A couple days later I get worse but Jacob brings me up. Edward understands he messed up big time and that I'm hooked on Jacob, my Jacob.
"I love you." I tell him across the Cullens living room.
"Aw Bell. I love you too. There's my smile." He grins at the smile and the giggle.
My days are fairly boring. Chemo every other day. Puking in between, making out with Jake after.
Edward watches us with fascination.
Jacob won't stop smiling. I nod at him and twirl around, feeling the air swoosh around me on the wood floor. The world spins.
"Oh wow." I mutter. (SKINS! CASSIE!)
"Don't fall." Jacob smiles.
I shoot him a grin and keep spinning, slipping and landing on what I thought was ground but two big warm arms.
"Nice." I whisper, reaching my neck up to kiss him. He chuckles and helps me up.
"Be careful." He asks.
"I try." He rolls his eyes and sits back on the couch.
I dance around some more then grab a drink.
"Man, Bella!" Jacob says in a low voice.
"Bella what?" I ask, plopping down next to him.
"You are very sexy." He rubs his chin, I laugh
Carlise comes in looking very happy.
"Bella, I think I have good news." He looked thoughtful
Jacob pulls me to his lap. He smells so good. I could sit here all day.
"We are looking at years." It takes me a minute to understand his words.
"Like a cure?" Jake asks
"Yes, kind of." He says some other things but I don't hear any of it.
I won't leave Charlie, Jacob.
Suddenly Jacobs lips are on mine and I let his heat burn me to the core. Someone upstairs screams.
"Rose." I mutter.
'This is great Bells." Jake gives my hand a squeeze.
I laugh and smile at him. "I know it is Jake, does my dad know?" I ask
"You can call him. I think your dad called, Jacob." Carlise won't look at Edward,
"Wonderful. All I have to do is call Charlie, tell Sisten and not die." I add in a sour tone,
"Come on Bella. Don't be like that. Charlie will be thrilled, Sisten will be happy and how many times have you not died? You got this in the bag. If you can run away form some crazy vamps, this will be a piece of cake." Jake had to bring that up.
"Thanks Jake I needed to remember that." I glare at him.
He wraps his arms around my stomach, resting his head on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry Bells. I know how strong you are. I know you can do this. You survived the last 3 months." He notes.
I giggle. "Me nothing, all you Jake and your friends. Who knew wolves where so much fun." He laughs too.
"Come on Bella. Trust me." He whispers in my ear and I smile and nod, letting him kiss my hair, my ear, my cheek.
I call Charlie and he blows a gasket.
"This is wonderful Bella. I'll take to Carlise about the arrangements. Just work on getting better. I love you." He sounds like hes smiling.
"Sure Dad, love you too. SO much." I hand the phone to Carlise and look around the room.
Rose and Alice are gone on their trip, I don't see Esme. Upstairs Jasper is reading,
"Hey Bella. How are you?" He looks up form his book.
"Don't you already know?" I ask smiling.
"Yeah well. What can I do for you?" He asks smiling
"I just wanted to ask you, when you saw all those new borns running at you, where you scared?" I have been meaning to ask him for a while.
"I guess I was because I didn't know if they would bring me down and that made me work harder. Why do you ask?" He notices me running my fingers over the bite that James gave me.
"Because I'm scared." I haven't understood this but now I know.
"Of what?"
"Remembering. He broke me and I'm scared to put myself together again."
He doesn't say anything for a minute then sits up, leaning his elbows on his knees.
"Bella, I know you are hurt, what he did was horrible but you don't need to be scared. I know how strong you are. Like Jacob said. You are strong, stronger than Edward." He smiles and I nod,
He stands and holds his arms out, I hug him.
"Thanks Jasper." I mutter into his sweater.
"Anytime Bella." He smiles at me
"Sorry if I interrupted you. See you later." I wave a little on the way out and hear him chuckle from down the hall.
I pass Emmett and Roses room. Emmett grins as I walk to the door jam.
"Hey Superman." He smiles at my name
"Hey. I heard you talking to Jazz."
"Yeah. Did you know Emmett, I always thought you were the strongest person on earth."
He laughs, "Thank you Bella. What you doing?"
"Nothing, walking around. Jake went out with Leah and Sam," I shrug.
"Fun. I was going to go fill water balloons with whip cream and dump them on Tanya and Eddie."
"Awesome. I'm going to go outside. I'll listen to the curses and yelling." I smile and he nods.
"Captain Emmett at your service." He salutes.
"Maybe Jasper would like to help. He was in the army." I suggest.
"Great idea. See you Bella." He runs to Jaspers room
I smile and move on to Edwards room. Same black couch, cold carpet, millions of CDs. There are pictures on the walls, thats new. One of his wedding day. A couple graduations. One stops me cold. Us at prom. I can't believe he kept it. I sit on the couch and remember.
Dancing.
'Say it Bella' in the forest, 'Vampire.'
'So the lion fell in love with the lamb.'
I scream and throw the picture at the wall where it shatters.
"What was that?" Someone down stairs asks.
"I don't know." Esme is home.
I don't care, grabbing more pictures off the walls, smashing them all. When almost all of the frames are broken I stand there, breathing hard. I laugh, full of bitterness.
"Oh I'm so sorry Eddy. I didn't mean to break what you loved. It's just what you did." I spit at his pictures, a pile of wood, glass and memories on that dang gold carpet. I'm gone. I'm done with everything, screw him.
"Screw him." I tell the pictures.
Suddenly I kick his door down I didn't know I closed. After kicking it half, throwing it at his glass wall. It shatters, leaving a hole in the wall.
"What the heck was all that. It sounds like someone is breaking in." Tanya sounds worried downstairs. Good.
