Lin's Journal
9-21-10
Tuesday
Eight-ish
Today I think I might've had a fateful encounter. It sounds ridiculous trying to explain it, but keep in mind that I'm not right in the head when it comes to crazy stuff like this... anyways, I was walking through the halls in between second and third period, carrying my giant stack of books like always. As I stared at the ground, I noticed something about the girl in front of me- she was wearing fishnets! Not only that, but she was wearing what looked like a dress, and big black boots! It might've just been a skirt and top, but she definitely wore it well. Well, that sure caught my attention. I followed her for a while- not because I'm a stalker (though I sure feel like one when I explain it...) - but because she was oh so conveniently headed in the same direction as my class. I passed the classroom without a second thought and followed her down the next hallway- that's where my locker is, and I was getting pretty high hopes- only to just barely catch her turning into the bathroom. Well, I did catch a glimpse of her face... I swear, she looks like an angel, and she wears glasses, too! She has long red-orange hair- and light-colored, not too bright though- and I swear... if I see her tomorrow, then my lucky buckeye really is charmed. I'll probably "stalk" her for a little while... just to find out what her third period is. Maybe her locker number. But only until I work up the nerve to talk to her! Really, I'm more worried that I'm setting my expectations way too high. What if she's mean? What if she asks why I'm talking to her and I don't have an answer? Ugh, I'm gonna need backup... I might drag Hakuo along... but probably Ana. No, wait, her class is probably too far away... maybe... Ren..?
Augh, I'm over-thinking things again. Maybe I'll never see her again my whole entire life. Maybe I will, but maybe I won't. I need rock-bottom expectations for worst-case scenarios. Low expectations never fail anyone. No expectations would be even better, but I can't help but hope. Best-case scenario, I get a girlfriend... next-best, I get a new friend... after that, I get a new... erm, acquaintance I guess... Worst case, she's totally mean and is just another bitch with a pretty face. Ugh... I'm sighing right now, can you see that, journal? I... don't want her to be just a bitch with a pretty face. She's too pretty for that. I just... I want to be close to her already. Damn you, heart. Damn you, hormones.
DAMN YOU, HIGH SCHOOL.
In other news, I am either cursed or blessed, and it's kind of hard to tell which. Today I almost got run over by a train, then was almost late for school when I almost didn't see another slow train that was barely moving. Ana was with me like always, and she took the hint when I kept running. Running isn't her strong point, but we at least made it in time.
It was Dell's birthday today, too. We had delicious cake after school and blew bubbles. I think I still have a half-empty bottle in my pocket. Oh, and I screwed up my ankle at stage crew yesterday, apparently. Running around hallways with heavy books and pounding up and down stairs all day didn't help. I think I'll just carry around my bag tomorrow. It'll spare my sore wrist some more aches and keep my strength for the next stage crew meeting- which is of course after school tomorrow. At least I'll be kind of prepared this time. Maybe I'll bring gloves so my hands don't get rubbed raw again.
I also have a cold. Unfortunately, this means I sound exactly like Ren 24/7 until I get better. Not that you can hear it or anything, but I know I hate it. I'm going to have to either speak in falsetto or sound really nasally all the time, and I hate using a high voice... Well, I'm tired, and I just realized that it's past ten and that's why I'm yawning and rubbing my eyes so much.
(geez, how did I take two and a half hours writing that?)
Well, I'm starting to really get back into writing this.
This is yesterday's page, but I never have time to upload the day I write something orz...