It was snowing when I wrote this, also I was listening to Eminem, so its a little...Enjoy!
The next morning it's snowing. Great.
"Hey Bella." Charlie says when I walk down stairs.
"Hey Dad. It's snowing." I note.
"It is. If you go, be careful." He says,
"No problem, what you doing today?" I ask, sitting down.
"Just hanging out, what happened to that one girl? I think her name was Sisten." He asks.
"Nothing. I'm going to shower." I say, desperate to change the subject.
"O.k." He says.
I shower and let the stream calm me. I change and look out the window. There's a silver Volvo on the street. No way. I look again and it's there all right. I smile and put my coat on. My Ipod is full of Eminem. (I love him!)
"Where are you going?" Charlie asks.
"Just out. I'll be back soon." I promise and let Eminem fill my mind as I walk out into the swirling white.
I walk to the Volvo but don't let him know I see him. I hear a crack and am suddenly falling to the hard ice. Uh oh.
"Oh." I say, to myself almost as a question.
He doesn't come.
I just sit there on the cold ice for a minute, listening to Eminem's gold voice. Finally I look around and see his silhouette in the car. The hole aches and I hug myself and try not to scream. I bit back tears but I must not be strong enough. They fall, hard and fast. I just sit there, hugging myself, crying.
Finally someone tall walks up.
"Bella, are you o.k?" Jake asks.
I don't move.
"Oh, what happened?" He asks, leaning down to me.
I don't say anything, I'm scared I'll say something wrong.
"Let's get you inside. Did you slip?" I can only nod.
I look, the car is gone.
"Clumsy Bella." He says, to himself more than me, almost smiling.
He carries me inside and Charlie looks up,
"Bella? Jake? What happened?" He asks, standing up.
"She slipped on the ice. I think she will be fine after some hot chocolate and a blanket." He says
I laugh a little and Charlie looks at me.
"Thanks Jake." I say as he sets me on the couch. Just like before. I scream and they run to me.
"It's ok Bella, your o.k." Jake kneels next to me.
I grab his hand and cry for a minute then close my eyes and take a deep breath then my eyes shoot open.
"It's gone." I mutter to myself.
The hole doesn't hurt. I smile.
"I'm sorry Bells." Jake whispers, stroking my face.
"I know. I love you Jake." I whisper, holding his hand tight in mine.
I didn't hear Charlie leave. Jake leans down and gently kisses me. I let him. He pulls away and my heart is beating fast.
"I love you to Bella. I'm sorry your hurt." He whispers.
I move so he can lay behind me and we watch SpongeBob, Tom and Jerry and Scooby Doo. (I love doing that!)
I must have fallen asleep because he gently shakes me.
"Time to wake up Bells." I blink a couple times and smile at him.
"Hey, how was your nap?" He asks.
"Great. I'm sorry Jake." I say.
He smiles. "If you kiss me I'll forgive you." He says.
I do. His lips are warm and soft. With him there are no lines, no stopping when he thinks he wants to kill me.
I pull away and smiles at him.
"There's the Bella smile." He whispers.
"Thanks so much Jake. I'm glade you're here." I says.
"No prob. I have to go. See you later, and Bella?" He asks
"Yeah?" I ask.
"I love you." He says then kisses me again and leaves.
I sigh and get up. It's still snowing. I love snow. It's cold. Just like him. NO. I stop myself and look around. The house doesn't look any different form a couple months ago. Tomorrow is Saturday. I have my chemo appointment.
"You still have cancer Bella. Loving Jake doesn't change much. Grow up. Get over it." I tell myself.
I don't know where Charlie went.
The phone rings and I get up to answer.
"Swans." I say.
"Hello, this is Carlisle Cullen. Bella Swan has a chemo appointment tomorrow." He says, my heart takes off.
"Hello?" He asks.
"Yeah, great. Thank you. Who will be her doctor?" I ask in a shaky voice.
"I will be. Is that a problem?" He asks.
"No. No its fine. Thanks." I say and hang up.
After sinking to the floor the door bell rings. I wonder who that is.
Rose is at the door.
"Hey Bella." She says,
I take a couple deep breathes then invite her in.
"I'm really sorry." She tries.
"No, its fine." my voice is all all wrong.
"No it's not. We almost killed you. He's a idiot." She tells me.
"I thought you were leaving me alone. 'It will be as I never existed' and all that? Why did he drive here if he doesn't want me?" I asked.
"He never came over." She says, frowning.
"So the silver Volvo was a hallucination?" I ask
"He is in so much trouble." She says though her teeth.
"Yeah. Ask him if he wants the stuff he put under my floor back." I say.
"He told us he burned that stuff." She says frowning again.
"Nope. Its up stairs. Along with the radio. If you want it all back you can have it." I say.
"Oh Bella. I'm so sorry." She whispers.
I don't say anything. I stare at my arms. I have more bruises.
"What did you do?" She asks, grabbing my arms.
"Absolutely nothing." I say in a hard voice.
"What happened?" She asks, concern in her eyes.
"Did Carlise tell you?" I ask.
"No, tell me what?" She asks.
"I have cancer. He made it sound like I have about a year or two to live." I say dully.
She doesn't move. She doesn't even breathe. She just looks at me.
"He said he got a cancer patient that didn't have any family. That he would be pending tons of time with her because she was going to die. Oh." She says, adding tow and two together in her head.
"You can't tell him. Please Rose. Don't tell him." I plead.
"I promise. Can I help you?" She asks.
I shake my head.
"Can I be your friend?" She asks.
I think a minute.
"Yeah, I would like that." I say finally.
"I really am sorry Bella. For everything. Before I didn't understand why Edward loved you so much." She says.
I flinch at his name. Get over it. Move on. You are brave. The voice in my head whispered.
"I know." I tell it.
"I have to go." She says.
"Please don't tell him or Alice or anyone please." I almost beg.
"I won't, see you later." She says then is gone.
"Hey Bella, what do you want for dinner?" Charlie asks.
"Anything." I say dully.
"Sounds good." He says then goes to order pizza.
I'm not sure anything sounds good right now.
How is it? It's gonna b a sad story. I have a question. My friend said I should write a story about Bella having anorexia or make one up. What do yall say?