Chapter 27 Death is coming...with any luck

Raven's POV

It's back The thought popped into my mind as soon as I woke up that morning. It lingered in the back of my mind as I looked around the bedroom. The curtains were still pulled keeping me in the darkness. Its not going away I tried to push it away and move on but I was finding it hard, lately I was finding it hard to get out of bed. The only reason I had gotten out of bed was Randy but even that wasn't working lately. I coughed slightly making Randy move out of sleep.

"Morning" Randy muttered pulling on clothes. We were going back to work today, for once I didn't want to go I just wanted to stay in bed.

"Morning" I put a fake smile on my face, after knowing him for so long it was harder to fool him. Either he was slipping or I was better than I thought because he didn't seem to notice.

"C'mon on lazy bones, we gotta go" Randy teased pushing me slightly.

"Alright, I'm getting up" I grumbled Can't I just stay in bed?

"Are you alright?" Randy looked at me concerned.

"Yeah just the usual itchy arm and the prospect of having to deal with the Nexus. Ah whenever things went wrong you could always blame the Nexus.

Randy laughed "Well you could always hit one of them with your cast"

"Don't tempt me"

All the way to work that feeling pulled at me, I hated this. I wanted to stay in bed snuggled under the blankets, doing nothing. That wasn't like me, I loved my job and getting out there despite the fact that I had schizophrenia, as long as I had Randy or John, I was fine. Not today, even having them around wasn't enough and slowly I found myself suffocating.

"Are you sure your alright?" Randy asked again as we made it into the building, for the first time in ten years this was the last place I wanted to be.

"Yeah, just tired" I gave him a smile, my heart breaking that I was lying to him. I just couldn't tell him because for once I had no answers.

Randy gave me that look that suggested he didn't believe me, "Are you sure? If there's something wrong you can tell me"

"Nothing is wrong!" I found myself shouting "Just leave me alone!" I stalked down the corrider away from him. I don't know what the fuck was wrong with me, whatever it was it just wouldn't leave me alone.

Randy's POV

I just watched her go wondering what the hell it was that I did wrong. I was gonna go after her but that would of been the wrong thing to do, Raven could be very violent and as small as she was SAS training gave her the ability to rip an arm off and beat you with it. Instead I went to find John, in the past I found that she had talked to him alot about her past and what was going on with her. He was the first one (out of us two) to know about her mental illness' and to know that Shawn wasn't her father. It had always made me jealous now I was hoping it was one of those days. I walked into his locker room without knocking, luckily he was just reading a magzine. The last time I did that he had some chick on her knees, not something I wanted to see.

"Hey Cena, has Raven talked to you lately?"

He raised an eyebrow before putting his magazine down "Why?"

"She's acting funny"

"Ha-ha funny or Rita Rudner funny?"

I rolled my eyes at his lame joke "I'm serious John" I told him what had just happened between us.

John shook his head "I have no idea, she ain't said nothing to me"

"I have the feeling she's hiding something big from me" I sighed, I was more than worried about her. Raven hadn't exactly had the easiest life, she had been through some really tough shit but I was afraid this was something that she wouldn't bounce back from. I wanted to be there for her and help her but for some reason it looked as though she wasn't gonna let me in.

Raven's POV

I just kept walking down the hall my sudden anger swept away from me. I didn't mean to snap at him, I just needed to get away from him, away from everything really. Guilt and that feeling took over my system, he was only trying to help and I had yelled at him. Yes I was the bad guy and I knew it. Someone slap me. Up ahead the Nexus were making their way toward me, their new leader CM Punk right in front. He was a bigger douche than Wade, the only difference being he didn't have a british accent.

"Hi Raven, killed off anymore brain cells lately?" Punk asked as his little group surrounded me. For once I didn't care, I found myself thinking that if they started fighting I wasn't gonna fight back. I just stopped caring. I couldn't even respond, I just couldn't do it.

"Cat got your tongue" Justin sneered at me. My stomach started to rumble and pure pain flooded my lungs and breathing became the hardest thing to do. Hotness flew up my throat and before I could clamp my hand to my mouth I threw up, only it wasn't bile it was blood. Oh that ain't good.

Nexus flew back as more blood flew from my mouth and I fell to the floor choking on my own blood. Instead of wanting help I hoped they left me there to die. Sadly they didn't, they flew into action and I have to say this was the first time I wished Wade Barrett were here, he would of left me. Now Justin was barking out orders and they were actually listening.

"Otunga, tell Vince his womans champ is in the hospital. Slater, Harris go and find Orton and Cena. Michael ring Shawn and tell him Raven's in the hospital, Punk help me get her up" Justin grabbed my left arm as Punk grabbed my right. Hoisting me up like I was fallen soldier they began to get me out the double doors.

"No...just leave" I uttered as more blood piled down my chin.

"We are not leaving you to die"

"Please" I begged hoping that they would just drop me. They didn't. "Just let me die"

I didn't hear anything beyond that because the dark feeling inside me had finally won and I fell into the abyss. I prayed I was dead.