Chapter 16 Why won't you love me?

Raven's POV

It had been almost a month since that night with Wade, it slowly stopped haunting me. As soon as Vince had heard Wade was fired for sexual misconduct, conviently no-one saw Randy attack him. At last he was out of this company and the hell away from me. Nexus were more shocked than anyone, they really had no idea about Wade's sick intentions. That didn't help in anyway. I was still bunking with Randy, I couldn't sleep without him. Just knowing he was there made me feel safer. Today was the usual day with the slight twist of flying home, finally I would be able to sleep in my own bed. I think that would be the only way I would be able to sleep without Randy, if I was in my own bed, in my own house with my protectors Demon and Ninja. (my husky and rottie dogs)

"Are you alright?" John asked flopping on the comfy plane seat next to me. Jamie had gone home yesterday seeing as how she had an exam today.

"I'm fine and you?"

"Good, nervous"

"About telling my father that you knocked up his little girl"

"Yeah thats one way to put it"

"I suggest you don't say it like that, he will super-kick you in the face"

John laughed "I don't see why because thats sounds so nice the way you put it"

"He will be alot more understanding than you think Cena"

"Hopefully" John looked out the window for a moment "How about tonight, me you and Randy go out drinking"

"I can't drink remember"

"I'm sure your allowed one"

"I'm good but thanks"

John gently put his hand over mine "Come out with us anyway. We don't want you up at that big scary house all by yourself"

"I'll be fine, I have Demon and Ninja with me"

"Raven"

"Johnny-boy, I'll be fine really. You and Randy go out and have fun. I'm gonna do some fixing up then go to bed. Think I'll have an early night"

Randy's POV

"So hows things with Sam and Dave?" John asked handing me a beer. After the flight and I made sure Raven had gotten home alright, we dumped our stuff then instantly went out drinking. He had tried to get Raven to join us but she just wanted to fix her house then go to bed. A few years ago Raven had bought this gothic styled two story house. It was basically a dump but she worked on it whenever she was home and slowly it was becoming beautiful again. She called it her way of relieving stress.

"Good apparently" I shrugged, I hadn't really heard much mainly because I didn't care. As long as he didn't try replace me as Ally's father I didn't really give a fuck about their relationship.

"And how are things with Raven?"

"Same old, same old"

"Surely you guys have talked" John pressed

"Yes we have"

"And are you two together yet or are you still denying it?"

"I love her and she just wants to be friends, can't do much to change that"

"Have you tried telling her that"

"Nah" I rolled my eyes at him "Lets just drop it. From now on no more talk about women. We are here to drink damn-it!"

"Heer heer!"

Raven's POV

At half past two in the morning I was still awake, I couldn't do much except for little things. So I fixed all the cupboards and benchtop in the kitchen. With my schedule it was gonna take forever to finish but still I couldn't leave it half-done. Demon right beside me sleeping soundly. I left Ninja outside, not many people would get very far in my backyard with big rottie guarding it.

Demon let out a low growl, his ears pricking up. Shouting and hollering errupted down the street. I peeked out through the window and saw John and Randy arm in arm drunk as skunks trying to make their way up to my house. Demon barked loudly as they got closer.

"Heel"

Demon sat down obediantly his eyes glued to the front door. John and Randy still made their way up. Luckily most of my neighbours were businessmen, so they were always away.

I threw the door open to them, wanting to get them out of the street.

"Hi Raven!" They both shouted at me happily both of them throwing their arms around my neck. Demon cocked his head looking at the strange scene.

"Demon, out"

He scampered outside with Ninja. At least he got to leave.

"How are you Raven?" John slurred. They smelled like they had drunken an entire brewery each.

"I am fine. Lets get you two to bed"

"I'm not sleeping with him!" They both slurred pointing at each other. I just rolled my eyes. I dumped Randy on the couch.

"You sit there, I'll be back in a moment"

"Yay comfy couch" Randy shut his eyes and settled back on the black softness.

Helping John to the spare bedroom was easier said than done but I did it. I basically had to push John onto the bed.

"You should of come out tonight Raven" John slurred as I took off his shoes and socks. Trying to push away the weird thoughts I took off his belt. He could sleep in the rest.

"I was happier here John"

"Raven I need a favour"

"What?"

"Don't let me fuck it up"

"What?"

"I really like Jamie, don't let me fuck it up. I don't wanna lose her" His eyes were majorly unfocused and I wondered if he would remember this in the morning. "I had a crush on her when she turned 16, I know it was wrong. So wrong but I couldn't help it. But now she is a beautiful young woman" He just kept rambling on and on.

"John I'll make you a deal, if you be quiet and go to sleep right now, I give you my word I won't let you fuck it up with my sister"

"Thank you Raven" He kissed my hand gently "You are a good..." He fell asleep mid-sentence. He couldn't of fallen asleep before kissing my hand?

I was gonna leave Randy where he was but looking at him I couldn't. His frame didn't fit on the couch and he would need a very good sleep to get rid of all that booze. The best could I got him up and helped him to the only spare bed I had left, mine.

"Hey your hair is down" Randy stroked my hair like I was a barbie doll. "I like your hair down"

"Thanks" I uttered getting him through the sliding door. My room was out in the double garage. See I wasn't always alone in this house, it was once full. Me and Izzy wanted to be as far away as humanly possible from each other, she took the basement and I took the garage. I guess I just got used to it. I pushed open the sliding door open.

"Where are we going?"

"I'm putting you into bed"

"Yay!"

"To sleep"

"Will you sleep with me?" Randy asked as he sat down on the bed. I knelt down and took off his shoes. I wasn't sure if I could trust myself to take anymore off.

"No sweetie, I'll be on the couch"

"Why?"

"You need to get some rest" I tossed his shoes by my desk drawer. Grabbing his ankles I swung him into bed. Randy giggled like a child.

"Raven" He grabbed my hand forcing me to sit down beside him. "Why don't you love me?"

Oh boy, this was the same old routine with him. Everytime he got got this pissed he told me he loved me. In the morning he wouldn't mention it, it was like nothing had happened. Each time my heart broke a little bit more. He only seemed to do this when he was drunk so you can forgive my sceptisim. If he was sober I would of believed him.

"I do love you Randy"

"Not the way I love you" He looked at me sadly. "Why do you love everyone else but not me?"

"Randy thats not true and you know it"

"You love John but not me"

"I do love you Randy, the same way I love John" I sighed a little "You go to sleep and get some rest" I got up to leave. I had made it to the door when he stopped me again.

"Raven?"

"Yes"

"I love you" He shut his eyes and within seconds he was asleep.

"I love you too" I whispered sadly knowing in the morning he wouldn't say a word about it.