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Someone with very big, warm hands was gently shaking me.
"What do you want?" I grump, slowly opening my eyes to the harsh white light.
"Hey Bell, it's me, Jake. It's time to get up." He is kneeling on the floor.
"Oh, hey." I say, rubbing my eyes.
When I take my hand away, I gasp. There's a huge purple and blue bruise on my hand. Jake grabs my hand and gives me a look. Charlie must have not told him.
"How about you get ready and we can go hang out. Like old times. We will have tons of fun." He says,
"Sure. I'll go shower real quick and meet you down stairs in like 10 minutes. Feel free to eat my refrigerator." I say laughing and he smiles.
"Sounds good. There's a little girl down stairs, I hope you knew that." He adds.
"Crap, I forgot about her. We can find her parents then go." I say.
"Great." He says then runs down stairs.
I take a shower, letting the warm water wash away my fears and worries. The smell of my shampoo calms me till I'm almost asleep. I throw on some jeans and a turtle neck.
"Great, I got you some food." Jake says as I come down stairs.
"Thanks. Sisten, can you come here a minute." I ask and she comes in.
"Where do you live so we can take you home." I say
"I'll tell you where to turn." She says,
"Great. Jake, we just have to drop her off then we can go." I say and she shrugs.
"I'm just glade to see you." He says and my heart jumps.
"You to." I say smiling.
We get in my truck and drive down a very familiar road. His driveway. The big white house.
Crash, my arm bleeding, Jasper. Piano. Cake. Green eyes. A silver box. All the memories came flooding back after I worked so hard to drive them away. I hardly felt Jacob's warm hand on mine.
"That's the house." Sisten says.
I drive slowly up the drive and feel the hole burst open.
"Oh." I gasp.
I want to turn around and forget. Go back under that curtain of not remembering. I would do anything to make the pain go away. I look up and see him at the window. I wipe my cheek, I'm crying.
"Thanks." I hear Sisten say and slip out.
I drive a couple blocks away then park and start full on sobbing.
"It's ok Bella. It's going to be ok. You are going to be ok. Come here honey." Jake says and I let him pull me close to his warm body and it feels so good, like wrapping up in a warm blanket fresh from the dryer. (It does feel so good!)
I don't know how long we sit there till I finally stop shaking.
"I'm sorry Jake." I mutter and he just rocks me.
"No, it's ok Bella. I would be a little worried if you hadn't broken down. It's good for you, forgetting only makes the pain worse when we finally have to feel it," (Thanks J.K Rowling!)
"Let's go. I'm ok." I say and move to start the car.
I drive to his house. Billy gives Jake a look when we get inside. It's warm and cozy.
"Look's like we are right on time. Bella, you know Leah." He leads me to the table where most of the Pack is.
"Yeah. Nice to see you again." I say and force a smile and Jake groans a little and wraps his arm around my waist, pulling me close.
"Good for you. Jacob, I'm going to go run. If you need me, call Sam." She says, glaring at me.
"What did I do?" I ask when she leaves.
"Nothing. Don't worry about it. Want some food? I think Sue is making lunch." He says, taking his arm off me to walk to the kitchen.
I watch people talk.
"Nice to see you again Bella." I hear Emily say, walking up.
"Yeah. You too." I say smiling for real this time.
"Jake won't stop talking about you." She says.
"Really? Mh." I say.
"Yeah. Glade to see you again Bella." She says then walks over to
"Hey Bella. Nice to see you again." Seth says, smiling.
"You too. What have you guys been doing?" I ask.
"Nothing really. Just hanging out. You?" He asks
"Nope. Not really." I say.
"Lunch time!" Sue yells form the kitchen and 8 huge boys run in there faster than I thought possible.
Jake comes out.
"Hey Bells. Sorry, looks like we have to wait a little bit." He says, looking at the packed kitchen, (Get it? Packed and packed.)
"It's fine. I'm not really hungry. I'm just glade to be here." I say.
"Good." He says, smiling and my heart jumps again.
"I really missed you Bells. I'm really glade you came back." He almost whispers.
"I really missed you too. Glade to be back." I say back, almost laughing.
"You know what? Let's blow this. Come on." He says, pulling me out the door into the cool air.
I inhale really deep. We walk alone the beach and think.
We sit on a ledge, out legs dangling. Jacob looks so happy there.
"Bella, I really missed you. Every day was like I was in line to get burned." He says, I flinch.
"I'm sorry." I whisper, he leans closer.
"I was so scared I was going to lose you Bella because, well, I love you." He says, looking me straight in the eye.
My voice won't work, it doesn't have to. He leans down and gently kisses me. I hear a low growl somewhere down the beach and strangely don't care.
"I'm sorry, you didn't have to worry." I whisper.
"I believe it now. Can I keep you forever Bella?" He asks. (CASPER!)
"Oh Jake." I say.
How am I suppose to tell him,
"What?" He asks.
"I'm so sorry." I say, I suddenly can't look at him.
"What Bella. I'm going out of my mind here!" He asks, his voice frantic (EDWARD!)
"Jacob, please, don't freak out ok?" I ask in a small voice.
"I promise." He says.
"I have Leukemia." I say and wait.
He doesn't say anything.
"Wha-? What? You're dying?" He asks, he sounds like he's choking.
I just nod and lean against him. A hear another growl. Something is very hurt.
"I'm sorry Jake." I whisper.
"How long?" He asks.
"I don't know. I don't care. Please just don't leave me." I almost beg.
"I promise." He say, wrapping his huge arms around me,
Safe, warm and loved, something I haven't been in a while.
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