Chapter four:
L is the first to awaken and sees Lights peacefully sleeping face as the first thing he sees when opening his eyes. He uses his hands to push his upper body up off the bed and watches Light sleep for a moment. He then turns away and gets up standing in his normal standing position. "Please understand I just don't want to hurt you. Have you ever even thought about what might happen if I froze you inside out? How would it even be described to your family? You suddenly get some white in your hair or your hair completely turns white? Only to stay that way forever? Or that you might even become completely frozen inside out because of me?" He shakes his head. "I'm trying to protect you by telling you to not get involved in this. Please. I wish you would understand that but even if I try to tell you then you just keep insisting to help." He stops when he notices he's rambling to himself over something he can solve by not letting Light help. He walks towards the closet and opens it grabbing a new pair of jeans for the day then walks over to a dresser by the door to his bedroom grabbing a new long sleeved white shirt along with a new pair of boxers. He leaves to go to the bathroom to change.
Light wakes up a few moments after L has left groggily, still half asleep, rolling over only to get sun beams hitting his eyes. He scrunches his eyes then opens them half way and looks to the rising sun out the window. He sits up looking to where L was lying only to notice what he should have noticed when he first opened his eyes that morning but he was just waking up at that moment. "L?" He gets out of the bed and begins looking around the room wondering if L went back into the secret room as the door to it is closed. "L?" He knocks where the secret door is. "Are you in there? You don't need to hide it's alright."
"What's what about hiding?" L's voice comes from the door way as he walks in. He had thrown the clothes he had changed out of into a hamper that is slightly hidden by the dresser before speaking though with the clothes he changed into he doesn't look different.
Light turns to the door way and L. "Oh I thought you might have gone back into hiding in the secret room." He says with a hand rubbing the back of his head.
L walks into the room with his usual emotionless mask on. "Ok well you should get ready for the day since you're up now. We have to work to do to catch Kira." He reminds Light as he walks to the night sand opening the drawer searching through it though he doesn't pull anything out only to close the drawer most likely not finding what he was looking for. "The team will be in the main room soon. So don't take too long." He then turns away heading to leave the room.
Light runs over to him and reaches to grab L's arm though L pulls away so Light misses. "L. Don't go. Don't push last night away." He tells the raven. "I know you have those powers but you push away help. Which you should know by now is never is good."
L doesn't let his eyes be seen by Light. "Light you've got the strangest mind sometimes. You were exhausted last night." He continues going towards the door. "You should be getting more sleep." He almost leaves the room before Light rushes over grabbing his arm.
"L! Don't try to act like it was all my imagination!" He says sternly. "I know it wasn't my imagination. I may have been tired but I wasn't that tired. Let me help you instead of keeping it bottled up inside."
L looks to Light with slightly sad eyes. "This isn't something you should or even should want to get involved in." He tells Light simply as he takes his arm out of Lights grasp only to walk away down the hall not looking at Light again as he leaves.
Light sighs softly knowing this will be a hard battle but he knows L can't go on like this and that he needs help with these powers or something bad will become of it. "Oh L. You don't need to keep pushing people away you know. What you are pushing away are people who can help you with what you cannot do alone." He says mostly to himself but hopeful L had stayed out of sight instead of going somewhere. He walks out the door and looks around for L but doesn't see him. He sighs again.
L's P.O.V.
I had heard Light talk about how I'm pushing away people who can help but I'm doing it for their safety. I ran off down the hall a second after he said those words and I turned the corner quickly heading into the main investigating room slowing my pace to a walk in case some of the team showed up early for whatever reason. I begin working but I can't concentrate making me sigh.
"Ryuzaki here's some mourning sweets." He sets a plate with a slice of strawberry cake beside the computer with a bag of panda crackers next to the plate.
"Thank you Watari." I thank him but I don't reach for either one instead staring at them with my thumb resting against my bottom lip.
He looks at me curiously. "Is everything alright?" He asks worried.
I look up to him and nod. "Yeah. I was just thinking." I turn back to the sweets and I take my hand away from my mouth so I can pick up the plate.
He waits for a second but doesn't push it further as I begin eating the cake how I normally do. "Ok. But if something's bugging you just don't forget you don't need to keep it in." He turns and leaves.
I stare at the plate with half lidded eyes while the fork with a piece of the cake on it in my mouth. 'What to do. Now that Light knows my secret what can I do? If I run away it'll cause suspicion among the team only to end up where they too will, with more than a seventy eight percent, find out my secret. If I stay it is ninety percent for certain Light will not give up on trying getting close to me with my powers.' I wish there was an easy answer to this. I quickly revert to my usual self when someone enters the room. I glance back and I see Soichiro walking in.
"Ah good mourning Ryuzaki. Light hasn't arrived yet?" He glances around the room.
"Good morning. As for Light not being here yet I would think he'd come soon so don't worry." I tell him and turn back to the computer.
"Right." He agrees and sets up.
I continue eating my sweets and checking some things on the Kira case out while the team arrives.
