snowman? It'll cheer you up to have some fun. It doesn't have to be a snowman." I offer then pause to see if there's an answer.
Nothing.
"We can do what you want to do." I try again after a few minutes silence.
Still nothing.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath through my nose feeling the cool air tickle my nose but I'm not bothered by. I actually love winter and always loved playing in the snow as a kid. "You know winter has always been my favorite season. Now that I know you have these powers it's made me like you even more than I thought possible." I keep my eyes on the secret door. I stay there waiting for about two minutes before speaking again. "I loved playing in the snow as a kid. Didn't you L? Making snowmen and snow forts? The snow glowing so beautifully white and pure on the ground and in the air as it fell down to earth." I close my eyes smiling as I remember those days of playing in the snow even with my little sister. "So peaceful and beautiful." I close my eyes imagining winter which isn't hard when you're in a room that has frost and ice spots on the walls and floor. I open my eyes half way. "I wish you could see how what you did here sparkles like it's made of crystal." I look around the room as the sun continues to set still making the frost and ice sparkle. I realize I should turn on the light soon but I wait till the sun is almost down before getting up to do so only to go back to my spot where I have been sitting and waiting. I pick up a magazine and begin flipping through it feeling my eyes start to feel heavy as I stayed up really late last night studying and being Kira. I yawn softly and fight my tiredness still looking at the magazine. I keep fighting my tiredness until all I see is black suddenly knowing I had fallen asleep I felt like slapping myself for falling asleep.
L's P.O.V.
I open my eyes and I get up. I had fallen asleep for a little bit but I heard every word Light said since I woke up just before he said that he's still there only to ask if I wanted to build a snowman. I put my hands on the ice below me and push myself up to a sitting position staring at the secret door. 'I thought if I stayed here long enough he would go away but even after all this time he still stayed.' I think to myself then I glance around the room seeing that I created ice under me almost like a bed but not in the shape of one. I look back to the door and I get up walking towards it. I stop standing in front of it hesitating. 'Should I really open up to him? Is it really safe for me to do so?' I question myself as I slowly reach for the door only to stop almost touching it and bring my hand back to by my chest clenched loosely in a soft fist. I look down to my hand taking a deep breath. 'I don't have to open up to him if I don't want to. I just can't stay here forever. That much I know. I understand he means well but…. But what if he gets hurt?' I clench my eyes tightly as well as clenching my fist tighter. I ignore the ice forming underneath me. 'If he does it'll be my fault!' I turn away from the door but I don't take a step away from it. I open my eyes and I take a deep breath calming myself. 'You just won't put him in danger like you do for everyone else.' I turn back to the door and I grab the small hole that acts as the door handle for the inside. I pull it open making the light of the small room turn off as I open the door but the light from my bedroom floods into the small room. I feel something hit my shins and I look down seeing Light who had been leaning against the door had fallen back when I opened it.
He jolts awake and looks up to me with a smile coming onto his face. "Hey L. Glad you finally came out of there."
I take a step back as he shifts till he stands up in front of me. I glance around the room seeing that the frost and ice have melted into nothing like it does eventually. I look back to Light then I don't feel ice under my feet making me look down seeing the ice also melted so I look back into the small room seeing the ice has all melted as well.
It's never melted like this before.
"L." A gentle hand rests on my shoulder making me jump and turn to Light.
I gently push his hand off not wanting to accidently freeze him.
"It's ok L." He tries to be reassuring with a gentle face. "Don't be afraid." He comes closer to me and before I can move he wraps his arms around me in a hug.
I tense and hold my breath but all I feel is his warmth. I let out the breath I was holding and I slowly relax seeing as I'm not freezing him. I look to him seeing his head resting his head on my shoulder with his eyes half open along with a smile still on his lips. "Light…." I say softly.
His eyes flicker up to my face. "Yes L?" He raises his head till our faces are at the same level but he is still hugging me.
I don't say anything not sure what I wanted to say so I look away from him.
He doesn't say anything for a moment then his next words make me look back to him. "You're warm and kind. You look out for others before yourself. But you don't have to worry. See look you aren't freezing me so there isn't anything to worry about." He kisses my cheek.
I gasp softly feeling my heart skip a beat. I stare into his eyes. "Light I…." I stop myself from saying anything trying to decide if I really should let him in, I bite my lip.
"No matter how long it takes L I'll wait for you." He tells me a little softly then tries to hold back a yawn making me notice how tired he is.
"You're exhausted." I say softly to him. "You should sleep."
He shakes his head. "I'll be alright."
"Light. You won't be doing anything till you get some sleep." I tell him a little sternly seeing his eyes droop slightly. I bring my hands up to him but I stop and bring my hands away from him. "You can rest here in my room. Just get some sleep." I tell him.
"But L…" He moves one hand towards mine keeping one arm around my waist. His voice slurs a little in tiredness. "You need someone right now and I won't let tiredness get to me before you will be alright."
I try to move my hands back as his hand reaches towards mine but he still puts his hand over my hands. I clench my eyes tightly. 'Hold it in. Don't freeze him, don't freeze him.' I keep repeating in my head as I keep my eyes closed. 'Don't freeze him. Don't freeze him.'
His thumb rubs the back of one of my hands.
I clench my hands a little trying to keep it back but I can feel it fighting to escape.