This is "November," by Azure Ray. What if Bella had taken a different approach to life without Edward? What if she had gasp actually tried to move on?
So I'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
There's no way this pain could last forever...
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
Maybe I'll be able to live life without faking every smile..
I was afraid to be alone
Now I'm scared that's how I'd like to be
I suppose I never feel pressured, or like I'm being judged and always trying to impress...
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many good men that are just so different from Edward.
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
Everyone wants to be loved, no matter who or what they are.
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until I'm taken by these bolts of pain
I'm slowly getting over it... One step at a time.
But I turn them off and tuck them away
'till these rainy days that make them stay
Usually I can get this excruciating pain to stay at bay from my mind...but sometimes...
And then I'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
But you left me, and you no longer are here...
And they echo through my head everyday
And I dont think they'll ever go away
But hopefully they will lessen...
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
No matter how much you wish life could go back to how it was before, it can't.
Oh,
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
I will have the power to get over you.
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks that you're not here
One year since you left me...
And i think I'll want to be alone
So please understand if I dont answer the phone
The memories come back to strong...
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until I can see nothing at all
I just go deep into my thoughts...
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all I know
Only focus on what is visible, what is still here.
Ohh..
But I'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself
I know now, that I WILL get over you...