Light comes a little after his father, Mogi arrives a little after Light then Ide and Aizawa along with Matsuda arriving last.
I put the plate down beside the computer with the fork on it when I finish the cake and I pick up the bag of panda crackers.
Things continue like normal and Light keeps glancing to me every now and then so sometimes I look to him indifferently watching him until he looks away.
I hold a panda cracker between my thumb and pointer finger crushing it until it cracks. I eat it head first after that and I notice that the bag that I am holding with my other hand by my lap gets a little frost on it. I quickly finish the cracker then I put the bag by the plate making sure to keep the part with the frost facing away from everyone else so no one sees it. I scroll through some stuff on the computer to give me what seems like a logical reason to put the bag down though Light's gaze on me makes me know he's guessing that I started freezing part of the bag. I ignore his gaze and continue working. "It seems Kira's killing patterns have changed."
"He seems to be targeting companies who also appear to be doing evil instead of just criminals. These killings seem to have become more consistent than just the killing of criminals." Light agrees with me.
"Yes." I nod and bring my thumb to my lips while my other hand rests on my knee as to not freeze anything at the moment. "So this Kira may be a third Kira or Kira's power has been transferred to another person." I prepare to stand up. "However there has to be a pattern to these killings other than the fact it's mostly people connected to companies." I stand up in my usual standing position. "Even with this new development Kira will not get away with what he is doing. Doing evil always comes around to bite you in the back." I turn and begin walking away but pause when Light stands and speaks.
"Where are you going Ryuzaki?" He asks trying to be polite.
I feel my powers fighting to get out and I need to get out of here before any of them see. "I am simply going to get something from my room that I believe may help us at this moment. I will be back." I then continue on my way out but Light walks to follow me.
"Do you need help with it? You do have a lot of files which might make what you're looking for a little difficult to find. I could help you find it." He offers.
"Thank you for the offer Light but I will have no trouble finding it." I state simply and I do my best to keep myself from freezing something and from running out of the room.
Matsuda speaks this time. "Are you sure?"
"Yes." I am almost at the door when Matsuda stupidly comes over to follow me while Light hangs back.
"Come on Ryuzaki let us help you find it." He says as he gets closer.
I take deep breaths as silently as I can but I don't think I can hold my powers in much longer. I spin around to face Matsuda and the team as Matsuda gets closer but I accidently….
A blast of ice that looks like it was wind swept so the tips are facing away from me but still quite a bit away from touching anyone is sent to the ground by me. The ice and magic makes everyone freeze in surprise upon seeing it.
I feel my grip on my emotions start to slip as the panic and realization comes to me that I just let everyone here know about my powers. I begin walking backwards and I feel my hands hit the wall by the door making a thick layer of frost appear on the wall like I had blasted the wall with frost. I quickly take my hands away from the wall panicking more as I glance away from the team to look at the wall over my shoulder. I feel my breath quicken and I shut my eyes tightly only to open them to slits. I quickly run out of the room and down the hall not knowing what else to do except to get away from them... from the room.
No one's P.O.V.
The team is frozen in shock surprised about what they just witnessed.
Light isn't at all too surprised and he is about to follow when his father grabs his arm stopping him. He turns to his father. "Dad."
Soichiro glances to the ice and frost then back to Light. "Light I don't think that's a good idea." He tells his son worried for his safety.
Light shakes his head. "Dad he will never hurt any of us and you should know that. It'll be fine but we can't just leave him like this just because there's a new factor to him doesn't mean he is someone different then the person we know."
Soichiro stares into his son's eyes. "How long have you known about this?"
Light glances to where L left wanting to go after him but he can't just walk away from his father like this. He looks back to his dad. "Since yesterday. The true reason we all didn't continue looking for Kira that day was because he was isolating himself when he was struggling to control his powers."
The team all glances to Light then they look back to the ice and frost.
Soichiro lets go of Light. "I see." He says softly.
Watari comes into the room. "His powers is the main reason he keeps himself away from everyone else. He doesn't want to bring harm to anyone with them and it's also the reason for some of his habits you have seen. However even my offer to try to help him with trying to control them only goes so far with him. He keeps himself away from others at all costs when he struggles for control."
Light rushes past Watari as politely as he can to go look for L.
Watari continues to explain to the team. "He also keeps pushing his emotions away because getting upset, scared and such makes it worse."
"Was he born with it or did something happen?" Matsuda asks still a little shocked from what happened.
"He was born with it and calls it his family's curse. His father had the powers before L was born." Watari answers.
The team glance at each other still unsure of what to think of this as they have trouble processing it.
"Does Light currently have any part with this whole thing?" Soichiro asks.
Watari turns to Soichiro. "When Light found out he was alright with his new discovery so I hoped L would open up to him so Light could possibly help him. I wish he would see that pushing people away will not help him with his powers in any way. He worries for others safety so he will do everything he can to make sure that no one will be in danger when he fights for control."
Soichiro looks down thoughtfully.