I laugh again, walking to my room like its nothing, putting on some jeans, a v neck and wedges. Eyeliner, mascara, eye shadow, tons of lip gloss. I feel so good, lighter.
I walk down stairs. The boys are gone. Tanya and Esme at in the kitchen, Edward is at his piano.
"Hey," I smile at them, grabbing Edwards keys, waving good bye, walking to the garage.
"Hey Bella." Billy smiles when I turn up at his house,
"Is Jacob here?" I ask.
"Yeah, I think he is sleeping." He nods.
I quietly walk to his door, Jake is sprawled on his bed, looking so peaceful. I kiss his forehead and walk back out.
"When he wakes up, have him call me." Billy says he will.
I drive faster than I ever have before back to my house.
"Hey Dad." I yell when I get in
"Hey Bells, good to see you." He gives me a huge hug
"You too. I needed some air, what's new?" He blinks then smiles.
"Nothing, found out my baby girl won't die." He laughs, I laugh with him,.
"You?" He asks
"I trashed Edwards room, stole his car and drove to Jacobs." He laughs again.
"Nice kid. I was going to Sues."
"Have fun, I'm just grabbing somethings then going back to the Cullens." I sit at the table.
"Great. See you later kiddo." He leaves.
I grab my camera, credit card, and phone. On the way out I pass the bathroom mirror and see a flash of gold. I turn and see a bit of arm out my window.
"Silly Edward." I mutter to myself,
The arm doesn't move. I walk to the window, opening it wide open, then slamming it shut.
Back at the Cullens, Emmett bounces on me right when I step inside the door,
"Nice job Bella."
I give him a confused look and Jasper steps up behind him.
"Yeah, I'm proud of you." He smiles
I spin around, Rose is leaning against the island, arms cross, a smile playing on her lips.
"I can't believe you Bella, way to go girl." She full on smiles.
"I have no idea-" I start but Jacob runs in the front door, picking me up, twirling me around, kissing my neck and grinning like a idiot.
"Man Bella, who knew you could fight dirty?" He laughs
"Stop!" I make it louder than I meant to. "What did I do? I have been gone," I demand, suddenly annoyed.
"You trashed Eddies room." Emmett grins, crossing his arms too.
My heart almost stops.
"Yeah, his expression was priceless" Jasper snorts.
"Glade to help." I say sarcastically.
Jacob laughs again. "That's why I love her." He mutters.
Suddenly I'm really tired. I almost fall on the couch,
"Long day." Jake, puts my feet in his lap.
"Too long." I mutter, closing my eyes.
"Sleep Baby Girl." Jacob whispers,
I wake up some time later.
"What am I suppose to do?" Someone sounds annoyed
"She trashed your room. Fight back. Yell at her. Something!" Tanya?
"I can't. Everyone would defend her and I could get kicked out." Edward says.
"So what? We can go to Alaska, be happy together, alone."
"I need to stay." A statement.
"Fine, Mr. Grumpy Gills." She pouts. (finding Nemo!)
I roll over on the couch, Jake is staring at the wall.
"Hey Hot Stuff." I smile at him.
"Hey Bells, glade to see you awake. You wouldn't shut up." He laughs
"What did I say?" Suddenly nervous.
"Just something about 'Jacob, my Jacob.' And 'That loser vamp can go jump in a fire'" He laughs
"Oh, Jake?" I smile
"Yeah?"
"I love you." He rubs my thigh.
"Love you too Bells, so much." He holds my gaze.
"Really? Show me." I challenge, sitting up to straddle him.
He kisses me, fast. I take a couple breaths and kiss him back. His hand goes to the small of my back, pulling me closer, his other, pulling my head to his. My hands knit in his hair. He smells so good, and tastes even better. (lol!)
I break away to look at him. "I thought so." I mutter,
I get off him and start to walk away when he groans.
"Come back Bella." He begs.
"Come get me Jacob." I dare him. He groans again, getting up to chase me around the house.
I slip in the kitchen, running into Tanya, knocking her over. Jake uses this to tickle me till I can't breathe form laughing so hard.
"Will you two stop acting like kids?" She yells
"But we are kids. Unlike the pair of you 100 year old losers. Lighten up." Jacob helps me.
I laugh and she glares. "At least I can kiss him, Edward is the worst kisser in the world." I emphasize world and Jacob cracks up and kisses me to help my point.
"Seriously I don't know what he saw in you. You have no taste. How can you kiss that dog?" Tanya asks.
"How can you kiss that leech?" I smile.
Jacob gives me a high five then gasps, pulling the back of my shirt up. There is a huge bruise.
"Bella, what am I going to do with you?" He asks.
"Love me." I say simply.
He grins at me, salutes Edward who winces, picking me, kissing the breathe out of me and setting me back down.
"I will give you 5 seconds." He growls.
I giggle and take off. The sun is setting, sending a weird light in the house. It hits Edward and I am blinded, falling again.
"Um ow." I mutter.
Jacob runs up. "You ok?" He asks
I kiss him fast and hard, "Yup!" I run away giggling till he catches me by Edward.
"You are not leaving me." He growls low in his chest, grinning at me.
"Why would I? Did I mention I love you?" I ask him.
He laughs, running me upstairs to my room, dropping me on the bed, kissing me and helping me take off my clothes till I'm in a tank and my underwear.
"I love you Isabella Swan!" He rumbles.
"Show me." I say, danger heavy in my voice, kicking my legs around his hips.
He attacks me and I can't get enough.
I love Jacob Black.
Ok so I was really hyper when I wrote this thanks to Selena and Intuition, great song and the power of eye liner. They do 'love each other' but I'm not going to right that part because I'm not going to. This is what you get from any hormonal Teenager. Tell me what you think and if you have any songs that make you wanna shake what your momma gave you. Thanks. :)
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